As a substitute, the male protagonist is sweet and soft

It must be very cold tonight, otherwise Yu Chuan's face would not be so pale, and his lips were as white as paper.

He saw that pair of light brown eyes changed from extremely dim to a glimmer of dawn, just like the eyes of a person who survived the brink of death after a near death.

He was very happy at first, and he had never been so excited when he saw Yu Chuan like now, but Yu Chuan's expression made him feel a little bit at a loss.

"Nannan!"

Yu Chuan almost stumbled towards him, so crazy that the nurse next to him was startled.

Yu Chuan hugged him too tightly. He had never felt such a coldness in this body. Su Nanqing used to think that this person was cold-tempered, but now he felt like a piece of ice hugged him.

Only then did he notice that he was wrapped in a thick cotton padded jacket, while Yu Chuan was only wearing a thin shirt, and the cold rain was still hanging on the back of his neck, flowing down his neck into the shirt.

The nurse sister on the side was surprised and speechless, only her eyes were locked on these two people.When Sunan leaned towards her to look over, he couldn't help but raise his eyebrows, as if to say: Look, you still don't believe it, it's really my husband.

"Boss Yu, I'm fine, but the phone is dropped, and I can't pay here." He didn't know why Yu Chuan was so nervous, he had never seen this person like this before, and felt a little guilty.

Worrying is never a good thing.

"Why don't you call me?" Yu Chuan scanned him back and forth, from head to toe, not letting go of every part, his voice was hoarse as hell, suppressing his unsteady breath, and he let go only after confirming that he was fine. Take a breath.

Facing this question, Su Nanqing felt that it was quite difficult to say, but he still explained: "I don't remember your phone number."

"Remember now." Trembling slightly, Yu Chuan took out his mobile phone, entered a row of numbers on it, forced it into Su Nanqing's hands, and ordered again and again in an absolutely forceful tone: "Remember now!"

This is a small clinic, and the nurse is right next to them, her eyes are full of gossip, like a log, she doesn't even blink her eyes, for fear of missing something.

Yu Chuan's tone became fierce, and Su Nanqing felt as if he was being blamed, mainly because he felt ashamed of being looked at by others. He tugged at Yu Chuan's sleeve reluctantly, and muttered: "Go back and remember, Make sure to write it down when you go back, and this kind of thing won’t happen again in the future.”

Yu Chuan's eyes were scarlet, and he knelt at Su Nanqing's feet, as if he was peeling off cocoons, the strength in his body seemed to be vented, and his whole body was so decadent that he couldn't straighten his waist, showing an extremely tired look all of a sudden.

"Nannan," his shoulders seemed to be crushed by something heavy, and he even put half of his body on Su Nanqing's legs, making him unable to stand up, pleading, "Don't leave me again..."

After all, Yu Chuan is also a public figure, so what's the point of doing this in front of others?Su Nanqing hurriedly wanted to help him stand up, but this person was too heavy, and he didn't have the strength at all.

He said helplessly, "Where did I leave you? Don't think about it. Didn't you just get hurt and dropped your phone?"

Yu Chuan squeezed his waist tightly, making him a little breathless.

"You will always leave me. I finally brought you back. You are so cruel that you don't want me. I have been punished enough. Nannan, I really can't lose you again. "

I was really out of breath.

Sunan Qing was slightly taken aback.

Back then, what year?

Yu Chuan raised his eyes to look at him, the redness seemed to be bleeding, and this blood flow seemed to extend to thousands of years ago, connecting this long timeline.In that blood, there was something that he had been trying to forget. It was obvious that he had decided to like this person, and he didn't want things that he couldn't understand to destroy the tranquility and beauty of this life.

But why did Yu Chuan say it?

I haven't said it for so long, why did I say it all of a sudden?

Su Nanqing felt that his ears were ringing, and for a moment there was a tendon in his temple that was so painful that he couldn't breathe.

Blame that paint bucket, blame tonight's meal, otherwise, nothing would have happened, even if they knew each other clearly, they would keep silent tacitly.

