fierce god

When he got to the room, Gao Kun noticed that Li Yinglan's hand was red from being pinched by himself just now, and he rubbed Li Yinglan silently with some distress and guilt.

Li Yinglan just looked at Gao Kun's face and said, "It's still early."

Gao Kun was silent.

Li Yinglan said again: "Today's air ticket is gone. We can book tomorrow. If we can't leave, we can stay here for one night, so we can go to other places now."

After Gao Kun rubbed Li Yinglan's hand, he sat silently for a while, and finally said: "Then... let's go to the back mountain."

When going out, the sky started to snow again. Gao Kun put on the hat for Li Yinglan, and the two of them passed through a clump of withered groves together. A solitary grave appeared in the distance.

Gao Kun didn't dare to pinch Li Yinglan's hand anymore, he just gritted his teeth and stepped forward slowly.

The tomb was piled up with dirt, and there was no stele in front of the tomb, but a small wooden sign was erected. Perhaps over the years, the corners of the wooden sign had rotted away, and now only the words "Heqiao" written on it can be vaguely discerned. , the style of writing is a bit green, but it makes Li Yinglan feel familiar, and the surname is already blurred.

Gao Kun stood still in front of the grave, Li Yinglan looked at his solemn expression, and wanted to step aside, but Gao Kun didn't let go.

"It doesn't matter," he said, "my mother . . . will like you too."

They came in a hurry, with no preparations, no offerings, no ghost papers, only empty hands and two trembling hearts.

Gao Kun didn't speak all the time, he just stood like that, letting the strong wind howl around him, his back was still straight, and the coldness in his body seemed to melt with the temperature in front of him.It wasn't until the snow fell more and more heavily that he noticed that Li Yinglan's hands were already cold, and he turned to look at the face beside him which was pale from the cold but still said nothing.

Gao Kun was careless in secret, moved his stiff legs, and finally said to the grave: "Mom, I'm studying in U City now, and I'm about to go to college soon. Everything is fine, and it will be fine in the future... Don't worry, don't worry..."

He repeated the last four words twice, as if emphasizing, but also as assuring, the tone was light, but each word was extremely heavy, as if it could shake the chest.

When the fine snow at his feet was covered with a layer of light white, Gao Kun finally turned around and left here with Li Yinglan.

No one spoke on the way, and when we returned to the dilapidated courtyard, it was already dark, Gao Kun hurried out and got some sweet potatoes from somewhere, and roasted them for Li Yinglan with the firewood given by his aunt.

It was the first time for Li Yinglan to eat this food, although her mouth was a little bitter, but it was so fragrant and sweet that she could barely fill her stomach.

Before going to bed, Gao Kun went to prepare some hot water and heated the kang, then took out the last key and opened the only small cupboard in the room, took out a quilt from inside, dusted it and put it on. bed.The quilt was naturally not new, and it was filled with a musty smell similar to the air in the house, but Li Yinglan knew that the conditions were limited, so she didn't show any disgust.

A dim light bulb in the middle reflected the faint light, and the two used their own clothes to make pillows. Li Yinglan stepped into the bed first, and felt that although the bed was hard, it was still warm. When Gao Kun undressed and went to bed, she was naked. However, there were two obvious teeth marks lying on his arm. Li Yinglan couldn't help but think that this should be left by the crazy woman she saw just now. Gao Kun was wearing a coat at the time, but he was forced The opponent was bitten with blood marks, which shows how much effort it took.

Gao Kun himself didn't feel anything, until he lay on the bed and was stroked by a cool fingertip on his arm, itching slightly, he lowered his head to look, then grabbed Li Yinglan's hand, and held it to his chest Clutching her hands, she explained to him: "My sister...she has some mental problems. She doesn't recognize people, but she will be stimulated when she meets someone she hasn't seen before."

Li Yinglan showed doubts.

Gao Kun said: "The sequelae of illness when I was a child were just a little dull at that time, but now that I am older, it is more serious."

Li Yinglan thought that even though the woman's hair was disheveled, she could vaguely see that she had a decent and beautiful appearance, so she must have been considered a beauty when she was young.

As if guessing what Li Yinglan was thinking, Gao Kun's words verified his thoughts: "My uncle is also willing to marry her because of this. Everyone is poor and there is nothing to choose. If you can find a family that can support yourself, you are lucky. That's right, it's just that my uncle has a bad temper and is patriarchal, so..."

Gao Kun didn't continue, but Li Yinglan was able to figure out what to say next. The life of the husband and wife was in dire straits, and the dragged children also suffered. Who is to blame for the bitterness of this life?

"Patriarchal..." Li Yinglan chewed on the word, and then said, "My grandfather is patriarchal."

