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Eric loosened his tie and looked down at the tattoo on his arm, which was tattooed by Tang Qi pulling him years ago.

The pattern is complicated, and I have been doing it intermittently for a week.

Originally, there was a hideous scar on the wrist, which always made people pay too much attention unconsciously, and then associate it with something.That's why he thought it would be better to stab something to cover it up.

Ning Yici was actually not very clear about what happened in the first place, and he would row so hard that he wanted to die.

After more than 20 years, the scar has not completely disappeared, reminding me of my determination at the beginning. Fortunately, it is not on my right hand, otherwise my writing will be affected.

His right wrist is now severely injured. Although he has undergone rehabilitation and his daily life is basically fine, he cannot lift heavy objects.

It shouldn't be a good memory, though.

He still has the impression that during the ten years in Shanshi, he moved frequently with his mother.

Moved to the house of a man my mother dated.

Once it was a two-bedroom, one-living room. He and the man's son were squeezed into one room, which was only about ten square meters.

The man's son, who was five years older than him, had stopped reading for a long time, and there was always a lingering smell of cigarettes in the room. Once he was woken up by the movement on the bed during his afternoon nap, and when he opened his eyes, he saw the place close to him. people together.

The other party brought his girlfriend back in broad daylight while he was still in the room.

The quilt was lifted suddenly, and the two naked people hugged each other like this, the movements continued, as if he didn't exist at all.

The three of them shared the same bed, and the man's son smiled and asked him if he wanted to be together, just like his mother and his father, doing things every night.

How old was he then, fourteen or fifteen?Or smaller?

At that time, he ran out immediately and vomited in the bathroom. For a long time, he felt shadowed in his heart. Others were full of curiosity in adolescence, but he only felt disgusted.

Those fragmentary memories, some of the details are very clear.

Although the man's son stopped studying, he still had friends in school, two grades higher than him, because he regarded their mother and child as intruders, and would often have people come to "greeting" him.

Sometimes the table was missing, sometimes the books were missing, and so on. It didn't get better until after high school.

He never told his mother at that time. He even felt that the mother and son lived in someone else's house, and he shared someone else's room, and the man paid for their mother and child's living expenses.He was already at a disadvantage.

For so many years, his mother seldom went out to work, but took him to move constantly, and lived in one "uncle" house after another.

After he became sensible, he talked less and less day by day, and even had obstacles in getting along with others at school. He usually walked alone and completely closed himself off.

Ning Yici held his forehead, his memory seemed to be fragmented, he only remembered those bits and pieces.

He always felt like he forgot something important.

For example, why did he want to commit suicide in the first place, it must be a very important thing.

He actually asked his mother, but the other party told him that everything was over, and he was in a foreign country at that time. Gradually, he suppressed those doubts, and there was a voice in his heart that prevented him from exploring the past. .

At that time, his mother finally found happiness. His stepfather was a Chinese, gentle and gentle, and treated mother and son very well.

Therefore, those past events under the hustle and bustle have become no longer important, so why bother to untie the scars.

Hearing the sound, Ning Yici turned her head, and it was Tang Qi who was shopping, and she was still carrying a big bag in her hand, she seemed to be in a good mood.

Although Tang Qi is a Chinese-French mixed race, she has deep facial features and looks more like a Caucasian. She grew up in France and doesn't speak Chinese very well.More like a pure French girl.

Her Chinese name was given by her mother for her.Because Eric is Chinese, she has been asking the other party to call her Chinese name, and she thinks the pronunciation is nice.

"Eric, I bought a lot of things, I like this place, we should come sooner."

Ning Yici reached out to take the things in her hand, "We're going to stay here for two weeks, and when we're done, I can take you to see other cities. It's a rare opportunity."

Tang Qi hugged him happily, "That's really great." She pressed her cheek against the other person, and when she was about to kiss him in the next second, Ning Yici turned away sideways, and her body was even a little stiff.

