my passenger is sleepy

Sure enough, Duan Shixin applied for a month's leave before the hospital's investigation and compensation procedures started.Xiao Chen asked Duan Shixin's address from the hospital office, and went straight to the door.

Duan Shixin's home is not in this city, and he rents a small solitary residence near the hospital by himself.Xiao Chen was startled when he saw Duan Shixin who came to open the door. The man's eyes were red, the eye sockets were black and blue, and his lips were covered with dry skin.He opened the door unsteadily, and said in a low voice, "Doctor Xiao."

Seeing his appearance, Xiao Chen swallowed all the words that were full of his stomach, first went to the kitchen to boil a large pot of boiling water, then called to order a takeaway, forced Duan Shixin to eat it, and then drove him into the bathroom to wash He took a shower, stared at him, took a sleeping pill and went to bed.After Duan Shixin fell asleep, Xiao Chen tiptoed away.

It was almost eight o'clock when he got home, and the dinner that Si Xiaoqi had prepared was already completely cold.However, Xiao Chen was not in the mood to eat, and sat alone in the study looking out the window in a daze.

"Xiao Chen," Si Xiaoqi stood at the door of the study with a frown and said, "You have been like this for a week, I know you are worried about that Duan Shixin, but you are worried, you can't torment yourself?"

"I'm fine," Xiao Chen smiled, "Don't be nervous."

"Can I not be nervous?" Si Xiaoqi said dissatisfiedly, "What does this matter have to do with you? How can it be like you had a medical accident?"

Xiao Chen slowly turned his eyes, looked at Si Xiaoqi firmly and said, "Si Xiaoqi, do you know what aortic dissection is?"

"What layer?"

"Aortic dissection is a tear in the aortic wall. The high-speed and high-pressure blood flow will rush into the media of the aortic wall through the break, and then peel off the wall that was tightly attached to each other into two layers. If the rescue cannot In time, the opening will become bigger and bigger, and once it breaks into the abdominal cavity, it will cause hemorrhagic death, and if it continues to rupture, it will tear the pericardium and cause sudden death... This disease has a very high clinical mortality rate."

"Huh?" Si Xiaoqi was at a loss as to what the string of "Martian language" Xiao Chen just said meant, but seeing his dignified face and tightly knit brows, Si Xiaoqi still hesitated Nod.

"The clinical misdiagnosis rate of this disease is very high, because patients will have sudden severe, persistent and intolerable pain, which is very similar to the characteristics of acute gastric perforation and acute pancreatitis. General blood biochemistry, Blood routine is not easy to see, and abdominal B-ultrasound may also misdiagnose."

"En." Si Xiaoqi continued to nod, this time he probably understood that Duan Shixin must have misdiagnosed.

"Do you know how to judge aortic dissection?" Xiao Chen smiled reluctantly and said, "Touch the patient's feet, the pulses of the bilateral radial artery or dorsalis pedis artery are inconsistent, the pulse of one side is obviously weakened or disappeared, and the blood pressure of both limbs A difference of more than 10 mmhg is a characteristic manifestation of this disease. If the pulse of the dorsalis pedis arteries of the patient is inconsistent, a CT examination must be performed for further diagnosis."

"Duan Shixin... didn't you touch it?"

Xiao Chen raised his eyes, there was a trace of anger in his eyes, and his eyes were stained with sparks: "If you are the family member of the patient, will you give Duan Shixin time to complete the investigations one by one!"

Si Xiaoqi opened his mouth, he knew why Xiao Chen was suddenly angry.As a doctor, if one's diagnosis is questioned, interrupted, or even interrupted under some kind of pressure, this is simply the greatest negation and harm to one's profession.And this kind of external pressure actually caused the death of one's own patient, which is indeed annoying.

"What would you want the doctor to do when your stomach hurts like hell?" Xiao Chen asked with a cold face.

"Pain relief." He said honestly.

"Then what if I must ask you to do blood routine, blood biochemistry, B-ultrasound, and CT first? All these inspection reports will take at least half an hour to come out. Can you bear this half an hour?"

Si Xiaoqi shook his head.

"What are the patient's family members doing while the doctor is prescribing the laboratory test sheet and waiting for the test results? Abuse, accusation, and threat of force, all the patients in the emergency room have a high blood pressure due to the noise. Who do you think can withstand such great pressure and persist?" Finish all the examinations, and then touch the patient's feet?" Xiao Chen's voice rose unconsciously, and he said angrily, "It's very rare for Xiao Duan to persist until the report comes out."

"But..." Si Xiaoqi couldn't help but said, "He really misdiagnosed it. What kind of interlayer is it? It's not gastric perforation."

