Water doesn't make waves for no reason

Episode [-] About Crying and Baoli ([-])

This is Shen Li's first time away from home.

It can also be said that it was the first time that he left his brother and went to that remote southern town to work.

When he left the gate of Jincheng, he was full of reluctance to part with Shen Yu, and he was also reluctant to part with his parents, but not to the point of distress. When children grow up, they will be separated from their parents sooner or later.

He didn't dare to look back, afraid that he would want to go home when he turned around, and he began to miss Shen Yu just after parting, and he missed Shen Yu so much that his heart ached.

All the way I recalled how I followed that person since I was a child. It was very strange to say that when he cried when he was a child, as long as Shen Yu coaxed him, he could be coaxed well, and Mrs. Shen may not be able to coax him well.

At the age when it was time to go to school and read, he had to go to school separately from his brother. He had a fight with Shen's father, but Shen's father told him: Your brother doesn't want to be an official in the future, but someone from the Shen family has to do it, so Li'er, you go, do you want to?

When the very young Shen Li heard that his brother didn't want to do it, but he could do it for him, he nodded happily: Yes!I go!Brother doesn't like it, so Li'er will go!

So he can bear to go to school separately from his elder brother. He has to have a different teacher to teach him, so that he can serve as an official for his elder brother that he doesn't want to be.

He was very attentive in school, he was already smart, the master was very pleased, and when it was time to finish school, he couldn't wait to find his brother.

But one day, the master left him to copy the article, and when he went to find his brother, the servant told him that the young master had gone out, so he could only go back to the courtyard, and waited for his brother to bring back delicious food for him to eat. .

Unexpectedly, when it was dark, the elder brother hadn't returned to the house, and then his father came, and they went to the elder brother's courtyard together. When they saw Artest, they knew that the elder brother had returned at some time, and had already fallen asleep.

Now that he's all asleep, it's better to come back tomorrow and not disturb his sleep.

Back in his own mansion, Shen Xiaoli was thinking: Why didn't my brother come to look for me when he came back?I secretly went back to sleep by myself, my brother would not do this before.

So Shen Xiaoli suffered from insomnia that night, and he didn't fall asleep until very late, and he woke up a little late the next morning, and because his wife couldn't come, he finished his homework by himself, and then ran to find his brother. Thinking of going to the courtyard, I saw my brother kneeling on the ground.

He was about to cry in a hurry, and immediately ran to find his father, and then helped him into the house to rest. He still remembered that his brother rubbed his face a lot.

Recalling this point, Shen Li smiled on the horseback, and the servant asked casually: "Master, what did you see? You are smiling so happily?"

Shen Li just shook his head and continued to ride his horse forward.

After that, he didn't want to think about it anymore, but even if it happened, he couldn't help but think about it.

A few days later, he asked his elder brother to take him to ride a horse at the racecourse. He was attacked on the way and was rescued by a person. It was that person who later moved into the Shen residence and took his elder brother away.

That man was really good-looking, and his kung fu was also good, but he still hated that man, because he came, so his brother spent less and less time with him.

But Shen Li still found out that when his elder brother was with that person, his smile was bright, and those pair of peach blossom eyes that were already beautiful always shone with light.

They played chess together, he taught him martial arts, he taught him how to ride a horse, he read a book while he was painting, and he told him anecdotes outside, which often made his brother laugh out loud.

Until one day, that person suddenly disappeared, and my brother fell ill. When he was sick, he went to see his brother, and his brother read a person's name, but unfortunately he didn't hear clearly.

Later, the elder brother was finally getting married, and the boy would be married and the girl would be married. He comforted himself hundreds of times by covering himself in the quilt, so that he could appear in everyone's sight normally during the day. That's right, regardless of family background or anything else, he is barely worthy of his elder brother.

Yes, barely worthy.

In his heart, no one in this world is worthy of Shen Yu.

The day before he got married, he went to see his brother, and when he walked outside the courtyard gate, he finally heard clearly the name that his brother kept shouting while he was in a coma, Gu Beiwang.

Gu Beiwang was the one he hated, the one who stole his brother.

The whole body is cold, like falling into an ice cellar.