This is not the first time, every time I want to have further intimacy, the other party will avoid it. Although the two are about to get engaged soon, their relationship is more like friends.

"Ning Yici."

Being called so few people would know and call him by his Chinese name, those who were in a daze suddenly came back to their senses.

The other party's Chinese has always been awkward, but the pronunciation of these three characters is unusually standard.

"Lare, sorry, I may need some time."

The other party shrugged, "It's okay, I am already very happy to be with you, and I will give you time."

The two have known each other for almost eight years, and each other's private life is very clean, especially when it comes to matters between men and women, she began to think that it was the unique conservativeness of Chinese men.

In the beginning, the two were just friends. Over the years, Tang Qi kept changing boyfriends. Once, after blowing out candles on his birthday, he suddenly said to Ning Yici: "What should I do, Eric, compared with you, I can't stand anyone. Not satisfied, I may not be able to get married, if I am not married at the age of 40, and you are still single at that time, we will be together."

At that time, Ning Yici thought that the other party was just joking, and the birthday star was the oldest, so he nodded with a smile.

I don't want Tang Qi to turn 40 in March this year and bring up the joke again.

He has been alone all these years, it's not that he has never thought of finding someone to accompany him, but it seems that he can't do it, he resists from the heart, feels wrong, and he can't tell why.

So the other party asked for his opinion in a serious manner, and he thought about it for a while and said, let me think about it for three days.

Three days later, he agreed to be with the other party. He has never been able to fall in love with anyone. He is not confused at forty and knows his destiny at fifty. The road is also a good choice.

He has some sexual frigidity, and the other party has always known it.

The house is a suite, and the two of them are not in the same room at night. They really don't look like people who are about to get engaged.

Ning Yici was lying on the bed, thinking of what that Mr. Zhao said, the other party spoke sincerely, could there really be someone who looks so similar to him?

But he really has no relatives in the country, and it has always been only him and his mother.More importantly, he hasn't been here for many years.

In fact, during the two days he came to Shan City, he was inexplicably anxious, and he couldn't figure out what to think about.

Ning Yici put away those messy thoughts in her heart, it seemed that she was really not suitable for this place.

Just wait until the time is over and go back to France.

---

It was raining heavily, the sky was gray, and the road could not be seen clearly even in the daytime. The speeding taxis splashed a lot of water. The teenager held an umbrella in one hand and hugged the child in the other. The umbrella was blown down by the wind. Turning around, only a few steps away from the eaves, the boy simply dropped his umbrella, bent his body, and ran in quickly.

The child in his arms was fast asleep, and the teenager did not bring his ID card.Looking anxiously, he found the scalper and bought a ticket to Shanghai. At this time, only the evening train was left.

The boy dragged the ticket and sat in the waiting room bustling with passengers.His eyes were bloodshot, his face was bloodless, and his body was too thin.

Maybe he was too tired, he looked up and saw that there were still more than six hours before the train entered the station.Then, at the noisy train station, he slowly closed his eyes.

---

Ning Yici turned on the wall lamp on the wall, he reached out and touched his face, his hands were full of tears.After that, he dreamed of that boy, frantically looking for the missing child, and his emotions broke down a little bit.

As if being there, he could really feel that feeling.

The boy in the dream had indescribably familiar facial features, just like himself when he was young. He didn't know why he had such a strange dream.

Ning Yici looked at the time, it was only two o'clock in the morning, and after that, he couldn't fall asleep again until dawn, that dream was too real.

The throbbing pain in the dream made him very uncomfortable.

What does this dream portend?If he is that boy, who is the child in his arms?

He wondered a bit annoyed, how could that boy just fall asleep at the train station. The train station in his dream had very simple facilities, and the time seemed to be decades.

It took a long time for Ning Yici to realize why he was obsessed with an inexplicable dream. He suppressed those emotions and tidied up a little. It was already dawn outside.

