baby who are you

"Everyone knows that my brother-in-law and my sister grew up together as childhood sweethearts, but no one would think about it. In fact, I also grew up with him, and we spent more time together than my sister. ,” Pan Wenshao said slowly to Xiao Shi.

"The relationship at the beginning was very ignorant. When I was young, my personality was not the same as it is now. On the contrary, I was a little introverted because of my strong sister. I didn't have any special feelings when I was in my teens and puberty. Just a little closer than everyone else. Until I went to high school..."

Ren Wei and Pan Wenli were of the same age, almost three years older than Pan Wenshao.

When Pan Wenshao was in high school, both Ren Wei and Pan Wenli were studying in the city. During that time, something happened to Ren Wei's family. He was in a bad mood and often came to Pan Wenshao to accompany him out.

There was some ambiguity between the two of them at first, and then Ren Weixian broke the window paper to Pan Wenshao.

At that time, Pan Wenshao was still very timid. Although he liked Ren Wei, he did not dare to accept this relationship easily.But Ren Wei was very resolute. He waited for Pan Wenshao at the school gate every Friday after school.

So Pan Wenshao finally agreed to Ren Wei.

And when he was secretly in love with Ren Wei, he accidentally overheard his sister and father quarreling. The reason for the quarrel was because of Ren Wei. Only then did he know that Pan Wenli had always liked Ren Wei.

Pan Wenli has a very strong personality. She has to get what she likes since she was a child before giving up. She also has the same attitude towards her love.Ren Wei has a sticky personality, and he knows that Pan Wenli is interested in him, but because Pan Wenli has never formally confessed his love, he has never formally refused, probably because he does not want to make the relationship too rigid.

As a result, the two of them looked particularly awkward when facing Pan Wenli.

However, shortly after Pan Wenshao and Ren Wei confirmed their relationship, Pan Wenli found out about the matter.Pan Wenli went straight to Pan Wenshao and slapped him, "Are you crazy?"

Pan Wenshao had never touched his sister since he was a child, and at that time, he was full of panic about the exposure of his relationship with Ren Wei, so he didn't say a word at that time.

After that, Pan Wenli told her parents about Pan Wenshao's liking for men, but she didn't mention that the person with Pan Wenshao was Ren Wei, and Pan Wenshao himself didn't say anything.

That time was like a nightmare for Pan Wenshao. His father kept him at home and forbade him to go to school, and his mother cried every day to persuade him not to be with men. They all thought he was a psychopath, and even He was sent to a psychiatric facility for treatment.

At this time, the most important man to Pan Wenshao flinched.

Because of the protection of Pan Wenshao and Pan Wenli, no one knew that the man with Pan Wenshao was Ren Wei, and after seeing the treatment Pan Wenshao suffered from his family, Ren Wei also began to feel afraid and regret his choice, and finally gave up on Pan Wenshao. And accepted Pan Wenli.

"It's a pity," Pan Wenshao said with some sarcasm in his tone, "I haven't changed my ways as my parents hoped."

The treatment institution couldn't cure his "homosexuality", but let him choose to indulge himself after being tortured.

His father had beaten him and kicked him out of the house, but to no avail.

Ren Wei, who was already with Pan Wenli at that time, was also very depressed. He tried to persuade Pan Wenshao, but Pan Wenshao didn't communicate with him at all.

After so many years, the longest conversation between Pan Wenshao and Ren Wei will not exceed five sentences, not only because Pan Wenshao doesn't want to face him, but also Pan Wenli never allows Ren Wei and Pan Wenshao to be alone, she always wants everything to be You can rest assured that you are under your own control.

Xiao Shi hugged Pan Wenshao behind him, and said softly, "So you did that to demonstrate to your father and your sister?"

Pan Wenshao's smile was a bit cold, "Don't they think homosexuality is a pervert? Then I'll be a complete pervert."

Exaggerated shapes, feminine attire, shameless indulgence, Pan Wenshao showed them their understanding of homosexuality one by one.

At the beginning, it was out of rebellion. When he saw his father frowning, his sister's disgusted face, and Ren Wei's occasional guilt, he always felt special happiness.

Over time, Pan Wenshao felt that those people's opinions and emotions were not so important to him, but he made this kind of life a habit.Once a habit is formed, it is difficult to correct it, even if many times he himself feels empty and meaningless.

