Where did you get this substitute from?

When Su Shen was in a coma, she seemed to hear someone talking in her ear.

He tried to open his eyes, but the eyelids were too heavy to lift.

That feeling is like when he was a child, he was still snoozing when the sun was high, and his mother was nagging him to get up.

He raised his hand forward and murmured: "Dad, Mom."

That hand held his raised hand, and clenched it tightly to his stubbled cheek, Su Shen felt the sudden warmth from his palm, and wanted to withdraw his hand for a while, but couldn't.

This feeling of not being free.

Why does he keep bowing his head and compromising for life all the time, even if he wants to sleep in.

Su Shen choked up, he relaxed his psychological defense without being awake, and broke down in tears for a moment.

……

After being discharged from the hospital, Su Shen was more silent than before.

Talking to him while eating, he didn't seem to hear, just stared blankly at the rice, not knowing what he was thinking.

In the past, Ji Shutong couldn't bear his half-dead look the most, but now.

He sighed, put down his chopsticks, looked at Su Shen for a while, and then went upstairs silently.

Two days later, he saw Su Shen burning things in the yard. He walked over to see that there were only some wreckage left on the open grass. Even so, he could still recognize it. It was the handmade sailboat he and Su Shen built together. The one in the living room cupboard.

"Well why did you burn it?"

A voice with a different sign suddenly sounded behind him, and Su Shen shrank his neck almost imperceptibly.

He didn't turn his head back, he cleaned up the ashes on the ground in a panic, "...I'm sorry."

"I'm not asking you to apologize," said Ji Different with a tired tone.

He reached out to Su Shen.

Su Shen dodged reflexively, as if afraid that he would hit someone.

The expected fist did not come down, Su Shen raised his head hesitantly.

Ji Shutong couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, like he was lost after stepping on the empty stairs, but he was more determined than ever, even if he tortured each other like this, he couldn't let go.

He couldn't just throw Su Shen aside and say he didn't care about it after causing Su Shen such a disaster.

He can't do this kind of thing.

Su Shen lowered his head again, looking at the burnt black ground in front of him without saying a word.

Ji Shutong hugged him into his arms, as if talking to him again, and also as if he was talking to himself: "Don't think that if you pretend to be this virtue, I will let you go. You should die as soon as possible."

When Su Shen heard this, his shoulders trembled slightly.

He thought in his heart, Ji Shutong would let go, and when Jiang Xian recovered from his illness, they would be together.

He didn't want to wait until that day, and then be kicked out of the gate like a dead dog dragged by Ji Shu like before.

He thought desolately, if he returned the money to Ji Shutong, they would be settled, at least such a parting would not be too ugly.

……

After watching a movie in the bedroom at night, Su Shen's face suddenly became very strange.

Apart from the artistic attainments of this foreign film, it is also somewhat detached in terms of scale.

Generally, in this kind of slightly explicit movie, the heroine is very glamorous, and boys of his age are often not as simple as blushing.

But Su Shen found that she didn't feel anything at all.

This realization undoubtedly terrified him, he shrunk into the bed helplessly, covered in the quilt for a long time, his forehead was drenched with sweat.

After an unknown amount of time, there was the sound of the door being opened.

Ji Shutong had just arrived home, so he took a shower after entering the door.

After coming out of the bathroom, Su Shen was still curled up tightly under the quilt, suffocating.

He lifted Su Shen's quilt suspiciously, and saw that under the quilt, Su Shen seemed to have been washed all over, his clothes were clinging to his body, beads of sweat rolled down his forehead, and his hot cheeks were already flushed.

But this person's expression was not quite right, as if he had been hit by some major blow, and he looked a bit devastated.

"What's wrong with you?" Ji Shutong reached out and pulled him out.

Su Shen stared blankly at the ceiling, lying motionless on the bed, as if dead.He felt like he was done.

Ji Shutong walked around the room restlessly, but couldn't calm down.

He went to the balcony to smoke a cigarette and came back, still unable to control his emotions, he stepped forward and grabbed Su Shen by the collar, "What's the matter with you? Talk!"

