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After the two went back, the weather became colder and colder day by day, and it seemed that December had entered.

During this period of time, Chu Jinfei was still relatively busy, but Yuan Shaoyue refused to let go of any chance to get along with Chu Jinfei. With his efforts, the two of them could see each other at least two or three times a week.

In this life, Yuan Shaoyue took great care of their relationship.

After the two of them were together, he did everything that had anything to do with romance.

Every time he goes on a date, he tries his best to choose a special and romantic place, and he will give gifts to people when he has nothing to do. When Chu Jinfei is working overtime, he sometimes even cooks some meals himself and brings a lunch box to him. company.

But Chu Jinfei is relatively indifferent in this regard. Not only does he often appear a little puzzled, but he rarely takes the initiative to seek him out. The belt on the bed is obviously for the matter on the bed, the key is to leave soon after finishing it, never being tender, let alone sleeping with him.

To be honest, this is quite far from the life that Yuan Shaoyue expected every day to be gluey and sweet every day. From time to time, he would also feel uncomfortable because of Chu Jinfei's inhuman faults and eccentricities, as well as his intimacy. Aggrieved and tormented, sometimes he felt that the two of them were not like lovers, but like friends with guns.For this reason, it's not that he hasn't doubted the purpose of Chu Jinfei being with him. He also doubts whether Chu Jinfei, like him, also carries the memories of his previous life. Less than any evidence.

Yuan Shaoyue had no choice but to give up, and comforted himself by saying, didn't he hope to be with Chu Jinfei when he was reborn?Now this goal has been basically achieved, but people's treatment of him has not reached the level that he treats others.

But what does it matter?His Jinfei seems to be a person who is very difficult to get close to others. Besides, he originally wanted to make up for the mistakes he made in his previous life. Are they all the same as him?What's the point of worrying about it?

Yuan Shaoyue forcibly suppressed this doubt, and was as good to Chu Jinfei as ever.It's just that he is not quite the perfect lover as he imagined, he still often can't restrain his temper, and is prone to get angry easily.But as long as Chu Jinfei reassured him a little, his anger would soon dissipate when he looked at Jinfei's pretty face and gentle attitude.So even though Yuan Shaoyue was dissatisfied with Chu Jinfei from time to time, they have been together for such a long time, and they have always had small fights, and no particularly big quarrel broke out.

Although there are many unpleasant times, there are also many sweet moments.Although Chu Jinfei seemed extremely cold in some aspects, when he was with Yuan Shaoyue, he still seemed gentle and cute most of the time, and Yuan Shaoyue was fascinated by him.The deep affection between the two of them on a date can always make Yuan Shaoyue genuinely happy, and even produce a very warm and happy feeling, which Yuan Shaoyue has never experienced in anyone else.

When Yuan Shaoyue has nothing to do now, he often likes to think about what to give Chu Jinfei, or what they should do on some festival.

Chu Jinfei’s birthday was in February, which happened to be Valentine’s Day. Yuan Shaoyue felt that this was of great significance, so he began to think about how to spend it when the time came long in advance. There were many choices for specific plans, but he decided to order first A pair of diamond rings.

In his previous life, he also thought about giving Jinfei a ring. At that time, he thought it was not good enough, so he specially found a well-known friend who specializes in jewelry business at home to make a design for him.Later, the ring was finished, but the person ran away before sending it out. As a result, until the end, he never had a chance to send the ring.

This time he still found the original friend, and the friend was happy when he heard it, and after he agreed, he teased him like before: "Oh my God, Yuan Shao, no wonder I haven't seen you come out to play for a long time, I dare you When you meet true love, you even want to give it a diamond ring?"

"Come on, don't talk so much nonsense." Yuan Shaoyue didn't refute what he said about "meeting true love", because what he said was true, "Anyway, get me the most beautiful style."

"Oh, is it really true love? I'm really curious, what kind of fairy is this, who can subdue our young master Yuan?"

"Okay, okay, I told you not to ask so many questions," Yuan Shaoyue said. In fact, he really wanted to let the whole world know that Chu Jinfei was already his, but he guessed that Chu Jinfei would definitely not Yes, and once the relationship between the two of them is exposed, you have to consider the impact on the two families, "You will know when it's time for you to know. Just help me fix that ring."

Hearing what he said, my friend understood that it would be useless to say more, so he stopped asking.

After Yuan Shaoyue confirmed this matter, he felt very beautiful in his heart, thinking that he could make up for a regret in his previous life.Giving a diamond ring on the other party's birthday and Valentine's Day, in his opinion, is much more solemn than usual. Maybe he is willing to marry him just because he is moved today, and then go abroad to get the certificate?

Originally, he was not a person who valued marriage. Before he met Chu Jinfei, he even had resistance to marriage.In his opinion, that thin piece of paper represented a kind of restraint to some extent, and he was used to living a life of indulgence and pleasure, so how could he be willing to be restrained?

But people always change.

