My first love after four years of separation came to my store to buy cakes

After Guan Zishan answered the milk pudding dumbfoundedly, he thought for a while, since the milk pudding served him as a spiritual mentor before, and now that he has solved his relationship problems, should he reciprocate and be the same? The spiritual mentor of milk pudding, how about helping him cook chicken soup for the soul?

Guan Zishan thought he was a good person who would repay his kindness, so he smiled slightly and planned to be a bosom brother to Milk Pudding.

Lianzitang: By the way, last time you said you were broken in love, how is it now?

Milk Pudding: Now I have the third spring of my life again!

Lotus Seed Soup: Cough, that’s right, there is no grass anywhere in the world, why bother hanging on a tree, you can get out of the previous relationship in time and invest in the new relationship, not bad, not bad milk pudding: But I hanged the lotus seed soup from the same tree:  …

Milk Pudding: I got back together with him again! ? (??·?w?·??)?

Lotus seed soup: ... what a coincidence, I just got back together with my ex, and you also got back together with your ex Milk Pudding:? (??·?w?·??)?

Lotus Seed Soup: Do you... like dessert?

No matter how dull Guan Zishan is, when he sees so many coincidences, it is impossible for him to continue to ignore them.

At the beginning, he felt that the milk pudding gave him a feeling of deja vu, and he could comfort himself that it was a coincidence, but as he got along these days, he became more and more unable to ignore the various coincidences in their chatting process ...

Milk pudding: I like it!My favorite is milk pudding~

Lotus seed soup: ...why?

Milk pudding: because it was the first dessert my wife made for me~ shy~ lotus seed soup: ...

Guan Zishan twitched the corner of his mouth.

Milk pudding, Ding Naichuan... Guan Zishan silently recited these two names several times in his heart.

Then he realized, no wonder he always felt that the two names were somewhat similar, they were homonyms!

No wonder he felt like something was wrong at first.

Lotus Seed Soup: So it was you, hehe

Milk Pudding: Haha, what do you mean, why am I a little scared qaq Lotus Seed Soup: ...is it fun to play me?

Milk Pudding: ...I'm not kidding you!When I hadn't started to hang out, the first radio drama I heard was yours, and I recognized it was your voice as soon as I heard it!But I've been in the circle for so long, and I've rehearsed several scenes with you, yet you can't even recognize my voice!Obviously you can't hear my voice yourself! qaq lotus seed soup: ...

Lotus Seed Soup: So blame me?

Milk Pudding: It's your fault!Before that radio drama, I hadn't heard the radio drama that followed, and I didn't know what the radio drama was, but I knew it was you as soon as I heard that radio drama. You still played someone else's boyfriend in it, and you called him dear!

Lotus seed soup: ...

Milk Pudding: I don’t know what circle this is, but I want to get close to you again, so I plan to get close to you in a mixed circle, but I’ve brushed the presence in front of you so many times, and I’ve even had YY live with you, you They don't even recognize me!Now that you finally recognize me, blame me for not telling you!

Lianzigeng: ...It does sound like it's my fault

Milk pudding: it's your fault! qaq

Guan Zishan was a bit dumbfounded, but in the final analysis, Ding Naichuan really did nothing wrong. He never deliberately concealed his identity, and even vaguely hinted at himself several times.

It's just that he always felt that such a coincidence was impossible, and he subconsciously didn't want to connect the reality with the Internet, so he kept ignoring the previous coincidences and clues.

Otherwise, looking back, the answer that Ding Naichuan is milk pudding is already obvious.

No wonder milk pudding and him were so at odds with him when he was on YY for the first time, so arrogant, so awkward, so frowned upon, if it were anyone else, it would be impossible for him to be calm when facing his first love who dumped him for no reason get up

Guan Zishan recalled the scene when he and Ding Naichuan met for the first time four years after they broke up, and he suddenly realized that when Ding Naichuan pushed the door and walked in, he must have recognized him at a glance, but he just kept pretending not to recognize him. That's all.

After that, every chat and conversation, Ding Naichuan kept pretending that he had forgotten about Guan Zishan, but in fact, he was just deceiving himself and others just like Guan Zishan.

He pretends that he doesn't love each other for a long time, he deceives others that he has forgotten the other party, he even deceives himself that he has let go, but he can't deceive himself if he can deceive others, even if he keeps hypnotizing himself, he can't deceive his heart .

Guan Zishan, like Ding Naichuan, was deceiving himself and others, and thought he had concealed it well. Looking back now, Guan Zishan felt that he and Ding Naichuan were like two timid and cowardly kittens, stretching out their little paws to each other. Touching each other, but afraid that the other party will hurt you, you can only advance and retreat cautiously, testing each other.

Shaking his head, Guan Zishan smiled silently, he and Ding Naichuan are two childish cowards.Ding Naichuan was probably afraid of being hurt again, but what he was afraid of was...

……what is it then?

Guan Zishan gradually remembered that after entering the third year of high school, Ding Naichuan not only became more and more outstanding in height and appearance, but also in other aspects. His whole person was much more dazzling than before. Even if Guan Zishan doesn't show it on the surface, he will still feel a sense of crisis in his heart.

