my passenger is sleepy

Si Xiaoqi held Xiao Chen's hand and walked towards the hospital gate. They walked through the long corridor, feeling that every gaze behind them was scraping their backs carefully.There is still a hot feeling on the face, and the heart is pounding, but there is an inexplicable sense of excitement, as if I stole the candy hidden by my mother when I was a child, and pretended to be calm under the scrutiny of my parents.

"Cat." Si Xiaoqi said softly.

"Huh?" Xiao Chen snorted, but didn't stop.

"how do you feel?"

"I feel..." Xiao Chen savored it carefully, and said, "I feel that this corridor is too fucking long!"

"Hey," Si Xiaoqi couldn't help chuckling, "It's too late to feel uncomfortable now, isn't it?"

"Well," Xiao Chen moved his fingers, his palms were full of sweat, he didn't know whether to let go or continue to hold, "It's hard to get off this time, so we can't just walk out holding hands like this?"

"I don't care," Si Xiaoqi said proudly, "Actually, I'm quite beautiful in my heart."

"It's just a gesture, and I don't want to be too arrogant, or the dean will talk to me tomorrow." Xiao Chen said, "Dick, what should I do?"

"I don't know," Si Xiaoqi walked unhurriedly, and even slowed down a little, listening to his chest strutting, "You are the one who held my hand, you can figure out a way for yourself."

Xiao Chen glanced at Si Xiaoqi, who looked like a big rooster with a flower tail, and muttered, "My joints are almost frozen."

"It's good to experience the feeling of an international supermodel catwalk... Over there someone is taking pictures with their mobile phone, tsk tsk tsk, come on, baby smile." Si Xiaoqi sighed, and his smile became more and more annoying.

Xiao Chen moved his stiff shoulders and said, "Why doesn't a thunder strike from the sky?"

There was no thunder from the sky, but a rescue was sent very decently.Xiao Chen had sharp eyes, and immediately caught a glimpse of Shen Peng rushing over from the other side with a bag in his hand. He quickly let go of Si Xiaoqi's hand and waved it vigorously: "Shen Peng!" The gate of the hospital will be full of storms tomorrow.

Si Xiaoqi clicked his tongue dissatisfied, but didn't say anything.Sometimes "posture" and "ostentation" are one step away. If you grasp this measure well, you will be "open and sincere", if you do not grasp it well-that is crazy!

Shen Peng stopped his feet and stared blankly at Xiao Chen who was walking side by side with Si Xiaoqi: "You...you..."

He stretched his head to look, and behind Xiao Chen and Si Xiaoqi, a group of people huddled together and looked at them from a distance.Everyone's expressions were weird, with a bit of scrutiny, a bit of ridicule, and a bit of contempt. Of course, more people were full of astonishment.

"I...fuck me," Shen Peng pointed at Xiao Chen, and his words began to scramble, "You...you can't be...that... cheating, right?"

"You're the one who cheated on me!" Si Xiaoqi raised his eyebrows, he had already seen this kid as disliked, he really deserved a beating, and he must find a chance to beat him up some other day.

"Shut up!" Xiao Chen glared at Si Xiaoqi, and said to Shen Peng, "Hurry up and go."

"Where to...?" Shen Peng felt like he didn't know where to put his hands and feet. He even felt that everyone was looking at him wrongly, and he felt like a thorn in his back.He wanted to hold up a sign without tears, which read: I am straight, straight, and my wife is pregnant.

"Go wherever you like," Xiao Chen waved his hand, "Now you are useless."

"I..." Shen Peng followed the two towards the gate of the hospital, muttering as he walked, "Where else could I go? Fuck, I would have walked around the south gate if I knew it. Look at the situation... I Almost can't walk anymore."

Xiao Chen took two steps, and suddenly sighed softly: "Actually, I also...will not be able to walk soon."

"Are you scared now?" Shen Peng said, "Shouldn't it be later."

"It's not that I'm afraid, I just hate this feeling. Who I like is my business, and there's no reason to spread it out to satisfy other people's curiosity."

"Your life will be even more difficult in the future," Shen Peng said, casting a glance at Si Xiaoqi, which immediately met Si Xiaoqi's glaring glances.

"I know," Xiao Chen smiled lightly, "It's tough, you have to endure it. In fact, the more you care about life, the sadder it will be. If you live in the opinions of others...then you won't have to live through it."

Si Xiaoqi's heart sank suddenly, no matter how brave and tenacious Xiao Chen behaved, he was also a human being, and he also had the emotions and desires of ordinary people, so he would not be able to withstand malicious speculation and criticism from others.So what is it that supports him to be able to express his sexuality frankly in front of everyone, and what makes him bravely hold his hand?

