Lillian's Melaleuca routine

"I can't solve this problem," he said.

"What are you worried about, Fedya?"

"...I don't understand." He was silent for a moment, and said slowly, "God helps people to build a country, but he never gave people the rations to live and survive. Instead, he told them that the rice is there, but it depends on human beings. Grow it yourself. If humans grow food, should it be God’s credit or human credit?”

"Can't both sides have credit?" Aya asked.

"People sang praises to God because he helped people find food. Those who planted it also harvested food." Fyodor said, "Another hypothesis, if God came to people and took them to find food, What do you think they will do?"

"First ecstasy, then hatred of God," Aya said, "because food is limited. When starving, they will think of him again, but he will not come again."

"Since then, I have thought of a conclusion." He said, "People are not pure, so they admire God so much. And people don't need God-a true and kind god, what they need is a person who is not pure. A helping hand in struggling to solve problems.”

"Why does that person believe in God?" He said blankly, "If God comes at this moment, will that person be happy? Maybe they will welcome and pray to God to satisfy their wishes, but God is fair, he cannot Fulfilling all their demands and fantasies, and if so, will they embrace God with the same heart?"

"The ruler must not be happy to see this scene, which poses a threat to his rule." Ling added, "It turns out that a non-existent God is perfect. Human beings are good to God. Because the people obviously don't They need God, and God cannot help them realize their most urgent wish, and the land and food they depend on most for survival are controlled by the ruler. In this way, people will compromise their vested interests, and it is the country that brings them Bread. How should they choose between bread and God?"

"Yes, people will choose bread and give up God." Fyodor said, "If this is the case, is God still perfect? ​​In the eyes of people, God is no longer the perfect existence."

Aya looked at Fyodor with a chuckle.

"This creates a paradox." Aya said, "Is it useful to believe in God? Is it necessary for a religious country to exist? If everyone is a personality with a mixture of good and evil, and punishment cannot stop the occurrence of crime, then crime and punishment Is it necessary to establish it?"

"I never doubted my faith," Fyodor said. "In today's society, people's beliefs have completely changed."

But he wasn't very sure when he said that.

Aya moved closer to him and leaned against him.

"There is a paradox of ethics and morality. If faith and restraint are not so convincing, when he realizes that these highest ideals and morals are actually not relevant to him, when he understands that a free man has the right to commit crimes, but Faith and the law are a compromise for him. Yes, maybe it is against the common sense for the world, but for them, crime means right, because crime is human nature, and crime is not right for this part of people. It’s about freeing yourself.”

She had never had such a clear and divergent moment of thinking, because she read some fragmented emotions from some of his thoughts.

Let her feel that he is pure.

"Because of this, because of the existence of crime and punishment, faith is all the more important."

"Indeed, in the contemporary era of material development, because of the existence of science, people have doubted beliefs, and the difficulty of obtaining resources has been greatly reduced, and because of the rising awareness of self-affirmation, human beings have less and less need for God. But The world has not been out of orbit and has been spinning. Because of weakness, maybe good and evil are not so clear in a person. But for anyone, evil is unbearable. The law will pick out some of the evil, and punish the guilty Wrong people should be punished. Facts have proved that the law is still necessary, but the existence of the law is for social stability, while moral evil is another aspect. In my opinion, the ultimate purpose of punishment is not to persuade Others, but to persuade myself. Even if the punishment is imposed, the crime still exists, and only those who have no faith will commit crimes." She said patiently.

"But how did you get into such a situation, Fedya?"

"How can you doubt God? I believe that at least there are people who don't believe in God because of self-satisfaction. My dear. We don't believe in God to comfort ourselves or others, but because we are always full of hope for this belief .to learn more about God's inner being so that we can turn the corner and move toward the perfect cycle. Instead of believing that love will come, move toward the lighthouse."

"And God just stays the same, teaching us how to love the world as before."

They didn't speak for a long time, and the time passed slowly amidst the sound of breathing.

Aya kept looking at him for a long time.

Fyodor was covered with a purple mist at this time, his eyes were a little loose, and he had fallen into an unknown situation.

"I'm trying to clarify something. Do people need faith? Yes. But you haven't told me whether people need God."

