Lillian's Melaleuca routine

He has never thought about his own problems carefully, and his understanding of the world is also general.

It was as if all his ideas were born just like that, but he didn't know where they came from or who added them.

Am I focusing too much on the past?

Although Aya also mentioned this question, this was the first time Sigma asked herself such a question.

Reason told him a negative answer, but he still couldn't help but began to think about his personality and the past.

But before he could think about it for long, he saw Aya who was on the side suddenly running a few steps forward. She stretched out her hand to grab the hat to prevent it from being blown away by the wind, and her long hair was flying in the air.

At this time, they happened to pass by a bar, and the colorful billboards looked dazzling in the dark night.

It made her feel a little uncomfortable, so she half-closed her eyes and looked away.

It's strange, she likes these things very much in normal times, but now, she avoids them and speeds up to leave here.

"I like freedom the most." Aya laughed and said, she was not drunk, but went crazy like a drunk person.She turned around, made a face, and ran away abruptly.

"But I hate freedom." She said bitterly, with an angry expression on her face, but due to the distance, Sigma couldn't see her expression clearly, but he could hear the sullenness in Aya's tone, "Sigma, do you still remember me before?" Ask your question?"

What Aya was talking about was the last time she asked him to exchange information with her using his abilities.

She had interrupted him abruptly and refused to know the information she had always wanted to know.

"Do you want to know the answer, Lily." Sigma asked, he lowered his head, his heart began to beat faster, he put his hands in his pockets, and the heat began to rise uncontrollably, despite this, he was still chilled all over.

His mouth was dry and he didn't know what to say.So he began to stammer, his tone was a little pretentious: "If you want..."

"What's the matter?" Aya asked, "I don't even know the answer to the question 'What information do I want most', but anyway, it should be the information about 'Why the book became a human being'. "

Her tone was completely different from last time. This time, she just calmly and indifferently, as if talking about a trivial matter.

"This issue is not important to me now." Ling said, "In the final analysis, this issue has nothing to do with me. I used to like freedom so much, but now I'm tired of it. After all, I'm just curious about intelligence for a while That's it. By the way, Sigma, you already know the answer to the intelligence, right?"

Sigma nodded silently.

He didn't know what to say, until now Ling showed her extraordinary side in front of him, maybe this is the real her.

"At least for now, don't tell me. For me now, Schrödinger is in the best state." Aya said.

She never thought about the question of 'how I was created', and she never had any regrets in her short life experience, because she never stopped for the past.

"Lily, curiosity does get you into trouble sometimes."

Aya didn't deny it.Her interest is only halfway between discovering the question and knowing the answer, and the result is sometimes a burden for her.

"Remain between what I need and what I don't need, and freedom will always be with me," she said eloquently.

"You are different from Gogol." After a long time, Sigma said.

He and Gogol had just met, but he was very sure when he said this.

Based on the past, he and her have never had a conversation, but from a side point of view, he and her can be regarded as having some intersection.

In some ways, Sigma remains confused about his current state.

Because in the interpersonal communication with Aya, he no longer started to praise her like a god.

Aya's view of Fyodor is very strange, even counterintuitive to most people, but she can justify herself.Based on a kind of trust, Sigma began to doubt his own worldview.Because judging from her tone, she trusted Fyodor.

"Of course." Aya said logically, "Nikolai and I are people from two worlds, no matter how we look at it."

"Nikolai has a shortcoming. He puts too much emphasis on freedom. This is not a good thing for me, but he also enjoys it." Ling began to comment on Gogol, and she mentioned the heavenly man Five declines, "You all have this characteristic, and you are all persistent. Fei Jia is the same, and you are too."

Suddenly her eyes lit up, and she raised her head. Since she was facing the light, Gogol could only see that her eyes were extremely dazzling against the orange light.

"Is it because human life is short?" She began to mutter strangely, "What's the point of these things?"

Sigma has mixed feelings.Intellectually, this is good news for him.But psychologically, he began to doubt himself again. She and Gogol seemed so close, but what she said was so cruel.

"Don't pay attention to my words, Sigma. It's just my family's speech." Aya immediately added, her tone was casual, and she seemed indifferent.

Sigma tried to answer Aya's question, but found nothing.

Because he finds more and more that she often deviates from human concepts, she is fundamentally different from Gogol.

She doesn't seem to care about anything at all, and hardly desires anything, because everything is available to her, so easy.

"Lily, since ancient times, human civilization has been driven by desire." Sigma gave his answer, "After people learn to think, satisfying their emotions is the first priority besides survival. "

"Then you approached me also because of desire?"

