My three roommates are not human

"Since when did you start to suspect?" The other party finally stopped pretending, his voice flipped several times, and finally turned into a voice that everyone was familiar with.ABC next to me couldn't even hold back a soft cry, and Deng Qi, who was used to pretending, held my hand tightly.

That's my voice.

I shrugged: "At first."

I'm not pretending, my doubts have always been there.From the beginning of this No.1 name, I felt something was wrong.

"When did you confirm it?" The voice on the other side was very curious, and I also felt completely amazing-how many people can have the same voice as mine, back and forth, and have a self-conscious conversation?

"Just now," I shook the phone in my hand, "I only sent a text message, so I confirmed it."

"...Understood." The opposite of me seemed to suddenly understand, "No wonder when I was reading, you received one more text message than I sent."

"What do you mean?" B on the side was dumbfounded. He came forward and shook my arm with a puzzled look on his face, "What one? What text message?"

Looking at the confused b and the other three guys who were very confused, I smiled and explained in detail: "Actually, when I was in the dormitory world, I received a few text messages reminding me for no reason. I have been wondering who sent me those few text messages in the dormitory world. Even though I seem to have forgotten what happened so long ago, this question is like a knot in a rope, stuck in my heart heart."

"I need to know where they come from."

"After I was imprisoned in the dormitory world." Hearing this, C on the side secretly lowered his head, very good, feeling ashamed, "I have always been in a state of no memory and no self-awareness—until one day I suddenly closed Got some texts. Those texts knocked me out of that mush,"

"After watching the movie, I knew that my guess at the beginning was wrong, and it wasn't the three of you who woke me up."

"So, just now, on a whim, with one-tenth of mama's power, I took out my phone, and wanted to test whether mama's power could send out this kind of magic, which would happen after a time interval. SMS in space."

"The answer is yes. My text message was sent successfully."

"It's that 'what's before abc'."

"I just sent a text message, just to verify the 'mama is me' guess."

"... I don't understand." A blinked his big eyes and looked at me honestly.

I smiled and continued to explain: "Since you didn't send text messages, and mama's power can send text messages, then the suspects in those few text messages only exist between me and all mamas in that time period. If you send The text message was really just me at that time, so if I only sent one text message, I shouldn’t have received so many text messages in the dormitory.”

"When I put away my phone after sending a text message, my memory should immediately change to a memory like 'I only received one text message'."

"But no—my memory remains the same, unchanged."

"So this means that the rest of the text messages at that time were not sent by me, but by someone else."

"And after using the method of elimination, I knew - the remaining sender can only be mama."

"Since he is sending me this kind of text message to wake me up, then he must want to help me. In this way, all my previous guesses are reasonable."

"Mama, it's really helping me, not hindering me."

"Before this, I have been thinking, why does it have to be No.1?"

"Of course, this question can be prevaricated with a series of answers, so when it exists alone, I don't particularly care about it."

"Until you keep hinting to me that you miss it very much, cherish it very much, and don't want to end this story very much."

I looked at the self in front of me and started talking to him directly with "you".I know he is right in front of my eyes.

"You can tell," he sighed, "This is actually... not a hint, it's just that I can't control my emotions."

……ah.I blinked, feeling a little embarrassed.

Unexpectedly, the first evidence of what I said was just an unintentional loophole.

Speaking of which, I thought there was no such thing as emotion in him anymore.

I went on to tell you all what I thought.

"When I was pulled to the cinema, the previous questions immediately came to my mind. Why did it have to be? Why did it have to be a movie? Why did the content that could be told to me face to face have to be carried in these forms? Why did I feel that I was a 'dummy'?"

"I know that I am the person who was written, so I feel that I am an unreal and false person. But when I saw the movie, I suddenly found that, compared to me, the abc three are the fake people in the movie people, and if there is a reference to the fake, then at this moment, the me outside the movie becomes the 'real'."

"This gave me a very headache, until later I found out that mama didn't want to torture me, but wanted to help me."

"Then, if you think about all the information I got in terms of hints, there will be no problem."