That strange dream made him feel uneasy all the time. Tang Qi said that he wanted to visit the school he used to study in.He took the other party to his alma mater, he thought, maybe going there, he could recall that missing memory, what happened.

Although he knew that there was a high probability that it would not be pleasant, but at his current age, he didn't think it mattered.

The anxiety in his heart has been rising, and it has reached the point where he can't ignore it. Besides, he also wants to figure it out.

After the two of them had breakfast, Ning Yici took Tang Qi out. More than 20 years later, Shanshi No. [-] Middle School has changed a lot. The school gate has undergone several renovations, and even the buildings inside are also quite different. Except the champion building on the far right.

Every year, senior three students would move to Zhuangyuan Building. It is said that Fengshui is good there, and many talents have been produced there, so although it is a bit dilapidated, it has not been demolished for fear of ruining Fengshui.

Because it is the weekend, two people can go in unimpeded, and the school's running track and stadium will be open to the surrounding residents who are exercising on weekends.

The two walked along the runway. Tang Qi's blond hair and blue eyes, surrounded by black hair and yellow skin, attracted the attention of many passers-by.

"Ning Yici?"

Hearing someone calling him, Ning Yici stopped in his tracks, standing in front of him was an old man with gray hair and wearing glasses.

Before, he also thought about whether he would encounter old acquaintances when he came here, otherwise, he could also ask himself about the past.

But after nearly 30 years, even if we meet each other, others may not know me.

Ning Yici never expected that she would actually meet her.

The other party pushed his glasses and took a closer look, "I shouldn't have mistaken the person, right?"

"Hi, I'm Ning Yici."

"Let me just say, I'm your head teacher in high school, don't you remember me?"

Ning Yici couldn't remember many things from the past very clearly, but it wasn't that he didn't have any memories at all. He didn't expect to meet his head teacher, "Hello, Teacher Xiao."

"I just said, I have a deep impression on you. I teach chemistry, and you were my class representative at that time. By the way, you changed schools suddenly at that time, and there has been no news of you since then. You are doing What."

Ning Yici was the first class he taught as a teacher. He was only 23 years old at that time, and now he is over 50. After the last class, he will retire and bid farewell to the three-foot platform.

I don't usually feel how fast time is. At a specific time, seeing a specific person will find that the gears of the years are turning very fast.

He still remembers playing basketball with the students in his class after dinner, but now he can only take a walk after dinner every day.

Those with old arms and legs can no longer toss and move, even if they want to refuse to accept the old.

"I immigrated to France with my mother. I left in such a hurry that I didn't have time to tell you."

Xiao Qing smiled, "It's no wonder I went to France." After a pause, he turned his attention to the foreign beauty next to his student, "Who is this?"

"This is my fiancée." After Ning Yici finished speaking, he chatted with Tang Qi on the side.

Tang Qi looked at the old man in front of him, but he didn't expect that the other party was Ning Yici's class teacher. He greeted him with a smile in blunt Chinese, "Hello."

"Hello." Xiao Qing was a little surprised, "You are not married yet, but yes, many people in foreign countries marry late and have children later. Lin Guowei's daughter is very old, and the little girl is as talented as his father, and graduated from university at the age of 20. Five In the first year, Lin Guowei came back to visit me with his daughter. He stayed there after finishing his studies in Beijing. Now he is a professor and very capable. The class I led was all dominated by the three of you. The boy is finished, one is you, one is Lin Guowei, a student who was transferred in halfway, he is tall and handsome, he seems to be called Xu Xiaodi, he is very good at playing basketball, he is our office teacher, and the focus of puppy love."

Xu Xiaodi, Ning Yici was stunned when he heard this name, and felt an indescribable feeling, as if he hadn't seen it for a long time.

Is this person my former friend?

"Lin Guowei has been looking for you, and he mentioned you last time. Since you have returned to China, please call him back. I happen to have his number. You two will be on good terms when you are studying."

