Hollywood superstar XX history [travel]

A tall and strong young man jumped out of the car. He was wearing an ordinary shirt and jeans, with wide shoulders and narrow hips.He carried a burlap bag, and put on a khaki coat that was obviously one size too big, covering up his good figure.He looked around, although he didn't do anything, but he could feel a trace of hesitation and bewilderment.

He was leaning against the door of a scruffy trailer, smoking a cigarette, and a battered pick-up truck rumbled by with a series of crackles and clatters, its body shaking like a dance, as it wobbled up in front of him. In the open space, the fire was simply turned off.

He was a little stunned, and watched the driver get out of the car and slam the door, cursed angrily, and kicked the car.But when the other party turned around and looked over, he lowered his head again, pretending that he didn't see anything.

The driver was a young man wearing a blue top and jeans, with a pair of beautiful blue eyes on his delicate face.He glanced at this rustic man curiously, but the man kept his head down, as if he didn't want to talk to others, so he didn't have to make fun of himself in the past, and he pretended not to see him.

However, both of them are young cowboy boys, no matter what their personalities are, they are still full of curiosity, so one sneaks a look at the other when he turns his face, and the other seems to concentrate on shaving while looking at people through the car mirror .

This silent, eccentric and interesting atmosphere was quickly broken by a station wagon approaching in a big way.A sturdy middle-aged man came, he was rude and arrogant, he glanced at the two young men at the door, walked into the house and closed the door, then opened the door and let them in impatiently.

The two young men walked in obediently as if facing a formidable enemy.The whole process was that the middle-aged man kept talking, as if giving orders, and they listened intently, not daring to miss a single thing.

One became a camp keeper and the other a shepherd, tasked with making sure the flock didn't dwindle while grazing on Brokeback Mountain.

After the task was assigned, the two were kicked out.

Breathing the air outside, both of them breathed a sigh of relief.

The dapper cowboy in blue held out his hand to his companion for the next few months and introduced himself: "Jack Twist."

"Ennis." The khaki cowboy reached out and shook his hand...

Watching the scene where they were introduced to each other and then talking in the bar afterward, both Vogt and Jake couldn't help but think about what happened when they auditioned for "Brokeback Mountain."

Vogt didn't read the full script but was able to take his lines based on Ennis' character and Jack's reaction, Jack's playful change of lines to test him, and Vogt's kiss that surprised Jack-Jack was still stupid I foolishly thought that Vogt was dedicated and desperate to play a good role, but later I learned that he has rich experience in this field and doesn't mind kissing a person of the same sex at all.

But the relationship between the two of them started with this kiss.

Ennis and Jack's life on Brokeback Mountain has officially begun.

The continuous green land, the flowing clear stream, the chubby sheep, the lively border collie, and two handsome young men on horseback, the pictures are magnificent and beautiful, which makes people feel open-minded.The montage and long-shot shooting techniques are used alternately, and the connection is natural and smooth, depicting the ecology of Brokeback Mountain in a poetic and picturesque manner.

In this beautiful scenery, the lives of Ennis and Jack are monotonous and depressing, and they have to repeat a lot of work every day.During the day, they can still stay together and talk about the world, and at night they occupy two places, spending lonely and long nights alone, and encountering difficulties and even dangers from time to time, making them feel ashamed.But they are young and resilient, and not overwhelmed by these obstacles.Jack would have some bold ideas, Ennis would always want to play by the rules, and then they would compromise with each other and find a middle ground.The relationship between the two has also become tacit and harmonious in getting along bit by bit.

Jack is cheerful and enthusiastic yet gentle and careful, while Ennis is silent and dull but calm and responsible.Undoubtedly, or not very well-educated, or even pitiful, but these two cowboys are very good children, and they have not grown crooked.

They regard each other as good friends, and they seem to have no feelings other than friends.

But how is it possible not to have feelings other than friends?In such a vast world, there were only the two of them, and for several months, there was only each other in their lives.They watch and help each other, they help each other, and they have a good impression of each other.In every trivial interaction, there is a trace of fetters that seem to exist...

