Prince Consort

Xie Jiyu didn't chat with Xie Zean for too long, and quickly returned to his and Li's courtyard.

Xie stood quietly for a while, and was about to go back to his room to sleep, when he saw a corner of a corner of his clothes, gently blowing with the cold night wind.

Xie looked over quietly.

Zhao Chongzhao turned around from the end of the corridor with a calm expression, as if he knew nothing about the conversation between Xie Ze'an and Xie Jiyu just now.

Xie Ze'an looked at the snow on Zhao Chongzhao's shoulders, and suddenly understood how long he had stood and listened.

He was silent for a moment, then raised his head and looked at Zhao Chongzhao.

Zhao Chongzhao took a short breath.

It was too difficult for him to pretend in front of Xie Zean, if Xie Zean gave him a look, he would surrender.

Zhao Chongzhao took two steps forward, and pushed Xie Zean heavily against the door.He grabbed Xie Zean's shoulder tightly: "Sanlang, I'm going crazy, Sanlang."

Xie Zean took a deep breath: "Your Majesty, calm down."

Zhao Chongzhao let go of Xie Zean.

Before Xie Zean could breathe a sigh of relief, Zhao Chongzhao had already brought him into his arms, and closed the door behind him.

Zhao Chongzhao hugged Xie Ze'an tightly, and he felt like he might disappear at any time even though he was in his arms.

Xie Jiyu and the others are very important to Xie Zean, Xie Zean will definitely listen to what they say, not to mention that Xie Zean is calmer and more sober than others.When Xie Zean was not by his side, how many people would persuade him to stay away from him, and to remember the phrase "Heavenly family is ruthless"—how would he prove it, and how would he prove it to Xie Zean.

Zhao Chongzhao wanted to rub Xie Zean into his arms: "Sanlang, I am different, Sanlang, I am different to you, whatever you want, I will give it to you. I will never doubt you, doubt you, you Whatever you want, I will support you..."

Hearing Zhao Chongzhao's unequivocal assurance, Xie Ze'an closed his eyes.

Xie Ze'an believed that what Zhao Chongzhao said was the truth, at least at this moment, Zhao Chongzhao really thought so.

Zhao Chongzhao was like an anxious child, squeezing out all the best words he could think of.

It's just that Zhao Chongzhao can't never grow up.

Xie Ze'an wanted to kiss Zhao Chongzhao, the person in front of him who was devoted to him wholeheartedly, but he couldn't.

Zhao Chongzhao is not just Zhao Chongzhao, he is the king of a country and Yan Ning's elder brother.

And he is Yan Ning's husband—even though they are in name only, they are a real couple in the eyes of others.

If they were just men and men, he might not have so many scruples.

But they are different.

Once they are discovered by others, both he and Zhao Chongzhao will be doomed.

Xie Zean put aside the idea of ​​getting close to Zhao Chongzhao in his mind.

He can't go on like this anymore, can't add fuel to the fire in Zhao Chongzhao's heart, he should be the one who keeps the sobriety between them.

It is good to have such a person who is willing to break through the barriers of the world and abandon principles and ego for him.

It is rare to have such a person, how can he watch him doomed for himself.

Xie Ze'an said: "Your Majesty, things like feelings are about your feelings and my wishes."

Zhao Chongzhao looked at Xie Ze'an in astonishment.

Xie Ze'an said: "I am Yan Ning's husband." He looked at Zhao Chongzhao calmly, "I love her."

The muscles on Zhao Chongzhao's face twitched slightly.

Yan Ning, Yan Ning, there is another Yan Ning between them——

Xie Ze'an said: "It is beyond my expectation that we have come to this point. I have never dared to tell the truth, because I am afraid that you will be angry, Your Majesty."

Zhao Chongzhao gritted his teeth and said, "Are you not afraid that I will get angry now?"

Xie Ze'an said: "Of course I am afraid, but I am even more afraid that you will lose control, Your Majesty. If you do something irrational out of control, Your Majesty, I am afraid I will not be able to resist." He directed Zhao Chongzhao's sharp gaze like a blade, "To be honest, just It’s disgusting to think about it, how can such a thing be done between a man and a man.”

