he has a clean freak

Liang Songying has the habit of seeing a psychiatrist regularly.

Since the incident with Luo Cheng'an happened four years ago, Liang Songying didn't want to see people for a while, canceled all activities, stayed at home, and couldn't get excited about singing.Xiao Ting and others came to see him and said that he looked like he was suffering from depression.

Xiao Ting introduced a psychiatrist to him.

The doctor, surnamed Ren and named Zeyu, is said to have graduated from a famous American university with a doctorate degree. He has published many influential psychology papers and enjoys a certain reputation in the field of international psychological research.This is quite an achievement for a man who is less than thirty years old.

He is very friendly, has strong thinking logic, and is good at persuasion, so that patients can gradually open their hearts.

Liang Songying couldn't tell how much Dr. Ren was responsible for stepping out of the shadows.He simply felt good, and would go to Zeyu Psychological Clinic every other Saturday, about 30 minutes each time.

On Saturday, there was still an hour and a half before the appointment time for the consultation, but looking at the sky from the window, I found that the sky was dark, the clouds were very low, and the wind was blowing.

He went out early, trying to get to the clinic before it rained, but it started to rain lightly halfway.The car was parked at a temporary parking spot near the clinic, half an hour before the appointed time. He was sitting in the car waiting, listening to the pattering sound of rain hitting the car window. curved track.He remembered a song:

#The rain by the window is desperately invading the peaceful sleep

Wet the messy hair again

No need to panic, you cry in fright

Don't be afraid that love is innocent#

He was humming a song, leaning against the window and looking out at the street. The crowd walking with umbrellas was a little blurry, as if in a dream.

Some people walk slowly in the rain without an umbrella, and some people run hand in hand in the rain, like a romantic and poetic scene.But one day the middle school teacher will tell his students very seriously and responsibly that the sky after the rain is very clean, because the rain absorbs all the dust and falls to the ground.

It falls on the head of the rain.

He saw a man coming out of the gate of Zeyu Psychological Clinic. The man was wearing a thin autumn black windbreaker and a pair of clean leather shoes on his feet. He looked up to the sky with a flat face.He didn't have an umbrella in his hand, and he didn't seem to expect the sudden rain, and his eyes seemed to be measuring the rain.He took off the windbreaker, covered it up on his head, rushed into the rain, rushed to a black BMW on the side of the street, quickly opened the door, sat in, threw the windbreaker in his hand, and threw it on the dripping white painted railing .Close the car door and walk away.

Liang Songying thought, these two young masters really couldn't tolerate a trace of dirt in their eyes.Some time ago, I told him that cleanliness is not serious...

When he went upstairs, he suddenly remembered who sang that song and what it was about.

The Zeyu Psychological Clinic is on the sixth floor. When Miss Huang at the front desk saw him, she smiled and said, "Mr. Liang, you are really punctual. Doctor Ren is free now, and he is waiting for you inside."

Liang Songying responded with a smile: "Okay."

He knocked on the door, and a voice came from inside: "Please come in."

Pushing open the door, a young man in casual clothes behind the desk stood up and said with a smile, "You're here."

Liang Songying also smiled at him.

After briefly talking about the recent situation, the two entered a spacious room next door that was decorated warmly and relaxedly, and closed the doors and windows.The room was very quiet, with warm yellow lights.Next to the low table and sofa, place a few potted plants with green leaves. The leaves are lush and green, and the growth is in good condition.

Liang Songying sat down on the main sofa, and Ren Zeyu sat down on the side single sofa, facing him sideways, with focused eyes and a moderate voice, but calm and rhythmic:

"Although you are smiling, your face is a bit depressed. What happened when you came?"

"……It's raining."

"Yes, rainy days can sometimes affect a person's mood, making people calm and gloomy, but their thoughts tend to be pessimistic. Is there anything else?"

"Your sense is really sharp. I remembered a song and sang it by myself, and then I saw an acquaintance."

"What song is it?"

""Forbidden Color". I didn't realize until I went upstairs that it was a song about homosexuality sung by a homosexual singer. a wish, with uncertainty."

"Who did you meet?"

"A recent friend...was gay."

"Can you tell me about you and him? You seem to care about him a little bit and are troubled by him."

Liang Songying looked at Ren Zeyu and was silent for a while.He doesn't talk about everything here, he doesn't talk about some things or people, and he doesn't criticize them.Even if he wasn't happy, he didn't think about using this place, or anywhere in the world, as an emotional dump.

He wanted to solve a little trouble in his heart so that he could face tomorrow better.

"He said he likes me and has been pestering me for a while, but I'm not gay."

"Remember that you have been entangled a few times before, but this time it seems to be different?"

"He... I asked for something from him at the beginning. I wanted to have a good relationship with him so that I could open my mouth in the future. Knowing that he had other plans for me, and I couldn't afford it, I planned to stay away from him. But we are... We are both in the entertainment industry and in City Y, so there will always be intersections. The way he looks at me sometimes, his seemingly unintentional actions, and some considerate help and concessions, make me feel that he is not dead yet."

"Are you guilty, or are you afraid that you will gradually fall and fall in love with him?"

Liang Songying stared at him suddenly, "What are you talking about? That's impossible, my family doesn't allow it at all, if I become gay, you know, my congregation will betray their relatives, let everyone down, and even my career will be terribly affected. "

Ren Zeyu looked at him quietly, as if he was thinking, but he suddenly changed the subject with a smile: "You are almost 30 years old and still haven't found a partner to marry. Didn't your family force you?"

Liang Songying turned her gaze away, "Why don't you rush me. They are in France and rarely come back, it's just too late. And they think I'm an adult, I can be responsible for the major events in my life, and I will get married one day."

"Have you met a girl you like so far?"

"Recently I injured my leg and took care of it for a long time. After recovering from the injury, I found that my career had stalled and my head was getting bigger. I wasn't in the mood to look for girls."

"I've been following up on your mental state for four years now," Ren Zeyu thought while carefully choosing his words, "I found out...you just have a crush on girls, but you have never seriously pursued anyone. Why do you think this is? "

Liang Songying knew her situation, "I have no fate, I haven't met the right one."

Ren Zeyu nodded and said solemnly: "What I say below may shock you a bit, but I tell you from the perspective of professional responsibility. You are not fanatical about girls, but you are not disgusted with homosexuality. The resistance is based on the family as an excuse, not against homosexuality itself. Have you ever thought that maybe..."

Liang Songying suddenly stood up and interrupted him: "Let's stop this topic, Doctor Ren, I want to end today, okay?"

Ren Zeyu stood up and said quite understandingly, "Okay."

Sending Liang Songying out, he said, "If you have any questions or worries, you can contact me anytime, Lan."

"Thanks, bye."

"Goodbye."

Passing by the front desk, the girl still greeted with a polite smile, "Mr. Liang, please go slowly, goodbye."

Liang Songying pretended to be full of thoughts, nodded hurriedly, and walked towards the elevator.When going out, wear a hat and mask to conceal your identity.After waiting for a while in front of the elevator, the door opened and there was no one inside.Press the button for the first floor, and feel that the carriage is falling after a moment of weightlessness.

He looked at himself in the metal mirror next to the key and blinked, and the person in the mirror blinked too.He looked at it carefully for a while, and found that the face was still very young, with love and relentless pursuit in the eyes.His heart never stops.But he thought, I can't see it, and I will be 30 years old in two months.

Kan, who is 30 years old, did not expect to be struggling.The career is not going well, and the relationship is not going well.

He walked out of the building, facing the rainy day, opened his umbrella and walked into the rain.