Embroidered Pillows and Paper Tigers

When Li Shi'an opened the door of the house, he didn't expect Li Qishan to be there, both father and son were taken aback, and then Li Qishan's eyes fell on Xiao Tong who was sleeping on Li Shi'an's chest.

"When I brought Xiaotong back, was there any letter or medical certificate in that bag?" Li Shi'an asked when the father and son were sitting on the sofa together.

Li Qishan seemed to know that such a day would come sooner or later, he said calmly: "The aunt who took care of her found a medical certificate from that bag one day, and the diagnosis was congenital deafness."

If Li Qishan hadn't heard it personally, Li Shi'an couldn't believe that his father would do this. He asked, "Where's the medical certificate?"

Li Qishan said, "It's burned."

Li Shi'an: "So you know that Qu Ya's depression may be caused by many reasons...but you want to say it's because of me and Shen Yan? You even burned Xiaotong's medical certificate, just to make me feel guilty, and put me and Shen Yan on purpose. Shen Yan to separate?"

Li Qishan scratched his hair irritably, and raised his voice uncontrollably: "What do you want me to do? Tell me what I should do? My only son is gay, what do you think I can do?"

Li Shi'an smiled coldly, as if he had just escaped from the great pain for a long time, he said: "Do you know how much your lies have hurt me? Do you know that I have been living in the past two years? Guilt? When you said that Qu Ya couldn't figure it out because of me and Shen Yan, I felt like a murderer. I didn't kill my mother back then, but I killed Shen Yan and Fu Xiaotong's mother!"

Li Qishan was stunned, he knew that Li Shi'an would feel guilty, but he never thought that he would feel so guilty that he became a murderer.

Why did Li Shi'an associate Qu Ya with Liang Jing?And why do you feel that you almost killed Liang Jing?Li Qishan didn't understand, he only knew that Li Shi'an had always been quieter than other children, and knew that the absence of a mother would affect the child, but he never asked Li Shi'an if he thought about her.

He thought that the person who disappeared was just gone, so he didn't have to think about it, look forward to it, let alone hate him, but he didn't expect that he still had a place in his son's heart.

"Why?" He asked in frustration, "Why do you feel guilty about her even though she doesn't have to take care of you for a day?"

"I used to hate her very much," Li Shi'an said with tears in his eyes, "but when Qu Ya died, I realized that I didn't hate her that much. If she hadn't left us, she would have died like Qu Ya. She died, and I hope she lives well. Don't feel guilty or blame yourself, just live."

When a person becomes another's daughter, wife, mother, she is first of all a person.Qu Ya's death made Li Shi'an understand this truth,

"Do you know that Qu Ya has been taking anti-depressants?" Li Shi'an said, "She has always had depression, and she never stopped taking the drugs even when she was pregnant with Xiaotong. Shen Yan kept persuading her to leave Fu Youcheng, But she refused... She regarded staying by Fu Youcheng's side as Shen Yan's contribution, but it made Shen Yan extremely painful. "

Li Qishan was stunned.

Li Shi'an hugged Xiaotong and turned back into the house. That night he had a dream, dreaming that Shen Yan was dancing in the swimming pool, he woke up peacefully from the dream, got up and opened the curtains, but saw nothing, the house was gone No matter the house before, the people who were once within reach can no longer be found.

He felt numb at first, then felt a dull pain in his heart, and cried out.

The next morning, when Li Qishan prepared breakfast, Li Shi'an was stopped when he went downstairs. Li Qishan saw his sad expression and said, "Even if you don't eat it, the child will eat it anyway?"

Li Shi'an glanced at Xiaotong, and sat down at the dining table.

"How much does the surgery cost?" Li Qishan asked suddenly.

Li Shi'an handed a warm steamed bun to Xiaotong's hand and said, "Made in China is cheaper, but imported is more effective and much more expensive."

Li Qishan nodded: "I will pay the money, when will you send it back, child?"

Li Shi'an just took a piece of steamed stuffed bun for himself, when he heard the words, he threw it back on the plate: "Xiaotong, I won't give it to that couple again."