This scene seemed to coincide with the night when Ji Shutong punched and kicked him not long ago.

What happened that night ran through Su Shen's mind like a revolving lantern.

His terrified appearance fell into the eyes of different traces.

Su Shen struggled and kicked in a panic, but seemed to think of something, and suddenly looked flatteringly at him, "I... I haven't sold it, I'm clean."

"...I ate well today, and I didn't sell blood...I will definitely work hard, and I won't faint again."

"Please, don't hit me."

His fingers were thin and white, and they held the hand that was holding his neckline, so weak that they seemed to be broken if they were pinched.

It was as if a hand reached into the arms with different traces, tore off the blood film, took out the heart alive, and then threw the still beating heart into the endless abyss without looking at it.

Every time he took a breath, his heart fell a little faster, and it kept falling forever.

He let go of his hand exhaustedly, and his eyes suddenly became moist.

It wasn't until this moment that he realized that what caused him great pain was not Su Shen's deliberate alienation and indifference, but that he had given Su Shen such a huge psychological trauma, but he didn't know it.

……

They haven't gone out together for a long time. Su Shen was still recuperating before, and he was busy with the company's bidding. Now that the matter has come to an end, he is going to take Su Shen out for a walk.

Su Shen nodded his head in a rare way, "OK".

On Sunday, Ji Shu took him to climb the mountain together to relax. The air is fresh, the scenery is beautiful, and it is not far from the city, so there will not be too much pressure for a day trip.

If the time is still early, you can also go to the temple on the mountain to ask for two lottery. It is said that the monk in the temple is very effective in solving the lottery.

Before setting off, Su Shen silently put the zongzi candies made by his grandma into the bag, now he was touching the hard corner of the mountaineering bag, looking up calmly at Ji Shutong who was talking to himself.

When Ji Shutong smiled, there was a shallow dimple on the side of his cheek, the smile was very handsome, he did look better when he smiled, Su Shen almost forgot when was the last time he saw him so happy.

Waiting for the traffic light to pass, he pointed out to Su Shen the temple whose spire could be seen in the distance, "See, that's the one. I've got the DSLR with me. We'll take some photos later."

It would be great if the photos could be published right away, Su Shen thought, he hasn't had a group photo with the same person yet.

Su Shen looked up from time to time to see the difference, and sometimes responded to him with a few words.

On the way there, Ji Shutong was still thinking, feeling that Su Shen seemed to be in a good mood today, as if she had let go of a big burden, so it was indeed a correct decision to come out to play.

Later, when he recalled that day, he felt that Su Shen owed him a serious farewell from the beginning to the end.

After this person stayed in his life for a short time, he left without a trace of remembrance, leaving him where he was, looking for traces of this person's stay all over the mountains and plains like a fool.

It was time to buy a bottle of water. When he came back, Su Shen was not under the shade of the tree.

In the monitoring of the temple, he saw Su Shen smiling towards the monitoring position in the video, raising his hand as a goodbye gesture, and then left without looking back.

That afternoon, when he was looking for Su Shen to climb the mountain and was about to vomit, a text message reminded him that 50 yuan had been deposited into his account. He suddenly felt something was wrong and asked his assistant to find out who made the money.

The assistant asked suspiciously: "This money is from Su Shen, but who is Su Shen?"

He frantically looked for Su Shen, but Su Shen didn't go home, nor did he go back to school after they left that day.

On a rainy night, Su Shen's grandmother knocked on the door anxiously.

The old man eagerly grabbed his hand and asked him: "...Where is Shen Shen, where did he go?"

He thought, Su Shen cared so much about his family, and hid the truth from his grandma to live with him, but in the end, everyone who shouldn't know knew about it.

……

Jins said that he wanted to take him in as an apprentice at first because he had a gambler's temperament.

During Su Shen's second year with Jin Si, Jin Si took him on a [-]-day cruise.