I slowly looked at the three of abc, Deng Qi on the side seemed a little uneasy, I gently squeezed his hand to make him calm down.

"Do you think I'm fake?" The three froze for a moment, then shook their heads desperately.

"So," I turned to Deng Qi, "do you think they are fake?"

Deng Qi was also taken aback for a moment. I could see that he seemed to want to nod, but finally, under the oppression of my eyes, he shook his head unwillingly.

"Yes, that's it." I spread my hands and smiled at the "me" opposite, "This is what you want to convey to me—everyone is real, and no one is fake."

"I saw a doll being made by a craftsman, and I knew that the doll must really exist. I saw a baby being born by its mother, and I knew that the baby must also really exist."

"No matter how I appear, I still exist. Being written down, photographed, and set up are all ways of creation before existence."

"The so-called book, the so-called movie, and the so-called creation are just a form."

"I am real."

Knowing that I couldn't see his expression, the "I" on the opposite side clapped his hands twice to show affirmation.

Only then did I slowly understand that his applause in the past was not necessarily the taunting I imagined or watching a show from above, but really... giving me affirmative encouragement.

It's as if the "door" I was afraid of actually carried the determination of the abc three to create the real me; the lost memory I was afraid of actually carried Deng Qi's belief in saving me.

Thinking about it carefully... During this period of time, no one was actually persecuting me.All fears come from the unknown of my own destiny, and when I was able to overlook everything from above, all fears disappeared with my omniscient perspective.

"And the name you call yourself... that strange mama, is also implying something. Could it have something to do with my inexplicable 'maternal love' towards the three of abc?" Couldn't find a better pronoun.I took a step forward, wanting to communicate with him further, "Although I have guessed the general situation, I still don't know the whole picture, can you... tell me everything?"

There was a deep breathing sound from the opposite side, followed by a long silence.

"Of course...Of course you can," the weeping tears this time seemed not fake, but the excitement of finally ushering in the dawn, "I've finally reached this point."

In the next second, his voice was as cold as ice soaked in ice wine: "But it's too late."

ah?I opened my mouth in a daze.

I was still in the excited and warm reunion just now, everyone is real, everyone has a happy ending, why suddenly...

"Yes, it's too late. I tried boldly, but it still failed." He seemed to pass me by, and I could feel the wind on my collar, "I'll send you a text message, which is different from what I have experienced myself, but it still failed."

...me, fuck.

The development of things is beyond my imagination.

I originally thought that this matter, in the final analysis, was what happened when my future self threw me into a story for some unavoidable reason.

But I didn't expect that he was not the future me.

...he was me in the past.

It's even hard to say whether he is "I".

"You already understand. Sure enough, you reacted as quickly as I did to my own affairs. I also understood everything immediately, but unfortunately it was too late." He sighed, walked in front of me, and I could I vaguely feel that his figure is exactly the same as mine, "Do you understand? There is no beginning or end to this matter."

"...No way? It's not really such an exaggeration, is it?" I couldn't believe it. The seriousness of the matter was beyond my imagination. Faced with such a thing that was far beyond my ability, I could only Helplessly asking the question, "That is, am I constantly creating me and becoming me again?"

I couldn't see his nod, so soon, I heard the sound of his palms clasped.

This confirms my guess.

...God.

I probably understand what's going on.

"Actually, you've already felt it vaguely." My voice was very frustrated, as if I was sad because I still couldn't escape the shackles of fate, "Now, you are no longer a human being at all."

"After your soul leaves your body, you will not die, but can reshape a body like a new human. But again, you are not a new human, because no new human has a soul."

I bit my lower lip.

"So, so..." I tentatively pushed it down, "So, I will become an immortal 'monster'. And Deng Qi is an ordinary human being, and abc is also evolving in the direction of old human beings, and they will all welcome Their end, and I won't?"

A round of applause.

I took a breath: "Not only that, I am immortal, so...my lifespan may be longer than that of that world."

"I will continue to live until that world collapses and disappears."

I began to imagine everything that "me" went through.

