heavy rock

Chong Yan has always known that Gong Zhi is a good-looking person, otherwise he would not have brought him home the first time he met.But now, Gong Zhi, who is in full bloom, has a layer of bright luster, a bright and moving color, compared with the [-]-year-old Gong Zhi with dark eyes in Chong Yan's impression.

Chong Yan doesn't want to think about how those ten years of foreign life have worn away the brilliance in Gong Zhi's eyes little by little. He only hopes that this time, in the youthful time with his participation, Gong Zhi can eat less Don't take so many detours again.Because the person Gong Zhi loves is really not worthy of his sacrifice.

Gong Zhi seemed a little thinner, but his eyes were bright, and his spirit looked better than before.He walked up to Chongyan, nodded at Qin Dongan first, then looked at Chongyan, and said a little nervously, "Can we talk?"

From behind Chong Yan, Qin Dong'an quietly grabbed the corner of his clothes.Chongyan is a worrying guy, before people look him in the eye, he asks for a phone number, and comes to ask someone to meet him. Now that Gong Zhi came to the door by himself, Chongyan must have lost his head. You can't tell the difference between the southeast and the north.

Chong Yan pretended not to notice Qin Dongan's small movements, nodded and said, "Okay."

Qin Dongan coughed.

Chong Yan turned around and patted him on the shoulder, "Go ahead. See you tomorrow."

Qin Dongan stared at him, and ground his molars, "See you tomorrow."

Chong Yan changed the schoolbag to the other hand, and said to Gong Zhi: "There is a cafe around the corner, where to go?" In his last life, Gong Zhi liked to spend time in cafes when he had nothing to do. He liked coffee. When I came back from abroad, I specially brought back a set of very complicated machines to grind coffee beans and make coffee at home.Of course, Chong Yan himself doesn't like to drink coffee, he just thinks Gong Zhi's appearance of being immersed in these small hobbies is very cute.

Gong Zhi smiled slightly, "Okay."

Chong Yan took him to the cafe at the corner of the street on foot, Li Nan followed behind them not too far away, and Li Bei took the first step to drive.

During this time period, there are not many customers in the cafe.The two found a seat by the window, Chong Yan ordered a cup of latte for Gong Zhi, and a cup of black tea for himself.Li Nan sat at an empty table away from them, quietly reading the newspaper and waiting for him. Through the glass window of the cafe, both he and Chong Yan saw Li Bei parked the car outside the cafe. Under the steps, with the car window down, a pair of alert eyes quietly observe the surrounding situation.

Gong Zhi didn't know where to start, and after a long silence, he whispered, "Thank you."

Chong Yan smiled with the corner of his mouth picked up.This thank you, he had expected wholeheartedly, almost became an obsession.But now, after all, the most anticipated peak has passed, and I am still happy, but it is no longer the joy that seemed to be comforting the soul as imagined at the beginning, it is more like a mission completed, so I quietly relax tone.

"What are your plans for the future?"

Gong Zhi smiled a little shyly, "I plan to study abroad, to study design in France."

Chong Yan tried his best to recall, it seems that Gong Zhi from the previous life did not come back from France.He couldn't remember the specific situation.Well, actually he didn't pay attention.

"Go by yourself?"

Gong Zhi nodded, with a look of disappointment in his eyes, "I used to plan to go to the United States with Cheng Wei. He has some business there..."

Oh, it turned out to be America.

"I always thought that I would go with him," Gong Zhi said with a bit of reluctance, "but that's fine, you don't have to accommodate anyone, you just need to consider your own choice."

Chong Yan didn't know how to comfort him.Gong Zhi is considered broken in love, it seems that this state will last for a while before slowly getting better.But anyway, changing the environment is good for Gong Zhi, he will meet some new friends, start a new life, and maybe meet someone who really loves him.

"When will we leave?" Chong Yan was more concerned about this question.Seeing Gong Zhi will remind you of many things in the previous life, good, bad, pleasant, and entangled, but these past events are all that Chong Yan is unwilling to touch again.

"I've booked a flight ticket for next week." Gong Zhi pursed the corners of his lips, as if he wanted to laugh but didn't, instead forming a sad line on the corner of his lips, "Everything has been contacted before, and there is no delay now the reason..."

Chong Yan knew that the reason he said for the delay was waiting for Cheng Wei, so he asked softly: "Gong Zhi, have you ever resented me for this... um, way?"

"Maybe there were some at first. But..." Gong Zhi was silent for a moment, then shook his head lightly, "I have known Cheng Wei for almost 20 years, how could I not know what kind of person he is? There are many people, many things, I know it all, but I just resisted to say it. I always thought that he would see my retreat and finally find out that I was kind to him. "

Chong Yan disagreed with this statement, "Some people will only step forward step by step in the footsteps of your retreat, and will continue to test the bottom line that you can tolerate. He will not know how wronged you are."

Gong Zhi's eyes turned red, and he held back, "I know. I actually know it all. It's just... sometimes, paying attention to a person and being nice to a person has become a habit, and people will unexpectedly take the initiative in the game. What to change. I have been thinking, maybe one day I will not be able to bear it, and I will break up. But if he treats me better, or sometimes recalls some good memories, this determination will be shaken again. I know it myself , With my personality, it takes an opportunity to change this stalemate, and I didn't expect this opportunity to happen to you."

Chong Yan found that he had played the same role in Gong Zhi's two lifetimes: he was destined to be the straw that broke the camel's back.Fortunately, the timing is different, the mentality is different, and the result is also different.He can sit calmly in front of Gong Zhi at this moment, which is already the best result that Chong Yan can imagine.

