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The dream continues like the gray road under your feet.The rental house began to fall apart, pieces of debris scattered all over the road, and each piece contained a fragment of memory.

Walking over is like walking through those years.

The woman in front of her looks even more haggard, and she has grown taller, reaching the age of elementary school.

Moving to a new place, a completely unfamiliar city and community, is no longer an old rental house in a small town, but a small apartment like a matchbox in a high-rise building.Although it is also rented, the door is a security door made of stainless steel, which is shiny and brand new, much more attractive than the old iron door.

Since he reached school age, the woman was finally willing to let him go to school, and for the first time led him out of the residence in broad daylight.

Women rarely say that mantra again.

Because he has learned to be silent, he doesn't need to be reminded over and over again.

The school is quite a noisy place, the traffic flow at the school gate, the running and jumping peers, the teacher who maintains order, fragmentary voices buried him like a tide from all directions, he was like a person who just walked out of a mime People, their ears are buzzing, and there is a sense of suffocation invisibly.

All this was very strange, so strange that he was in a state of fear, and cold sweat kept breaking out from the palm of his hand.

but it does not matter.

As long as he doesn't speak, and doesn't make a sound-women have always taught him this way.

"What's your name?" the amiable class teacher bent down and asked him with a smile.

After a long while, he slowly raised his eyes, and the other party looked at him curiously like thorns, forcing him to immediately lower his head, took a step towards the woman, and hid half of his body behind her long skirt.

"His name is Shen Yan." The woman replied with a social smile.

"Shen Yan," the head teacher repeated the words, then turned to the woman and said, "Your child seems to be very shy."

From his angle, he couldn't see the expression on the woman's face, but she squeezed his hand tightly for a moment, and his finger bones were hurting, but he still didn't say a word, just endured.

"He's not my child, he's my nephew." The woman's tone was stiff and straight, without any flexibility, "My brother and my sister-in-law are working out of town and don't have time to take care of the children, so they are fostered by me."

"Ah, is that so?" The head teacher subconsciously looked at him.

At this moment, the woman turned her head and followed the teacher in charge's line of sight to stare at him motionlessly. She pulled his whole body forward with her wrist, and couldn't help but stumble back to the teacher in charge.The woman opened her mouth and urged with a blank expression: "Speak up, say it right."

speak.

It was the first time he heard a woman order like this, his eyes widened and he blinked blankly.

Nephew, brother, sister-in-law, out of town, work.Those are not his cases - so, can he talk while playing "someone else"?

"Yes. Mom and Dad are very busy and at work." The voice was so low that it was almost inaudible, but he finally said it out.

"So that's how it is." Seeing him speak, the teacher in charge patted his head with a smile to express his comfort.

The woman seemed satisfied with his answer and allowed him to retreat quietly behind her skirt again.

So, he played the role of a stranger with the same name as him during the day, and returned home at night, reverting to the silent, real Shen Yan.

After coming to this city, the woman became addicted to alcoholism. Sometimes she didn’t come back until two or three o’clock in the middle of the night. When she got drunk, she would break into the room and shake him awake, crying and making noise, and doing homework on his desk. Torn to shreds, then hysterically asking him questions he didn't know the answers to.

For example, "Why do you look so much like your father".

For example, "If I hadn't given birth to you, would I be able to go back to the past and start a new life?"

But the most difficult question to answer is "Why can't your dad hear you when you speak, let him get a divorce, and let him come over right away to welcome us in the door."

He didn't know how to talk so that his father, whom he had never met, could hear and do what the woman said.Because he is a real "Shen Yan" - no one wants to hear what he really said.

The woman didn't listen either.

Not only did he not listen, but once he was so drunk that he suddenly went berserk and covered his head tightly with the quilt.

It was an early morning that could not tolerate any light.When he opened his eyes, all he could see was darkness.

His entire head was covered under the quilt by the woman, and it was extremely difficult to breathe, and his trachea was almost scratched by the intense airflow in and out.Instinctively, he stretched out his hands to push, rub and struggle, but all he touched was a boundless, invisible and unshakable solid wall.

Strength gradually reached the limit.

The darkness is like balls of odorless cotton stuffed into the eyes, nose, ears, and throat, impenetrable.At this moment of extreme fear, the vocal cords can't make a sound, and can't yell out half a word. When I open my mouth, I can only hear myself making a single sound similar to "uh" intermittently.

"Uh...uh..." He kept begging like that until he passed out from the lack of oxygen.

"Shen Yan, don't talk, don't make a sound." Only then would the woman bring out her old mantra, "No one will hear, no one will come."

wrong.

some.

