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Li Yu felt that if he gave a self-assessment, then most of the time he was a person who was content with the status quo and went with the situation.

Isn't a person living a lifetime to live freely and without constraints? Why should he fight for things that he doesn't bring with him when he has enough food and clothing?

The craziest thing so far is probably that after graduating from university, he must become a star. From drafting to acting training, he is all for entering that circle. He thinks it’s good to just brush the ball, but it’s a pity that so many handsome men and women are brushed off every year. Not to mention that he is a fat man with no talent, no looks, no backstage, who can't even touch the corners of comedians. He was finally selected to be a clown in a variety show, a role for the host and assistant host to bully. He felt hopeful. coming.

But it didn't take long for all the good luck to end here, and what happened afterwards caused him to be beaten back to his original shape, and he stayed away from this circle again.

This is the main street of country M. He took the paper in his hand and repeatedly confirmed the address and phone number on it. The phone was still dead. According to the address above, this should be the office of a small entertainment company. To ensure that he would not be deceived, he was still there. Searched the company name on the website.

Holding the paper, he found a passer-by who gesticulated in a bad foreign language, but was told that this place had been replaced by the current bank half a year ago.

The webpage he was looking at... was delayed.

In an instant, my ears buzzed, my mind went blank, and I couldn't seem to lift my breath from my lungs.

He couldn't believe that he was really cheated.

This is the 10,000 US dollars he cobbled together, which is equivalent to [-]+ RMB.

When he was desperate in the country, he heard a friend in the circle introduce this small company located in country M. Although it was small, it was enough to surprise him to have a place for Chinese people in this place full of country M culture. Small is also a nest, no matter how it is connected with the entertainment industry.

With all the hopes that he would hand over the deposit and introduction fee to the company's office, after arriving in country M and paying the remaining half of the handling fee, labor fee, and accommodation fee, he was almost penniless. The man told him to go by himself, and he didn't doubt it.

Now, what should he do?

There are people with completely different hair colors in his eyes, and strange languages ​​in his ears. There is no breath of China here, and there is no sense of belonging. He feels as if he is excluded from the whole world, and his extreme panic and anxiety make him He is at a loss.

At this moment, the voice in Chinese came from the electronic screen of the building at the crossroads. At that moment, he almost had the urge to cry, and his footsteps moved involuntarily.

"I, a desperate lunatic, my memory only has speed and death..."

The unique and mellow voice can shake people's spirits.

After more than ten years of habit, when he saw the image of a man on the screen, his natural reaction was that even though he hid his facial expression well, his eyes suddenly lit up.

Pei Chen, King Pei.

What was playing was the trailer of "Star Crime 4". The main character of this movie was Pei Chen, who played the role of a genius hacker-type criminal.At the beginning, the "Star Crime" series was determined to open up overseas markets, and invested a lot of money. It took three years just to prepare, and the arrangements in all aspects were close to international standards. With the word-of-mouth of the first three parts, the fourth part is just a preview The film has received great attention at home and abroad, and has received a lot of praise from mainstream media such as M country. This Asian male star has broken a gap for the bottleneck overseas market of Hua country.

The reason why he knew so clearly was that since he was a child, he would collect any news about Pei Tianwang, and he was a fanatical and die-hard fan.To the point of forgetting to sleep and eat, as long as there is a product printed by Pei Chen, I will buy two copies, watch one and keep the other. As long as it is a movie that Pei Chen acts in, I will buy movie tickets with all the extra salary to watch it over and over again, even if I know it. Even though he didn't contribute much to Pei Tianwang's box office, he was still content with it. When Pei Chen held a concert, he and several other presidents and vice presidents would call the members of the fan support club and stay up for a few nights to prepare for backup work.

It can be said that the motivation for wanting to enter the entertainment circle is to be in the same circle with idols.

Although he really liked acting while studying.

Even the current girlfriend, Wen Ya, came together because they were fellow fans of Pei Chen's support club and had a lot of common topics.Coupled with the high proportion of girls in the support club, although he is a little bit ugly as a minority of male fans, but fortunately he has a good personality and enjoys the treatment of being a star.

It took him a long time to pursue a relationship with Wen Ya before he decided on a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship. The funniest thing is that Wen Ya once teased him, thinking he was gay, otherwise how could he be so mad at Pei Chen? Anything involving Pei Chen seems to be possessed generally.

He just smiled, since he was a child, all he liked were women.

The fanaticism towards Pei Chen is pure worship to God, and it is a screen image he longs for and loves.

It is no different from the majority of diehard fans, and it has nothing to do with sexual orientation.

After stopping to watch the image of the male god in "Star Crime 4" on the screen, Li Yu didn't leave immediately. After making sure that the trailer would not be replayed, he moved away, walking alone in a foreign country in the bleak and biting winter. On the way, Pei Chen's image was like a bowl of hot soup warming his desperate heart, although this kind of gratitude was just a stranger's self-psychological suggestion to Pei Chen.

