Escape from life

Everyone is born with the love of their parents, why doesn't he have it?

Joey asked himself this question countless times, and sneered countless times, why not?Because I shouldn't have come to this world to walk around.

I remember that when he was young, he had a beautiful longing for his family, and he thought every day that someone would come to see him, even if it was only for one look. Unfortunately, no one came to see him until he left the small courtyard when he was ten years old. He, in his world, there is only a small courtyard that is too quiet, and Abel who only appears three times a day at most.

Abel is the servant responsible for delivering meals to him. Sometimes he delivers meals three times per meal, and sometimes he brings the whole day’s meals together. He doesn’t ask him if his food is good. He just collects the plates and leaves. Also in a hurry, as if someone was chasing after him.

Occasionally, when Abel drank too much, he would tentatively ask some outside questions while Abel was not clear-headed. He didn't dare to ask too many questions, but just patiently lured Abel to talk about his family. Then slowly, he pieced together the appearance of his parents and elder brother from Abel's short words,

His father is tall and tall, the head of the clan, and the most powerful male among all the Darkwing clan. His mother has a gentle temperament, but her health is not very good. He also felt guilty for a long time. His elder brother is handsome and knowledgeable. He has become the pride of the tribe since he was a cub. Many women secretly love him.

The more he listened, the more he longed for his family. He longed to step out of the door that separated him from being close to his family. He longed to stand in front of his family with a perfect posture and tell them loudly that he could also be their pride. Looking back at him with loving eyes, I hope that I don’t have to spend the New Year’s Eve alone in a cold quilt. Abel said that the happiest is to spend New Year’s Eve with his family, but he has never been happy. .

So after crying all night, he began to work hard to enrich himself, studying in the online training class for cubs every day, and he was very obedient and did not communicate with the outside world. For five years, that's how he came here.

If he knew that the goal he was fighting for was not as happy as the similarity, and even scarier than hell, he would definitely not walk out of that door, and he would stay in the dilapidated yard until he died, and in the end At least, he was pure and clean when he died, and he still had good expectations for the world, unlike his current self, who was so dirty that he didn't dare to look in the mirror.

At the age of ten, when he stood anxiously in front of his father and looked directly into his father's eyes for the first time, the disgust in the other's eyes was like a sharp arrow, which instantly hit his chest, and blood flowed continuously from the wound , His teeth chattered from the bone-piercing cold.

Why?His lips were moving, but his throat was so hoarse that he couldn't make a sound, and he didn't know what was buzzing in his ears. He just stood there in the hall dryly, watching his father turn around indifferently and walk away step by step. , until, never to be seen again.

It was his elder brother who brought him to the place where he lived, a luxury villa that was several grades higher than the small courtyard where he lived for ten years. He stood in front of his elder brother at a loss, with red eyes and cautiously reaching out his hand, tightly, firmly. Grabbing his sleeve, "Brother." A choked voice escaped his lips involuntarily, and only he knew how much courage was needed for this call, and how much bitterness was mixed with it.

To his surprise, his elder brother didn't hate him as much as his father did. His elder brother let him pull his sleeves, let him get closer and finally put his head on his elder brother's stomach. His elder brother was so tall that he could barely reach it with his feet up. As far as my brother's chest is concerned, compared with my brother, I am like a little bean, and I am still the kind of skinny and unpleasant to look at.

That night he slept in the guest room of his brother's house, feeling so happy, smelling the fragrance on the quilt, thinking of his brother's silent but gentle character, he closed his eyes with a smile.

What happened after that was a nightmare for him. His father grabbed him by the neck and dragged him out of his brother's house, yelling at him as a useless piece of trash, while his brother stood beside his father and watched, still silent. , but no longer the gentleness that I mistakenly thought.

Yes, I mistakenly thought that if my brother really accepted him sincerely, how could he remain indifferent when his father almost strangled him to death?He stared at his brother with wide eyes, and there flashed many things that he didn't understand in those eyes, except that there was no distress that he could understand.

Brother, why don't you feel sorry for me?When the injured little pet is found by the owner, the owner will touch him with distress, and Abel will frown in distress when the new clothes worn by him are torn. I am your brother, how can you not feel sorry for me?

Before he passed out, he thought he was going to die just like that, with heartbreak and despair, at the hands of his biological father and in front of his biological brother.

He was still too naive, where would it be his turn to die so easily?

He was sent back to the dilapidated small courtyard, and Abel never appeared again, as if from the moment he stepped out of the small courtyard, his life and death were borne by him alone, whether he was sick or starved to death, No one will care, he is the only one left in the world, he can only hug himself tightly so as not to be frostbitten by the biting wind.

Then it didn't take long for him to know the reason why he was rejected by his father and brother, the reason was ridiculous and sad.

One year, two years, a few years have passed, he is growing up gradually, and his heart is becoming more and more dead every day, he still grows up alone, his happiness seems to be doomed from birth, so Now, he no longer has extravagant hopes.

He has endured the white eyes, bullying, exclusion, and even beating and scolding from the clansmen. Who told him to embarrass the entire Darkwing clan?Who made him cause the patriarch's wife to be bedridden for a long time and die within a few years?It's all his fault, he deserves to be bullied.

In winter when he was 17 years old, his elder brother set foot in his small courtyard for the first time. Under the light, his elder brother looked at him with more complicated eyes than seven years ago. He had a vague premonition that his fate was going to another gutter. Turned around.