There was a whistling sound in my ear, like an arrow on a string breaking through the wind and flying past the pinna.The screeching sound became louder and louder, as if thousands of arrows were being fired at once. He stood in the rain of arrows, and every arrow passed him by. He was in a trance, and felt as if his ears were about to bleed .

Hate it all, he thought blankly, his eyes dimmed.

Until Yu Chuan held his face and called him nervously, "Nannan, what's wrong? Is there something wrong? I'll take you to the hospital." Doll, a treasure, is reluctant to let go of it a little bit, for fear that it will disappear as soon as it is done.

His palms were rarely so cold.

I just remember that when Yu Chuan brought him out of the battlefield in his previous life, his palm was as cold as it is today.

Su Nanqing stared blankly at Yu Chuan's half-wet shirt, which was stuck to his body, beautifully drawing out his muscle lines.It's still so beautiful, Su Nanqing thought bitterly, and the turbulent emotions in his eyes were all caused by him. Yu Chuan liked him, and he really liked Yu Chuan.

It dawned on him.

After denying it so many times and doubting himself for so long, he couldn't take it back after opening his heart a little bit. Even thinking about the past, he felt that he should have liked this person before, even though he hated such things so much at that time.

But, what should he do now?He can no longer play dumb.

"No." Su Nanqing lowered his head, his voice was soft, and he slowly curled up.

"Nan Nan, you can't have any more accidents, you know?" Yu Chuan tried to comfort him calmly, he had no idea what was going on in Su Nanqing's mind right now.He was just too worried, and although this kind of worry only lasted for more than an hour, it was enough to make him exhausted.As long as he can be with the one he loves, 1 years is too short, but if the one he loves is not there, he thinks one second is too long.

Yu Chuan wanted to pick him up, but at the moment when he touched his waist, Su Nanqing suddenly put his arms around his neck tightly.

"Don't go!" He buried himself in Yu Chuan's neck choked with sobs, clearly feeling like crying, feeling that he had suffered a great grievance, and he couldn't cry out because of the great grievance.

"Why?" Su Nanqing began to babble: "The wish was clearly made yesterday, why didn't it work today?"

Yu Chuan's throat was blocked by his sobs, and the feeling of suffocation from too much heartache reappeared in his chest cavity.After going through this turbulent hour, he completely understood that he couldn't bear to let his Nannan suffer any more grievances, no matter if he was injured or suffered, from now on, he would use all his strength, no matter what No matter what price is spent, Nan Nan will be able to live in peace and happiness forever, without any suffering.

"Make a wish? Nannan's birthday wish? It's okay, tell me, no matter what, I'll make it come true for you, okay?"

But Su Nanqing shook his head and said falteringly, "It won't happen."

"Why can't it be realized? It will be realized, I promise you."

"But Boss Yu, my wish is that you never bring up the past." His eyes seemed to be holding back a lot of tears, and they were extremely sore, but this time he just didn't cry out, and his internal organs were blocked, making him uncomfortable Trembling all over, Yu Chuan gently followed his hand behind him and suddenly stopped, and the world around him seemed to quiet down for an instant following his words.

Could it be that I am too naive?Is it really possible that they have such a complicated past and say not to mention it?

At this moment, he suddenly remembered what his mother had said to him in his previous life, that his heart was really pure, he was not made to be a general, the world was too complicated, it was impossible for everything to go as he wished.

Failure and death should be commonplace for them, and only by surviving can they have a chance to make a comeback.

He felt that what his mother said was absolutely right. He was not made to be a general. He couldn't accept everything at that time. He only felt that the moon was covered by dark clouds and the sun was dark, so when the option of death was presented to him, he resolutely chose it. , Lived up to all those who wanted him to live.

The screaming in his ears finally stopped. He looked outside at the dark night, and the rain was falling. This winter rain in the south is like this. It is long and cold, and every trace of air-conditioning is exhausted. .

