Lillian's Melaleuca routine

"I am a devout believer." Fyodor said, and Aya saw him make the sign of the cross in a pretentious manner.

Indeed, he seldom performed the actions that traditional believers should do, nor did he pray much before meals.

"Sorry, Fei Jia, I shouldn't have doubted your belief." Aya apologized perfunctorily, and then said, "Please continue with the topic just now."

"On the way home, I ran into her again, maybe her name was Maria? She was with her mother, and she was whining at her." Fyodor paused, and said, "'Mom, Obviously I have strictly abided by God's commandments, so I should be protected by God. But why does God want me to have enough food and clothing! If the seventh day is the Sabbath, mother, why can't you get rest? You have to go to the countryside to work ?On the seventh day, or even every day, you didn’t get a day of rest? And father, why does everyone talk about him? He is obviously not a drunkard and lazy! Why can’t God be kind and justify him, but let him die There shall be no rest!' her mother whispered, "don't talk nonsense, darling. We have been appointed by God from birth, how can we ask for more? Besides, how can human suffering be compared with God's ?Maybe in the eyes of God, suffering is a kind of consideration! Also, your father has ascended to heaven, and the things in the world have nothing to do with him.'”

"The daughter asked again, 'What about us? Why doesn't God take pity on us?' The mother murmured again, 'Maybe God has limited energy. He loves all living beings, but he only has great love and never favors any believers.'"

"Her daughter screamed and shouted: 'If this is the case, is war also appointed by God? God should end all this suffering! Why does he bring war to his believers! Does he think war is good?' Mother He sighed and said, "If war is compared to the devil, then war is also a test for people. God warns the world that people should experience the love contained in suffering and misfortune." Fyodor's tone was a bit dull.

"The daughter asked, 'In this case, mother, why do you tell me to love God? Is it to make me stand the test?' The daughter said. Seeing the mother nodding, the daughter continued to ask, 'Suffering is not given by God, teach me You are the one who suffers, mother, but why are you teaching me to believe in God? Isn't God nothing and above everything?'”

"What did mother say again?" Aya asked.

"She became angry and said loudly, 'My dear, this is not what I taught you, this is what God has taught you every time I communicate with God!' The daughter asked again, 'But mother, why have I never felt that? God exists? Is it because I'm not religious enough? But shouldn't God be selfless to his followers? How can he be partial because people love him differently?'”

"What a cute little girl." Ling was thoughtful, "However, Fei Jia, this has nothing to do with the book you read."

"Shouldn't God treat his believers selflessly? How can he be partial because people love him differently?" Fyodor repeated this sentence again, "I often think about some issues of success and failure."

"Ok?"

"God and his human representatives are two faces," he said.

"According to me, the church is made up of people. Of course, it is impossible to achieve the perfection of God." Ling retorted, "If his believers can fulfill all the duties of God, what should he do?"

"If you imagine the country as a representative of God, focus all your attention on the collective, attribute all the credit to the collective, root nationalism in people's hearts, dedicate everything to the group, and resist liberalism..." Speaking of this, Fei Odor's mouth was a little dry, and his voice lowered.

Aya turned and looked at him: "Are you talking about extreme nationalist political views?"

Fyodor nodded.

"It's different, Fei Jia." Aya said in bewilderment, "At least from a spiritual point of view, God doesn't ask his believers to walk on this path of desperation."

She looked at Fyodor, and approached him intimately, looking at his face.

"Will you tell me, Fedya," she repeated, "maybe I can gain your trust? Honey, remember what I said that day? I won't let you down."

She was referring to the conversation she had made while watching the sunrise from the top of the mountain, and they had been talking for that purpose until now.

Fyodor closed his eyes and lay on his back on the sofa, looking like some kind of plant drooping, delicate and fragile.

His mouth looked dry, and Aya could even see the chapped marks on his lips.

He didn't show any anxious expression, but Aya just felt that he was like a lost person who didn't get an answer at the moment.

Ling certainly didn't have the confidence to answer, but she just wanted to hear it.

Could it be that hearing Fyodor talk so much was also a rare moment to see Fyodor reveal his true emotions—although it was not obvious.

"If God wanted his people to go one way, why did his people choose another way?" The country has become a religion, just like Hitler attacked the Jewish people into oppression and destruction...Some people in our country are trying to do the same thing, maybe they are trying to destroy our civilization."

Ling was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect Fyodor to ask this question.

She had always thought of him as a crooked Christian, and in certain qualities he had exemplified this theorem well.

But this is not contradictory, people will always encounter some kind of obstacles on the road of faith.

As with the definition of the term God, some people think that God is immanent, while others hold the opposite view.

"First of all, it must be clear that everything has two sides. This may be the disadvantage of the country as a subject." The point that makes Ling doubtful is actually another point.

Why is he so good at thinking about such tricky questions but can't get back to his senses?

"Fedya, are you questioning God?"

"How?" said Fyodor with a sigh. "I don't doubt God, but I doubt man."

"However, religion is not constant in the process of spreading, and some of our traditional and innovative concepts of God are also different." Ling said.

"of course."

"The most important thing is that individual differences create different beliefs in turn. Just like Indians worship Brahmans. A collection of religions is always full of differences. A complex group of people who believe in God It's also different, like for some people, maybe they see God as a science, or a symbol of perfection, or a vague concept... Maybe God still remains perfect, but his system of believers has changed collapsed, and even assimilated by the devil."

Fyodor said: "Because the human heart is greedy."

Under Ling's strange eyes, he continued: "Since God teaches people to stand the test, and he does not kill the devil but lets the devil accept the scrutiny of the world, then naturally there will be devils mixed into the crowd."

"It's people who become devils!" Aya retorted dissatisfiedly, and she continued to emphasize, "How can people be distinguished from devils? Some people are born devils!"

"No." Fyodor was very persistent, "It's the devil who infiltrated the human community."

"It's hard to distinguish people's hearts. Some people are angels, while others tend to be demons." Aya tried to reason, but it was hard for her to convince herself.

Are the two of them arguing?

"Lilian, you can't convince me." Fyodor still shook his head, he said, "I think that character is determined by nature, and acquired is just a process of stimulating nature, this is not indeterminism, nor is it weak absolutism. "

...It seems that Fyodor didn't take her statement seriously either.