Someone said that he wanted to hear me, to hear my voice.I also want to let more people hear it.

And he has come to me, right here, within reach—

Suddenly woke up.

I saw myself stretching out a hand to the still blank ceiling, as if eager to grab something.

The color of the ceiling has transitioned from dark gray to light gray.

Morning has come.

Shen Yan's fingers scratched the air, let it fall gently, and then lay back panting and closing her eyes, the small cold sweat that came out of her back was all crushed, soaking the clothes behind her.

After lying down for a few seconds, he suddenly trembled all over, and hurriedly got out of bed as if remembering something, opened the door and rushed to the bedroom door.I almost couldn't help knocking on the door, but fortunately my rationality recovered in time, and my hand stopped at that moment, so that no one in the bedroom was disturbed.

Fortunately, the bedroom door was closed.Qi Yu is still there.

Not in my own nightmare, but really, across a door, sleeping peacefully in a room filled with the faint morning light.

Shen Yan silently withdrew her hand and adjusted her breath evenly.

He stood in front of the door for a long time, and after a long while, he stretched out his hand again and touched the door panel very carefully, without using any force at all, just slowly scratching the door.There is a slight pain wherever the finger touches.

Shen Yan was very grateful for the pain.

It hurts, which means this is not a continuation of a dream, but a reality.

He put his hands on the door panel and stood in this posture for about 5 minutes. He was still a little worried. He left the bedroom door and went to the wooden cabinet where the shoes were placed behind the door. exist.

Going to the washstand outside the bathroom, toothbrushes, towels, razors and other personal items are also complete.

Seeing these things, he was finally convinced that the person had never left. He breathed a sigh of relief, went back to the door of the bedroom, sat on the ground with his back against the wall, and walked quietly for a while.

Glancing at the old-fashioned wall clock on the wall, it was only past six in the morning.

I don't know when I fell asleep last night, but it must have been after twelve o'clock, that is to say, I slept for less than six hours.At this moment, Naoren'er began to ache slightly, and his face looked tired, but his breathing had stabilized a lot.

Then, Shen Yan remembered to prepare breakfast.

So he got up and walked to the refrigerator, took out all the things that could be used as ingredients, and put them all on the table.Because he didn't know what Qi Jin liked to eat, he took a little of everything.When Qi Jin opened the door at eight o'clock in the morning and came out, the first thing he saw was the table full of ingredients, and Shen Yan sitting beside the table like a clay sculpture, he was shocked.

"You wake up really early."

Qi Min opened her eyes wide in surprise, and the feeling of not being awake and dizzy when she just woke up disappeared all of a sudden.Generally speaking, shouldn't Sunday morning be snooze for a while?Besides, they didn't turn off the lights until nearly twelve o'clock last night.

Of course, if he knew that Shen Yan had been sitting outside for two hours, he might be more than surprised.

"And there are so many things prepared..." Qi Yu paused, then sighed in a murmur, and couldn't help laughing at the end.These things were obviously prepared for himself, and when he realized it, he couldn't hide his smile.

Ever since Qi Jin walked out of the room, Shen Yan has been staring blankly and intently.The person was standing at the door, covered with a layer of light, and the contour line was washed away by the faint white, which seemed virtual and real, like a silhouette standing behind the curtain, perhaps just a light touch will collapse.

Shen Yan suddenly called out: "Qi Xi."

Full of tentative claims.

Cautious, apprehensive, and more of a confusion of not being sure whether the person in front of me really exists.

"Huh?" Qi Yu subconsciously responded.

After receiving the other party's answer, Shen Yan's face softened a little, and his eyes became brighter in a trance, as if he had received great comfort.For a while, it seemed to be sighing, or laughing, or both.He closed his eyes for a moment, and when he opened them again, he had returned to his previous gentle and peaceful expression: "It's okay... just wanted to ask, what kind of breakfast do you like?"

"I—" Anything is fine, as long as you like what you do.

Just as she was about to answer, Qi Wei suddenly noticed that Shen Yan's eyes were bloodshot, and the corners of the eyes were also slightly blue, which was definitely not an illusion caused by the morning light, but caused by lack of sleep.

"What's the matter? You don't seem to be sleeping well. Could it be that you were not used to sleeping in the crib last night?" Qi Wei frowned and asked anxiously.

"It's not the bed's problem, it's my own problem." Shen Yan smiled slightly, pinching his left wrist with his right hand and resting it on his knee. This is his unique posture that can calm himself down.Then he took a deep breath and promised in a low voice, "But I will get over it slowly...for sure."