Fortunately, this was in the south, and he would no longer disappear in a heavy winter snow, every bit of cold air penetrating into his bones made him hug the person in front of him even tighter.

He didn't want to escape so fragilely anymore, he said: "Boss Yu, let's go home."

...

The heating in the house was fully turned on, and only the night could be seen outside the floor-to-ceiling windows.He couldn't sleep, so he hugged the quilt and nestled in front of the window, breathed a sigh of relief on the window, and wrote his former name stroke by stroke.

He looked up at Yu Chuan, and then wiped off the three words with a corner of the quilt.

"I don't have him at all, don't I? After such a long time, I almost forgot who I used to be." He smiled wryly, tightened his body and buried his head, stuffed in the quilt and said: "But only There is an emotion that makes me remember him."

"Nannan..." Yu Chuan's heart was already in so much pain that he couldn't hurt anymore, he persuaded hoarsely: "Go to sleep, don't think about it, no matter what happened before, it's over, isn't it? As long as you take care of yourself now, As long as you're doing well, none of this matters."

Su Nanqing shook his head, "I can't sleep."

"Don't you want to know what that emotion is?" He tilted his head, looked at Yu Chuan's face with red eyes, slowly raised his hand, and traced the outline of his face with his fingertips.

Yu Chuan felt that Su Nanqing's tone was as thin as silk, like a dying person, with hopeless eyes. He didn't dare to think about it any more, and he didn't even dare to look into Su Nanqing's eyes.He wondered if Nan Nan was in the same state before he decided to leave him completely.

As soon as this idea popped up in his mind, all his nerves were broken at this moment. He squeezed that hand, and threw himself on Su Nanqing like a mad dog. There was a snow-white blanket on the ground , Su Nanqing's hair was black and shiny, but this made his face white and white, like snow on a winter night.

He hated the snow on winter nights to death, so he had never been to the north for so many years.

He pressed Su Nanqing's hand firmly to the ground, only the part of his snow-white skin that was pinned showed a bit of blood, his eyes were fixed on the face he had missed for many years, hoping to be like this Lock this person tightly under your body, so that he will never leave your field of vision.

"I don't care what you want to say." He said through gritted teeth, almost speaking from his soul, "I just want to tell you one thing, in this life, I can't let you leave me again, even if I lock you up , guarding you every step of the way, I don’t need anything. If you have those inexplicable thoughts in your mind now, I will go crazy, Nannan, if I lose you again, I will really go crazy. "

Su Nanqing stared at him blankly, maybe it was the tension that was suddenly suppressed, which gave him a good excuse for the pounding heartbeat in his heart.

But looking at Yu Chuan's eyes full of sadness and despair, he suddenly wondered if Yu Chuan was the same in his previous life after he left.

He didn't really want that excuse anymore.

"I found that I should have liked you back then, the same as now, I like you."

Yu Chuan's expression froze, his eyes were full of confusion, as if he was at a loss.

Su Nanqing looked at him in a panic and didn't know what to do, and smiled all of a sudden, full of exhaustion but a little relaxed.

He completely understood that the thing that prevented him from approaching this person was never the hatred of the country, the broken mountains and rivers, it was just an excuse he used to prevent himself from acknowledging his intention.

Does what he lost and broke in his previous life have anything to do with Yu Chuan?He had clearly understood this answer as early as in his previous life, maybe it was involved, maybe it was related, but he knew that Yu Chuan hoped that the country could enter a prosperous and prosperous world more than he did, but they were all innocent.

It's just that Yu Chuan is more accepting of failure and death than he is.

It was his cowardice and stubbornness that made him choose to escape.

Doing it again this time does not give Yu Chuan a chance to love him again, but gives him a chance to choose again, so that he will no longer blame someone who loves him, let him recognize himself, No more excuses for this intention.

Yu Chuan let go, gently rubbed his red wrist, and blamed himself: "Nannan, I'm sorry, I should have said this first."

"Did I never say I love you?"

"Nannan, I love you."