I just want to be a male partner

Regardless of Han Shuo's face when he was doing things, whether he was in a bad mood because of troubles when he was working, I always envied him.

My current ability level is too low, which determines that I can only exist as a soothing product, a temporary substitute for patients who cannot be discharged from the spiritual axis.And as such an embarrassing existence, I don't have professional knowledge like the medical staff. They can also help patients understand their condition, but I'm only useful when I have a special ability.

To put it simply, I am similar to the kind of painkiller, anti-inflammatory and tranquilizer, it is not enough to say that it is completely useless, but it is not quite right to say that it is useful.

In fact, I don't really want to be regarded as this kind of position. I want to improve the ability to be more useful, but I know this is not something that can be forced.If I am too impatient to practice my abilities and break my body, I will be causing trouble for others, which is not what I want.

Now I have to use the ability to sing three times a day. I have never done work of this intensity. To be cautious, I dare not practice the ability at will, so as not to cause poor results when I work due to excessive use.

Therefore, I looked at Han Shuo with envy and jealousy, holding a strange mentality. I saw him watching for a long time, and then quietly left here.I checked the current time and saw that it was noon, so I headed for the lobby.Since it was lunch time, when I arrived at the dining room in the hall, I saw that many soldiers were already enjoying their meals.

I walked to get food by myself, and it was a different man who helped me get food, but the attitude of treating me preferentially didn't seem to change because of the change of people.

I still get the dishes that look the most delicious. Even the dishes like stir-fried vegetables are almost all soft and tender leaves. In short, if it is delicious, I will definitely eat it there.Dessert is the same. I don’t know why the desserts are very good today. It’s pudding in the morning and fruit panna cotta at noon.I like this kind of food, I just couldn't help looking at it for a few seconds, and I got another one.

So after I ordered, I felt like my plate had different dishes from others.Not to mention the extra large glass of fruit juice and too many desserts, even other ordinary dishes, my plate just looks more delicious than others'.

Once again my vanity was gratified and I found the military to be a terrible environment.Everyone must have been suffocated because of mermaids. There are mermaids infested, and they are simply trying to pamper the rhythm of the sky.

I found a place to sit down and ate with satisfaction.

After I chewed and ate all the food slowly, I rested on the table not long before I was ready for the next supernatural singing.

I walked away from the dining table at a leisurely pace, but just as I entered the aisle outside the hall, I bumped into Han Shuo on a narrow road.It may be because he was hungry, and he walked forward quickly with a gloomy expression. He didn't stop when he saw me, but changed direction slightly and walked away from my left side.

I always feel that the way he looks at me is particularly unfriendly, even more unfriendly than when I was hostile to him in the past, but I really can't sort out the reason for this.

I know that his career and life seem to be not going well recently, but I haven't confronted him for a long time, and he should also understand that what he has encountered so far has nothing to do with me.That's why I can't understand, what happened to the way he looked at me?

I thought silently, speaking of him, his personality is really strange. When I was against him, he was tolerant to me. After I let go of everything, he couldn't let go of me... Han Shuo has such a personality. Difficult.

When I arrived at the medical room, the people inside all stopped talking when they found out that I had entered.Yu Yin walked over on his short legs, waved to me and called "Ran Luo." I nodded, and he still went straight to the center of the medical room.

Because of a strange state of mind, I was entangled in the medical room, so in order to make myself feel better, I started to suddenly become cold, and now I am in a state of not wanting to care about others.This matter has to be mentioned earlier. Ever since I saw Han Shuo's work, I have a psychological problem that has started to make me feel that I am not worthy of such good treatment.

After seeing Han Shuo's work, I firmly believe that Han Shuo's ability is more useful than mine in terms of ability alone.

His job is to deliver important materials, and overall it is quite a meaningful job.And I can only soothe the body and mind, not only can't bring any benefits, but also... Let me tell you the truth, if the base can hold enough spiritual pivots, they won't need my ability to cure people at all , to help them coordinate the patient's condition.

However, just because my abilities are more pleasing to others, the fact that I can get smiles on other people's faces, be liked by others, and even be respected by others will only make me feel restless.

I just can't accept my "get something for nothing" situation, so my mentality has changed slightly. On the one hand, I want to accept other people's praise for me, but on the other hand, I can't accept other people's praise. The admiration, I am so entangled.

So in the end, in order to solve this problem, I naturally changed my attitude to being cold and ignoring others. There is no way, until I can not accept my good treatment with peace of mind, I have to be a "cold and a flower" for the time being. I need Time to adjust to personal psychological conditions.

I finished my work quickly and earnestly, but I was called away by Yu Yin. When I was still confused, he took me to an unoccupied corner of the medical room and asked me questions coyly.

"That... Ran Luo, I want to ask you... Are you forcing yourself too much to agree to my request?" I couldn't understand what he wanted to say for a while, so I could only look at him with a full face of doubt, but he seemed I misunderstood my expression and seemed more nervous.

"Our army's original evaluation was to ask you to sing twice a day, but I added it arbitrarily. If it causes you trouble, please be sure to ask... I don't want you to force yourself too much because of my request."

His expression was very sincere, and I remained silent. Could it be because of my aloof behavior that caused him a serious misunderstanding or even panic?I feel my conscience stabbing, because of my own psychological problems, I frightened him into a nervous state, and I'm really... sorry for him.