Qizi

Yingfeng sat alone on the bench in the corridor of the medical building, and subconsciously continued his previous habit, taking out the peach pits and rubbing them slowly in his hands.But usually he would calm down immediately by doing this, but today he was even more restless, and the thing in his hand became inexplicably heavy, so that he had no choice but to hastily stuff it back.

Ling Xiao spent much longer in it than him, and it took so long for Yaotai to say something to him.The corridor was very quiet, and he could vaguely hear a little voice from inside the house, and he could actually hear it more clearly if he wanted to, but he deliberately turned off the function of processing external information in his brain, so the voice of the conversation on the partition wall It became a misty and unrecognizable mass.

It took a long time before the closed door was opened, and Yaotai personally sent Ling Xiao out.

"Go back and pack your luggage first. If you are later, it will be too late. I will inform you if there are other things."

Yingfeng didn't know what she meant by "pack your luggage", and it wasn't until Ling Xiao left that Yaotai said to Yingfeng, "You can come in."

Entering the infirmary again, Yaotai didn't speak, just stared at Yingfeng for no apparent reason, which made him feel hairy.

"What's the matter?" In the end, even Yingfeng couldn't hold back his temper, so he had to ask.

"Have you already done it?"

This question was asked too bluntly, Yingfeng's expression was unnatural for a moment, but he immediately acquiesced.

In fact, the appearance was too obvious. When Ling Xiao took off his shirt, Yaotai discovered something suspicious, and his physical examination report turned this point into a confirmed fact.

"Other than that, I can't think of any reason to suppress the side effects of burning ember in Ling Xiao's body. Judging from the medication records of the medical station, they didn't even inject Ling Xiao with a purifier. Each other saved each other's life, even though I am a scientific worker, I have to admit that fate is really wonderful sometimes."

No matter how mature and calm Yingfeng usually behaves, after all, he has only been an adult for less than a day, and he cannot discuss such things in a casual way like Yaotai.So even though he didn't understand a lot of what the other party said, he still pretended not to care and resolutely refused to ask.

Yaotai saw that he was not used to this kind of topic, so she simply skipped it and put the two medical examination reports in front of Yingfeng.

"At the medical station, Ling Xiao's psychological rating was still low-risk, but in less than two hours, it turned into high-risk. Can you explain it to me?"

Yingfeng did not expect such a big change, "He was taken directly from the medical station to the detention center by the military, but we released him on bail soon, within half an hour before and after." He summed it up succinctly. the whole journey.

Yaotai guessed it would be like this, "Ling Xiao's current psychological evaluation level is E-level, E-level is high-risk level, F is serious warning level, which is Lan Sheng's mental state back then. If Ling Xiao also drops to F, From a safety point of view, we must isolate him, but in fact I am quite unwilling to do so. Because no matter how advanced the medical treatment is, it is no match for the company of the owner. The result of forced isolation is often that Qizi's psychological condition is getting worse and worse. , until it drops to G."

"Once the psychological rating is reduced to G, the suicide rate is 99%. The only difference is whether it is a success or an attempt. Although Ling Xiao looks calm on the surface, this calmness may also be a sign of despair. This must be taken seriously. "

"I don't care whether you came together subjectively or passively. The fact has already happened. It is irreversible. He is now your deed, and you have the responsibility to protect him."

"Qizi, especially those who have just completed the coming-of-age ceremony, their psychological fluctuations are very susceptible to the influence of the owner. Your words, deeds, and actions may cause him to develop in an extreme direction. Ten days after the coming-of-age ceremony It is very critical, any slight mistake may cause irreversible mental damage."

"The more indifferent you are to him, the more uneasiness in his heart will be exacerbated. Once the negative emotions accumulate to a certain level, they will cause self-injury or destruction. As a school doctor who has witnessed nearly a hundred tragedies with my own eyes, I will definitely not be here. Alarmist talk."

Yingfeng was silent for a moment, "Then what do you want me to do?"

"Hugs and caresses, meticulous care, all these can relieve Xin Qizi's anxiety, it depends on whether you are willing to do it."

"Then what if I don't want to?"

"Then control him, control his heart, and control his behavior so that he will not do things that endanger his life."

"How to do it?"