A night of confusion in the tent suddenly became logical again. Stimulated by alcohol and warmth, Ennis and Jack had a relationship.Approaching, resisting, accepting, bumping, panting... The scene is not beautiful, but it is so real and emotional, and the mutual attraction that we know we shouldn't but can't resist...

Because of this unexpected night, the atmosphere between Ennis and Jack became stiff and frozen.They emphasized to each other that "I'm not gay", but they couldn't control their time and time again, running and playing in the world where only they were, they were so free and happy, pure and innocent.It's a pity that this scene was seen through the telescope of their employer.The harshness in the eyes of the employer made the audience worry about Ennis and Jack who didn't realize it.

Did he see something?

Bad news began to follow.The last one, is that their work on Brokeback Mountain had to end early.Both Ennis and Jack felt unacceptable to this matter, but there was nothing they could do.

respectively heartbreaking.When Ennis said that he and Emma would marry in November, Jack's expression as if he was about to cry was unbearable.

"Ennis is too cruel..." Someone couldn't help but say that, feeling worthless for Jack who had always shown that he was more attached to this relationship.

But when Jack's car drifted away, Ennis seemed unable to support himself, knelt down in the alley and wailed as if he couldn't breathe, beating the wall, and people's complaints about Ennis' "ruthlessness" stopped abruptly.Let go of what he loves, he is already in extreme pain.But it's an unacceptable, wrong relationship, and he has to play tough in front of Jack.Of the two people, there must always be one who remains sane.

Ennis and Jack separate.They returned to their "normal" lives, falling in love, getting married, having children, busy with their respective careers, and lived a very fulfilling life.That short and bewildering experience on Brokeback Mountain seemed to have been completely forgotten by them.But these new lives, these supposedly sweet and happy days, make people feel depressed and depressed for no reason.Ennis' deep frown, tight lips, and the reluctance under Jack's faint smile all showed their inner confusion, reluctance and resistance to this "normal" life, just like a taut string, ready to go at any time. There is a possibility of breaking.

I haven't seen it for many years, and I convinced myself that I had "forgotten" this misplaced relationship, because a postcard broke it all.Jack said he wanted to meet, Ennis couldn't wait to reply "", and waited anxiously for Jack's arrival.

The reunion of long-lost lovers, the uncontrollable kiss, so passionate and rough, full of tension between men, obviously should be fulfilled and joyful, but inexplicably makes people feel sad and uncomfortable.They suppressed their true feelings in order to live a "normal" life. Even with the company of their beautiful wives and children for several years, they still lived in depression and depression, and never showed the happy and pure smile on Brokeback Mountain.Even if they can hide in a corner and kiss wantonly now, there is always a sense of despair, because they both know that they have no future.Ennis' wife, Emma, ​​saw all this, and finally found the reason for the faint anxiety that had been going on for a long time, which she couldn't bear.And Ennis was too happy to meet Jack again, completely ignoring what was wrong with his wife.

Ennis and Jack couldn't wait to go to the world of the two of them. Behind Emma was holding her daughter and crying tremblingly.

Love and responsibility are the choices that many couples face when they have marital problems, whether they are heterosexual or homosexual.The choice of homosexuals is even more difficult, because they also face huge social and moral pressure, and homosexuals are almost overwhelmingly unable to gain support and recognition.

Here again a problem arises.Ennis and Jack love each other deeply, but because of various secular reasons, they suppress their true feelings and choose to get married and have children, but their love is left in each other's hearts, so they are unhappy. In a marriage without love, the wife A child is a heavy and unpleasant burden. As time goes by, their respective marriages have problems, quarrels, cold wars, and derailments, resulting in double pain. In the end, the family breaks up and no one can get happiness.So, what if Ennis and Jack were really together and didn't choose to marry and have children?Or the tragedy of the family will not happen, but the secular rejection and disgust of homosexuality will still turn the love between Ennis and Jack into a tragedy, just like what Ennis has always been afraid of, and die tragically like the gay man he saw when he was a child fear.

Even in this era, people's attitudes towards homosexuality seem to have changed somewhat, but the essence remains the same.Homosexuality is equivalent to a series of horrible terms such as perversion, promiscuity, and AIDS. Religious people and conservatives hate homosexuality deeply, believing that they pollute the world and should be eliminated like germs.