Si Xiaoqi suddenly stopped and looked at Xiao Chen fixedly.

"Let's go," Xiao Chen urged, "You really think you are in a catwalk, and you still pose?"

Si Xiaoqi took two quick steps to rush over, listening to Xiao Chen and Shen Peng chattering, his heart felt tense for a while - he was sure once again that the most sensible thing he did in his life was to run Take the No. 29 bus.

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Xiao Chen didn't completely relax until he sat in the passenger seat. He slumped there, wiped the cold sweat from his brow and said, "I walked this tens of meters... I really went through a sea of ​​swords and flames."

"You have a special sense of accomplishment, right?" Si Xiaoqi took a bottle of drink from the cup holder, unscrewed the cap and handed it over, "Look at your majesty today, you're so handsome."

"Handsome?" Xiao Chen took a sip of water and turned to look at Si Xiaoqi, "Aren't you very moved?"

"I'm about to kneel down," Si Xiaoqi raised his hands up and made a kneeling motion, "I threw myself on the ground."

"You've been with me for so long, it's unclear, I have to give you a title." Xiao Chen said with a smile, "Okay, the parents have seen it, and the guests will pass by, so let's count it as an entrance."

Si Xiaoqi looked at Xiao Chen in a daze, reached out and turned the key to start the ignition: "Let's go, let's go home."

"Well," Xiao Chen stretched, "You said you wanted to give me a surprise, what kind of surprise?"

"You'll know when you arrive, husband." Si Xiaoqi winked, Xiao Chen just took a sip of water, and suddenly coughed violently, tears streaming down his face, panting, he said intermittently: "I... I'm drinking water, don't... don't... tease me."

Si Xiaoqi threw the paper to him and turned his head to concentrate on driving. It didn't take long for Xiao Chen to realize that he was going in the wrong direction.

"Where shall we go?"

"Go home."

"Which home do you want to go to?"

"Our home." Si Xiaoqi said, and turned the steering wheel. Xiao Chen felt that this was the route to Jinghai Xinyuan.He suddenly remembered that Si Xiaoqi once said that he wanted to buy a villa and give him a floor to "twist".He remembered that although there were no villas in Jinghai Xinyuan Community, there were two buildings with duplex structures.Xiao Chen was a little dazed, and after a while he stammered: "Si...Si Xiaoqi, your company...doesn't...have no money?"

"I don't have any money," Si Xiaoqi said, "But no money doesn't prevent me from giving you a surprise, right?"

Xiao Chen was a little angry: "Si Xiaoqi, your company has just opened, what are you fussing about?"

"I didn't bother."

"What are you doing without tossing around? How much money do you have to make it like this? Just eat a meal, didn't you say..."

Jinghai Xinyuan is only one stop away from Anhai Hospital. Before Xiao Chen finished speaking, Si Xiaoqi had already parked the car. He was stunned to find himself standing in front of that familiar building. In the small semi-basement, Si Xiaoqi finally let himself surrender.

"Xiao Chen," Si Xiaoqi said jokingly as he turned the key at his fingertips, "Are you being passionate again?"

"No," Xiao Chen tried to calm his expression to cover up his embarrassment, "I just overestimated your EQ...and IQ."

"Really?" Si Xiaoqi said while pulling him down the steps, "Double Q's are not a meal, so why would you want them?"

Xiao Chen felt that Si Xiaoqi's palm was hot, and every step he took was stepping heavily on his heart, the sound made his ears ring.

"I'll make you dinner, that's more useful than double Q's, and keep you full." Si Xiaoqi said as he pushed open the door and turned on the light, Xiao Chen blinked and looked at the room in disbelief.

It was still so small, still so simple, no one lived in it for two whole months, but Xiao Chen was surprised by the cleanliness and tidiness here.The air in the room is fresh, the floor is spotless, the bedding has been completely changed, and it seems that the lemon fragrance of washing powder can still be smelled.On the dining table that is usually used to pile up sundries, there is an induction cooker bought by Xiao Chen, as well as plates of vegetables and meat, a bottle of Erguotou, two wine glasses, two sets of bowls and chopsticks, and a bright lamp...

"Si...Si Xiaoqi..." Xiao Chen took a breath, and asked with a smile, "You...just treat me to this?"

"Come in!" Si Xiaoqi pulled Xiao Chen into the room, "I said I would celebrate for you."

"I thought you were going to treat me to Dingtai." Xiao Chen smiled mockingly, while taking off his coat and throwing it on the sofa.