Li Qishan seemed to know that he would hear this sentence from his son, and he said without any disturbance: "It's not easy to find someone who knows the basics again. If you entrust an agency, this child's biological father is still there after all..."

"I mean I want to raise her." Li Shi'an interrupted him.

Li Qishan first showed an unbelievable expression, and then sarcastically said: "What are you raising her? You want me to raise you yourself."

Li Shi'an pushed away the bowl of porridge in front of him and said, "From today onwards, I don't need you to support me."

After speaking, he picked up Xiaotong, slammed the door and left.

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After leaving home, Li Shi'an took Xiaotong to the hospital to get the report, and then followed up with a follow-up visit. The doctor said that the sooner the surgery, the better. After all, rehabilitation in the later stage is also a big trouble, and it will be delayed back to miss the best period for the development of the child's language ability. Li Shi'an said Agreed, and anxiously asked about the approximate cost of imported cochlear implants and rehabilitation, the doctor looked at him covered in famous brands, and said calmly, "Let's prepare 50 first."

Li Shi'an: "..."

Li Shi'an brought Xiaotong to City X, and moved out of the school dormitory that day. He estimated that Li Qishan would cut off his living expenses in a short time, so he didn't dare to rent a place that was too good, so he shared a two-bedroom apartment with others. House of.

To rent a house, to support himself, to support Xiaotong, and to treat Xiaotong's illness, Li Shi'an's spare time in college suddenly became busy. He found a job at a milk tea shop in the university town, before the end of the National Day. Yue Laoxie met.

At first, Lao Xie thought he was just going to a dinner appointment, but when he saw Li Shi'an, he was very frightened: "Where did you abduct the child?"

Li Shi'an: "My own."

Old Xie: "You're a scum, where's the child's mother?"

Li Shi'an: "Don't ask, and I won't tell you if you ask."

Old Xie: "... Isn't that right? Isn't this the child from Shen Yan's family? Isn't it a gift?"

Li Shi'an: "Shut up, she will be my daughter from now on, Li Qianxun, Xiaoqian."

"It's still Qianxun, why don't you call her Li Xunhuan?" Old Xie Lele said authentically, and when he turned around, he received Li Shi'an's slap in the face.

From this day on, Li Shi'an started a life of being a babysitter when he had nothing to do. Lao Xie was studying nursing at the university next door.

Xiaoqian is more than one year old, the age of throwing and rolling on the floor, likes to scratch people's hair and scratch people's skin, Lao Xie is often tossed and heartbroken, although it is hard work, but since bringing this girl, she has inexplicably attracted the attention of many fellow girls.

Although Xiaoqian couldn't speak, she was very smart. When she saw that Lao Xie was staring at a girl a little more, she hurriedly staggered a few steps over and hugged the girl's thigh. She was cute and likable.

Girls usually pick her up, take a look at Lao Xie, and ask, "Little friend, is your father?"

Xiaoqian couldn't speak yet, so Lao Xie hurried forward to establish the image of a hard-working dad, the kind who took advantage of others to help others with their children.

Several times, the two always met a girl when they were playing outside, and Lao Xie became jealous and began to pursue others.

After going to college, Lao Xie actually lost a lot of weight, and his image turned around and he was quite passable. He was born with a simple and honest face, and he also had the image of a good dad who was taken advantage of by Xiaoqian, and soon the girls caught up with him. .

After the girl caught up with him, Lao Xie also moved out of the school. The young couple rented a relatively luxurious one-bedroom house. Li Shi'an shamelessly moved into the living room of Lao Xie's rented house, saving the rent from then on.

After Lao Xie had a girlfriend, another person helped to take care of the baby. Li Shi'an had more time to work, but as far as the goal of 50 yuan was concerned, it was a drop in the bucket.

Until one day, Li Shi'an received a figure from Tang Doudou.

Li Shi'an hasn't been in touch with Tang Doudou for a long time. He thought that Tang Doudou had already entered the college age when it was shameless and shameless to fall in love. Who knew that this girl was still jealous of her, so she decided to invite this fat sheep who came to her door to meet her.

Of course, in order to save the fare, he asked Tang Doudou to come to City X.