Once a Hollywood actor is confirmed to be gay, his future is almost ruined, and everyone avoids it in fear.So whether it is Lance, Ang Lee, or Jack's sister Maggie Gyllenhaal, after they discovered the "emotion" between Vogt and Jack, their first reaction was to do everything possible to stop it, regardless of whether they had What a beautiful way to express understanding.They wishfully believed that the relationship between Vogt and Jack was just because they were too involved in the play and couldn't get out of the role.Even Jack himself once thought so, so he silently accepted the "isolation" between him and Vogt by his sister and agent team.

Vogt also comforted himself, paralyzed himself with study and work, trying to get rid of the influence that Jack brought to him.Time helps people learn to forget no matter how deep their feelings are.Back then Jasper Brown's betrayal made Vogt want to die, but in less than two years, Jasper's face was already blurred, and when he thought about it occasionally, there was only a slight sadness left.

Perhaps, Jake Gyllenhaal is no exception to him.Vogt, who is well aware of his faults, thinks so.When it comes to relationships, he always puts in 12 points when he puts it in. Once he withdraws, he breaks it off. The stickiness just means that he hasn't found the next one.

But some feelings cannot be forgotten if you want to forget them.Just like Ennis and Jack, there was no news for four years, and when they met again, the relationship did not fade, but became stronger, like wine, the longer it was kept, the more mellow it became.

Vogt feels the same way about Jack.

If you still can't forget the other party after stepping out of the role, then everyone knows what kind of feeling it is.

It's not easy being honest and accepting.Because they are very clear that once a formal relationship is established, they will face a very difficult situation, and their ideals and careers have just started, and they cannot even withstand any storms.

However, I don't want to give up.

Ennis and Jack spent 20 years struggling, going round and round, between family and lover, between responsibility and love, between reality and beauty, between continuation and abandonment, short-term physical and mental freedom, spiritual Wanting to be one, long-term pain and depression, their feelings will never be in the world.

The sentence "I really want to know how to leave you" is not only the voice of Jack, but also the voice of Ennis, expressing all the difficulties and affections in the past 20 years.Ennis sticks to his responsibilities, and Jack despairs in waiting.

Ennis, who is responsible as a husband and father, and Jack, who is desperate and courageous for love, have irreconcilable contradictions, love but cannot stay together.Who is right and who is wrong?Which one can be blamed?

Jack died, ending his 39-year life in a near-suicidal manner.

Ennis was devastated.It wasn't until this time that he really overcame his fear of the tragic fate of homosexuality, and appeared in front of Jack's parents regardless of everything, even in the face of Jack's parents' insightful eyes, he was calm and fearless.Then he found a shirt in Jack's closet, the blue shirt that Jack wore when he and Jack started, with some dried blood on the sleeves, wrapped in this shirt, which he wore on Brokeback Mountain The one he had lost—the one he thought he had lost, but which Jack had secretly hidden, wrapped in his own shirt.The two shirts are stacked together, like two skins, blending with each other, regardless of you and me... This is Jack's long-cherished wish...

Ennis' life is still going on, he is poor and lonely, unhappy, but he can still fulfill his responsibilities as a father.The daughter left behind a sweater. Ennis picked up the sweater and opened the door, only to find that her daughter had gone. He calmly folded the sweater and put it back in the closet.

Inside the closet door hung the two stacked shirts that Ennis had brought back from Jack's house.But this time, instead of Jack's shirt wrapping his shirt, his shirt wraps Jack's.Ennis couldn't help touching Jack's shirt and buttoning a button, his eyes were red and moist, and he said hoarsely:

"jack, iswear..."

There was a cry in the screening room, filled with sadness.

Vogt's vision was also blurred, and there was a hard lump in his heart, which made him unable to breathe.He held Jack's hand tightly with one hand, cupped Jack's face in the other, and turned to kiss him.Jack cooperated meekly.Vogt tasted tears.

"Jack, trust me, we're not going to be like them..." Vogt said softly.

Jack couldn't speak, and shook his hand and nodded.

It is precisely because they have experienced such an ending that they will no longer deceive themselves and others.No matter what the result is, don't create tragedies in order to avoid feelings, and love bravely and thoroughly when you love.

No regrets, this life is not in vain.