He took out his mobile phone that had just been activated for international roaming, and his girlfriend's contact information was at the top of the list, but he couldn't press it for a long time.

His girlfriend lent him money so that he could work hard in country M, what would he say, he was cheated?The money was rolled up?Not that company at all?

How could he tell her the real situation? This was not telling the truth, but sweeping away the only remaining dignity of a man.

Borrowing his girlfriend's hard-earned money is already his limit. Even if he works hard in country M, he can't let her know. Besides, he can't just be so pessimistic. He has hands and feet, and he is still young. At least he can find a part-time job. It shouldn't be a big problem to work and feed yourself. It's better to keep cheering yourself up.

After connecting the phone in China, Li Yu's tone had completely returned to normal when his girlfriend's voice came. He used his imagination to describe the beautiful life here.

"Li Yu, don't call again." The other party interrupted his description.

These words are like doing an ice bucket challenge, numb from head to toe.

The bad premonition made Li Yu pretend not to understand, but on the other side, it seemed that he had made some kind of determination.

"You don't need to pay back that money, just treat it as a breakup fee."

"It's a full 3 RMB. Xiaoya, stop joking. I'll make money and pay you back right away." Li Yu felt a pain in his heart. He didn't know why Wen Ya said that suddenly. They were all fine before going abroad.

The desperation that had just subsided came back up again, bursts of blackness.

Wen Ya's words were like the last straw to bend him, and the belief that supported him collapsed in despair.

"Why are you so stupid, don't you understand? I've been waiting for you to go abroad before we can break up completely! How can a fat, ugly and poor guy like you deserve me? Don't harass me again!" Wen Ya's tone was unprecedented. cold.

"Wen Ya, don't hang up...!"

Beep beep————

When Li Yu dialed again, there was a notification that he was on the phone.

After dialing non-stop, the phone ran out of power and went black after a while.

He has been blacklisted.

Li Yu's eyes were still red, and he didn't know whether it was from sadness or anger.

No matter how good-tempered a person is, it is impossible to calm down.

Fat and ugly and poor.

After dating for so long, is this her evaluation of him?

Wen Ya, who just hung up the phone, stared at her mobile phone with empty eyes, the ferocity of just now had long since disappeared, and she opened her eyes in a daze.

"Why, you really like it?" After confirming that the money has arrived, the man beside him teased in a good mood and patted Wen Ya's buttocks viciously.

It drew her furious shoving.

"Wen Ya, why are you so crazy!"

Wen Ya clutched the phone tightly, squatting on the ground as if her strength had been taken away from her body, her expression was calm and determined, "After finishing this vote, I won't do it, and I won't do it in the future."

She repeatedly emphasized, as if she was speaking to a man, but also as if she was speaking to herself.

The man grabbed Wenya's neckline and lifted him up into the air, his cruel eyes shot out a cruel light, "Do you think you won't do it if you don't want to do it after entering this industry? You've been seduced by that ugly fat round Did you cheat him of the money and your conscience found out? I warn you, if it is discovered that we both can’t finish our pockets, do you think that ugly fat circle will forgive you when he knows the truth? Stop dreaming! He will only disgust you!”

Wen Ya's face turned pale, "I don't want to seduce men anymore..."

Until his legs became numb from the cold, and the numbness of his body surged up from all directions, making Li Yu's absent-minded eyes a little clearer.

He moved his legs slowly, waiting for the numbness to pass, and now he will find a way to find a place to work. The little money on his body is only enough for a few meals.

Just as he was going through his bag, Li Yu's face turned pale.

All the documents were taken away by the person who picked up the plane!

The flame he had just started was extinguished, and he walked under the electronic screen again, squatting on the ground, exhaling and rubbing his hands, looking up from time to time to see if there was still a trailer for "Star Crime 4" on the screen.

Before he knew it, at night, the street was too cold, and snowflakes were falling in the sky. He ran through several streets and finally found the subway entrance, but at night, the places where he could sleep here were all divided up by local snakes and homeless people. In the area, a person like him who can't even afford a little "protection money" should not be able to take a good rest.

Seeing one of the black guns pointed at him, he suddenly felt a sense of absurdity. He didn't wake up until he got out of the subway. This is not a safe Huaguo, and it is not unusual to see a gun by chance.

This country without a sense of belonging made him feel cold and lonely.

He didn't feel rare when he had it, but he missed his motherland very much after leaving for a while.

Now is not the time to think about these things, he has to find a place to get through the night first.

Life is about constantly making choices, and having no choice again and again.

Maybe tomorrow he can try to find a relief station, and then slowly fill in the documents. I don't know if a black household like him will be sent back to the country directly. What face will he have to face the relatives and friends who lent him money? When he went abroad, he promised to pay back the money within half a year, but now...

The snow stopped, and the biting cold wind made my face stiff.