Chong Yan grabbed the facial tissue and handed it to him, muttering softly, "If you want to cry, others will think I'm bullying you."

Gong Zhi laughed through his tears, took the tissue in his hand and said thank you.

Chong Yan felt that he had to say something, such as the sweet words that he had been regretting for a long time.In his last life, Gong Zhi probably hoped to hear him say it himself, but it's a pity that he couldn't say it, and he didn't expect to say it.

"You're fine." Chong Yan stammered and praised him, "Well, you look good, you have a good personality, and... well, you have the temperament of an artist, which is very attractive."

Gong Zhi was amused by Chong Yan's awkward performance, "Really?"

Chong Yan got goosebumps all over his arms from his nasty words, and when he heard him ask this, he nodded quickly, "Really."

"I really appreciate you." Gong Zhi's face showed a faint brilliance, "Thank you very much."

Chong Yan felt that Gong Zhi was quite nasty, "You're welcome. You've already thanked me just now."

Gong Zhi looked at him seriously, this was the first time he paid attention to Chong Yan's appearance.Chong Yan's eyebrows and eyes are well-grown, with black and thick eyebrows, slanted into the temples, people with such eyebrows will look very heroic.His pupils are an extremely thick black, and when he looks at people, his focused eyes are slightly cold, and the fundus of his eyes seems to be covered with a thin layer of crushed ice.The tails of the eyes are slightly longer, provoking a shallow arc upwards as if matching the angle of the brows.Viewed from the side, the upward arc looks like a lingering stroke of thick ink on an ancient scroll, exuding a touch of delicacy and seductiveness.

Probably still in the stage of growing his body, Chong Yan's cheeks are thin, if they were more plump, Gong Zhi thought, he should look gentler, more approachable, and more beautiful.

Gong Zhi scrutinized Chong Yan's appearance, picked up the phone on a whim, "Let's take a photo together."

Chong Yan was a little awkward, and then acquiesced that Gong Zhi sat next to him. He seldom took pictures, and was nervous when facing the camera. In the few photos, the whole person looked very stiff.

Gong Zhi leaned against Chong Yan and took a few group photos of the two of them with his mobile phone.

Chong Yan was still wondering if leaving his face in the phone was a way for Gong Zhi to express his gratitude, so he heard him say: "There is something I have always wanted to ask you, Chong Yan, you have done so many things for me , because you like me?"

Chong Yan nodded bluntly, "I like it. But not that kind of like."

Gong Zhi didn't expect him to answer so bluntly, he froze for a moment, then smiled, "I can feel it. You seem to care about me."

Chong Yan nodded earnestly, "I hope you can live your life well, do what you like, fly higher, and be happier. That's it." There is another sentence he didn't say, don't be caught by someone who is not worth it. Man binds his hands and feet in the name of love.

Gong Zhi's eye circles suddenly turned red.

The background music of the cafe was changed to a tune that Chong Yan couldn't name.He doesn't understand music, he only knows that the rhythm of the piano is neither fast nor slow, but gentle like water, flowing in the air soundlessly with a feeling that seems to be unspeakable.

"You are a good person." Gong Zhi said with a choked voice, "You are the best person I have ever met. Chong Yan, I hope you can also live your life well, do what you like, fly higher and be happy a little."

Coming out of the cafe, Chong Yan walked aimlessly on the street for a long time.He didn't know if Li Nan and Li Bei were still following him, he didn't care whether they were there or not.

When the lights come on, the hustle and bustle of the city is silently filled with the soft smell unique to the night, as if the whole city has relaxed the nerves that were tense during the day, and is happily drowsy.

There are seldom times when this city is really quiet. Even late at night, there are still speeding cars, lights, and sleepless pedestrians on the streets.Chong Yan walked among them, like a wandering soul strayed into the mortal world, not knowing what to do or where to go.His life circled a circle when it was supposed to end, and returned to a certain point in the past. This seemingly extra reincarnation made Chong Yan at a loss.The memories of the previous life and the present life sometimes overlapped together, which amplified the panic hidden in his bones infinitely, until it made him feel heavy.Chong Yan was even a little afraid that one day in the future, the roulette wheel of fate would send him back to the past again.He didn't dare to think, would he have the courage to repeat such a boring and lonely life?

Chong Yan sat down by the flower bed.The night wind was blowing, bringing tiny insect chirps that could not be heard during the day.

He suddenly missed Zhang Yuegui, that nagging, cursing, bad-tempered old lady. He had always annoyed her because she would rather coax a child who had no blood relationship than be nice to him. say.She vented all her disappointment and pain towards her daughter on herself, but she didn't think about whether she was innocent or not.She still refuses to bother to make delicious food for herself.

Chong Yan took out the cigarette case from his schoolbag, lit a cigarette for himself, and recalled the family life he once had in the thin smoke screen.No matter how bad life was at that time, it was still a home. Someone would wait for me under the lamp, and would be scolded if I went back late, unlike now, no matter when I go back, I am always alone.

When Chong Yan lit his second cigarette, he decided to find someone to spend the night with him.He knew that there were a few good clubs that could be entered without a membership card, and the MB inside would have regular medical checkups. Although they were a bit more expensive, they were much safer.Or you don’t have to do anything, just have someone to accompany you, drink some wine, or talk.

When Chongyan was thinking about which clubhouse to go to from here, an off-road vehicle drove past him, and a few minutes later, the car slowly backed up and stopped in front of him.The car window fell, revealing a slightly surprised face.

"Chongyan? Why are you here?"