The "rival" of rebirth is too domineering

Night, like thick ink, renders the boundless sky.

The gradually cooling temperature washes away the impetuousness of the day, and the time that settles down is filled with neon colors.In a corner of the bustling city, a high-end apartment stands quietly. It is so quiet that there is no light coming out of it, and no light coming in from outside.

"Click", the sound of a lighter sounded in the silent room, and soon, sporadic fires flickered on and off in the darkness, accompanied by a few wisps of wisps of tobacco.

"Cough, cough, cough..." The man's mellow voice broke the coldness in the air, and a gust of wind blew up, lifted the curtains of the French windows, covered the room with frost, illuminated the scattered cigarette butts on a table, and blurred the man. His appearance became clear——

This is a very masculine and handsome face, with eyebrows like swords, bright eyes, under the high bridge of the nose, slightly pursed lips, and sharp edges and corners.However, the messy black hair and sloppy beard obviously haven't been taken care of for a long time, which made him exude a sense of decadence.

The man was tall and tall, and under the slightly opened front he could vaguely see a strong physique.The muscles of the arms are well-proportioned but not obtrusive, presenting a graceful streamlined shape.The man took the last puff of his cigarette vigorously, wrung out the rest in the ashtray, then picked up a yellowed diary at hand, and gently stroked the name on it——Shu Baichuan.

This diary does not belong to the man, but its owner was once the man's best friend and one of the best brothers.But because of a misunderstanding, the man discarded this friendship for ten years...

The man's name is Chen Haoxuan.

At this moment, his dazed eyes have pierced through the years, and he has fallen into the abyss of memories.

Ten years ago.

"Boom", the fist collided with flesh and blood, and Chen Haoxuan hit Shu Baichuan hard in the face with a right uppercut, "Damn it! Shu Baichuan! This is what you mean by being a good brother forever?! Huh?!" Chen Haoxuan Pulling Shu Baichuan's front, they narrowed the distance between them, staring closely at his eyes, not letting go of a trace of guilt.

But, he was disappointed, very disappointed.Shu Baichuan still smiled gently, as if it wasn't him who was hugging his good brother and girlfriend just now.

The woman's sharp voice sounded, "Chen Haoxuan! Why did you hit someone!"——Xu Yuanyuan, who was supposed to be Chen Haoxuan's girlfriend, threw herself on Shu Baichuan's body with a distressed expression, carefully inspecting his swollen cheek.

Chen Haoxuan took a deep breath, and said slowly and word by word: "Xu Yuanyuan, why are you asking me? I want to ask you, who the hell is your girlfriend, huh?! You and I You said you were too tired to come out today, just to cuddle with my good brother?! Huh?"

Xu Yuanyuan raised her chin, like a high-ranking princess, and said to her former knight: "Now, I don't want to lie to you anymore. In fact, I liked Shu Baichuan from the beginning. If he didn't want to accept me, why would I bother?" Pretending to be affectionate to you?"

Chen Haoxuan was choked, felt nauseated, and said sarcastically, "So, now that your prince accepts you, my stepping stone can be kicked aside, right?"

Xu Yuanyuan was stunned for a moment, and glanced at Shu Baichuan. Seeing that he did not refute, she suddenly felt confident, took Shu Baichuan's arm, and said, "Yes, no matter what, I hope you can bless us."

Shu Baichuan didn't push Xu Yuanyuan's hand away, but looked at Chen Haoxuan with obscure eyes, as if hesitating for something.

Chen Haoxuan tore off the jade pendant around his neck, and slammed it on the ground. Immediately, the broken jade splashed and scattered all over the ground——

"There is such jade between us, from now on, grace, renunciation, righteousness, and renunciation!" After throwing this sentence, Chen Haoxuan turned and left without hesitation.

Behind him, Shu Baichuan slowly clenched his fists.

This jade pendant was given by Shu Baichuan on Chen Haoxuan's 16th birthday, and Chen Haoxuan kept it around his neck.

Shu Baichuan thought, maybe, he will never be able to touch this person again, the only sunshine in his life...

The memory stopped here in astonishment, and Shu Baichuan's diary also ended here.

Chen Haoxuan couldn't imagine how much Shu Baichuan should value him, so that he would become the other party's "only sunshine in life", and how much Shu Baichuan should value him, so that he would use three quarters of the words in the diary to describe The bits and pieces between them... those he remembered, or those he ignored, were picked up one by one by Shu Baichuan, researched into characters, and carved into paintings.

Yes, draw.On the last few pages of the diary, Shu Baichuan also drew some sketches of Chen Haoxuan. The dates on them were Chen Haoxuan's 16th, 17th, ... birthdays.

No matter what, Chen Haoxuan couldn't believe that Shu Baichuan, who cherished their friendship so much, would choose to betray for a woman.

The fact is indeed so, from the last narration in the diary, Chen Haoxuan can also get a glimpse of the truth - at least, Shu Baichuan has been avoiding Xu Yuanyuan's love, and Xu Yuanyuan took the initiative to ask him out that day, and jumped on him... …

However, why didn't Shu Baichuan justify?Chen Haoxuan failed to find the answer from the diary.Shu Baichuan's diary only records events, but not his mood—so, every word and every sentence seems to be wrapped in a cloud of fog, and the plain and simple statement deeply buries the diary owner's true thoughts between the lines , making it impossible to understand.

But the person who could tell Chen Haoxuan the answer is no longer there, only a cold tombstone remains.

January 1 was a day that Chen Haoxuan will never forget.

On this day, he received a strange phone call from the other side of the Atlantic Ocean. The strange man on the other end of the phone said to him in a choked and vicissitudes of life voice:

"Are you Chen Haoxuan?"

"I am, are you...?"

