Rebirth is more than a year old

Xiang Nan remembered the last time he was pressed into Feng Li's arms and kissed wildly in this corridor, but was bumped into by Shen Qinglan, and couldn't help but feel hot.At this time, Yan Jun, who was walking in front, stopped suddenly, and Xiang Nan didn't notice it for a moment, and bumped into him straight away.

Apologizing to the south and taking a step back, I realized that Yan Jun didn't listen to him at all, because Yan Jun was facing the front and said: "Have you hidden enough?"

Yan Jun is a very gentle person, humble, polite and knowledgeable. The rimless glasses on his face are the symbol of the social elite. When Xiang Nan met him, he was already a young man in his 25s, so he was very fond of Yan Jun, who always had a warm and soft smile. like.In my memory, Yan Jun's voice was always polite and soft, but it was the first time Xiang Nan heard such a tone with complex emotions.

Xiang Nan moved slightly to the side, and saw Shen Qinglan standing at the other end of the corridor.

The headlights in the courtyard were full of light, and they shot from a distance, just reflecting Shen Qinglan's slightly gray face. He scratched the Liuhai in front of his forehead a little annoyed, put one hand in his pocket, and a pair of Peach Blossom Eyes lost the charming look of the past, and said in a tone full of helplessness: "I didn't hide from you."

Being so close, Xiang Nan could almost hear a barely audible sneer from Yan Jun's mouth, "Didn't hide from me? Didn't hide from me? I'm in the same city but haven't seen each other for two years! Didn't hide from me? It’s like the circle of friends, but I can’t find you every minute! Why did you sneak around when you didn’t hide from me?!”

Yan Jun's anger, Yan Jun's swearing.Such Yan Jun made Xiang Nan feel strange and distressed.

What absurd mistake did Shen Qinglan do to make Yan Jun, who has always been as gentle as jade, angry like this?

However, Shen Qinglan's fiery temper seems to have increased unabated over the years, probably because he was stimulated by Yan Jun, who seldom got into trouble once, and he also yelled: "What's wrong with me just hiding from you! Can't I hide from you? Three years ago I just said break up! Can’t you understand the breakup? Why do you insist on pestering me! We have nothing to do with each other, not three years ago! Yan Jun, if you are a man, don’t fucking show up in the future In front of my father!"

There was a strong smell of gunpowder in the air.Xiang Nan wants to stop it, but jumping out at this moment may only make things worse.

It's not that Shen Qinglan didn't know how good Xiangnan was to Yan Jun in the past, but it was unexpected that the two of them would become like this in just a few years.Moreover, Shen Qinglan said such serious words to Yan Jun. With Yan Jun's personality, he might follow what he said and never appear again.

Sure enough, as soon as Shen Qinglan finished speaking, Xiang Nan saw Yan Jun's upright body slowly sinking down with an indescribable feeling.It was as if he had been holding on with one breath, but now the breath was broken by Shen Qinglan's words, and the pillar supporting Yan Jun was gone, so his back looked so lonely and vicissitudes.

"Is this your truth?" Yan Jun asked.

"Yes." Shen Qinglan's anger was extinguished after the anger, and his emotions quickly calmed down, "I have thought a lot in the past few years, we are too inappropriate, sorry, I wasted a few years of your time."

Yan Jun seemed to want to laugh, but failed, and then he said, "Since it's not suitable, why did you come to provoke me?" Without waiting for Shen Qinglan to answer, he continued: "I've been waiting for you to let go, unfortunately, my Waiting is nothing to you. Today I will fulfill your wishes, and I will never talk to you again." He spoke extremely slowly, but he bit every word so hard, as if he had exhausted all his energy to complete this short sentence. a sentence.

Xiang Nan could hear the noise in his head, and when he came back to his senses, Yan Jun had already strode forward.

Then, he brushed past Shen Qinglan.

They didn't look at each other, but their respective bodies were unexpectedly tense, as if it took a lot of strength to restrain themselves from doing things that would make them appear even more undignified.If two people are equally proud, one of them must compromise.But they were unwilling to compromise, or there was something between them that made this compromise extremely difficult, so they passed each other in the end and became strangers ever since.

Yan Jun had already walked a certain distance, but Shen Qinglan was still standing there.

When Xiang Nan ran past him, he heard him say a few words, three very soft words, blown by the cold wind of winter night, and quickly dispersed in the air.

He said: I'm sorry.