Si Xiaoqi pulled Xiao Chen to sit on the chair, then pressed the switch of the induction cooker, and soon the water in the pot made a gurgling sound.

Si Xiaoqi poured two glasses of wine, raised one and said, "Baby, congratulations."

"Thank you." Xiao Chen took a sip of the wine, which was a little spicy.

Si Xiaoqi picked up two chopsticks and put the meat into the pot, then looked up at Xiao Chen and said, "Do you know why I came back here to celebrate with you?"

Xiao Chen dipped a piece of meat from the pot into the sesame sauce and put it in his mouth. It tasted very fragrant, and there were no leek flowers.Xiao Chen swallowed the meat hard, and then said: "Si Xiaoqi, is it necessary to be so clear between you and me?"

Si Xiaoqi's eyes flickered, but he didn't speak.

"Since we said that we want to live together, some things can't be taken too seriously. Is it meaningful for you to calculate it so clearly with me?" Xiao Chen said seriously, "If I really want to calculate it this way, do I need to count the first few months? rent to you?"

"On the matter of your transfer...it makes sense." Si Xiaoqi insisted, "I said 'I' would celebrate for you, and I will do what I said."

Xiao Chen looked at Si Xiaoqi through the lingering white mist, and his heart softened suddenly.Of course he understood why Si Xiaoqi did this: Anjie had just started operating and hadn't completely gotten rid of the loss situation, so Si Xiaoqi had no money to make at all.Almost penniless, he wants to celebrate his lover, so he can only go back to this small semi-basement. He hates cleaning the most, and he cleans it with his own hands. Come for meat and vegetables, and have a "hot pot" meal with your lover in this small room without a kitchen at all. It is the most economical and affordable, but also the most intimate and passionate.

Only in this way can it be considered that "I" is celebrating for you in a true sense, using everything that "I" has to celebrate for you.

Xiao Chen stood up, walked around the table and stood beside Si Xiaoqi.Si Xiaoqi raised his head and looked at him steadfastly. Xiao Chen leaned on the back of the chair with one hand and bent down to kiss his boss Xiaoqi's lips. There was still the aroma of sesame paste between the lips and teeth.It was Si Xiaoqi's handmade dipping sauce, and there were no chive flowers in it.

This kind of celebration is really good, Xiao Chen thought with satisfaction.

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Although the rule between the two is "cooks don't wash the dishes", but in view of the special situation today, Si Xiaoqi still took the initiative to pack the dishes and chopsticks to the bathroom and wash them slowly.Xiao Chen was still leaning against the door of the bathroom to "supervise the work". He couldn't help laughing and said, "Si Xiaoqi, your trick is so amazing. I'm quite touched by whether you spent a total of 200 yuan."

"This trick can only be figured out by someone like me who is in arrears with double Q. Someone like you with a super high EQ and IQ can definitely play better than this." Si Xiaoqi said sarcastically to Xiao Chen.

"Well," Xiao Chen said with a smile, "Didn't I touch you today?"

Si Xiaoqi stopped what he was doing, stared at the ceiling for a while and thought about it, then slapped his hands and said, "Tsk tsk, it still feels good to think about it now! Baby, you are so handsome."

Xiao Chen looked at Si Xiaoqi and smiled.

Si Xiaoqi's gaze fell from the ceiling to Xiao Chen's face, Xiao Chen smiled so cheerfully.

At the gate of Anhai Hospital, Si Xiaoqi asked himself why Xiao Chen had such courage. In fact, he had always known the answer, but he had never been so sure as today.To this day, he stands outside the crowd and looks at his cat standing there tall and straight, like a piece of bamboo jointed after rain, flexible and straight.When the cat even said proudly, "I am gay, I have my own lover", Si Xiaoqi firmly believed that he was the source of Xiao Chen's courage.

This person who values ​​feelings more than anything else, once he puts his heart in your palm, he is extremely resolute and resolute. With that emotional support, he can even climb Mount Everest!From childhood to adulthood, what he asks for every time he gives is nothing more than a sincere emotion, whether it comes from his mother or his lover, he can become extremely powerful for this emotion.

A person must always have a spiritual support, and there must always be someone who can give him enough sense of security so that he can rest at ease when he is tired.For Xiao Chen, this person is himself.There was a burning pain in Si Xiaoqi's eyes, and at this moment he suddenly had a feeling that the dust had settled.

That's it, it's been like this for a lifetime.

Mimi and Jiji support each other, warm each other, become the source of each other's strength, serve as each other's last and strongest barrier, and then walk slowly through the future to welcome the grand end of life together.