When Tang Doudou received Li Shi'an's invitation, she felt that Yugong Yishan had finally paid off. She dressed up, drove her luxury car to X City, and picked up her Prince Charming under the eyes of everyone envious of Li Shi'an. .

They eat together, watch movies, go to the amusement park, as long as Tang Doudou proposes, Li Shi'an will not refuse. Tang Doudou is very happy this day. Everyone said that she is as happy as a princess since she was a child. She didn't think she was, but this night, she felt that she was.

When sending Li Shi'an downstairs to Lao Xie's rented house, Tang Doudou said, "Kiss me?"

Li Shi'an called softly, "Tang Xia."

The atmosphere suddenly changed. For some reason, Tang Doudou, like Cinderella in the story, understood that everything this night was magic and would disappear under Li Shi'an's soft call.

She asked: "What's the matter?"

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Li Shi'an said, "Lend me 50 yuan."

Tang Doudou: "Okay."

Li Shi'an knew that Tangdoudou had a lot of money, but she didn't know that she was stupid: "Don't you ask me what I use it for?"

Tang Doudou: "As long as you don't raise other women, it doesn't matter."

Li Shi'an: "..."

Tang Doudou looked at Li Shi'an in a daze, and said angrily, "Are you really raising a woman?"

Li Shi'an hurriedly explained: "Of course...not."

Xiaoqian is still a girl, girls and women are not the same species, right?

Tang Doudou left City X that night, and the next day Li Shi'an's account had an extra 50 yuan, and this matter became a bone in Lao Xie's chest: "Everyone is also a man, why are you so valuable? "

Li Shi'an was brushing his teeth, and kicked Lao Xie's ass: "Fart, I am innocent."

Soon after the winter vacation, Li Shi'an returned to City D. He took Xiaoqian to the hospital for various examinations. After the examination passed, he underwent surgery and stayed in the hospital for a week.

After the cochlear implantation, there was a period of waiting for the machine to be turned on. Li Shi’an owed a lot of debt and couldn’t rest. He had to work part-time. Lao Xie helped out in the supermarket at home during the winter vacation, so he had to send Xiaoqian to his grandparents.

Facing this little girl who suddenly appeared, grandparents and grandma were all surprised, but Li Shi'an didn't explain much, and grandma couldn't inquire about anything under the prevention of grandpa.

Grandpa said that the two old people were already empty nesters, and it would be nice to have a little girl to accompany them.

Li Shi'an told the old man about the child's physical condition and surgery situation, and explained how to take care of it. Then, while working with peace of mind, he anxiously waited for the child's cochlea to turn on.

Fortunately, a month later, everything went well, but the child heard the sound for the first time, and was so frightened that he cried a lot.

The doctor roughly explained the reasons for the later training, and Li Shi'an calculated that he would need a lot of money, and the money that Tang Doudou lent him was running out.

On the way home, Li Shi'an kept thinking about how to make money, and then he received a call with a very familiar phone number, it was Lao Yu.

No matter how long we hadn't contacted each other, Lao Yu and Li Shi'an would never exchange pleasantries, and cut straight to the point: "Your painting is still here with me, when will you come to get it?"

The painting Lao Yu was talking about was the one that Li Shi’an gave to Shen Yan as a birthday present. Shen Yan didn’t take it away when he left. After the studio was rented out again, the landlord called to ask Lao Yu what to do. At that time, Li Shi’an had already gone out of town. After finishing college, Lao Yu asked the landlord to send him to his hometown.

Li Shi'an sent Xiaoqian to Lao Xie, and rode a bicycle alone to pick up the painting at the place Lao Yu said.

The place where Lao Yu asked Li Shi'an to go was an office. Li Shi'an thought it was where Lao Yu worked, but when he arrived, he found out that it was a studio with the same name as Lao Yu's previous studio.

"This is you?" Li Shi'an pointed to the signboard of the studio with a puzzled face, and handed Lao Yu a cigarette.

Lao Yu didn't answer, waved his hand and said, "I quit."

"Quit?" Li Shi'an bit his cigarette holder and raised his eyebrows.

Lao Yu smiled happily: "I'm going to be a father."