Plaid shirt and star armor

Cen's family lives in the family compound of the government office, and his parents are keen to revitalize the neighborhood relationship. Cen Jingming came back from the winter vacation of his first year in college, and the girl next door came to pay New Year's greetings. Newly built aquarium.

The girl was peeling an orange. Hearing this, she started too hard, and the juice splashed on the sweater.Cen Jingming gave her a consoling smile, handed the paper towels, and opened several for her while she was carelessly wiping her clothes, spreading them yellow and clear in the middle of the fruit plate.

It seems that he can do everything with ease, even the skins of the fruit are not broken, the tendons are connected, and the strings are tied together, just like the lamp mentioned by Bing Xin in the elementary school textbook.The girl faced Fei Hongxia and was about to thank him when she heard Cen Jingming say "I'm sorry".

His mother would complain to her best friend half-truthfully, saying that raising him was meaningless, that it was fine if he couldn't get involved in academics and health, and that he didn't have to worry about falling in love!Cen Jingming was catching up on a 16-mo manuscript at the time, and when the watercolors were dry, he raised his head and smiled and said, don't worry, it's still early, can I save you trouble?

"That's right," his mother said after thinking about it, "You should do what you are at any age."

He nodded stiffly, lowering his head as if concentrating on the work at hand, but the color blocks were distorted by the invisible squeeze.When you are young, you need to grow up quickly, when you are young, you need to study hard, and when you are young, you want to start a family and start a business. Cen Jingming is like a silent street tree, allowing the grower to trim the branches into any desired shape.

At the age of 22, Cen Jingming came out of the closet. He was too familiar to hide his secrets. The news, together with his dropping out of school, spread wildly in the courtyard.The mother cried and scolded, saying how you have grown up like this, how can you let your mother hold her head up in the future.He rented a car, took away the things his father threw in the corridor, and met the girl who had a crush on him before leaving.

She had already made a boyfriend, Xiaoniao held the other's arm in a friendly manner, her bright smile disappeared the moment she saw Cen Jingming, she quickly turned her head, and pulled him away, as if he was something that couldn't see the light of day dirty things.

Cen Jingming smiled indifferently, and left without looking back.

It only took a few minutes, and it reminded him of that day, the part of Cen Jingming who thought he had already thrown it away.Fu Qianshu slowed down for a long time, the mess of vomit was smeared on the ground, next to the exit was an Apple experience store, a few customers walking from inside looked this way, Cen Jingming moved calmly, just in time Block those who can't be called friendly eyes.

"Do you know that you have a fever?" When Fu Qianshu raised his head, he touched it and said, "Wait for me here."

After speaking, he walked away a few steps, then turned around and said, "Don't go."

His tone was almost pleading, Fu Qianshu was so dazed that he couldn't think of refusing.

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Because of the cold, Fu Qianshu consciously stood inward a little while the warm air was blowing downward from the entrance of the supermarket. At this moment, his blood seemed to start to flow.Like a frog boiled in warm water, he couldn't even turn his head, and repeatedly hovered on the edge of the option of "leaving without authorization".

There was a fishy smell in his mouth. He touched the place Cen Jingming touched just now, wondering if it had a psychological effect, it felt really hot.Finally, Fu Qianshu leaned against the corner of the wall and slowly figured out the ins and outs of the situation one by one.

That day, the misunderstanding started when he saw the person who covered half of his face greet him gracefully.He was afraid of leaving a frivolous impression, so he never used any representative words to address the other party, and "if you don't sing, you will be a blockbuster", he remembered this old saying, and felt that girls are enough to bear such a name.He was worried about the other party's personal safety when he went to the bar, and was even a little angry at Cen Jingming's indifference, so he sat in his unlined clothes until almost midnight, and his nose started to runny the next day.

He preconceived it as a matter of course, so that he never thought of another possibility.

But Cen Jingming accepted and responded, and his reciprocation made Fu Qianshu overwhelmed after everything came to light.Fu Qianshu stroked the ugly crack on the phone screen, and before he had time to mourn for his lost love, he fell into a deeper sense of guilt.

"Homosexuality" - these three huge scarlet letters stood in front of Fu Qianshu's eyes.

But they are cold and strange.He recalled the few contacts he had with them. Once in the first half of his freshman year, because J college students were still using the public bathhouse at that time, he passed by one afternoon, and when he was about to take off his clothes in a closed cubicle, he saw four strips peeking out from under the baffle in the next cubicle. legs come.

Fu Qianshu thought that someone among them forgot to take the card, and opened the wardrobe roughly, just in time to hear an overflowing low moan.It's lifelike, even more lively and fragrant than those in pornographic films.

He was frightened out of his wits, rolled up his things indiscriminately, and fled away like a whirlwind.

Occasionally, I will see entertainment gossip in this regard, or the data released by a certain organization, saying that what kind of infectious disease is related to inappropriate behavior, it is either eye-catching or shocking, and if it is closer to life, it is at most the nerds of the accounting institute. Harmless naughty joke.These three characters are so alien to Fu Qianshu.