This oily old man, known as a gold hand, drinks all the year round and can't hold the flagon steadily. He looked at the endless sea horizon: "There is a boat that will wander the high seas for a hundred days, and only the winner is eligible to go ashore, because it is in the The high seas, so no matter what kind of gambling is set up on the ship during the period, it is not illegal."

Then he turned his head to look at Su Shen: "Is it enjoyable to listen to?"

He taught Su Shen a lot, so when Jin Si had a heart attack on the boat, Su Shen shed two tears for him.

Jin Si said: "Hey, don't be sad... You see, the other side of the sea is my hometown. You go home for me and take a look at my son. His name is Suxi, Jin Suxi."

On the day Su Shen returned to China, he didn't know that Ji Shutong was actually in the pick-up hall that day.

He got off the plane alone, pulled the suitcase and walked along the long aisle at the airport exit, watching his back disappear behind the glass door.

Not surprising.

Su Shen is a well-known financial expert in foreign countries. He studied under Jin Si, and his specialty is acquisitions and dismantling. Every project he handles has to squeeze out the last penny of profit, so it is inevitable that he will fall too hard. It is difficult for others to understand why he is obsessed with money so much that it is almost pathological.

Perhaps because of his bad reputation abroad, Su Shen didn't expect to be greeted by anyone when he came back.

He arrived at the reserved hotel, took a brief shower, and then leaned comfortably on the bedside with his eyes closed.

Just as he was about to fall asleep in a daze, there was a knock on the door outside the house.

He got up to open, room service, to deliver red wine.

Su Shen was puzzled: "When did I order it?"

"A gentleman ordered it for you."

Su Shen took the hand, closed the door by the way, put the red wine on the table casually, and then lay back in place.

Before I closed my eyes, the landline of the hotel next to me rang again.

His sleep was interrupted twice, and the god couldn't contain his temper. He asked angrily, "Who?"

After a brief laugh, a familiar voice came: "Is the red wine good?"

There is no wind and no moon outside the window, and the stars are shining brightly, as if there is an illusion that you can pick the stars with your hands.

Su Shen closed his eyes slightly, and also smiled softly: "The traces are different?"

"it's me."

Su Shen leaned on the pillow and leaned over, as if standing in front of him in a different way.

He quietly listened to the sound of breathing on the other side, although his eyes were not opened, he was no longer sleepy.

He said lightly: "Long time no see, how are you doing?"

Across the door, Ji Shutong was standing at the door of Su Shen's room with his back leaning against the door.

He didn't speak, and became the silent one.

Su Shen simply hung up the phone.

For a long time after that, Ji Shutong didn't take the initiative to contact him again.

……

In the fifth year after returning to China, he hooked up with Jiang Yu.

At first, he didn't know that it was Jiang Yu. Huanyu and Jiang's joint acquisition of Xiaguang International, he led a group of people from Huanyu out of Jiang's business department, and saw that unremarkable man in a small cubicle. small staff.

That appearance, that figure, seemed to be according to his wishes.

He felt a little turbulent, but because of the crowd, he didn't go up to hook up immediately.

Later, there were so many things that I forgot about it.

When we met again at the reception, Jiang's department manager was very respectful to an unknown person, whom he knew was Jiang Yu.

People in the Jiang family, but the problem is not big, Jiang Yu is not the eldest son, he was so attracted by Jiang Yu's face that he couldn't eat and couldn't sleep, thinking that instead of worrying about Dongchuang's incident with long nights and dreams, it's better to get started first.

His initial thought was very simple, that is, he didn't plan for a long time, and spent a few years with the idea of ​​playing around. Even if the adultery was revealed in the future and Jiang Yu wanted to get married, he would accept it, and by the way, he would prepare a generous gift for Jiang Yu.

Jiang Yu is not a veteran in the field of love, as far as he knows, he has never been in love a few times, so it can be said that it is expected that it will be in his hands in the end.

He got his wish, and Jiang Yumi made some adjustments, and at Christmas, the two held hands to order rings.

On New Year's Eve, Su Shen also took him to the Sichuan restaurant that he frequented all year round.

