Empire Model Marriage [Interstellar]

The environment in the ward is comfortable and quiet, so quiet that you can almost hear a needle drop on the ground.Portman sat motionless in front of the hospital bed, staring at the sleeping person on the bed, his appearance seemed to have merged with the quiet environment: "When will you wake up? You have been in a coma for half a year. If you don't If I wake up, I will go crazy. Is it because I don’t want to see me? I swear as long as you wake up, as long as you are well, I will never see you again from now on, and I will not disturb you... as long as you wake up .” Gently holding Bai Yihan's hand, Portman looked at his bloodless face in deep sleep, heartbroken.

He really, really didn't want to see Bai Yihan like this.

Obviously all aspects of the body's functions have returned to normal, and there is no congestion in the brain, but why, why is Bai Yihan unwilling to wake up?The doctor said that this was his own psychological problem, and he was in a self-enclosed state, which had nothing to do with his physical condition. When he woke up was entirely up to him.

During the period, Gu Yan came three times under Portman's full expectation.

however--

Nothing worked, no miracle happened.

Therefore, Portman can only continue to wait.

Waiting for him to wake up, but the longer he waited, the more despair and fear Portman felt. He was afraid that Bai Yihan would have nothing to love in his life, and he really didn't want to wake up again. A life that hadn't made him happy.

He is afraid of this.

The one who would rather sleep here is himself, not Bai Yihan.But he couldn't do it, and he was the one who was awake, the one who was left in pain and suffering in reality.

Day after day passed.

Portman almost thought that Bai Yihan would torture him for the rest of his life, and even made preparations for a protracted war in his heart, preparing to guard Bai Yihan like this for decades, hundreds of years, or even a lifetime of waiting for him. wake up.

But Portman did not expect that Bai Yihan's waking up would come so quickly in the calm reality, so caught off guard.

Just when he left Bai Yihan and was about to pick up something——

"drip" "drip" "drip"

The detection equipment connected to Bai Yihan's body suddenly rang, and Portman's communicator received the message in an instant. door.

Worry, worry, fear... not sure, many emotions flooded his heart.

For a moment Portman almost forgot how to breathe.

Bai Yihan, on the other hand, was wearing a loose patient gown, half-sitting on the bed, with a pair of black and white eyes open, looking at him in a daze and at a loss. A little dependence and closeness come.

Portman was almost never seen this way by him.

Suddenly, his heart beat like a drum. After hesitating for a while, he didn't know how long he had been staring at Bai Yihan like this before he forced out a dry sentence from his hoarse voice: "You...are you awake?"

No one could see how uneasy he was deep in his heart at the moment.

The arrogance and domineering he showed in front of Bai Yihan in the past.

It's like a hedgehog bluffing to protect his most vulnerable inner thorns, but now that the thorns are gone, all his weaknesses, fragility and fear have been unreservedly displayed in front of the person he loves the most. Cover up a little bit.

And sadly—

That person didn't love him, even hated him.

This made Portman very at a loss. He didn't know what kind of traits he could use to face Bai Yihan when he was awake, and face his hatred and indifference to him, besides covering himself up with domineering and flamboyant.

For a moment-

Portman even hoped that Bai Yihan could just sleep like this.

In this way, he doesn't have to face the reality, and doesn't have to face Bai Yihan's expulsion and annoyance towards him when he wakes up, and stays by his side to accompany him and guard him all the time.After waking up, Portman inevitably felt that he was really despicable, terribly despicable... How could he think like this?If he loves him, he should expect him to be well and happy, instead of wishing him to stay by his side forever because of his own selfish desires, right?

Before Bai Yihan woke up.

Portman's thoughts are often uncontrollably between two extremes. On the one hand, he strongly condemns his own, and on the other hand, he uncontrollably produces despicable desires, tormenting and torturing each other.

And when Bai Yihan woke up.

Portman's mind went blank again.

Bai Yihan stared at the tired man with bloodshot eyes for a long time, hesitated when he saw that he was silent after he finished speaking, and then decided to ask: "Who... are you? "

"Who am I?" Portman was a little dazed by his question.

He imagined countless situations that might happen after Bai Yihan woke up, but he never imagined this one.

Bai Yihan nodded lightly, but he didn't appear to be panicked: "Well, I want to know who you are... If possible, can you tell me who I am?"

"...Who are you?" Portman was terrified by him.

In contrast, Bai Yihan seemed much calmer, frowned and said: "Well, if I'm not mistaken, I think I should have a fragmented memory, I can't remember anything now, I don't remember anything, many I don't know anything...I just want to know who I am now, can you tell me?"