In the dreamy days when Chu Jinfei pretended to obey him, he gradually had the idea of ​​wanting to have this kind of relationship with Chu Jinfei, because it would mean that in the secular sense, they would have a relationship with each other. Have the most intimate connection and cannot be separated easily.

Unfortunately, this idea was buried with Chu Jinfei's departure.

Fortunately, God gave him a chance to start again, and this time, he also received an acceptance that he had never received before.So he wants to make up for all the things he wanted to do but didn't do before.

The intimacy he established with Chu Jinfei was too hard-won, and he really wanted to make a further confirmation, even if Chu Jinfei hadn't expressed anything about it at the moment, and he had never slept with him so far. bed.

In the middle of December, under Yuan Shaoyue's persuasion again, Chu Jinfei finally found time to see the psychiatrist he had introduced.

Yuan Shaoyue went with Chu Jinfei that day, but was stopped outside the consulting room and waited for almost three hours. Finally, the door of the consulting room was reopened. As soon as the person came out, he immediately Standing up from the sofa, she leaned over and asked with concern, "How is it?"

Chu Jinfei looked at him calmly, but there was no emotion in his eyes: "It's pretty good."

"Then... can it cure your problem?" Yuan Shaoyue knew nothing about this kind of disease, so his first reaction was to ask this.

"I don't know, we didn't mention the healing effect much..." Chu Jinfei walked along the corridor outside, his pace was a little fast, "Let's go."

Yuan Shaoyue originally wanted to go in and ask the doctor about Chu Jinfei's situation, but seeing that Chu Jinfei was taking a step forward, he had no choice but to follow quickly.

"No mention? Then what are you doing there?" Yuan Shaoyue knew nothing about psychological counseling.

"It's just chatting, learning about some situations and so on... This is the case for many first-time consultations."

"Then what should we do next?" Yuan Shaoyue followed Chu Jinfei.

"His opinion is that my current illness is actually under control. If I want to continue to improve, I can consider continuing to come to him for treatment, but I don't think it is necessary."

"Why?" Yuan Shaoyue frowned slightly, already a little anxious, "If you think he can't do it, we can change another doctor."

"No, actually they are pretty much the same. It's just my problem. All I can do are those treatments. I've tried them a long time ago. If I can get better sooner, isn't the level of foreign countries higher than domestic ones?" Chu Jinfei Finally looking at Yuan Shaoyue, he smiled at him as softly as usual, "Why do you have this expression? I'm not terminally ill."

"It's not a terminal illness, it's also a disease." Yuan Shaoyue felt sore and anxious when he heard it, "If you are sick, you must actively treat it, and you can't break it."

"What is broken jars? Actually, this disease doesn't have that much impact..." Chu Jinfei spoke slowly, his bright dark eyes staring at Yuan Shaoyue, "I've been like this for a long time, to be honest, I also Get used to it, as long as you understand and accept me."

"Of course I understand and accept..." Yuan Shaoyue's heart tightened when he looked at him, and he felt helpless again. Even if he didn't understand or accept it, so what? Could it be because of this that he couldn't break up with someone? "It's just that I've always wanted to be closer to you..."

Chu Jinfei looked away, and said with a low sigh: "But brother Yuan, I'm not used to that, even if I'm not sick..."

Yuan Shaoyue had no choice but to say: "I know... I won't insist on that."

After returning, Yuan Shaoyue called the psychiatrist and asked him about Chu Jinfei's condition.The other party was not surprised by this, and said, "I can tell you about Mr. Chu's situation, because Mr. Chu agreed to do so."

"Well," Yuan Shaoyue didn't know about the confidentiality principle of psychological counseling, and didn't care about Chu Jin's disagreement, so he asked straightforwardly, "What's wrong with him?"

"His main problem now is that his sleep quality is relatively poor, and he has extremely high requirements for the sleeping environment. This is because he suffers from neurasthenia."

"Ah?" Yuan Shaoyue thought to himself why there are more and more problems.

"Well, he has had symptoms of mild depression and neurasthenia since he was a teenager. Later, he received some treatment when he was studying abroad, and the control is not bad. Now it basically does not affect his daily life, but there are still some minor symptoms. symptom."

"This... how could he have been sick since he was a child?" Yuan Shaoyue's heart seemed to be clenched in an instant.

"According to his narration, he skipped three grades in a row before, and after entering junior high school, the study pressure suddenly increased a lot, and at that time, his parents had a lot of conflicts, and the family atmosphere was extremely bad, which kept him in an extremely depressive environment. During the period, the long-term accumulated negative emotions and extremely tense mental state exceeded the limit he could bear."

Yuan Shaoyue listened silently, remembering that Chu Jinfei had told him about this before, at that time he couldn't understand that such a thing could cause so much harm to people, but now somehow, it seemed to be able to I understand a little.

There was a hot and sour feeling of fullness in his chest, Yuan Shaoyue felt so distressed, wishing that Jin Fei was right in front of him so that he could hold him in his arms.