crime of blindness

The car shuttles through the night, and the brilliant lights and noise of the city are abstracted into colorful ribbons at this moment.

Shen Ji sat in the passenger seat, and never asked Bai Yu where he was taking him.When the scene in front of him gradually became familiar, he realized that Bai Yu had brought him home.

Bai Yu took out slippers from the shoe cabinet.He changed into sandals in summer, but an unreasonable idea popped up in Shen Ji's mind, wanting to wear the plush slippers that Bai Yu brought him when he first came here.

Bai Yu asked, "What's wrong?"

Teacher Shen seemed blunt all night, obviously those who spoke out for him were praising his professionalism and dedication, but he himself took off that layer of elite coat and became like a little confused relying on the people around him .

Shen Ji gently kicked off the sandals and slippers, "I want to wear soft ones."

Bai Yu was slightly startled, but immediately understood, and took out the plush slippers.Although it is summer, it is still cool when the air conditioner is turned on, so there is no problem wearing plush slippers.

Shen Ji put on his slippers, and squinted his eyes contentedly.

Bai Yu took Shen Ji to the sofa and sat down, poured a glass of water, "I'm going to cook now, you stay alone for a while, is that okay?"

Shen Ji's originally stretched eyebrows frowned, it was simply an instinctive physiological reaction.He didn't want to be alone, even if this was Bai Yu's house, it couldn't be safer, he didn't want to be alone.

Bai Yu saw it, but saw that Shen Ji suppressed his emotions and nodded obediently: "Okay."

Bai Yu didn't reveal anything, and went to the kitchen to get busy.For most of the day, they didn't eat anything, he didn't care, but Shen Ji had to eat something.Fortunately, he had just stocked up on vegetables, meat and noodles, which were just right for making wontons and served with a bowl of vegetable soup.

It didn't take much time to make wontons for two, he tried his best to speed up, but just after making a few, he heard Shen Ji's footsteps, looking back, Shen Ji had already walked to the door of the kitchen, he didn't go any further, pursing his lips look at him.

"Can't wait?" Bai Yu asked.

Shen Ji shook his head, "I can't see you there."

In an instant, Bai Yu's heart seemed to be soaked in warm water and was about to melt.When Mr. Shen was left in the living room by him, he was very reluctant. How many times did he look at him with his body tilted and his head tilted?A principled person like Mr. Shen would definitely accomplish what he promised, but this time he "broke his promise" and ran over secretly. He stretched out his hand covered in flour, and before Shen Ji agreed, he pulled Shen Ji to his side, "Can you see it this way?"

Shen Ji's clean wrists were covered with dust, but the corners of his lips curled up unconsciously, the heat swam in his chest, dispelled the coldness of gossip, climbed up his cheeks, and covered the roots of his ears with a rosy glow.

"I can wash vegetables." Shen Ji said after standing like a mascot for a while.

Bai Yu was about to give him a basket when he heard his cell phone ring.

Shen Ji said: "It's my adoptive mother."

The older generation's reaction to what happened online is always slower than the younger generation, Shen Ji is glad that she didn't call when she was most at a loss.

"Where do you want to pick it up?" Bai Yu said, "If you don't mind letting me hear it, you can pick it up here."

Shen Ji held the phone, hesitated briefly, and picked it up in front of Bai Yu.

Bai Yu continued to wrap the wontons and didn't bother to listen.Shen Ji faced him sideways, with a calm tone, which was the customary way for children to report good news but not bad news in front of their parents.Wu Xin is a gentle woman, but the voice leaking from the phone at this time is anxious and uneasy, which is the instinctive worry and indignation of a mother when her child is hurt.

"Don't take it to heart what others say, Xiaoji, we understand you, you are a good boy... Is there anything we can do? Dad is by the side, do you want to tell him... Come back when you are wronged, Work is not important, it doesn't matter if you do it or not..."

A male voice interjected, "Don't come up with random ideas, that's his career, I'll tell him... Xiaoji..."

Bai Yu's tense strings were slowly relaxed. He Fengye was right. After Shen Ji crossed the hurdle of ten years old, he grew up with love and care. His adoptive parents gave him an emotional and A safe haven for reason.

"I know, I will also coordinate the work well." After comforting Wu Xin, Shen Ji was talking with Shen Quansui, and asked if the family business should come forward, and he quickly said: "No, too many voices will be counterproductive, I can handle it good."

Bai Yu smiled, it turned out that Teacher Shen was not completely dazed, but still had a clear idea in his mind.He couldn't help being curious, is it because of him, someone he can rely on, that Shen Ji stopped holding on?

Perhaps no matter how strong a person is, at such a moment, he also needs a shoulder that can rest assured to rest his chin.

Wu Xin and Shen Quan chatted for a while, until the wontons were ready to cook.

"Mr. Shen, it's time to eat."