"Ah."

After saying goodbye to the person, Ning Yici looked at the newly saved number on the phone, Lin Guowei, this person has been looking for him?

Speaking of which, he should be very clear about his affairs.

Ning Yici pressed the dial button, beeped five times, and the call was answered.

"Hello."

"Hello, is this Professor Lin? I'm Ning Yici." He volunteered his name.

Lin Guowei almost thought he had heard it wrong. His breath choked, and the test tube in his hand fell to the ground. "Who are you talking about?"

"I'm Ning Yici. I heard that you've been looking for me. What's the matter?"

After a long time, he began to wonder if someone was listening on the phone, and the other party finally spoke again, "Where have you been all these years? Where are you now?"

"I've been in France, just came back, and now I'm in Shanshi."

"Shanshi, right? Don't leave yet. This is your phone number, right. I'll come to you in these two days. No, I'll come to you today. I'll go to the airport now. Listen to me, you Never disappear without a word."

Ning Yici was startled, he could hear the trembling of the other party's voice, and couldn't help but tighten his breath.

"it is good."

---

Lu Yilin went home directly after work, and Zhao Shicheng had already received the Tiao Tiao.

He found that Zhao Shicheng was more careful than him, and the other party was IKEA IKEA.

The weather was too hot, so Lu Yilin made two cold dishes for dinner, and the taste was as light as possible. The summer temperature in Shanshi was really unbearable.

Originally today was the weekend, he didn't have to go to work, but he had just finished his annual leave, and the housekeeping department had a lot of things to do, so he had to report in advance. What was waiting for him on the table was a mountain of reports, all about this renovation. of.

The temperature dropped a little at night, and the three of them went out for a walk after eating.

Zhao Shicheng suddenly asked, "How do you want to celebrate your 30th birthday?"

"Ah?" Lu Yilin couldn't react for a moment.

"It's your 30th birthday, how about we go on a trip together? Let's go to the wine hotel four years ago, and dance together."

Do you want to relive old dreams?But his birthday is not now, Lu Yilin remembered, the birthday on his resume was one and a half years older than his actual birthday.

He never told Zhao Shicheng.

Lu Yilin smiled, "My birthday is not now. I actually don't know the exact date, but it's probably in winter, around November. I'm only 30 years old. At first, because I wanted to study early, Aunt Zhao sent me It's more than a year older."

Zhao Shicheng looked at the other party, and a flash of inspiration flashed in his mind. If this is the case, the time to leave with that man coincided.

Having a child at the age of 17 is a little early, but it is not impossible.

Zhao Shicheng thought for a while and said, "Yilin, I want to take you to meet someone."

"who?"

"You'll know when you see it."

"Do I know you?"

"do not know."

"That's someone you know." Could it be someone from the Zhao family?

"So to speak, I just met him once."

Then why did you ask him to meet, Lu Yilin looked at the other party suspiciously, and knew it when he saw it, so mysterious?

"Okay, but I'm very busy these two days, so I can only see you after get off work." After a pause, Lu Yilin asked again, "Is the other party a man or a woman, is she a beauty?"

Zhao Shicheng looked at each other, thinking of the two similar faces, and smiled, "You'll know it when you see it, but she's a great beauty."

Zhao Shicheng's evaluation was so high, Lu Yilin really became interested, "That's all right, I like beauties the most."

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Lin Guowei came out of the laboratory and directly booked the nearest flight. He didn't even have time to go home, so he took a taxi directly to the airport.

He was afraid that if he didn't notice, the other party disappeared again. He had no energy, and he would look for another one for more than 20 years.

His childhood friend, Ning Yici, was stubborn and sensitive. He was one year older than the other party. He had thought about taking good care of the other party, but it was all in vain.

This is his biggest shortcoming.

Twenty years ago, ever since that person approached Ning Yici, he had a bad premonition.But in the end, what he was worried about happened, and everything reached the point of no return.