I just didn't expect to meet different traces.

Since then, Jiang Yu refused to go to the Sichuan restaurant again, and he was not allowed to go. He reluctantly gave up his love and gave up spicy food for Jiang Yu.

After Xia Guang's acquisition case was over, Su Shen stayed at the Si'er Hotel, because it was remote and quiet, and there was almost no business there all year round. In his opinion, it was a holy place to have an affair with Jiang Yu.

However, there was an unforeseen situation, and when he was preparing to build a nest, he saw something different in the hotel.

Walking towards them, Ji Shutong was followed by a boy, Su Shen's eyes fell on them, the boy first introduced himself, his name was Rong Huai.

Ji Shutong paid attention to Su Shen's expression, but Su Shen didn't seem to have any special opinion, he was about to bypass them and leave, when they brushed shoulders for a moment, Ji Shutong grabbed his arm.

With a cold tone, he let Rong Huai go up first, and then dragged Su Shen to walk towards the woods deep in the hotel.

They had a fight that day.

Su Shen is not the Su Shen of a few years ago, he speaks very rhythmically.

He grabbed Su Shen's collar against the tree trunk, wondering if he was mad, grabbed the back of the man's neck, and kissed him forcibly.

His lips and teeth parted, he rubbed Su Shen's lips roughly, and the strength of pinching the other's neck seemed to crush Su Shen.

Su Shen's eyes were blackened by the tossing and tossing of his dead hands. After recovering a little bit, he raised his knee as hard as he could, and kicked the same kick hard.

The wind picked up and the leaves rustled.

The skin on Su Shen's mouth was broken, and he was in pain. He raised his hand and rubbed the corner of his lower lip, and looked at Ji Shutong with a sneer: "Why, what do you want to do, do you think I will be afraid of this?"

Ji Shutong looked back with unfriendly eyes.

Su Shen seemed to be a different person, the Su Shen who made him feel so heartbroken disappeared, and became a stranger.

However, Ji Shutong didn't notice this at the time. He was furious at Su Shen's provocation, and said harshly: "Su Shen, what do you think you are? One day you will have to rush to beg me to take pity on you." .”

"Oh, I'll wait." Su Shen straightened his neckline, gasping for breath from the pain around his mouth, he cursed, and left Ji Shutong behind.

……

Probably because he felt that he approached Jiang Yu for a purpose.

After Jiang Xian witnessed him and Jiang Yu's rooming, and the Jiang family bombarded him with phone calls and text messages, Jiang Ying called him and asked him sincerely not to harm Jiang Yu.

After that, he greeted Jiang Juxian in the office exhausted.

Su Shen originally thought it was another old way of persuading them to break up to keep them safe, but this elder brother said something new.

He didn't expect such a harvest before.

Jiang Juxian confessed that he was the one who instigated Sur to blackmail him.

Su Shen paused for breath, and said lightly, "I don't know if it's been too long, it sounds like I'm listening to another person's story."

Jiang Juxian seemed relieved when he heard his tone, so he laughed and said, "Indeed, in essence, our deal is still very fair. You also took the 50 yuan for the bone marrow transplant. After all, you are not owed anything, right?"

Su Shen smiled, "If that's the case, why are you nervous?"

Jiang Juxian was stunned for a while.

"Let me tell you the brilliance of this matter." Su Shen sat upright, looked directly at Jiang Juxian, and said in a sarcastic tone, "In the beginning, you just set up a trap and waited for me to drill in. It's a heart, and I'm going to be in goddamn heaven listening to you talk about fairness now."

"Once the patient undergoes a marrow removal operation, and the donor repents, there is only a dead end waiting for the recipient." Jiang Juxian tried to explain, "Before you, we found a suitable bone marrow once, but that person temporarily repented. I have exhausted all methods and this person refused to donate again. Fortunately, Jiang Xian did not undergo myelectomy immediately at that time, otherwise the consequences would be unimaginable. If your relatives have experienced such a thing, I think you will also prepare one A more secure solution."