Xiao Chen froze all of a sudden, he stared at Si Xiaoqi for a few seconds, his teeth clenched tightly.

"He... did misdiagnose it," Si Xiaoqi hesitated for a moment, and continued, "So baby, you don't have to be so sad, it's his fault, he should take the responsibility, it's a human life."

"We...can't make mistakes?" Xiao Chen asked word by word.

Si Xiaoqi was startled, and looked at him speechlessly. Doctors are human too, and human beings make mistakes, which is inevitable.But once this mistake is associated with "life", it becomes unacceptable. No matter how small a mistake is, it may bring about an irreversible ending and a long-term and profound pain for a family.

Si Xiaoqi was covered in cold sweat by Xiao Chen's question, Xiao Chen asked "we", Si Xiaoqi thought, if one day Xiao Chen also "misdiagnosed", what would happen?Even, one day, the patient Xiao Chen misdiagnosed happened to be his relatives and friends, so he...

Si Xiaoqi was tortured by his own conscience, his body was covered with bruises, he stared at Xiao Chen dumbfounded, his heart was desolate.He has always known that Xiao Chen is under a lot of pressure at work, but he always feels that Xiao Chen is strict with himself and pursues perfection in everything; in addition, the road back to the chest is too bumpy, and he is eager to consolidate the foundation for himself.So Si Xiaoqi often persuaded Xiao Chen: "It's almost enough, do you still want to earn an academician?".

Xiao Chen never explained anything, but just silently closed the book in his hand and turned to chat with Si Xiaoqi, when Si Xiaoqi was no longer struggling with this matter, he started reading materials all day long.

Si Xiaoqi has always felt that his wife is the kind of career-oriented man with a strong self-motivation. Judging by her posture, she is probably heading for the Chinese Medical Science and Technology Award, and she might even hit the Nobel Prize.

But now, Si Xiaoqi suddenly realized that Xiao Chen's risk of life might not be some kind of "enterprise" or "sense of accomplishment", he was just afraid, and the reality of holding a human life in his palm made him have to push himself to a desperate situation. Don't allow yourself to carry a lot of pressure to move forward-he can't tolerate any mistakes he makes.

However, people always make mistakes.

Xiao Chen let out a breath slowly and said: "Everyone accumulates experience through mistakes. Every success is built on the basis of failure. Edison invented a light bulb that can fail a thousand times. Why do we Can't you make a mistake once?"

Si Xiaoqi pulled the man into his arms and hugged him, he put his chin on the top of Xiao Chen's head, and wrapped his hands around his shoulders.

"Si Xiaoqi, sometimes I think it's very unfair. Famous doctors have also come from unknown people step by step. It is inevitable to stumble and make mistakes. This is not something we can avoid if we want to avoid it subjectively. Look at Duan Shixin, he has If the patient's family can trust him, give him a little more time, and don't force him to be like that, maybe he will realize the aortic dissection."

"Xiao Chen," Si Xiaoqi whispered in his ear, "Everyone has their own standpoint, as patients, you are their hope, and in their eyes, you cannot make mistakes."

"The most sophisticated instrument can't guarantee that it will never make mistakes." Xiao Chen leaned his head on Si Xiaoqi and murmured, "Did you know that Shang Yan can kill every tooth..."

Si Xiaoqi has lived in a hospital once in his life—birth!So he can't understand why people can die after pulling out their teeth, but he can understand Xiao Chen's pain. He racked his brains to say something to comfort Xiao Chen, but found that all the words were pale, and he could only speak more tightly. hug him.

"Si Xiaoqi," Xiao Chen patted Si Xiaoqi's hand, pointing to the top shelf of the bookshelf, "there is a gray folder over there, help me take it down."

Si Xiaoqi obediently took down a folder. There was a thin layer of dust on it, and it seemed that he hadn't looked through it for a long time.Xiao Chen opened the folder, and inside were some photocopies of the medical records, the period on which was four years ago, each of which was carefully inserted in a plastic envelope and preserved completely.

Xiao Chen said: "Si Xiaoqi, this patient was only 42 years old when he died. I never thought that he would die of myocardial infarction."

Si Xiaoqi vaguely knew what Xiao Chen was going to say.

"When he was sent to the hospital, he was the same as the patient Xiao Duan met. If this was an elderly person, I would have checked the electrocardiogram first, but he was too young, and his family said that he was usually in good health...I didn't go for the electrocardiogram , but let him check the blood routine and abdominal B-ultrasound first, after all the checks were done, I couldn't find the problem, and then I suddenly thought that I should check the electrocardiogram first... But it was too late."

"Baby," Si Xiaoqi took the file folder away from Xiao Chen's hand and threw it aside, "It happened so many years ago, don't think about it anymore."