Xiao Shi reached out to touch his cheek, but suddenly found that the silk scarf covering Pan Wenshao's eyes was a little wet, "Are you crying?" he asked.

Pan Wenshao denied it, "There's nothing to cry about."

But he did cry. He had never told anyone these words, including Ling Yi, who had been his friend for many years, and he had never told the other party.

It was like a scar on his heart. It looked healed on the surface, but it was rotting and pus inside, and it would hurt even if it was touched lightly.If it wasn't for the fact that he hasn't looked away until now, why would Pan Wenshao continue this kind of life day after day.

Xiao Shi held Pan Wenshao in his arms, kissed his ears and hair lightly, with a soothing force, "Actually, it's not necessary," he said.

Pan Wenshao took a deep breath and said, "I know it's not necessary."

Xiao Shi asked him: "Then what are you still insisting on?"

Pan Wenshao was at a loss, "I don't know, but what can I do? Why should I change? No one expects me to change."

Xiao Shi said softly: "What if I say yes?"

Pan Wenshao was slightly startled.

Xiao Shi continued: "Do you know why I came to see you today?"

Pan Wenshao actually didn't know himself. Although he had been testing Xiao Shi's bottom line jokingly, he never thought that Xiao Shi would compromise so easily.

Then Xiao Shi said: "I just think, if there is a need for someone to give in before we can go further, I am willing to be the one who gives in first, on the premise that I can get closer to you next time."

Pan Wenshao suddenly felt his heart beating. He faintly felt that he understood Xiao Shi's meaning, but he was afraid that he was thinking too much.

Xiao Shi's kiss became hot.

Pan Wenshao couldn't help raising his head, his Adam's apple slipped, and asked, "You said, it's better not to get it in the first place than to lose it."

Xiao Shi told him in a low voice: "That's because the desire to get is not urgent enough."

When Pan Wenshao heard his words, he felt as if his whole body was slightly numb. He became short of breath and asked, "Then what do you want now?"

Xiao Shi said to him: "I let you sleep, isn't it obvious enough what I want?"

Pan Wenshao didn't answer, and felt Xiao Shi's body sticking closer to him, and a hand was stroking along his body.He seemed to have a premonition of what was going to happen, he understood Xiao Shi's intentions, but he couldn't resist.No, it's not that I can't, but that I don't want to resist.

He was a little unsteady, and stretched out his hand to hold the window in front of him, Xiao Shi didn't stop him this time, but when he stretched out his hand, he didn't touch anything.

They were not standing in front of the window.

Xiao Shi suddenly bit the corner of the silk scarf and pulled it off. Pan Wenshao closed his eyes forcefully, and when he opened it again, he found that there was still a distance between himself and the window, and the room was dark with no lights on. Can't see either.

Pan Wenshao breathed heavily, and as Xiao Shi approached step by step, he relaxed his body. Although it was a difficult posture, he still held onto Xiao Shi's arm.

In the empty and dark living room, Pan Wenshao condoned a man's attack for the first time in an awkward standing posture.Apart from Xiao Shi behind him, he has no other support.

In fact, this feeling may not be so bad, Pan Wenshao thought to himself.

Later, when he was lying on the bed, Pan Wenshao rolled over awkwardly on his stomach, and Xiao Shi lay beside him on the bed, reaching out to stroke his hair.

Pan Wenshao couldn't help complaining, "My skills are better."

Xiao Shi heard the words and just smiled.

After lying quietly for a while, Pan Wenshao raised his head to look at Xiao Shi, "So what you mean by coming to me is that your desire is already very urgent?"

Xiao Shi didn't answer, but asked him instead: "Are you thinking about it now?"

Pan Wenshao said: "There is nothing too hard to think about, I don't care at all."

"Really?" Xiao Shi asked.

Pan Wenshao grabbed his hand, put it to his lips and kissed it, "Really."

Xiao Shi continued: "The question just now, what if I expect your change?"

Pan Wenshao was silent for a moment, and then answered him in a relaxed tone: "If it's you, I can seriously think about it."

Pan Wenshao didn't throw away his cabinet of bright and beautiful clothes, nor did he immediately replace the pink phone case, but he didn't go to the bar again for a long time, and he also cut off contact with those messy little lovers.