Sure enough, that night, he was given to a disgusting man by his biological brother. Like a pet, he was washed clean, his hands and feet were bound, and he was carried to a dark room.

The room was full of various items for the fun, and he almost 'tasted' most of the items. Presumably he liked that man very much, right?Because after he came out from there, he changed his place to live, and he also had a special servant to wait on him, so he no longer had to worry about three meals. Is this considered the best news?

Year after year, ten years, he was given to countless men by Asaimo, and many people in the Dark Wing Tribe played with him, and everyone tacitly used his body to balance For mutual interests, as a plaything, he can't even have a rebuttal, because he is the son of the patriarch, and he has to add legal weight to the interest groups of the patriarch and the young patriarch. This is what he owes them, oh, another Ridiculous and sad reasons.

He no longer silently called A Saimo brother, no longer expected the gaze of the patriarch, no longer hoped that the clan would accept him, he just felt at ease as a plaything for the high bidder, and opened his legs obediently when the men needed him.

Those crazy resistances in the past were like dreams, and he was firmly suppressed in his heart. When he was weak, no amount of resistance was just a farce. The most ruthless one almost died. No, he was rescued by Asaimo?The young patriarch didn't want him to die, so he had no right to end his own life.

Anyway, he also figured it out, why should the bastards who trampled on him live well but leave in a humiliating way?They destroyed him, and he will destroy them too!

On the day when he made up his mind to bear the humiliation, he bit Asaimo's shoulder hard, biting off a large piece of flesh before he let go, spit out the blood and stared coldly at Asaimo who was silent, laughed softly, just wait, Hell is already beckoning at you.

Taking advantage of Asaimo's twisted love, his quality of life is getting better and better. With his special identity, he has grasped the bad nature of men, and never bowed his head in front of them with a noble attitude. Want him to bow his head?Okay, here are the benefits, the most advanced weapons, the weirdest technological products, of course they are the ones that are not very lethal, or the most basic ones, you don’t have to bind your hands and feet and let him lie in one position for a long time when you have sex with him.

In order to successfully escape from the Dark Wing Clan in the future, and to hand over the evidence to the enemies of the Dark Wing Clan, he planned for a full ten years, but everything was worth it.

Vigorously tearing off the patriarch's hypocritical mask, he smashed Asaimo into the dust, and seeing the humble elders pleading, he wanted to laugh up to the sky.

Should!You will reap the fruits of whatever cause you sow. This is what you owe me. I won’t be entangled with you in the next life after this life.

Taking advantage of the time when the members of the Dark Alliance took away the Dark Wing tribe, he retreated to an inconspicuous corner, and smiled brightly at the only friend who came running from afar, with his palm clasped around his throat. He felt that he was strangled by the patriarch when he was ten years old. Death is the best ending. Since both he and the patriarch feel that this ending is the most suitable for Joey's fate, let's use this ending as it is, and he repaid the patriarch's last trace of blood.

His movements were quick, and he didn't hesitate to kill himself at all, but God didn't follow his wishes, and he once again became a stranger who passed by the god of death.

Waking up from the chaos in a daze, the dazed Kabbah couldn't figure out why he was still alive for a long time.

"You're so sick, right? You haven't eaten the most delicious food in the world, you haven't drunk the most delicious wine in the world, and you haven't even touched a girl's little hand. You commit suicide!"

The young man stood beside the bed and roared angrily. His voice was not pleasant, but it warmed his heart slightly.

Kaba closed his eyes, trying to express his apology to Yela. He didn't want to worry his only friend, but it was obvious that he didn't do well.

"Do you still want to die?"

Silent, and finally shook his head slowly under Yella's nervous gaze.

For 27 years, his fate has been ups and downs in the quagmire. He couldn't break free from the devil's hand, and he didn't have the strength to climb out. He was fed up with that kind of life, so he chose to use death after taking revenge on the Darkwing tribe. free yourself.

But the warmth that fills his heart is really nostalgic. It's not that he doesn't care about him. He still has a friend, or, what's more, Su Litan, who knocked him unconscious with a knife?

In short, only by being alive can I feel that I have been chasing something for a long time that I thought I would never get it. Isn't it too ridiculous to blindly seek death and comfort yourself with "the next life will be better"?

Taking a deep breath, he made a decision with a smile, "Erase my memory, I want to be completely reborn."

A brand new life of its own.

"Don't you want to know what happened to other members of the Darkwing clan, such as Asaimo?"

"Those people have nothing to do with me."

"Then you are not afraid that Sulitan will tamper with your memory?"

"..." Mao mean?

"Su Litan wanted to take you in as his subordinate, so he saved you in time when you were looking for death."

"..." When did this happen?

"I guess, if you ask him to erase your memory for you, he will probably make up another life experience for you so that you will follow him wholeheartedly."

"..." What should I do if I suddenly don't want to live anymore?

"It's okay, I'll look after him for you, at worst, you will be blank 27 years ago."

"..." The one who was blank was a fool. Thinking that he would have to be taught how to flush the toilet even when he went to the toilet, he began to feel desperate for his long-awaited new life.

I struggled until I fell asleep and didn't make up my mind whether to erase the memory?Or live with the memory?After tossing and turning for a long time, he suddenly sat up shaking his head and laughing.

The hateful Yela is obviously trying to punish him, just because he foolishly seeks death after getting his revenge.

Lie down under the quilt again, and fall asleep with a smile like many years ago, this time he won't wake up from his sleep again, he will be happy, he will.