Nothing is insurmountable.

He just needs the right time, the right environment, and the right people.

Although a whole table was set out, Qi Jin only picked out a few simple items, and everything was random, so that it feels like home.

Shen Yan cooked a pot of oatmeal, beat a few eggs to make egg rolls, and fried them in a pan without oil, trying to be as light as possible.Originally, it was enough for Qi Yu to talk like this, but Shen Yan shook his head, and made a simple salad with green vegetables, cucumbers, chopped celery and asparagus, so that fracture patients could supplement some necessary vitamins.In addition, hot milk, fresh orange juice, and water are also prepared.

"How can I finish eating so much?" Qi Min looked at the large and small dishes in front of her and smiled helplessly.

"Eat slowly." Shen Yan sat next to him like yesterday, instead of facing him.In this way, it is more convenient to pass things, and you can also add water to his cup at any time.

Qi Yu responded lightly.There are all kinds of tastes in his mouth when he eats breakfast, but he only has one in his heart, and that is sweetness.

The two were eating, when Shen Yan suddenly apologized to him: "Last night... I'm sorry."

Hearing this, Qi Yu's hand holding the spoon trembled inadvertently.

Originally, if Shen Yan didn't mention it, he would treat it as nothing happened, but when the other party took the initiative to open the conversation, he had to pretend to smile relaxedly to cover up a trace of embarrassment in his heart: "It's nothing, I was just a little... Surprised. In fact, looking back, I said some strange things myself, so I can't blame you."

It sounds like a reluctant answer.

Shen Yan lowered her head and slowly stopped the wooden chopsticks in her hand.

"Yeah, I wanted to scare you because you made fun of me." Suddenly, he smiled faintly, and continued following Qi Jin's words, "It turned out that I really scared you, and it was my fault."

"So you did it on purpose?" Qi Min breathed a sigh of relief when he heard him say that, and looked at him with raised eyebrows.

"Well. But... I won't do this again in the future, I promise." Shen Yan's tone was very sincere, which undoubtedly gave Qi Jin a shot in the arm.The previously frozen atmosphere melted unknowingly, returning to the most natural and stable state when we get along with each other - that's right, as long as it's like this.

Glancing at the people around him from the corner of the eye, Shen Yan silently buried that sigh in his heart.

After breakfast, Qi Min was about to help clean up the dishes, but Shen Yan gently raised his hand to signal him to return to his seat, as if he had something serious to say.Qi Yu was puzzled, and as soon as he sat back, Shen Yan said something he didn't expect: "Is the registration deadline for the dubbing competition your friend mentioned yesterday?"

Qi Yu was taken aback.

After being stunned, it was replaced by a pounding heartbeat.He seemed to understand what Shen Yan was going to say.

"There is no deadline, and you can continue to sign up for these two days." He couldn't help but straighten his body, staring at Shen Yan intently, "You... have you changed your mind?"

Perhaps it was because Qi Jin's sense of anticipation was too strong, Shen Yan was startled, but instead hesitated for a moment, bowed his head and did not answer.

Qi Yu hurriedly leaned over and grabbed one of his hands, as if she wanted to firmly hold on to a ray of dawn in the darkness, not wanting to let it disappear before her eyes: "Shen Yan, you have changed your mind."

When an interrogative sentence becomes a declarative sentence, it means that you cannot go back on your word.

Shen Yan sighed lightly, but she didn't regret it: "Well, I don't think it's okay for me to linger in the same place all the time."

"Great..." Hearing the party agreeing in person, Qi Jin couldn't help but have mixed feelings. His usual inexhaustible vocabulary was suddenly wiped out, and he only knew to repeat these three words over and over again.

The treatment process for selective mutism is long and difficult.However, the possibility is not zero.

Shen Yan did not regret choosing dubbing as one of the treatments.

Because if it wasn't like this, he wouldn't have met Qi Rong, wouldn't have gotten acquainted with him, and knew him well.

Shen Yan quietly watched Qi Yu with sincere joy flowing from his eyes, the more he watched, the more he felt that the nightmare was so far away from him.Old wounds will always heal completely.

"Are you going to listen?" he asked.

"Of course." Qi Jin laughed and sighed.Not only can you listen, but you can't wait to record it and appreciate it slowly.

"As long as you are willing to listen, I am willing to speak." Shen Yan murmured softly.Turn your palms around and hold his fingers together.

Qi Jin raised her head, and saw a very soft smile on that face, as soft as two or three rays of morning light faintly penetrating behind the curtains, which may be a long way from the scorching heat, but it is also warm.