The muscles in Zhao Chongzhao's arms were tense.

Xie Ze'an didn't dare reach out to grab Xie Ze'an, he was afraid that he would "lose his mind" as he said if he touched Xie Ze'an.

Xie Ze'an's disgusting words and disgusting eyes pierced his heart like a knife, he lost even the ability to think, and stared at Xie Ze'an firmly.

Xie Ze'an said: "Instead of doing that, it's better to talk about it earlier. For Yan Ning's sake, even if His Majesty gets angry again, he probably won't kill me."

Yan Ning, Yan Ning, Yan Ning——

The fire in Zhao Chongzhao's heart became more and more intense.

Xie Ze'an turned his eyes to the window and said, "I remember just meeting Yan Ning, and it was snowing. I walked into Yan Ning's residence, separated by layers of gauze curtains." He recalled slowly, as if full of love , "I was still young and very curious, so I deliberately played against her to attract her attention."

Zhao Chongzhao opened his eyes wide.

He didn't know the situation when Xie Ze'an met Princess Yanning back then.

Hearing Xie Zean's gentle tone, Zhao Chongzhao's heart was cut like a knife: "Don't say any more!"

Xie Ze'an said: "Later we communicated, and although we talked about business matters, I couldn't help sending a poem to Yan Ning at the end—this later became a habit of our correspondence. Write your best poems to Yan Ning." He avoided Zhao Chongzhao's gaze, "Heaven pays off, when I came home one day, I saw Yan Ning sitting under the plum tree in my yard, I still remember her face A little white, very similar to the white plums that bloom on the tree, so smart and so weak."

Zhao Chongzhao clenched his fists: "I said it, don't say it again!"

Xie Ze'an said: "Later, I became a servant of the Eastern Palace. At that time, Yan Ning would come over occasionally, but I was still not satisfied, so I tried a way to let Your Majesty learn painting from me. I knew you would talk about it in front of Yan Ning. , I also know that you will invite Yan Ning to come to study together." He turned his head and said the cruelest sentence to Zhao Chongzhao, "My lover and Yan Ning will finally get married, in fact, it all depends on you, Your Majesty."

Zhao Chongzhao took two steps back abruptly.

All kinds of things from the past clearly appeared in front of his eyes, nothing different from what Xie Ze'an said.

This also explains why Zhao Ying proposed marriage to Xie Zean and Yan Ning, because they have secretly agreed with the music, and privately exchanged it - they have long ago - they have been secretly in love for the reason of helping him.

Thinking of Yan Ning repeating "he is my son-in-law" over and over again, the word "mine" burned Zhao Chongzhao's reason.

That's how it is, that's how it is...

Xie Ze'an didn't refuse him because he didn't dare to refuse him.

Like others, Xie Zean was afraid of him, afraid of his moodiness, afraid of his ferocity, afraid of him, afraid of him——Xie Zean was only afraid of him.

All the good things in the past suddenly collapsed at this moment.

Xie Zean loves Yan Ning, Xie Zean is afraid of him, Xie Zean feels disgusting between them.

Zhao Chongzhao's veins appeared on the back of his hand.He took two steps back and shouted angrily: "You are not Saburo! You are not!"

Xie Ze'an said: "Yes, I am not." He looked Zhao Chongzhao straight in the eyes, "I am Xie Heng, and I have used 'Ze'an' in correspondence with others in the past few years. Few people make friends after they are adults. I will call the nickname 'Sanlang'. Your Majesty, people have to grow up."

Zhao Chongzhao's fire seemed to be extinguished by Xie Ze'an's gaze.

He felt a little sad, even though Xie Zean shattered all his illusions, he still couldn't get angry or go mad under Xie Zean's gaze.

Zhao Chongzhao gritted his teeth, turned around with all his strength, and strode out.

It was snowing outside the house, the wind and snow hit his face, it was cold and icy, but he felt a burst of heat welling up in his eyes.

No more, no more, Saburo is gone.

