Favorite like a devil

"Little clip, you have an elder brother."

"Really? Then where is he? Why doesn't he live with us?" Xiaojiao asked innocently and curiously, tilting his head.

"He, he lives in a small village, Yafu left him behind."

"Then elder brother doesn't have Yafu, isn't that very pitiful?" Little Clipper poked his finger.

"Yeah, when Xiaojiazi grows up, can I go back and find elder brother? Elder brother will definitely miss Xiaojiazi very much."

"Okay."

These are the words that the little clip heard the most when he was very young.

When the little clip grows up, the words that can be heard are like this.

"Little clip, grow up quickly, elder brother is waiting for us, don't forget your elder brother."

"I haven't forgotten, Yafu, when will we go back to find brother?" Xiaojiazi was at a loss.

"Soon, we can go back when Yafu saves enough money."

"That's really great, I don't like this place at all." The little clip believed it, and was very happy.

Later, the little clip grew up.

He has a name now, not Xiaojiazi anymore, his name is Lu Jia.

Yafu said, "Hey, I don't know if your brother still remembers us."

"..."

"You've grown up too. What should we do? We don't have enough money. I have to find a way to take you out."

"..."

"Don't worry, we'll be out soon."

"...Oh." Lu Jia agreed with a smile.

He felt that he would never be able to get out of this vicious circle in his life.

He was here when he was very young and had no memory. This is the most corrupt and filthiest place in the city, and it is also the favorite place for men.

There are all kinds of people here. They come here with bulging purses, but they leave shriveled when they leave.

As long as you have a sweet mouth, a charming smile, and show off your body, a lot of money belongs to you. However, in a place like Shanghai, money is nothing at all. stuff.

Finally one day, Yafu was very energetic, he seemed happier than that day, and he told me that we can go back.

I was so happy that I didn’t know Bei. I heard Yafu’s words and went to find the two people he mentioned. I heard from Yafu that they were my uncle and uncle. They looked like they came from the countryside. They were dressed like bumpkins. It seemed, I was even thinking, they probably have never been to such a luxurious place in their entire lives.

If time can be turned back, I even hope that I will never meet this couple forever.

Because of their arrival, I lost my Yafu forever.

Even if they took out all their savings, in this kind of place where people don't spit out their bones, their little money is not enough to redeem the two of us. Give me some, and get my bond back, while his own is still in the gang's hands.

I asked Yafu: "Yafu, why don't you come with me, we can go back to find elder brother."

Yafu smiled helplessly and said: "Silly boy, we don't have enough money. Besides, Yafu's body is already dirty, and he will be laughed at when he goes back. You and your elder brother are both innocent. I will drag you down when I go back. of."

"My elder brother and I won't dislike your sub-father, really." I begged.

Then Yafu's attitude was unprecedentedly firm, he let the two uncles go, but he stayed alone.

No matter how much I begged, it was useless. In the end, I gave up and went back with my uncles and stayed with Yafu. Then I never thought that Yafu would force me to die, so I had to give in and promised Yafu to follow my uncles. go back together.

When I got up in the morning, I found that Yafu had already collapsed in a pool of blood.

He committed suicide, smiling, and died peacefully.

I found his suicide note on him, which said, let me go back with my uncle with peace of mind, and recognize my elder brother. He left enough money for me and elder brother.

Because I will soon be able to prostitute myself, and I have already been called by guests, and I am still a person of some status. He does not want me to follow his old path, and he will use death to stop this disaster. Yafu is not a small boy. Red Man, his sudden death in the Red Mansion will definitely have some impact.

I don't understand why Yafu can't think about it, why he chose to die, even if I stay here, I will try my best to earn enough money to redeem him.

I don't want Yafu to die like this. I want revenge. I want all those who treat my Yafu unfairly to get what they deserve.

I want to pay blood for those who have hurt Yafu!

I want these people who have bullied me to fight with an eye for an eye, and blood for blood!

I didn't listen to Yafu's words, I continued on his old path, once I set foot on it, I will never look back!

It was my choice and I don't regret it.

Those uncles were frightened by my cruel words, and they no longer dared to approach me. They avoided me like poisonous snakes and beasts, and called me heartless. I accepted them one by one, because from today on, I just want to be a heartless person. A person without lungs wants to become a poisonous snake and beast that everyone fears me.

I want to use my whole body of venom to punish those who have hurt me and Yafu, and let them know how cruel this poisonous snake is.

I grew up in a red building. The water I drink, the food I eat, even the bed I sleep on, and the clothes I wear are all contaminated with drugs. Whether it’s a man or a brother, if you stay here for a long time, you will become extraordinarily seductive, male and female. debate.

