The tree attracts thunder

Shen Yue dreamed of a tree.

A very strange and very familiar tree, it is old and young, huge and weak, its body is scorched black, almost only the trunk remains, but although it looks very weak, it is full of vitality.

But what does this have to do with Shen Yue, he just wants to find his way back.

But he soon discovered that there was nothing in this place except this tree. There was no way to come, no way to go, and it was empty. No matter how he walked, he couldn't leave this big tree.Like a lonely ghost bound to a tree, he has no freedom at all, and everything he has can only move around this tree.

Day after day, year after year.

At first, Shen Yue gradually felt lonely, and then he felt a deep and indescribable cold.

In this endless cold and loneliness, Shen Yue could only curl himself up as much as possible to protect the only bit of heat in his body.It must have been a long time before Shen Yue felt a little warmth, and then there was heat, warmth like fire, but not burning.

This made Shen Yue understand a little bit why moths would jump into a flame.

Then he woke up.

The moon is already in the sky outside the window.

Duan Jing wrung out the veil soaked in hot water, as if she hadn't noticed that Shen Yue woke up, she carefully wiped off the sweat from his neck and forehead, and then covered his cold, almost white hands.Duan Jing's expression was very serious, with a hint of worry and annoyance. When Shen Yue opened his eyes, that anger and worry immediately turned into joy.

"A Yue..." He called softly, then sat up with his arms around Shen Yue, let him lean on the soft pillow, and pulled the heavy quilt to cover him, and asked quite carefully, "You...are you Did you dream about something bad?" He hesitated for a while, then suddenly said decisively, "Is it the prince?"

Shen Yue felt a little tired, but also thought it was funny, then he shook his head and said, "How could it be him."

Shen Yue's expression looked very tired, and the corners of his eyes seemed to be stained with fine lines of time, which were traced lightly, revealing an indescribable vicissitudes. At this time, he looked neither young nor old, but rather It really looks like an old monster.He sighed softly, but it seemed as if every breath was as heavy as a spray from a cast iron stove. There seemed to be huge boulders weighing a thousand catties hanging from the corners of his eyes and brows, hanging slightly, showing some sick haggardness.

"Do you want to be alone?" Duan Jing seemed to see his tiredness, gently stroking his long hair, and asked softly.

Little Susu, aren't you just quiet?

Shen Yue laughed in his heart at this dry joke for a while, and then stopped boringly. He shook his head and said, "Don't go, stay with me." The last thing he needs at this time is to be alone. , He has been quiet in his dream for too long, lonely for too long, if there is no one to accompany him, maybe he will suffer from depression.

If one suffers from mental illness, there should be no medicine to take in this world, then brother Shen will be cute all day long.

"it is good."

Duan Jing agreed, then washed the handkerchief in hot water again, and helped Shen Yue wipe his hands.It was only then that Shen Yue realized in a daze where the heat in the dream came from. He felt that there was a place in his heart that was terribly hot, and something surging and surging was about to break through there and completely submerge him. Try to stem the out-of-control tide of this feeling.

"Although I just took a nap, it seems like I have a serious illness." Shen Yue smiled dryly, a bit bitterly, with a sense of self-mockery.He sighed very lightly, and then whispered to Duan in a very rare, almost pleading manner: "Can you hug me? I'm a little cold."

Duan Jing didn't say a word, but soon, Shen Yue fell into the man's arms.

Shen Yue didn't speak, he smelled the thunderous aura from Duan Jing's body, it was hard to describe this feeling, but it made people think of the words Anxiety Tianwei for no reason, but it also made Shen Yue's face throb a little.

"I have just practiced for a while, will the breath on my body make you uncomfortable? I remember that you don't like Lei Ting very much, and you will frown every time you see it." Duan Jing seemed to know Shen Yue well, and asked gently road.It's just that the way he hugged Shen Yue also carried the dominance of Lei Ting, where the two of them touched, it seemed that there was a steady stream of heat passing through the thin clothes.

"It's okay." Shen Yue smiled, he actually didn't feel so cold anymore, he felt drowsy for no reason, but Ming Guo's childish and pale face under the heavy rain and thunder kept appearing in his mind .

"Ming Guo...do you hate me?"

When Shen Yue recalled it, he felt that his expression at that time was panicked and almost scary.

But Ming Guo's expression was one that Shen Yue would never forget for the rest of his life.