Due to the divorce of his parents since he was a child, Guan Zishan has been more sensitive than ordinary people in his heart since he was a child, especially the experience of being abandoned by his mother, which made him always worried, fearing that one day Ding Naichuan would also leave him. Ding Naichuan became more and more dazzling, as if he was getting further and further away from him.Every time he saw Ding Naichuan tactfully reject those girls' confessions, Guan Zishan would accumulate some dark emotions in his heart.He thought, even if Ding Naichuan refused this time, what about next time?What if Ding Naichuan doesn't want to refuse next time?

...Until he found out that Ding Naichuan's stepmother was the woman who abandoned him, Guan Zishan's dark emotions burst out in an instant.He thought, if you are close to Zhu, you will be red, and if you are close to ink, you will be black. Since the woman who abandoned him has become Ding Naichuan's stepmother, Ding Naichuan will definitely leave him in the future.

He didn't want to wait for that day to come, so he thought, let him be the one who chooses to leave.

Because he... was afraid of being abandoned.

Guan Zishan was in a daze, but now that he thought about it, he felt that he was really ridiculous and pitiful at that time.

He remembered more and more things that he had deliberately forgotten. He remembered that since the day he and Ding Naichuan broke up, he had suffered from obsessive-compulsive disorder for a long time because of extreme anxiety and insecurity.Stay at home and don’t want to go out. Every time you go out, you have to make sure that the key is there. Even if you stay at home, you have to check whether the door is locked every once in a while. You have to wash your hands, dishes and clothes three times. You have to flush the water three times to go to the toilet.At that time, Guan Zishan was very nervous and worried about gains and losses.

After entering university, Guan Zishan gradually broke away and began to have normal interpersonal relationships, but perhaps because there was still a hurdle in his heart, it was difficult for him to become friends even if he interacted normally with others, and even if he became friends with others, it was very difficult. It's hard to make friends, so in the four years of college, he had almost no buddies to talk to, and he was so afraid to make friends, let alone fall in love.

That's why Guan Zishan chose to release himself on the Internet. In that virtual world, no one knew who he was, no one knew his real identity, so no one could hurt him.

Guan Zishan laughed suddenly, if Ding Naichuan hadn't come back, maybe he would never fall in love with anyone else in his life, because Ding Naichuan was the only one who walked into his heart before he set his heart.

...is the first and the last.

There was probably no one else but him.

Lianzigeng: You are back this time, will you leave in the future?

Milk Pudding: Don't go!Even if you want to break up with me and make me fall in love for the third time, I won't leave!Even if you drive me away, I won't leave!At worst, I will be naked in your shop every day.Ben makes you unable to do business! ╭(╯^╰)╮Lianzi Geng: ...I think this is a good way of promotion, if you dare to be naked.Ben, maybe people from the whole city of D will come to the store to watch, and then the business of the store will be improved to a higher level. Follow you, steal your clothes and socks to hide, steal your panties and masturbate lotus seed soup: ...and steal my photo and print it on the airplane cup?

Milk Pudding: Cough cough, don’t mention this kind of thing~ shy~ Lianzitang: where did you order that masturbation cup?

Milk Pudding: What do you want~ shy~ I won’t give you my photo~ But if you call me husband, I will consider it~ Lianzi Geng: Go write a bad review for that store, hehe Milk Pudding: Daughter-in-law, you So awkward~/(tot)/~~ Lotus Seed Soup: Confiscated airplane cup, handed over to milk pudding tomorrow: Why~ That is my soul sustenance for four years of vacancy~/(tot)/~~ Lotus Seed Soup: You are now the whole person It's all mine, including the one below, have you asked me for my opinion on using it?

Milk Pudding: Do you want to use it~shy~

Lianzigeng: And now that I am here, what more do you want? Milk pudding in an airplane cup: ...Wait, this sentence is very informative! ! !

Guan Zishan smiled slightly, since Ding Naichuan is back, he is going to throw himself into a trap, this time even if Ding Naichuan wants to leave, he will not let Ding Naichuan go... Even if Ding Naichuan wants to leave him, he will not If Ding Naichuan had the courage to "abandon" him if he was given a chance, he would castrate Ding Naichuan's "courage".

Of course, he is not such a bloody and violent person. If Ding Naichuan dared to leave him, he would only break Ding Naichuan's "one leg"—yes, "that leg".

Milk Pudding: ...Report to the leader!I want to use Xiaochuanchuan now!Please approve the leadership!

Lotus Seed Soup: Huh?What are they used for?

Milk pudding: It’s a bit disobedient, I didn’t let it stand and it stood up by itself, I have to teach it a lesson/(tot)/~~ Lotus seed soup: Approved, but airplane cups are not allowed Milk pudding: No need for me I can’t control it~/(tot)/~~ Lianzigeng: It’s okay, I’ll help you manage it, but from now on you have to obey my orders Lianzigeng: Now... take off your pants Milk pudding: Report to the leader !I have taken off my pants!

Lotus Seed Soup: Huh?how so fastonly a few seconds

Milk Pudding: I'm not fast at all!It's just that the speed of taking off the pants is fast!As long as I imagine that my daughter-in-law is on the opposite side, I can take off my pants very fast ~ Shy ~ Milk Pudding: Do you want to take off your underwear now?

Lotus Seed Soup: Don’t use it first, um, let’s touch it through the underwear first.