"Concentrate on thinking and break through his mental barrier. No matter how much his spirit resists and how painful it is, just ignore it."

"You did that to the doctor in the beginning?"

"We are different. I have never faced such a severe situation. I have plenty of time to soften his mental barrier little by little and gradually penetrate into his heart. It took about half a year to master this ability."

"Then how can you be sure that I can master the ability that took you half a year to master in a short period of time?"

"As long as you concentrate on thinking, you can do it. It shouldn't be difficult for you."

"Since it's that simple, why didn't Pingzong do it?"

"Because he has feelings for Lan Sheng, do you have feelings for Ling Xiao?"

Yaotai hit the nail on the head, and Yingfeng didn't say another word.

"Yingfeng, Lansheng and Pingzong are also your classmates. You were there when they had an accident. I believe you will not be untouched. Do you have the heart to let Ling Xiao follow in their footsteps?"

"You and Ling Xiao have been classmates for ten years. Even if you don't have love, you should have other feelings, even if it's classmate friendship? Just as I beg you, I really don't want to see any more souls from this academy. flew away."

Yingfeng's eyes flashed, avoiding her expectation.

"There is another sentence. It may not be appropriate for me as a school doctor to say it. Among all the tenth graders, the one I don't want to meet at the coming-of-age ceremony is the two of you."

"But if the two of you inevitably meet each other and a winner must be decided," Yaotai looked at him with complicated eyes, "Yingfeng, I hope that person is you."

Yingfeng was slightly moved.

"I admit that it's unfair to Ling Xiao to think like this, but if you were the loser, you would definitely not choose to live."

"But if the loser is Ling Xiao, whether he can live or not depends on you, let alone..."

Yaotai's voice stopped abruptly, Yingfeng felt strange, "What's more?"

——I am already ashamed enough, please save the last bit of self-esteem for me.

Yaotai shook his head, expelling this lingering image from his mind, "It's nothing, Ling Xiao should be waiting outside your dormitory now, you should go back quickly."

"Why is he waiting outside?"

"You still don't know? Qizi has no right to own the main card. When he becomes Qizi, the card will be degaussed and the dormitory will be cancelled. He can only live with you. This is also for the sake of his psychological state. The separation will Anxiety, especially at night, remember what I said, only you can help him."

Yaotai sent Yingfeng out, until he was out of sight, and turned around to find a person standing in the dark of the corridor.

"Principal? Why are you here?"

The headmaster slowly came out from the shadows, "I'm worried, so I came here to take a look."

"What needs to be said has already been said, as for whether it can be done," Yaotai's hope is also very low, "It's up to them."

"What do you think will happen?"

Yaotai sighed heavily, and shook her head, "If a person doesn't realize his feelings for a long time, then when he realizes, it's often too late."

-

When Yingfeng returned to the dormitory, Ling Xiao was already waiting outside the door.

He stood there alone with his suitcase, like a homeless stray dog.

Yingfeng slowed down and deliberately prolonged the scene in front of him. Ling Xiao was lost in thought and didn't realize his presence until the last moment.

He immediately turned his head away, there would never be a more embarrassing moment than this, even the last time he came to him and was mercilessly pressed against the door, it would not be more embarrassing than this.

Yingfeng opened the door and walked straight in. The door wasn't closed, but he didn't give any indication to let him in. Ling Xiao didn't enter at the door, or didn't. He just froze outside the door for a long time.

He gritted his teeth and stepped in until he couldn't drag it any longer.Yingfeng's room layout is the same as his. Now he knows why the single dormitory is equipped with double beds. It is ridiculous to think that he joked that this is to prevent people from rolling off after they are asleep.

Yingfeng didn't say anything about the extra person in his dormitory, as if Ling Xiao's presence or absence had nothing to do with him.

He was doing his own thing without saying a word, washing up, turning off the lights, and going to bed. Ling Xiao stood there like a superfluous decoration. Disdain fell on him.

The lights went out, but Ling Xiao felt better. He looked at the bed, and found that Yingfeng had already fallen asleep. He occupied the left half of the bed, leaving the entire right side empty.

He still remembered that because Yingfeng didn't want to share the same tent with others, he would rather sleep in the wild, let alone the same bed.But when he looked around, there was no place where he could make a bed, not to mention that the place where the sleeping bag was taken to practice was still missing.