Suddenly hearing Li Yinglan mention this, Gao Kun was a little surprised, but because the situation of the Li family was too obvious, he didn't like to take care of things and felt that Li Yuanzhou's thinking was quite different from some traditional families in society.

"Is it because of you... grandma?" Gao Kun asked after deliberation.

Li Yinglan shook her head: "For himself."

Gao Kun didn't understand.

Li Yinglan said: "If the daughter he taught himself doesn't hurt, doesn't it prove his failure?"

It turns out that Li Yuanzhou separated from Li Yinglan's grandmother in the early years. There was no concept of divorce at that time, but the two lived their own lives. Li Yuanzhou was still in business at that time and had no time to take care of so many children. He hated Li Gan since he was a child and was stupid. He has a bad temper, and Li Ling is too quiet and weird. Compared to them, the sweet-mouthed Li Xiaoyun is much more pleasing. Li Yuanzhou has been partial to his little daughter since he was a child, so he naturally chose this one.It's just that although he needs to take care of him, he is busy with work and can't manage much in life. Seeing that Li Xiaoyun caused him a lot of trouble, Li Yuanzhou didn't even have time to correct it, so he could only use endless material to satisfy his daughter's profligacy. When I looked back, it was already too late.

After the death of Li Yinglan's grandmother, Li Yuanzhou's business was stable, but even if all the people were taken over, the strange relationship between him and his two sons had been lost. Although Li Xiaoyun was not up to date, she was still the closest to Li Yuanzhou. One, the Li family is naturally indifferent, and blood and blood are sometimes far less important than the pursuit of some self-worth. Li Yuanzhou is like this, Li Xiaoyun is like this, Li Qian and Li Ling are like this, and maybe one day, Li Yinglan will become like this.

Gao Kun did not expect that Li Yinglan already knew a lot in his heart at such a young age. He was too calm and clear on this issue than many adults. Gao Kun felt that as half a teacher, half brother, or a friend, he should tell Li Yinglan Something, this is a lack in Li Yinglan's life, and it is likely to evolve into a lack of character in the future. Gao Kun will feel sad when he thinks about it, but Li Yinglan himself does not suffer from it. Gao Kun doesn't know if this is something worthwhile. Thankfully.

As she was concentrating on thinking, she heard Li Yinglan say, "It's your turn."

Gao Kun was taken aback: "What?"

"Don't tell me? Then I'll sleep." Li Yinglan arched the quilt.

Gao Kun was silent, and it wasn't until Li Yinglan narrowed her eyes that she started to feel drowsy that she heard him suddenly speak.

"My mother... treats me very well."

Li Yinglan raised her eyes, but said nothing.

Gao Kun said again: "She has very skillful hands, she can make a lot of delicious food, and she can also make clothes and gadgets for me. She has never been to school, but she knows a lot of words and can tell me stories. The farthest she has ever been in her life has been to the province, but she told me that the outside world is very big, and I should try my best to go and have a look around, and walk around for her..."

Gao Kun's voice unexpectedly became very soft at this time, and Li Yinglan's heart seemed to be melted by this gentle fire. It's a pity that Gao Kun finally walked out of this small corner, and he saw the vastness of the world There were ever-changing things, but the person who should have waited for him to go back and tell her how beautiful it was outside never had time to hear it.

Li Yinglan asked, "What's the story?"

"My mother made it up herself, do you want to listen?"

Li Yinglan immediately said "hmm", because no one had ever told him a story since he was a child.

So in the cold night, Li Yinglan's mind was slowly filled with little pigs, dogs and bears until she fell into a deep sleep.

In a trance, he felt that he had a dream. In the dream, he became Gao Kun's younger brother. They shared a mother. The woman was beautiful and gentle, with a kind smile and a soft voice. She would pick him up from school at the school gate. I will cook a big table of delicious food for dinner, will cover myself with a quilt and tell a story before going to bed, and then tell him not to kick the quilt, and wake him up on time tomorrow for school.

However, in the middle of the night, Li Yinglan slept more and more coldly. He waited and waited until he couldn't find those warm hands. People, no mother, no Gao Kun, only him from beginning to end...

With a jolt, Li Yinglan suddenly opened his eyes, he took a few breaths before touching his side, but the tentacles were empty.In the cold winter night, Gao Kun on one side disappeared, and Li Yinglan was the only one left in the dilapidated thatched cottage.

Li Yinglan tugged at the quilt on her body, shrank her body into a ball, and stared blankly at the dark eyes. He didn't know how long it took before she heard a door slam outside, and a tall figure walked away. came in.

Gao Kun tiptoed, he was afraid of waking Li Yinglan up, but when he was lying on the bed, he suddenly turned around and met a pair of big eyes, Gao Kun was startled.

"You, why are you awake?"

Li Yinglan looked straight at Gao Kun.

Gao Kun said: "There is not much firewood left, so I will burn some more."