Bai Yihan looked at Portman inquiringly.

Portman stared at him for a while, and seeing that he didn't look like he was making a joke, he panicked immediately, and quickly pressed the call button on Bai Yihan's bedside to summon the doctor.

Amnesia is such a big deal.

Who can guarantee that it is not a big deal?

The doctor quickly arrived to give Bai Yihan a detailed diagnosis in all aspects, and the examination results proved that his physical indicators in all aspects were normal.The doctor speculated that his amnesia should be caused by prolonged lethargy and the deep hypnosis he performed on himself when he was self-enclosed. It was his own choice to forget this past.

As for when I can remember——

It's still up to him.

It depends on when he wants to think about it, it may be a day or two, a year or two, or it may be that he will never recall this painful past for a lifetime.

Portman, who got the diagnosis, didn't know what to do.

With mixed feelings, it is inevitable to feel a little lucky, so... Does it mean that he and Bai Yihan can start again?Portman was extremely conflicted, wishing him well while wishing him never to think about it again.

"I don't know why, but you gave me a very trustworthy and close feeling. My intuition tells me that we should be very close. Can you tell me what our relationship is, Portman." Bai Yi Han was recovering well, and after asking the names of himself and Portman, he asked about the relationship between them relentlessly.

It's one of those topics that Portman has been avoiding.

Apart from this, there is also their past and Bai Yihan's identity.But those things, subconsciously, Bai Yihan always felt that they were not very important, so he never asked.

"...our relationship?" Portman smiled wryly and shook his head.

But he didn't say anything.

I didn't expect that in this life I would have a chance to wait until Bai Yihan spoke softly to him, but it's a pity that this is the time when Bai Yihan lost his memory and couldn't remember anything.

Portman wanted to avoid talking about it.

No, Bai Yihan was unexpectedly persistent this time: "Yes, can you tell me about our relationship?"

"You think I'm trustworthy and close, but it's because I'm the first person you see when you wake up. Our previous relationship was not as good as you thought..." Portman smiled wryly.

I always feel that I am too gentleman.

Even with such a good opportunity, he was unwilling to deceive Bai Yihan.

But he told the truth, but Bai Yihan refused to believe it: "Impossible, I don't believe it, my intuition didn't tell me that way, you lied to me..." He just didn't believe that the past relationship between him and Portman was different. harmony.

"You don't remember anything, how can your intuition count?" Portman casually picked up an apple and peeled it.

Bai Yihan pressed him step by step: "Then tell me what is our relationship?"

"When you think about it, you will naturally know—" Portman talked about other things, it was really hard for him to tell what kind of relationship he and Bai Yihan had in the past.

Bai Yihan took the apple from his hand: "But you clearly know it, but I just can't remember it."

"Then try to think about it." Portman replied without thinking.

Compared with the beauty of the present, he is more willing to live in the painful reality of the past and future.Therefore, he didn't want to, nor did he want to lie to Bai Yihan.

"You're perfunctory to me." Bai Yihan stared at him stubbornly with wide eyes.

Portman spoke softly, without the slightest bit of violence in the past: "Then how do you say it's not perfunctory?"

Bai Yihan hesitated for a while, fixedly stared at him, moved his lips, looked away for a long time, and said a little awkwardly: "They said, you are my alpha, and I am yours. Omega, and my identity card also marked our relationship as a partner... But now you refuse to tell me clearly, our relationship..."

The uneasiness of losing memory, the fear of unfamiliar surroundings...

All kinds of emotions were mixed together, almost forcing Bai Yihan to regard Portman, a partner who refused to explicitly admit their relationship, as a heartbreaker who tried to abandon him.

"In the legal sense, our relationship is indeed a couple—" Portman said vaguely.

I just don't know how to sort out this mess.

Bai Yihan frowned, not understanding what he meant: "What do you mean 'in a legal sense, our relationship is indeed a couple'?" Could it be that their previous relationship was so discordant that they were preparing for divorce?

Portman didn't know how to answer him for a moment.

"Do you hate me? Or, what did I do wrong to make you unhappy?" Bai Yihan looked at Portman with trepidation, pressing on every step of the way, lest he would not want him.

From the moment you wake up.

He already regarded Portman as his only one.

Portman smiled wryly and shook his head.

Bai Yihan mistakenly thought that he was right, and immediately grabbed his wrist, trying to save the relationship: "If, I did something wrong to make you unhappy, I can apologize to you, and I can change... I don't care about anything now. I don’t remember, don’t abandon me, don’t divorce me, give me a chance, let’s start again, okay?”