He didn't even know when he lost "him", or that the Saburo he loved never existed at all.That Saburo seemed to exist only in his fantasy, but he foolishly devoted all his love, resentment, joy and anger to that Saburo.

How should he take them back, how should he take them back—he can’t take them back—

Zhao Chongzhao left Xie's house quickly, afraid to stay for a while.

He returned to the palace, looked at the emperor's bedroom, and was a little glad that he was no longer in the East Palace, otherwise there would be the shadow of 'Xie Sanlang' everywhere, everywhere, everywhere - he would have no escape.

Zhao Chongzhao looked up at the pitch-black roof and kept his eyes open until dawn.

People always have to grow up, people always have to grow up - Xie Ze'an taught really well, he learned it all at once -

In the next few days, Xie Zean was busy as usual.

He didn't plan to stay in Beijing for the new year, and when the results of the assessment came out, he set off on his return journey with a satisfactory result.

This time, Zhao Chongzhao did not come to see him off again.

After leaving the city, Xie Ze'an tightened his reins and looked back at the city gate.

Xie Ze'an knew that what he said to Zhao Chongzhao was tantamount to cutting off all the friendship between them.He didn't know whether it was right or wrong for him to do so, but he knew very well that he couldn't indulge himself, nor could he indulge Zhao Chongzhao.

Zhao Chongzhao is burdened with too many expectations and responsibilities, and must grow and mature.

Xie Ze'an beat Ma Xixing.

Back in Liangzhou, Zhizhou was very enthusiastic about Xie Ze'an, because the results Xie Ze'an brought back were far better than he expected, enough to make him leave a brilliant mark in his tenure.So Zhizhou insisted on letting Xie Zean stay for dinner, if not for his wife's persuasion, Zhizhou would have let Xie Zean stay overnight.

Xie Zean hurried back to the county office, most of the lights in the county were dark.He handed the horse over to the porter and stepped into the rear office.

The back yamen is still lit, and there is a figure reading a book facing the door, who is it if it's not Princess Yan Ning?Princess Yan Ning sat there and turned two pages, and couldn't help turning her head to look outside the door.

This look happened to meet Xie Zean's eyes.

Xie Ze'an is not blind, how could he fail to see the hidden feelings of Princess Yan Ning during the past six months together day and night.

This was something he had never thought about or paid attention to before. It wasn't until Mr. Yang took the initiative to talk to him about Yan Ning's illness and his intentions that he realized what he had overlooked before.

He failed Zhao Chongzhao brothers and sisters.

What a jerk he is, and people who are slow-witted are always jerks.

Xie Ze settled down for a while, walked into the room and said, "It's been so late to read again, and you spoil yourself like this when I'm not around?"

Princess Yanning said: "That's not it..." She raised her head and asked, "Didn't you say that you will arrive in Liangzhou in the afternoon? Why is it so late..."

"Zhizhou was so happy, his enthusiasm was too much, he almost left me to sleep at his house, that's why I came back so late." Xie Ze'an carried Princess Yanning to the bed and covered her with the quilt: "Go to sleep."

Princess Yanning said: "Brother, is he alright?"

Xie Ze'an pressed his hand on the quilt, and said: "Your Majesty is very good, even Mr. Xu said that he did better than expected." He gave an example to Princess Yan Ning, "Didn't Your Majesty always hate horses? Yushi? Many people thought Ma Yushi would be unlucky after His Majesty ascended the throne, but Ma Yushi is still serving as Yushi now."

Princess Yan Ning said: "The elder brother has really matured."

Xie Ze'an said, "Of course."

And on the second day after Xie Ze'an finished comforting Princess Yanning like this, a flying slave flew over from the capital, bringing news from the capital.

Something happened in Beijing.

A group of Yushitai officials, including Ma Yushi, were demoted out of the capital, and most of the "Qin Party" were with them.Overnight, most of the foundation of the Qin family was ruined, and the growing "new party" - the group of people who supported the new law emerged in the court.

Heaven has changed.

With a trembling hand, Xie Zean burned the letter Fei Nu brought.

Did he do something wrong this time?

But even if you make a mistake, there is no turning back.

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