The little baby's face was a bit round, with a ruddy blood, but at that time it was completely receded, pale as paper, his two big obsidian-like eyes were particularly deep and dark, and he looked at Shen Yue emptily.Then he looked at the thunder in the sky, lowered his head, paddled his feet lightly on the ground, tears fell to the ground, and said: "I don't know, I know that Little Carrot and Little Rabbit like you very much, It doesn't matter if it's me or not..."

His words were filled with a deep cry, so weak and helpless that it almost broke the heart.

"I don't know!" Ming Guo repeated, and quickly turned around and ran away without looking back. His face full of tears and big empty eyes made Shen Yue feel distressed.

When Shen Ye was still a human being and not a tree demon, he had watched a movie. In fact, time can really heal many things, so who is in that movie, what does the main character look like, what are the funny plots, etc. All of them have been forgotten by him.He just remembered that there was such a movie in the back of his memory, which told a story about the barrier of self-awareness.

Self-awareness refers to a person's views and attitudes towards one's own state of existence, thoughts and actions, and when it is out of order, it is easy to produce mental symptoms such as schizophrenia or dual personality.

For example, a person will have a self-awareness, such as "I think I am very grumpy but I am very good at making friends." When self-awareness is hindered, it will not be able to correctly understand the current self and the past. I can no longer realize that I am a single, independent individual.

Minguo is the problem.

He couldn't tell the difference between the previous tree demon being himself and the later tree demon being Shen Yue, and thought that the tree demon represented an existence, and both he and Shen Yue belonged to the tree demon. When he found out that Shen Yue belonged to the current tree demon At that time, he completely denied his past self.

To give an inappropriate example, there are some female partners or heroines in vulgar sadomasochistic love novels who can fully explain the current situation in one sentence: you are his wife, and what about me, I am What.

You are a junior.

Ahem, of course, this is just a joke, to relieve the heavy and embarrassing atmosphere, although it seems to be even more embarrassing.

Of course, this is not a disorder of self-awareness, but a description of a situation.The status of a wife is like being a tree demon, and Ming Guo also felt similarly confused. Since Shen Yue is a tree demon, who is he himself?Especially when he was perched deep in the trees and protected by Shen Yue, what he felt and what he remembered would be told to him all the time. When another person replaced him, no one would find out, and he would It is not necessary to exist.

This caused Minguo to be wrongly confused, just as he didn't know whether he resented Shen Yue, he also didn't know what the meaning of his existence was.

The Dryad part of him is doubting himself.

Shen Yue naturally felt very guilty, but at the same time he felt very angry, very angry, and very unwilling.

After all, Shen Yue himself is also a victim, so why should he have to consider other people's feelings? Does he really like to snatch other people's bodies to live?It's true that his body back then...although I don't remember much of it, but it should have been average-looking and somewhat inattentive, but it was his own body after all, and it was raised by his parents, so he was born with his own mother. of!

Who would be so happy to be a natural tree demon!No one has ever asked Brother Shen for his opinion!

Shen Yue's anger was like a balloon, but when he thought of Minguo's pitiful appearance, he deflated like a balloon pricked by a needle.

"Why does it have to be me." Shen Yue shrank into Duan Jing's arms a little sadly, he has always been a person who is very good at finding happiness, and he is also very open-minded by nature, so he is especially sad when he is sad.Leaning tightly on Duan Jing's warm chest, he said with extreme aggrievedness, "Why does it have to be me..."

Why do I have to accept all this, why do I have to feel that I owe something, why do I have to bear this hatred that I don’t know when it will come, why do I have to consider other people’s feelings... why it has to be me, so unlucky ...

In the final analysis, the heart is not dark enough and the skin is not thick enough.

But this is a good thing, because if everyone is black-hearted and thick-skinned, people will start to worry about who will stab you when they pass by on the road, and don’t tear off a large part of your flesh when they talk about business and take advantage of it. don't relax...

"I'm here." Duan Jing's voice was not loud, but it made Shen Yue completely quiet, and he began to feel really tired and sleepy.Duanjing stretched out her hand to cover Shen Yue's eyes, and said softly, "Sleep well, I will always be here with you."

"Then you must not go...don't go." Shen Yue felt more and more sleepy, his eyelids almost fell down, and his eyes were completely closed, leaving only the last bit of rationality left, blurred Duanjing murmured, "Don't leave me alone."

"I will always be here." Duan Jing's voice was soft and soft, like a dose of reassurance on Shen Yue's heart, he fell asleep quickly, and his peaceful sleeping face revealed a serenity that was not common in the past Come on.

Duan Jing tightened her arms, allowing Shen Yue's long hair to be entangled with his, never to be separated.