There are dangers to health, there are chaos and abandonment, and there are worldly eyes. Why did he choose such a difficult path? It is more incomprehensible to Fu Qianshu than those expensive Impressionist paintings.

Yet one of the group smiled at him, said good morning and good night, and had several conversations on the phone, even while quietly listening to his incoherent nonsense all the time.Seeing his big reaction, the man didn't accuse him of being rude, but brushed his hair back, tested his body temperature, and informed himself of his physical condition with concern.

Cen Jingming is completely different from the "those people" in his impression, but it is clear that they are stacked together.

The gentleman's politeness was frozen into a nail, and Fu Qianshu was firmly wedged in this corner.

Fu Qianshu's mind was full of chaos, until a private car blew its horn on the side of the street, and the window rolled down, revealing the face he saw a quarter of an hour ago.

His thinking was already overloaded, he could only believe that he walked forward with his legs, and came to the front of the car like a walking corpse, and suddenly thought that he had lost his composure just now, he gritted his teeth in embarrassment, and finally climbed into the passenger seat.Just because I forgot where I saw it, when there are only two people in the car, sitting in the back row is disrespectful to friends.

"Where are you going?" Fu Qianshu almost bit his tongue.

"I'll take you to the hospital," Cen Jingming said, "you should take medicine and injections, and get better sooner, so as not to delay your studies."

There was another red light ahead, so he put down the steering wheel and turned his head to look at Fu Qianshu, who stammered and asked, "What—what's wrong?"

Fu Qianshu felt as if he was wrapped in a ball of yarn, and the more he struggled, the tighter he was wrapped. He wanted to say that he didn't need to bother, just go back to the school hospital to see him, but he couldn't resist when he opened his mouth.

People like him who are not good at anything feel that Cen Jingming can bear the word "beautiful". , the facial features are as perfect as a finely carved plaster.It was his eyes that caused Fu Qianshu to "crash like a deer". Fu Qianshu looked at him two by two, those pupils faded a little under the sun, closer to dark brown, so they became clearer.

Even though there was only such a pitiful amount of time, Cen Jingming seemed to have calmed down completely, he could not see anger, let alone joy.

Fu Qianshu panicked inexplicably, and asked again: "What's the matter?"

He must have had a severe fever, and after he spoke a few words, the heat from the coating on his tongue rushed into his nostrils, making Fu Qianshu feel like stars.

Only when his eyes were averted did Cen Jingming show a confused expression, his eyes moved from Fu Qianshu's twisted fingers to the backpack he was holding in his arms cautiously.

He firmly suppressed the screaming ruthlessness in the deepest part of his heart, the brilliance in his eyes flowed, he let out a long breath, and leaned over.

Fu Qianshu froze.

However, Cen Jingming just pulled the safety belt of the side door and fastened it on him, and sat back in his original seat in an instant: "For safety, remember to fasten it when you take the car, especially the co-driver."

ah?All of Fu Qianshu's reactions were several times delayed, and it took him a long time to remember to reply with the word "um".

He regained his grip on the steering wheel, and with the other hand, he took a bottle of water from the chair and handed it over with a plastic bag. Only then did Fu Qianshu remember that he hadn't rinsed his mouth yet, and took it with a gesture of embarrassment.

The water hadn't been touched, but the bottle cap had already been screwed on. He took a sip with complicated emotions, rinsed it, and spit it into the garbage bag.

Seeing that Cen Jingming was not looking sideways, he secretly looked over and saw those slender, white hands, under the skin, the bones and veins were clearly visible.It is beautiful, but it is definitely not the bone shape that women should have.

He actually admitted it wrong, in the eyes of others, it is such a ridiculous thing.

The intersection in front of the hospital was under construction, and it was very uneven. Fu Qianshu was in a daze, and felt the outline of the jewelry box in his bag while shaking.

He recalled the chaotic situation at that time, and thought that Cen Jingming also took something, a bunch of blooming flowers, blue or purple, when he came back, the object was nowhere to be seen.

It must have been dealt with long ago, Fu Qianshu was sour and astringent.

The gift he picked, the most reliable and thoughtful gift in the past 20 years, has not been given out.

"In the future," Cen Jingming said in the wilderness-like silence, "don't just get in a stranger's car."

Fu Qianshu bowed his head, said "Oh", and said, "You are not a stranger."

He saw Cen Jingming smiled, it was a kind of smile that Fu Qianshu couldn't describe, like one year when he went to the north in autumn, stood in the wind and saw the rustling yellow leaves blowing down, it was the fallen leaves of a tree he couldn't name, Long and thin, it falls gently on the shoulders, vaguely like a dove's feathers, gentle and desolate.

"It will definitely be next time."

Cen Jingming's voice was sandwiched between the sharp whistle, and he said it calmly.