When Aya looked over with sly eyes, Sigma said gently: "There is only a thin line between desire and love. I have never distinguished the two points. But Lily, please believe me, I came here as a plunder by your side."

"But I didn't come to you to save you." Aya said.

Their eyes met for a brief moment, and Sigma looked away.

Aya smiled, and said unhurriedly.

"Listen, Sigma. Most people in this world always look around with scrutiny. But there are so many undeniable truths in the world. Through the eyeballs, people see the environment, but at a certain multiple Maybe in the eyes of flies, everything is different. The angle determines the person’s standpoint. In this case, how can I say the word rescue? Salvation is active approaching passive, charity and Mercy, to me, salvation is a pejorative."

"It's like a stone falling into the sea, or a drop of water falling on a flower. I found you, not to save you, nor to love you. I came to you to find you."

Before Sigma recovered, she said again.

"You should know me better than Nikolai, Sigma. We are not from the same world."

"Then who are you in the same world as?" Sigma blurted out.

Then, he felt a pang of frustration.

In any case, it is impossible for him to get a satisfactory answer.

"Let me think about it." Aya began to ponder, and after several minutes of thinking, she still couldn't come to a conclusion.

Just as Sigma breathed a sigh of relief, he saw Aya turn her back and walk a few steps swaggeringly, leaving him with a black back.

"Fedya," she said.

"Huh?" Sigma didn't react for a while.

He froze.

"Fei Jia and I are in the same world." Aya turned around.

Sigma's eyes widened, and his hands on both sides trembled subconsciously a few times. He even took full steps, but Aya walked faster and faster.

"Lily, don't make such a joke with me!" He said with a troubled face.

Although he was sure that this was Aya's prank, but thinking of her previous evaluation of Fyodor, he began to disbelieve himself again.

A few seconds later, Sigma saw Aya running over laughing, raised her hand and patted him on the shoulder pretendingly.

He was very helpless and had no choice but to sulk at himself.

He raised his hand to pat her on the head, but put it down after thinking about it, they were not familiar yet.

Aya put her arms around him.

"Don't be angry, this is a joke. Sigma! Kind sir! I beg your forgiveness, please don't get angry with me!" She began to say nice words, "Look, didn't you find out? Smile, Sigma, if It will break my heart if you don't smile at me."

She had a hippie smile on her face, completely lacking the seriousness she had before.

"Fei Jia and I are really not the same kind of people." Aya explained.

In fact, she has no bottom in her heart.

She didn't know Fyodor well.

Sigma felt saved.

Then he felt another burst of anger, not at her but at Gogol.He thought, she must have been led badly by Gogol.

He pulled his hat in frustration to cover his ugly expression, and let Gogol take the blame.

Aya changed the subject nonchalantly, but she did have a purpose in saying these words.

But she doesn't really want to talk to him about these topics about herself. Compared with these, she is more willing to dig some information about the five declines of heaven and man from his mouth, but it seems that Sigma doesn't know the other members very well, and she also There is no question.

She clearly has better topics to talk about now.

"Have you decided where to go? Little tour guide. Is there any place you want to go?" Aya asked.

She began to change the subject, but this was indeed the focus of the moment.

Sigma is indeed a caring person, and in this case, he chose to take up the topic.

"Lily, I don't know if you've heard of kunafa, it's my favorite dessert. I'm from the desert and I had my first dessert in my life during Ramadan, Peterborough if you don't mind There are a few dessert shops near the center.”

Aya pulled out her phone, opened the memo, and waved the glowing screen at him.

"Excellent! Sigma, if you don't mind, would you like to write it down?"

They got together, and the luminous screen illuminated their faces in the dark night. Aya patiently watched Sigma type out the letters word by word. It seemed that he was not very familiar with these modern communication tools.

"There is a rabbit island on the Neva River. Do you like rabbits? Besides, Veliky Novgorod is also very good. By the way, Lily, do you want to see the Baltic Sea?"

"Of course!"

"It's also nice to have a rooftop viewing program at 65 Ligowski Boulevard..."

"I want to go to Viborg, and, Sigma, is there any company that provides helicopter or fighter jet flight services..."

"I think the answer is yes, but it will take time to confirm, Lily..."

In this pleasant atmosphere, Sigma still felt apprehensive, and this unease came from his feeling that he was sinking slowly, and this sinking was devastating.

He deeply understood that there was no love, no kinship, not even friendship between them.

At least for now, everything is his wishful thinking.