But after Xiao Shi moved to his house, he would wear Xiao Shi's clothes from time to time, and he didn't touch the original clothes much.

When the weekend was approaching, Pan Wenshao went to the barber shop to have his hair trimmed.

He asked Xiao Shi to have dinner together, and after dinner, Xiao Shi asked him to accompany him to buy some clothes.

He said he was buying clothes with Xiao Shi, but he was actually buying clothes for Pan Wenshao. Now he has become a habit of grabbing Xiao Shi's clothes and wearing them.

At the counter in the mall, Pan Wenshao chose two sets of clothes and gave them to Xiao Shi, asking him to try them on.

Xiao Shi asked him: "Why don't you try?"

Pan Wenshao said nonchalantly, "Anyway, I can wear what you can. I'm too lazy to try it. Let me see if you put it on."

So Xiao Shi went to the fitting room.

Pan Wenshao casually looked at the row of clothes hanging in front of him, then accidentally raised his head and saw a man standing outside the counter looking at him.

That person is Ren Wei.

Pan Wenshao was slightly taken aback, but then relieved, he just nodded to Ren Wei.

Ren Wei has been staring at Pan Wenshao.

He hadn't seen Pan Wenshao for several days, the last time he met was when Pan Wenshao picked them up at the airport.Every time he was sandwiched between Pan Wenli and Pan Wenshao, Ren Wei felt uncomfortable, especially when he saw Pan Wenshao indulging himself.He was cowardly back then, and for this he felt sorry for Pan Wenshao, and he wanted to make up for him, but because of his relationship with Pan Wenli, he had never been able to get close to Pan Wenshao.

But today's Pan Wenshao is obviously different.

Pan Wenshao dressed very casually today, with an off-white shirt on his upper body and light brown slacks on his lower body. His hair was cut short and he looked very energetic, and his handsome facial features became more distinct.

Of course, apart from appearance, Ren Wei felt that Pan Wenshao's whole state had changed.

Just like now, after Pan Wenshao nodded, he smiled at him relaxedly.

Ren Wei suddenly wanted to walk up to Pan Wenshao and ask him what was wrong, but before that, he glanced left and right first, because he came out with Pan Wenli, and he was afraid that Pan Wenli would see him here with him. Pan Wenshao spoke.

Pan Wenshao didn't intend to talk to Ren Wei, it wasn't that he still had grudges in his heart, it was just that he had nothing to say.

Fortunately, before Ren Wei approached him, Xiao Shi had already changed his clothes and came out of the fitting room.

Pan Wenshao then turned his head to look at Xiao Shi, and praised him: "Very handsome."

Xiao Shi smiled and noticed Ren Wei at the same time. He saw Ren Wei's photo at Pan Wenshao's house and recognized him immediately.

Pan Wenshao took a step forward and helped Xiao Shi straighten his collar.

Ren Wei looked at his movements, and suddenly understood the relationship between the two.

Xiao Shi's attitude was very calm, and he said to Pan Wenshao, "Would you like to introduce me?"

Pan Wenshao knew he did it on purpose, but he still said, "This is my brother-in-law," and then said to Ren Wei, "This is my friend."

Ren Wei said: "You..."

Pan Wenshao ignored him, and gave Xiao Shi another set of clothes, "Do you want to try it?"

Xiao Shi took it over.

Ren Wei originally wanted to say a few words to Pan Wenshao, but seeing him smiling and whispering to Xiao Shi, he suddenly couldn't say anything, and finally he said: "I won't disturb you, I'll go first."

This is the first time that Ren Wei clearly felt that Pan Wenshao had walked out of the past. He felt that his footsteps were a little light. Originally, he chose to give up. After so many years of seeing Pan Wenshao tortured, he also It was uncomfortable, but at this time, Ren Wei felt an uncomfortable feeling of being abandoned.

He raised his head, looking for Pan Wenli's direction in a daze.

Xiao Shi changed half of his clothes, Pan Wenshao knocked on the door of the small cubicle outside, and wanted to hand him another set of clothes to enter.

Taking advantage of the opening of the door, Xiao Shi pulled Pan Wenshao in.

"How do you feel seeing your brother-in-law again?"

Pan Wenshao shrugged, "Nothing."

"Really?"

Pan Wenshao thought about it seriously, "You are more handsome than him."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."