Later, the elder brother called him first, and said why he was standing outside the door stupidly. He found that, in the past few days, his elder brother had lost a lot of weight, and his belt could not be tied properly.

At that time, Shen Li knew that some things were out of his control, and some things had already changed, as if the general trend had passed, and it was so vigorous that no one could stop it.

Afterwards, my brother's marriage was ruined, and he didn't need to get married. He was happy at the first moment. Originally, my brother had never seen the woman who was going to get married.

But he was still worried that his brother would be sad, so he ran to the courtyard alone to find someone, and the scene he saw that day killed him completely.

That Gu Beiwang came back and drank a cup of wine with his brother, just like a bride and groom, drank a cup of wine.

Afterwards, he left the courtyard calmly, and ordered Artest to guard the door and not allow anyone to enter. When he returned to his courtyard, he ordered his servants to bring a lot of wine, a lot of wine that he had never drunk before.

The servant was startled by him and refused to bring the wine, so he lost his temper. For the first time, he got angry with the servant who served him. Everyone drove out, and stayed in the house by himself, facing the silence and coldness of the room.

The wine was spicy, choking, and not good at all, but he still drank it all. At the end of the drink, his mind was finally confused, and he didn't remember anything. Under the influence of alcohol, nothing was a problem .

The last drop of wine was gone. He looked at the small wine glass poured on the table, and suddenly felt very familiar. After thinking for a long time, he still didn't remember it, but tears gradually covered his face.

He felt itching on his face, so he reached out and wiped it away, touching the tears on his hand, why did he cry?Crying inexplicably after drinking?He also took a few seconds to think about this question.

The boy waiting outside the door found that there was no movement in the room for a long time, worried about something, so he opened the door and went in, only to find that their young master was drunk, crying silently on the table.

Seeing the boy approaching, Shen Li said, "Am I really crying for Baoli?"

The servant smiled, "You are the young master, you are not crying and leaving, you are drinking too much!"

Shen Li hiccupped, "But, my brother...yes, Shen Yu...he always said I was crying Baoli, and I also think I am, look, I'm crying again...however I don't know why I'm crying..." He said, reaching for the poured glass.

The servant hurriedly helped up the cup, and then went to help others, "Young master, you usually like that cup, don't break it, have you forgotten? The master said that this cup was sent by a rich businessman, you and the old man The young master liked them very much, so each of them kept a pair."

The pair that Shen Yu drank from the cup of wine was exactly the same as this pair, so he looked at the cup and couldn't remember why he was sad, but he still cried in a mess.

The boy just thought it was because he drank too much, and it was okay to cry, since he usually likes to cry.

But no one knew how sad and hopeless he was crying this time, the kind of broken heart, the kind of desolation that no one could say, even if he cried, he only dared to hide in drunkenness.

At the beginning, she just shed tears silently and quietly, but at the end, the grief in her heart could no longer be concealed, and she wailed loudly, heart-piercingly, the servant was in a panic, no matter how coaxed it was to no avail, she called the servant girl again Several people took turns coaxing him, the young master was finally tired from crying, and fell asleep, but he was still sobbing in his sleep.

Everyone has his own world in his heart, and that world is not necessarily solid, maybe one day, at a certain moment, it will collapse without sound, without trace, and it will be unforgettable and painful.

When Shen Li woke up the next day, his head was about to explode. The servant hurriedly brought the hangover soup that he had prepared. After drinking the hangover soup for a long time, he remembered what happened last night. His originally quiet heart screamed in an instant.

During those few days, he devoted himself to reading and writing, picking up ancient books that he didn't usually understand, and wrote a lot of articles. After five days, his brother finally came to see him.

But the joy of the past was no longer there. Seeing this person, the grief in his heart immediately revived.

For a long time, he hugged that person, and could only call brother in one voice.

After that loud brother, there was a silent farewell hidden: Shen Yu, I can only go here, from now on you will no longer be my Shenli alone, others will share your joys and sorrows with me , From now on, others will live in your life, and I will gradually leave.

Finally he said: "Shen Yu, you will always be a member of the Shen family, and you will always be my elder brother, Shen Li."

Later, he slowly accepted the doomed parting.

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