The man hastily interrupted Chen Haoxuan's questioning: "Bai Chuan is dying, no matter what kind of conflicts you had before, please come and see him for the last time, until he faints, he is always saying your name where……"

Chen Haoxuan's heart was severely hammered, and the dusty memories were dragged out in the dull pain. Scenes flashed before his eyes like a revolving lantern, from acquaintance to acquaintance, from acquaintance to breakup... Waiting for Chen Hao to declare After clearing his mind, the five words "he is dying" are left in his ears.

Chen Haoxuan's silence made the man mistakenly think that he rejected his request, so he couldn't help saying angrily: "Chen Haoxuan, is it possible that you are so cruel?! Bai Chuan is going to die, die! You have to make him leave with regrets Are you willing?! Forget it, just pretend I didn’t make this call.”

"Wait," Chen Haoxuan stopped the man's urge to hang up, "Where is he...?".

Departing from China, passing through Malacca, Bangladesh, Colombo, the Indian Ocean, Mozambique, and the Atlantic Ocean, after 16 hours and across 13 time zones, Chen Haoxuan stepped on this strange land of country m. As far as he could see, he was covered with golden hair A person with blue eyes and white skin.

Chen Haoxuan called the strange man, but the other party refused to answer.

Chen Haoxuan called the strange man again, but the man still didn't answer...

In the end, Chen Haoxuan went around the airport a few times, but he couldn't find anyone who came to pick him up, so he found a hotel nearby and stayed there.

In the evening, it began to drizzle.

Chen Haoxuan held the mobile phone in his hand that had been connected all the time, but was reminded that "there is no answer for the time being". Looking at the gray sky outside the window, the depression and anxiety in his heart magnified inch by inch.His sixth sense has always been unreliable, and this time, he hopes it will remain so.

"Buzz buzz..." The vibration in his palm made Chen Haoxuan jump up from the bed like a frightened bird. He didn't even look at the caller ID, and immediately picked up the phone, "Hello? Is that you?"

The other party was silent for a while, and then slowly returned: "Bai Chuan has already left, and he doesn't want you to see his last appearance. His funeral will be in a few days. If you want to come, you can come."

Chen Haoxuan has never felt that the mobile phone in his palm is so heavy like now.

The funeral was very simple, in line with Shu Baichuan's style - in Chen Haoxuan's memory, Shu Baichuan was always calm and breezy, as if he kept everything out of the way, and he would not bring it with him when he was born, nor would he take it with him when he died.

There were quite a few people attending the funeral, but Chen Haoxuan didn't see anyone he knew. Obviously, except for himself, none of Shu Baichuan's former classmates were notified.

The pastor was slowly reciting the eulogy, and Chen Haoxuan looked at the black and white photos that were forever frozen on the tombstone. His rival in love, just like that, fell into a deep sleep forever.

Perhaps, this is just a dream of his?When they woke up from the dream, they were still best brothers, neither betrayed nor broken up...

"You are Chen Haoxuan, right?" After the funeral, a man with half-white hair came in front of Chen Haoxuan.

"Yes. Are you the one who... called me?"

"Yes, I'm his uncle, let's talk."

Inside the cafe.

"Bai Chuan...how did he die?" Chen Haoxuan took a sip of coffee, without sugar, it was very bitter, just like his mood at the moment.

"Bai Chuan is... very hardworking. I have advised him to pay attention to his body, but he doesn't seem to care about everything. In fact, his body broke down a few years ago. If it wasn't for seeing that family's Even if it is destroyed, he will not persist until now."

"That family?"

"This is an old account. Since Bai Chuan didn't tell you, you shouldn't know about it."

A tinge of guilt rose in Chen Haoxuan's heart. He suddenly realized that, as a former good brother, he didn't know Shu Baichuan very well.

Shu Baichuan's uncle continued: "Actually, I asked you out this time, and I want to give you something." Then, he took out a yellowed diary from his briefcase and handed it to Chen Haoxuan. "Bai Chuan has always kept it in a box and hoped to use it to be buried with him. However, after reading the contents inside, I decided to give it to you. No matter what misunderstanding you had with Bai Chuan, I hope The contents of this diary will blow it away."

Chen Haoxuan took the diary, did not open it directly, and said hesitantly: "Perhaps... I have forgiven him long ago, but I still don't want to admit it in my heart." Otherwise, after knowing that Shu Baichuan will pass away soon, how could he? so painful?

"Well, if you had figured it out earlier, Bai Chuan might not have..." Shu Bai Chuan's uncle complained in his words, he hesitated to speak, "Forget it, there are so many ifs in this world. Back then, if It's not my waywardness, why did this child, Bai Chuan, suffer so much? You should take a look, I'll go first, and come and see Bai Chuan when I have time. "

The glass door of the cafe opened and closed, and a gust of cold wind swept in, blowing away the last bit of warmth from the opposite seat.

Chen Haoxuan didn't notice this, he had already opened the diary, looking at the familiar and unfamiliar handwriting on the book, his vision gradually blurred...

"Patta" a drop of tear splashed on the table——

The man did not shed tears, but he did not go to the sad place.

The dusty truth came too late, and the cause of not trusting my friends enough has created the result that I regret now.It wasn't until now that Chen Haoxuan understood that not everything is "seeing is believing".However, no amount of pain and regret can fill the gap of those ten years, let alone restore the lost life of a friend.

Shu Baichuan was left forever in that strange land, and only his diary was brought back.In the following hundreds of nights, it will reveal Chen Haoxuan's memories of Shu Baichuan over and over again.

If it wasn't for the accident later, Chen Haoxuan thought, perhaps, he would be trapped in the prison of guilt and nostalgia for the rest of his life, unable to escape.