Li Yinglan did smell some smoke and fire from Gao Kun's body, and there was also a faint grassy smell, but where did the plants come from in the winter.

Li Yinglan patted Gao Kun's hand: "I just burned the firewood, and I'm still so stiff."

Gao Kun smiled, retracted his hands for fear of freezing Li Yinglan, and said, "I went to the latrine again."

Li Yinglan did not speak.

Gao Kun noticed that he seemed to be trembling slightly, and quickly reached out to hug the child: "What's wrong? Is it cold?"

Li Yinglan paused and said, "I had a nightmare..."

Gao Kun patted him on the back: "Don't be afraid, I'm here, and all the ghosts and ghosts will be beaten away." I think the story was just told earlier, Gao Kun's tone was like coaxing a child.

Li Yinglan said, "I'm not afraid of ghosts, there are no ghosts in this world."

Gao Kun looked down at Li Yinglan.

"But I have read a novel about psychology. It says that the most terrifying thing is actually the human heart. There are ghosts in people's hearts. The ghosts threaten you with the things you care about most. Sometimes they know it's fake, but they still can't control it. Go be afraid." Li Yinglan looked back, "Do you have nightmares?"

"No," Gao Kun turned his eyes away again, looking at the moonless sky outside, "I used to do it, but now I don't."

"When will it not be?" Li Yinglan doubted.

Gao Kun's answer was just to raise the corner of his mouth. Li Yinglan didn't understand what this meant, he only knew that Gao Kun's eyes were so similar to the winter snow falling outside the window...

On the second day, the plane of the two of them was scheduled at noon. After getting up and tidying up, they planned to rush to the airport in the county early. Gao Kun took the pot he borrowed yesterday to return to his sister-in-law's house. It was his cousin who came out, and the little girl was silent Shaoyu was very introverted, but he could tell that he was familiar with Gao Kun. Just as he was saying a few words, the little girl suddenly pushed Gao Kun and shouted, "My mother is back, let's go."

Gao Kun took two steps back before he could turn around, and sure enough, he saw a figure rushing towards him from afar. This time, his sister-in-law was even more angry than before for some reason, chasing and beating Gao Kun like crazy, and his aunt In the back, together with his cousin and the useless Li Yinglan, they couldn't stop him.

Gao Juan shouted hoarsely like a lioness: "I'll kill you!! I'll kill you... you little beast... evil star, little beast... Gao Kun, you little beast... evil star!!"

She was very strong, but Gao Kun just stood still like yesterday, so seeing that no one could cure her, Gao Juan opened her mouth to give that arm another bite.

Li Yinglan, who was at the side, even handed over her thin arm in a hurry!

When he was about to catch up, Gao Kun finally stretched out his hand to block Gao Juan, because the speed was extremely fast, everyone didn't see Gao Kun's movements clearly, and the woman fell heavily to the ground when she recovered.

This time Gao Juan fell into a daze, the aunt on the side, and the fat uncle who heard the movement behind her were a little startled, his uncle's face immediately pulled down.

But just as he was about to make a fuss, a small car suddenly stopped in front of the house, and Gao Zhongshui came down from above.

Gao Zhongshui looked at Gao Juan who fell down, and then at Gao Kun who was beside him, his eyes were like knives.

The fat uncle wanted to sue him, but Gao Zhongshui said in a low voice: "There are outsiders here, don't be ashamed." Then he turned to Gao Kun, "Going away?"

Gao Kun nodded.

The car window on one side was rolled down, a square face leaned out the window and said with a smile: "I'm going to the county too, so let's drop by to see you off." Looking at Gao Kun, and then at Li Yinglan, her smile became even brighter .

"No trouble……"

Gao Kun frowned, and was about to refuse, but his uncle said: "Boss Chen is kind, don't get too excited, get in the car, we are still in a hurry to do other business." Without waiting for Gao Kun's words, he went directly The car is waiting.

Seeing that the two children still didn't move, his aunt came to push them away: "It's more convenient to have a car, don't you have to go to class, don't worry, the parents of other children are waiting."

Hearing this, Gao Kun's insistence was shaken, and he was about to turn his head, but was pulled aside by his aunt, who took out some money from his pocket and insisted on giving it to Gao Kun.How could Gao Kun dare to accept it? His aunt only said that he must use it for college, but the only spare money in the family was invested in business, and he would send it to him after earning it, but Gao Kun refused to do so. After being entangled for a long time, Gao Zhongshui was still on fire, so his aunt gave up temporarily, and only asked Gao Kun to remember to ask her for it if he lacked it. I was really sorry to leave him there alone.

Gao Kun told her again and again that it was okay, and thanked her, then he dragged Li Yinglan into the car.However, without waiting for his aunt to say goodbye, the car rushed out at high speed.