At the end of this conversation, what Jiang Juxian said was: "Besides, you didn't lose anything in the end, did you?"

In fact, he didn't have to argue with Jiang Juxian on this issue from the very beginning.

Perhaps in the eyes of the heir of the Jiang family, any loss that does not involve the interests of the Jiang family is not considered a loss.

The experience that almost drove Su Shen crazy was nothing to the Jiang family.

He laughed at himself, and gave Jiang Juxian an order to evict the guest: "It's over? What about me and Jiang Yu, it depends on my mood. I'm not the fool who just stood there and let others bully me. When the king of heaven comes, as long as I If you don’t want to break up, no one will persuade you to move, I made this very clear, if you understand clearly, please go back.”

Jiang Juxian raised his finger and pointed at him, almost losing his breath.

……

Jiang Juxian's limped leg was the result of jumping off a building and limping after losing half of the Jiang family's property.

He and Jiang Yu went to the hospital to visit Jiang Juxian. Taking advantage of Jiang Yu's time to answer the phone, he looked at the pale and haggard Jiang Juxian on the hospital bed and said sarcastically, "The eldest son of the Jiang family will have such a hard time."

As early as when designing Jiang Juxian, he never thought that he would be able to escape unscathed.

Afterwards, Jiang Xian investigated what had happened, and how much he had told Jiang Yu, Su Shen didn't know, but judging from Jiang Yu's angry appearance at the time, he guessed that Jiang Xian might have added more embellishments.

When he left Jiang Yu's house and drove back to Huanyu, he actually figured out a lot of things.

Just like what Ji Shutong said, what he is attached to is betraying him, and what he cares about is losing bit by bit.

He has nothing more to lose.

……

Six months after Su Shen was in a coma in the hospital, Ji Shutong went to the hospital to see him, and Jiang Yu was there that day.

It took him half a year to accept the fact that Su Shen committed suicide. When he appeared in this place, he thought he was calm enough, but when he saw Su Shen lying lifeless on the hospital bed, he still showed a confused expression.

Jiang Yu could tell that his condition was very different. He looked at the person lying on the hospital bed fiercely, and seemed to want to say something to mock Su Shen, but speaking to an unconscious person was nothing but self-consciousness. I can't find it quickly.

Then he turned his eyes to himself, and his voice was hoarse when he spoke: "He, I want to take him away."

Jiang Yu said mockingly: "Who are you, what qualifications do you have."

Ji Shutong frowned. In his eyes, if Jiang Yu hadn't had a face that resembled his own, Su Shen probably wouldn't have looked at him more.

He also asked himself what qualifications?

He laughed contemptuously: "What are your qualifications? Why do you think Su Shen fell in love with you?"

This was a thorn in Jiang Yu's heart. Normally, others would not dare to mention it, but Ji Hutong picked his pain spot. Jiang Yu punched him almost immediately, Ji Hutong didn't dodge. Standing where he was, he was punched by Jiang Yu.

The smell of fresh blood filled his mouth in an instant, he spat out blood foam, smiled contemptuously, and looked directly at Jiang Yu: "The person you should be most fucking grateful to is me, and the second is to thank your parents for giving birth to you so like me."

While they were working, if you pay attention a little bit, you will find that the heart rate meter beside Su Shen's bed fluctuated strangely, and Su Shen returned to calm after the violent tremor.

Su Shen died of cardiac arrest after being in a vegetable state for half a year.

…………

Ji Shutong drank a cup of tea to moisten his throat, looked at Jiang Yu in front of him, "But Rong Huai is not Su Shen."

Jiang Yu looked at him nervously.

Traces laughed contemptuously: "In this world, how can there be resurrection of souls by corpses."

"The Su Shen in front of you is the product of dissociation from Rong Huai's unbearable psychological trauma. He has been supporting me as Su Shen's substitute for so many years. He wants to be Su Shen more than anyone else."

Jiang Yu immediately retorted: "Impossible!"

"Think about it carefully, is it really impossible?" Ji Shutong looked at him calmly, "Stop fooling yourself Jiang Yu."