Ling Xiao stood in the dark for an unknown amount of time before reluctantly taking a small step.

Although Yingfeng had already fallen asleep, he didn't fall asleep until there were rustling sounds from inside the room.He heard Ling Xiao enter the bathroom, and the sound of water came from inside. After a while, the sound of water stopped, and the person came out of the bathroom, and stopped by the bed again.

He could imagine the battle between heaven and man in Ling Xiao's heart, and he didn't know how long it had passed. Yingfeng felt the bed sinking behind him, knowing that someone finally lay down, and his movements were so light that he was afraid of being noticed by him.

Ling Xiao occupied a narrow edge on the other side of the bed, and the double bed was vacated by the two of them for an entire shoulder-width distance, which was more than enough for another person to lie on.

The room was extremely silent, and no one made any noise. This was their "wedding night", and it just came quietly.

-

Yingfeng is really not suitable for living with other people. It took him a long time to fall asleep in a daze, but it didn't seem long before he was awakened by a strange movement.

He half propped himself up and turned his head to look, and saw Ling Xiao, who was already lying down, hugged into a ball and huddled in a corner at this moment. Despite strong control, his body was still shaking, and Yingfeng was awakened by the shock.

He bit his wrist hard so as not to make any sound, and fixed his eyes firmly on one point. Yingfeng remembered that they had learned in class that this method can forcibly lock attention when suffering great pain. power without causing loss of consciousness.

Because it can capture any subtle light in the dark, Ling Xiao's translucent eyes are extraordinarily bright, as if they would glow at night, but unfortunately there is no vitality in them, full of fear and anxiety.

It turned out that this was the most difficult night of the so-called disordered period. If Yingfeng hadn't witnessed it with his own eyes, he would never have imagined that even a strong character like Ling Xiao would have such a performance.

"you……"

As soon as he uttered a word, a pillow flew towards him. After knocking it off, Yingfeng saw Ling Xiao, who was completely different from Bairi, and anger pierced through those glowing eyes. , seemed annoyed that Yingfeng saw him like this.

"Don't worry about it!" His voice was out of his control now, and he roared almost hysterically.

Yingfeng's temperament was originally softened by others and made stronger by others. His eyes sank when he heard such words, and he felt that the vague concern he had raised just now was superfluous.

He turned over heavily and fell down. Ling Xiao said he didn't care, but he really let go, ignoring how painful Ling Xiao was at the moment, and forgetting the words "disordered period".

At this time, Ling Xiao, as long as he closes his eyes, it is like being in the boundless darkness, no matter whether it is front and back, left and right, or up and down, he completely loses any support.Sometimes it feels like I'm drifting, sometimes I'm spinning, and sometimes I'm falling endlessly.

Yaotai personally told her in the infirmary that if there is no physical contact between the new Qizi and the Qizhu, it is like the separation of the soul from the body, and it is impossible to sleep at night.But rather than humbly seeking Yingfeng's care, he hoped that he could proudly raise his head in front of the other party until the last moment, but he didn't expect that even such a embarrassing scene would be seen by the other party.

Originally, I thought that the days were long enough, but I never thought that one night would be enough to replace several days. When the sky finally dawned, the feeling of being separated from the soul finally faded away, but my energy was already exhausted.

Because his sleep was disturbed, Yingfeng woke up a little later than usual. His first reaction after waking up was that his body had undergone extraordinary changes. Although the pre-awakening period also had this change, it did not reach Now this level.

Ling Xiao pretended to be asleep before he woke up. Yingfeng glanced at him, then got up and went to the bathroom to wash away this "trouble". I have to go in too.

How did Yingfeng know that he couldn't fall asleep at all, and thought that after what happened last night, he would sleep a little longer, so he asked without a good tone, "What are you doing?"

Ling Xiao answered colder than him, "Go to school."

Yingfeng reminded him, "You have a vacation." The honeymoon vacation lasted for fifteen days. When I overheard other students discussing this vacation, their tone was very thought-provoking.

How could Ling Xiao not know, because he was one of the members who discussed this vacation in a thought-provoking tone, always saying that he didn't go on vacation, but he wanted to take honeymoon vacation. Keep going to class.

"I don't need to sleep," he said before slamming the bathroom door.