"During the years that continuously invaded me, I gradually understood everything in the world, and gradually understood the laws of the world, so I gradually possessed a mysterious 'power' that ordinary people cannot possess."

"Then, because of excessive loneliness, I will create a new human being by myself to accompany me on a whim."

"And I, who have experienced the constant wars and disputes of human beings in a long life, don't want to have such a bad world again."

"So I created a new human being without emotion."

"I was creating the world for the first time, so I had no experience. I only knew that such a world might be peaceful, but I didn't know that human beings without emotions are so boring. So, I let them write stories constantly, but even That doesn’t satisfy my heart.”

"And so I wrote the outline of the story of my own past."

"This outline is fake. I know that the new 'me' that I created will break it soon, and I am looking forward to what he will look like after breaking this story."

"During my long years, the only thing worth remembering is the memories I made with the four of them when I was an ordinary human being, so I suddenly thought - since I have power, why not fulfill my wish? "

"I also created the abc three people in my memory. In fact, I was a little selfish. I thought they could become my abc, but after creating them, I understood that they are just the new 'me' abc."

"My own abc and Deng Qi have already been blown away in the wind."

"So, I named myself mama and lived with another identity."

"But because I created it, the four of them actually have vague memories."

"But by the time I realized something was wrong, it was too late."

"That me went back to my old ways, he did break the story, but in the exact same way I broke the story."

"So, everything fell into reincarnation again."

I took a few deep breaths to free myself from the imagination.It's terrible. If this is true, then I will be greeted with a long loneliness that cannot be calculated by time.

And there is no end to this loneliness and loneliness.

No wonder mama has been hinting at the boundary between real and fake... It's because it's pointless to seek the real.

Each round of me is created by the previous round of me, and then it will become a new round of me, continuing this helpless fate.

The book is just a form to cover up its reincarnation.

"Yes, in my conversation with the last 'me', I know that before us, some experienced movies, and some experienced stage plays. Everyone's experience is different, but the essence will never change. ’” he said to me resignedly, “that’s the nature of our helpless fate to continue forever and ever.”

"Impossible!" I think there are too many loopholes in this, "Can't this be stopped if you want? If I commit suicide now, will all this end?"

"It's useless, you won't die anymore." I was very calm on the opposite side, which made me think in horror that maybe even my current panic is an emotion he has experienced before.

"No, no, it can definitely be stopped," I quickly changed the example, "At that time, at that time, as long as I don't create the next me, won't all this be over?"

Opposite me seemed to shake his head slightly, and I heard him sigh.

"You still don't understand why I said this is an inescapable fate..." He sighed again, as if he had already felt hopeless about this endless cycle of reincarnation, "Even what you are saying now is what I said before. Including when you got excited just now and took a step forward with your left foot, everything is exactly the same as what I have experienced before."

I quickly bowed my head... really, really took a step forward.

"It's like you're sure to take a step forward, like you're sure to question it all, like you're sure to send that text message," he said in a weary voice, "in the future, in your experiences, in your state of mind, in everything. After the change, you will definitely do behaviors that you can't think of now, but have long been predestined by fate."

"Do you understand? Even if you want to avoid it, fate can use its tricks to slowly correct you back."

"It's like if there is a wolf chasing you, and you manage to kill it with difficulty, you are complacent, but find that the bloody smell of the corpse attracts a bear, and the bear quickly kills you."

"This is the arrangement of fate. If you don't do it subjectively, the objective things will help you achieve it. It makes you die in the third watch, and no one can keep you until the fifth watch."

"Our reincarnation is such a fate."

"...You should go." He finally said this sentence to me, and he seemed not to want to talk to me anymore, "Go and meet your fate."

I stood there for a long time, no one could see what I was thinking.I knew I was definitely not human anymore, that the way I thought and how I managed my brain was not what it used to be, but somehow I wasn't desperate.

Very simple, I stood where I was and saw a ray of light.

"No," I honestly touched my head, thinking that I might be able to escape this fate, "I think, I really have a way."