Portman, who was caught by Bai Yihan's wrist, froze on the spot.

Perhaps, due to the timidity of being close to the hometown, there was even a relationship in the past, but now since Bai Yihan woke up, Portman has never even had normal physical contact with Bai Yihan.

Lest I break him.

But he never imagined that Bai Yihan would come to touch him on his own initiative one day.

"I will be very good to you in the future." Bai Han looked at him without blinking, and made a firm promise.

Portman had mixed feelings in his heart, and for some reason, his eye sockets turned a little red unconsciously. He interrupted him and said, "How could I hate you, how could I leave you alone... I have always been so afraid that you hate Me, Yihan." Changing places, now Bai Yihan told him what was in his heart with a humble attitude.

Not only did Portman not feel happy at all, but his heart ached badly.

He just wanted to see that proud Bai Yihan forever.

"...Then why are you?" Bai Yihan looked at him puzzled.

Portman cut through the mess quickly, and finally decided not to run away: "I am the one who likes you. You have done nothing wrong, and I am the one who did the wrong thing. Our current legal marriage is the result of my wishful thinking... In order not to marry me, you even gave up your life and chose to commit suicide to escape... This is our previous relationship."

"I...suicide..." Bai Yihan couldn't believe it.

His intuition told him.

Portman is a very important person to him, how could he choose to commit suicide in order not to marry Portman?Bai Yihan found it difficult to accept this statement.

"Yes, this is our previous relationship, so I have been unable to explain it clearly to you. But the fact is that, whether you believe it or not... I don't know how to face you now. I don't know that you know now How will you think of me in the future, but if you don't want to see me again, I swear that I will never appear in front of you again. As long as you are well, well." Portman somehow said this .

The scene of Bai Yihan's suicide that day left him too excited.

So much so that he can't forget it until now, as long as he closes his eyes, the scene of that day will resurface in front of his eyes again.

Bai Yihan was so shocked that he couldn't be more shocked. After a long time, he said: "I think, you may have misunderstood something. If I really committed suicide before, I don't think I did it because I didn't want to marry you... maybe There are other reasons."

He didn't think he would commit suicide just because he didn't want to marry Portman.

Even though he has lost his memory now—

But his feeling is still there. If he really committed suicide because he didn't want to marry Portman, he should have hated and hated Portman the first time he saw Portman. How could he feel the unstoppable closeness and What about the involuntary trust and affection?

Bai Yihan even felt that he was in love with Portman.

however--

Portman didn't believe his words, just shook his head with a wry smile.

He said: "You don't remember anything, how can you appreciate your original state of mind?"

"Although I don't remember anything, I'm still me." Bai Yihan insisted: "I lost my memory, but the feeling is still there. Why can't I appreciate my original state of mind."

Portman was taken aback by what he said.

It was the first time to face up to Bai Yihan who had lost his memory.

Bai Yihan looked at him silently for a while, then changed the subject in vain: "The doctor said, I've almost recovered, let's go home. I don't want to live in the hospital anymore, I don't like it here."

"Are... are you sure you want to go home with me?" Portman looked up at him, unconsciously feeling a little nervous.

Bai Yihan had never stepped into his house in the past.

Bai Yihan didn't hesitate: "Unless, you think I'm troublesome."

"You have to know that once you're in my house, it's not easy to figure it out." Portman glanced at him, pretending to be calm, suppressing his inner panic with a low tone.

"Of course I know." Bai Yihan pursed his lips and smiled at him: "You let me in, even if you drive me out later, I won't come out, so I'll just hang on."

Portman's heart beat like a drum for an instant.

It was just a joke, but Portman took it seriously, looked at Bai Yihan very seriously, hesitated for a while, and asked tentatively: "...Are you serious?"

Even if he knew that Bai Yihan might just rely on him as a lifeline when he was alone and helpless, even if he knew what he had said now, the promises he made were very likely to be overthrown after he recovered his memory.

But he still wanted to get a promise from Bai Yihan——

Even if Bai Yihan's memory recovers in the future, he doesn't want to be with him anymore.Such a sentence is enough to support him through the long years of his future life.

"It's not steamed, is it boiled?" Bai Yihan thought he was a little funny.

Portman looked at him almost reverently: "I'm serious."

Bai Yihan originally wanted to joke with him, but he was unconsciously touched by the sadness in his eyes, so he turned serious, and replied solemnly: "I answered seriously, no matter what happened in the past or what will happen in the future. .At least, I am serious in this moment of answering your question, I want to be with you now, and only want to be with you."