It seemed that he was caught in a strange kind of denial.In his constant examination of himself he may have discovered a paradoxical disorder.

He muttered to himself, unable to extricate himself, nor was he persuaded.

"If God were asked to answer the trolley problem, what would he answer? If he did nothing, the trolley would kill one person, but if the trolley was diverted, the trolley would kill five people. Of the only two answers, neither is perfect . Whichever option he chooses, he will face charges of homicide."

"I can't answer..." Aya said honestly.

"Maybe God can't answer either," Fyodor said, "but he has to choose. In any case, people can't love him as much as they did, and anyway, a person is killed for his reasons, even if he did the most important thing." Beneficial choice...I am therefore caught in a kind of doubt and suffering."

He was restless, and the words in his mouth didn't stop.

"In any case, I have faith... But I can no longer tell whether this faith is rational or emotional. Helpless, God is slowly declining in this era, because human beings no longer need to get self-satisfaction from God ...Would it be possible that I will end up on this path of doubt?..."

Finally, he stated his conclusion.

"Can't get an answer, that's why I feel sad..."

Aya interrupted him.

"Have you finished speaking? Fedya," she said coldly. "If you have finished, is it my turn?"

"That's a question you should ask yourself, Fedya. You've already given the answer, haven't you? Let me convince you with your theory. Since God is omnipotent, he will not let his followers face such The choice of survival. And you need to make choices again and again."

"Isn't it your expectation to kill all the supernatural beings?" she said, "What made you fall into a situation of self-doubt? Guilt? Then why do you start to regret your decision and start to hesitate? Are you done? Or do you want to forget about everything and get into the right place where you don’t have to choose? Do you want God to make the decision for you?”

Fyodor didn't answer.

She suddenly fell into a kind of anger that came from his almost tacit answer.

"You let me down, Fei Jia." Ling said this sentence calmly, and then she said in an almost questioning tone, "All along, do you think you are doing something great that is beneficial to all mankind? Are you trying to deceive yourself? Please ask yourself, are you using greatness as a threat to kidnap me to do things for you? The things we are talking about now may be manipulating the lives of the people below.”

"What are you thinking, Fei Jia? Are you cowardly at this moment?" She cursed loudly, even a little unscrupulously, "I don't have such sentiments, nor am I interested in helping human beings solve problems. This What does it matter to me whether the world is destroyed or not? Do you understand? Do you want me to teach you how to persuade myself?"

"Oh! What a fool you are! We're still talking about these things." She couldn't bear to push him away, and then stood up.

"Listen," she said, "listen to what I'm saying now, and I'll just say this once."

There was a sudden silence between them.

Fyodor didn't want to say a rebuttal, but even so, he supported one cheek with one hand, distorting half of his face, and turned to her, looking intently at Aya.

Cold and familiar calm eyes, but not expressionless coldness.

Ling immediately became half sober as if she had woken up from alcohol, and she immediately began to regret her sudden impulse.However, the words have already been spoken, and she will not take back what she wants to say.

"One day, a person told me that he was going to do a big thing, even if he was not so sure in his heart, but he would do it." Ling said, "I will not take this sentence as a joke, because he is serious No one encourages that this is right, how absurd it would be to ask a person who has never traveled far to want to go far!"

"But it's okay," she said, "because it's what you want to do. I'll tell him, fly, go where you want to go. No matter what, don't stop. Don't look back, like shaking a feather Shake off the regret. Please do everything possible, regardless of the truth."

"Will you help me, Lillian?" he asked.

She understood where his focus was.

The author has something to say: Because there is a list this week, the date will be changed to Tuesday.

I just read the outline I wrote, and found that I couldn't understand it myself... But I read this paragraph, and it feels okay.

I seem to have said before that I think Wenye's Tuosi doesn't believe in God, so it's a slap in the face!

The God here is not a god, nor is it a religious symbol, but a collective term for people's beliefs, which is the spiritual pillar.

And "The Brothers Karamazov" is Doshi's best work. I feel that it is ahead of "Crime and Punishment". Anyway, I can't stand Crime and Punishment. If you are interested, you can read it.