"No, listen to me. I... Luckily, the patient's family did not make things difficult for me. They said that the patient was a project manager of a state-owned enterprise, and his work was extremely busy. In fact, the family had been worried that he would die from overwork. But I myself I knew very well in my heart that if I checked his electrocardiogram first, everything might be salvageable... Since then, I have always been very careful, and I will always think of this patient when I encounter an emergency."

"I can't blame you for this. People in their 40s came to see him with a stomachache. If it was me, I would just give him two tablets of 'Xie Liting'." Si Xiaoqi smiled and comforted Xiao Chen, feeling really distressed.

"Si Xiaoqi, we really can't make mistakes in this profession... But how can people not make mistakes?"

Si Xiaoqi hugged Xiao Chen and said nothing, he felt that he really had nothing to comfort Xiao Chen except to say something like "just have a clear conscience".

Xiao Chen was silent for a while, then suddenly said softly: "Si Xiaoqi, what should I do if one day I make the same mistake as Xiao Duan?"

"Then what should I do?" Si Xiaoqi smiled and said, "The hospital will compensate for medical accidents. If the hospital doesn't pay, I will pay. If you want to be a doctor, you can continue to be a doctor. If you don't want to be a doctor, you can come back and help me start a company. .Anyway, I'll be with you."

Xiao Chen pursed his lips and remained silent.

Si Xiaoqi said: "Honey, do you still remember Li Xiaozhou?"

Xiao Chen nodded: "The brother who drove the car for you and then got into an accident, his mother is still your godmother."

"Yes, do you think I should be responsible for his death?"

"It doesn't count... he was driving himself tired..." Xiao Chen's voice was so low that he couldn't convince himself.

"Of course I should be responsible for his death," Si Xiaoqi said decisively, "so I'm trying my best to make up for it, and I told myself to be more careful when driving on the road. I told the people in my team that they can change the route or delay it, but life Safety must be the first priority, I don't want to see another Li Xiaozhou - I can only do this, after all, the dead can't be brought back to life."

"Yes, you can only be more careful."

"No," Si Xiaoqi shook his head, "It's actually not like that."

Xiao Chen looked at him in surprise.

"Once we run on the road, we can't help ourselves. I ran around the Northeast at the beginning of the year. The tires on the ice and snow had to be replaced with special tires, and two anti-skid measures were taken. It is said that I was very careful. Xiao Wang is a newcomer in the team and just ran this trip. It was only two days before the line, and he was so nervous that he could not slow down the speed of the car, always thinking that it was safe. But because he was too careful, he reacted slower than usual when encountering emergencies, and stepped on the brakes later. After a second or two, the entire car crashed through the guardrail and rushed directly into the other side's lane, fortunately no one was injured."

"I...why don't I know?" Xiao Chen's voice trembled a little.

"I didn't tell you," Si Xiaoqi patted Xiao Chen's hand comfortingly and said, "It's really nothing. I just want to tell you that we should do a good job of 'preparation', but being too careful will make you Hands are tied, but judgment is wrong.”

Xiao Chen nodded slightly: "I understand."

That night, Si Xiaoqi fell asleep with Xiao Chen in his arms, and neither of them mentioned this matter again.After the dirt on the file folder was wiped clean, it was stuffed back on the top shelf of the bookshelf. It overlooked the study room high above, and Xiao Chen rubbed his face, stood up from the sofa, and slowly straightened his waist. , took a slow but firm step, walked out, and closed the study door with a "slap" without looking back.

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With forensic arbitration, the rest of the matter was much simpler. In view of the complexity and critical condition of the patient, after negotiation between the two parties, the hospital paid a sum of money, and Duan Shixin was approved to "rest" at home for a period of time.

Xiao Chen paid special attention to Duan Shixin these days, he was very worried that this young man would be devastated because of this incident.He was already under great psychological pressure, but he was beaten by the patient's family members that night, and he was completely injured from the inside out.Over the past few years, Xiao Chen has heard too many people complain that it is difficult to do clinical work, and many people have left the clinic to do management and scientific research, but there must be someone to do clinical work, and Xiao Chen does not want anyone to leave.

Duan Shixin's condition is not very good, but it is much better than the half-dead look before, he forced a smile and said: "Doctor Xiao, don't worry, I'm fine."

"Really?" Xiao Chen couldn't believe it.

"Really," Duan Shixin rubbed his eyes and said, "This is a lesson, I will remember it forever, I can work for many years and save many people, I will not give up because of this lesson."

"It's nice of you to think so..."

"I want to be a doctor like you," Duan Shixin said with a little enthusiasm, "I will never waver, and I will always be so confident."

Xiao Chen thought, it was because there was someone behind me who was enough to support me to be confident.