He really didn't have the strength to find a place, he was hungry and tired.Using his sleeves to sweep away the snow on the park bench, he wrapped his down jacket tightly around his body, curled up and lay down on it.

Just laying down, he was so cold that he couldn't sleep at all.

Feeling groggy like never getting up.

The heavier the body, the clearer the mind than ever.

Pei Chen's "Star Crime 4" trailer played back in his mind again. Under extreme hardship, people will always subconsciously escape and only remember the beautiful and warm parts.

Perhaps the reason why he is so fanatical about Pei Chen is not because the other party is omnipotent like a god, but because the other party can give people the motivation to live just by existing, and he envies such an existence that he can't achieve in his entire life.

Sometimes envy comes from the deepest desire in my heart, and anger comes from self-blame for my inability to change the status quo.

He spends his days lazily, and he has a clever head but doesn't use it, which is also a manifestation of incompetence.

If a person really has an afterlife, he wants to completely change himself, no longer waste his intelligence, no longer be so fat, no longer ugly, no longer muddle through, he will use all his efforts to shape himself.

He knows that he is not stupid, but too lazy and unmotivated.

If he is willing to use his greatest efforts to live, will the result be different?

Can you get a little closer and look up at Pei Chen?

The head became heavier and heavier, and fell into a drowsy darkness.

Li Yu opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling on the bed. It was already the second morning after he came back, which made him sure that it was not a dream!

He really went back to the summer vacation of the year when he was promoted to the third year of junior high school.

And this time is the beginning of his grades decline the most, as soon as school is over, he will go to the game room or play football with those students who are problematic in the eyes of the teacher.

Perhaps it was because of the force-feeding education in the school that he became more rebellious and went to a key junior high school far away from home with a good reputation but not strict discipline. More importantly, he could not go home to see his father and stepmother, nor did he The brother brought by his stepmother, this stepbrother who is so outstanding in every way that he can't breathe, he doesn't want to go back after he comes out.

This is the house his father temporarily rented for him just one street away from the school when he was in junior high school, and he hired his aunt to take care of him.

He is like an outsider in the family of three, so everyone can breathe a sigh of relief.

I remember that he spent this summer vacation playing games in this kennel.

Sure enough, there was a pile of unfinished, half-eaten junk food on the computer table, and the computer was still on and hanging up to fight monsters.

After receiving a scholarship in elementary school, those awards were far away from him in junior high school.Since his father remarried, he let himself go. He ate a lot of junk food and became fatter. He also became more and more disgusted with studying. No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't compare with his stepbrother to get high grades easily, so why should he work hard?Who cares if you work hard for it?

That is the proud son of the father, the only one who seems to be his own.

In his previous life, he thought so desperately.

He even made many excuses for this, and looked down on those top students along with the scumbags.Do you think that a bully learns nothing after burying his head in his studies? Does he need quadratic functions or classical Chinese for his work?It's just a product with limited specifications, and the hands-on ability is low.And he is complacent about the conclusion he drew. He is a little proud that his IQ is not low. Too lazy and too persistent.

Indulging in his body, in his studies, and in his nature, he finally became an ugly and fat person who felt ashamed and regretted.

But he really came back!

This time he wants to study hard and stop wasting every minute and second on having fun.

Later, a few words were popular on the Internet, if you are not crazy, you will be old, how can you pay homage without memories; how can you be young if you don’t fall in love and play games?

But these are not as cute as a math problem in Li Yu's eyes now. The school is like a rainstorm. Even if I get wet and catch a cold, I look forward to getting wet again.

What else can you do if you give up studying when you should be studying?

Not everyone gets the chance to do it all over again.As a student's bounden duty is to learn.

After this period, there is no chance to make up for it when you are an adult.

Never again, don't waste your youth!

He wants to live a completely different life from his previous life!

He looked around the room, and described it as a kennel. There was garbage and snacks everywhere. The aunt had cleaned it up a few times, but he was lazy and had advanced cancer. Not only did he not clean it himself, but he also encouraged others to do the same.At that time, what he said was "Auntie, if you tidy up, it will be messy again, so don't bother with it", and in the end, the auntie had no choice but to stop tidying up.

The attribute of not thinking ahead is developed from this time.

With a little anger, he threw those potato chips, fried chicken and cola into the garbage bag, and sorted the other garbage into the garbage can in the community.

The anger was directed at himself, at his own decadence and self-abandonment.

After finishing everything, I saw that the bright house looked like it had been changed from before.

Neat and clean is the first change he made to himself.

It was only now that he took a good look at himself in junior high school. What he saw in the mirror was a fat man who was so fat that his facial features were almost squeezed out. No wonder he ran several stairs just now and stopped several times.

How do you know what you look like if you can't even see the outline of your own facial features?

No wonder the girls in junior high said privately that he was a "tired" pig.

Lose weight, this time you have to lose everything!