Xiang Nan thought Yan Jun had already left.But when he ran out of the gate of Xiangshengju, he saw Yan Jun standing beside the car with a burning cigarette between his fingertips, smoking one mouthful at a time.Under the dark night, this small playground is illuminated by large tile lamps in four corners. Yan Jun is clearly in this light, but his whole body exudes endless depression and depression, and maybe he is also a little sad. It's just that he hid it very well, so that people couldn't see anything unusual. They just thought he was just a little bored, so he found a cigarette to relieve his boredom.

The sound of footsteps approaching south startled him.

Yan Jun turned his head and looked at him from a distance of a car, with an impeccable smile on the corner of his mouth, "Sorry, I made you laugh."

Xiang Nan shook his head, "I can see that Shen... that person still likes you."

Yan Jun threw the cigarette butt on the ground, stepped on the black leather shoes and rolled over them, and smiled meaninglessly: "He likes me, but he doesn't love me."

"Then he..."

"You want to ask who he loves?" Yan Jun's pupils are brown, and the light shining on them has a glassy texture, which is very beautiful, but this kind of colorful light is cast a shadow by the gloomy state of mind, and it looks somewhat Somewhat disheartened, his tone was like his eyes, full of helpless despair, "The person he loves is no longer in this world, to compete with a person who has passed away, it is neither good enough nor open enough, and it is not My style."

Xiang Nan stood there in a daze, unable to find a single word to comfort Yan Jun.

Before meeting Feng Li, he had never liked anyone, so he couldn't empathize with the feeling of being defeated by a dead person.The person I love can't forget the person who is no longer alive, and I know it's wrong but I can't do anything about it. This kind of helplessness and pain can't be described in words.

"Stop talking about that, get in the car, and I'll take you back to school." Yan Jun said casually.

Looking at him to the south, he got into the car as he said.

On the way back, there was an unexpected silence. Xiang Nan wanted to talk several times, but Yan Jun's face was calm. A proud and powerful person is always worrying in terms of emotions.Because no matter how serious their injuries are, they will only hide them in the bottom of their hearts, and they will always look calm and careless on their faces. Maybe they will only vent their hysteria when they close the door after dark.

It is the evening rush hour now, and the car is blocked when it reaches the third ring road.

The carriage was so quiet, Yan Jun suddenly said: "I was 26 years old when I met him, time flies so fast, 7 years have passed in the blink of an eye. That person has been dead for three years, but he still can't let go, a cry I returned here silently, moved house, changed my number, and seemed to want to completely disappear from my life, heh."

Xiang Nan's heart was empty, and the question slipped out of his mouth unconsciously, "The person he likes...is Xiang Nan?"

Yan Jun smiled faintly. When he heard this name, even the smile lines on the corners of his mouth did not change. He put his hands on the steering wheel, and looked at Xiangnan with brown pupils, "Did you see it? I always pretended to be smart People, but only learned of this fact from other people in the second year after going south, how ironic you say."

Xiang Nan remembered that dream.The conversation between Song Chen and Shen Qinglan in the dream became clear in an instant.

Shen Qinglan had always liked herself, but because of her death, Shen Qinglan couldn't let it go, so she and Yan Jun got into the current situation.The reason why Shen Qinglan didn't reveal his feelings was because he knew that he didn't like men.Xiang Nan sorted out the ins and outs of the matter, and finally had a clear idea.

Suddenly discovering such a thing, Xiangnan feels very strange.

Perhaps just as Song Chen said, his reaction has always been slow, so now that he knows that Shen Qinglan likes him, he doesn't have much fluctuation in his heart. Not Yan Jun.

After figuring out what happened before and after, Xiang Nan immediately became confident, "Then you really plan to have nothing to do with him forever?"

Yan Jun's mouth was full of bitterness, "The most basic principle of a man is to do what he says."

Xiang Nan pouted, "What if you regret it someday?"

Yan Jun paused, and said: "He should be the one who regrets it." The traffic in front finally started to clear, Yan Jun started the car, and continued: "Actually, sometimes I envy Xiang Nan. Although he is dead, at least he is dead. It can make Shen Qinglan so obsessed, if the person who died is me, will he remember me forever like he remembers Xiangnan?"

"You must not." Xiang Nan said quickly, "If you die, how will you win back his heart?"

Yan Jun slightly bent his mouth, "You don't know Shen Qinglan, he is a person who goes all the way to the dark."

Xiang Nan let out a long sigh, and persuaded him, "How do you know if you haven't tried it? Don't you feel unwilling to give up like this? After all, there is a relationship between you. I think he might not be able to figure it out because of Xiang Nan's death. Just a little."

"Really? But I'm tired."