I have lived here for more than ten years, and now even the blood flowing all over my body is full of that drug. I have been approaching adulthood, and I can’t grow an Adam’s apple like a normal man. At first I didn’t understand it, but gradually I knew it .

My whole life has been different from normal people.

It has seeped into my bones.

Ordinary speaking, walking, being trained by others, even eating with a rice bowl, are all pretending, refined, and effeminate, these can't be changed.

Picking up those rouge eyebrow pencils that Yafu used to use, as well as various jewelry and clothing, I skillfully dressed myself up as a goblin. I looked at my strange self in the mirror and marveled at the magic of these things. Toy, it can actually have the ability to reverse all living beings.

I suddenly smiled smugly.

This is my strongest coat, the most beautiful trump card, and my greatest reliance.

No one can resist my temptation.

Because I am a beautiful rattlesnake hidden in the night, waiting for those who are attracted to me to give them the most passionate snake kiss.

I still followed the man who called my name and wanted to open my buds. He looked very handsome and full of hostility, and treated me like a thing, a pet.

On the surface, he looks talented and dignified, but in private, his methods are extremely cruel. This person is violent and ferocious.Taking pleasure in torturing people, he saw me screaming and screaming while being tortured, and he laughed outrageously.

I finally understood why Yafu was afraid of such a person.

This man is not human.

In a few days, I almost lost half of my life. I stripped off my clothes and nothing was intact. For the first time, my lower body was completely destroyed by him. I didn’t want to die, and I wanted revenge. I tried my best, so I hooked up with another man.

I was bought by the man I hooked up with, he was okay with me, but unfortunately I had a powerful one at home, and I was not worthy of it, so I was suppressed again, so I used the same trick again, so In the circle of Modu, I was thrown around like a broken doll. Many people knew about it and wanted to play with it.

After two years of this kind of life, I was struggling every day, covered with bruises, and finally I was held by a good man for half a year. It was the most peaceful year for me. After healed up, he said to help me avenge.

I thanked him and asked him to introduce me to more powerful men.

He said yes.

His good words made him and me a success.

I met the most powerful man in Tianmu, he is the emperor of Shanghai, and he is also an old man over half a year old.

A ridiculously innocent man.

Abandoning his queen, the concubines don't want it, but delusional to get love from me, is it ridiculous?

I played and acted with him. In just a few years, this old man ate, drank and played like a fool.

Those who hurt me and harmed me finally tasted the taste of venom, and they got revenge from my autumn wind and few fallen leaves.

I have never been soft on them.

My Yafu, the place where I used to live, and the people there, I didn't let anyone bully me.

I laughed, laughing insolently, laughing wantonly, laughing arrogantly.

Who would have thought that I, the most down-and-out kid in the Red Chamber, would one day become the emperor's favorite.

Under one person, above tens of thousands.

This is where I stand.

I learned that my father, he was killed by another uncle of mine, I did not let him go, I will let him get it, spit it out a little bit.

Liansheng is a pawn I sent.

It's a pity that you are not very obedient, and took enough benefits from me to actually want to take away the money that belongs to my father, which is too wishful thinking.

I know his whereabouts like the back of my hand, the emperor's favor has given me enough rights, and the people in Shanghai are at my disposal.

The stolen money was brought back by someone, but I don't care about him being exiled in another country.

I have already got everything I want, glory, wealth, power, I can wave my hand, but none of these can fill the emptiness in my heart.

Glossy and gorgeous is my appearance, as charming as my face is, so lonely is my heart.

My soul is riddled with holes, and I seem to be desperate for this world. I don't think every day is like a year.

One day I thought of my elder brother.

Yafu asked me to pick up my elder brother, I went, he was not very pitiful, he was accompanied by someone, he seemed very happy...

I am very unwilling, I am very jealous, I even want to destroy him.

Why can he live such a carefree life, only I am dirty and corrupt, and I work hard every day to survive?

Watching him get married, I was envious, and seeing the resistance and fear in his eyes, I suddenly felt heartbroken.

He and I are not from the same world.

I realized the reality again, he is my elder brother, my only elder brother, I want to listen to Yafu and not hurt him...

Back in Shanghai, I stayed in the emperor's palace with peace of mind, living a soulless life, wandering around all the time, being spurned and insulted by others.

Later, when the battle failed, many people flocked to the emperor's palace. These people are familiar to me, and they are powerful ministers of Tianmu.

I laughed.

I set the palace curtains on fire, burned them one by one, flew into the sea of ​​flames, and died here.

In this life, I cannot control my life, let it trample in the dirty mud, but I can choose my death.

Even if I die, I don't want my corpse to be bullied and oppressed at will.

May this flame that burns the world ignite my body, save my soul, and wash away my filth.

I hope that in the next life, I will be innocent, and I will return to innocence for the rest of my life.

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