Shen Ji explained that he was at a friend's house, so he hung up the phone and went back to the living room with Bai Yu.

The wontons are small, with thin skins. Shen Ji first took one bite, and then two.The heat evaporates on the eyelashes, and the condensed water drops make the eyelashes blacker and brighter.

It was late at night, and it was destined to be a sleepless night.The summer wind blows in from the balcony, Shen Ji has taken a shower, and is wearing Bai Yu's striped two-piece pajamas, his body is cool, but his feet are wearing unseasonable plush slippers.He thought it was too hot, so he withdrew his feet and stepped on the shoes.

"My original name was Shen Ji, and my brother's name was Shen Xiang. Together we mean good luck." Shen Ji drank a "cocktail" made of Bai Yu, and began to talk about his poor and poor childhood.

He has no memory of his mother who died young, but the memory of poverty is unforgettable.Shen Ziqiang has never studied for a day, has no land, and relies on picking mountain products to sell money to subsidize borrowing. He is introverted and weak, and has always been unable to compete with other men.

Relief funds are allocated every year, but none of the money goes to the Shen family.The Shen family couldn't get rid of the pot, so Shen Xiang would steal buns and steamed buns for him when he was young. He was caught several times, and one arm was broken once.

Back then, he didn't know good from evil, he only knew that his brother loved him.When he was eight years old, there were several floods in the mountains, and the mountain products could not be harvested. The three of them drank rice soup.Shen Xiang asked Shen Ziqiang, "I heard from Wang Feng that a relief fund is about to come down. Will it be our family's turn this time?"

Shen Ziqiang just sighed.

Soon, the relief money really came down, but Shen Ziqiang still couldn't get it.A few days later, Shen Xiang hugged him nervously and said, "We will have money soon!"

He smiled weakly, "I want to eat, I want to eat meat!"

However, what he waited for was the massacre of three families in the same village.The eight-year-old child didn't understand what this meant, so he was locked up by the villagers. They shouted "Killer pays for his life, father's debt will be paid for", hung him from a high beam, beat him, and splashed water on him.When the cadres from the town arrived, most of his lives had already been lost.

Over the next two years, he gradually understood what a crime his closest relative had committed, and that he was the murderer's child.After the case was settled, he was sent back to Fushui Village. The police and cadres told the villagers that lynching should not be used against innocent people, but once they left, what awaited him was still hell.

The only one who protected him was a white stray dog, which he called Xiaobai, but then Xiaobai was also beaten and eaten by the villagers.

At the age of ten, his plight was finally taken seriously by the town cadres. They took him to the town and wanted to find him a new family away from Fushui Village.

He was eventually picked up by Wu Xin and Shen Quan.Shen Quan put a thick dictionary in front of him and asked him if he would like to change his name.

He flipped through it for many days, pointed at "halberd" with his slender fingers, and asked timidly, "Can I change this word?"

Shen Quan then said: "Jing Ge Zhan Ji. Why did you choose this word?"

"I want to be braver and stronger." The immature child's voice was trembling. "Halberd and Ji have the same pronunciation. I can't change the pronunciation, because I want to remember the mistakes my father and brother made."

Shen Quan and Wu Xin looked at each other worriedly, "Why do you have to remember?"

"They were wrong, and I can't make the same mistake. When I grow up, I want to help children like me."

Bai Yu suddenly understood why in Fanghang Village, Shen Ji brought a cart full of gifts, but insisted on asking the children to line up to receive them one by one.

It turns out that Shen Ji has personally experienced the importance of rules. If there is no one who formulates and sticks to the rules, all charitable acts may not be able to help those in need.

Shen Ji stood up, shook it a bit, still holding the wine glass in his hand, "Mr. Bai, thank you for listening to me. I'm not good, but I've been working hard to get better. You...don't hate me."

The last sentence was in a low voice, full of apprehension and fear.Bai Yu felt sore, the imprint of her childhood was still like a pair of rusty and heavy shackles, binding Shen Ji.He tried his best to get up from the quagmire, but he didn't release the shackles.He did it voluntarily, just like he changed his name but not his pronunciation, he wanted to make himself remember.

But if he remembers, he will feel inferior, and his responsibility and inferiority are the same.He had to dress himself up in gorgeous and exaggerated clothes to cover up his inferiority lamely.

Bai Yu originally wanted to say let it go, it wasn't your fault.But when the words came to his lips, he finally swallowed them back.

What qualifications does he have to let Shen Ji put down?Maybe the shackles don't need to be put down, and the inferiority complex doesn't need to be overcome. Whose life is as glamorous as the outside?

Shen Ji is not perfect, but he is a complete person. Contradictory, inferior, proud, exaggerated, kind, and upright... are all Shen Ji.

Even the shackles are part of Shen Ji.

So if he can't pick it off, he won't pick it up, he will accompany Shen Ji on a trek at worst.

There was no wine added to the "cocktail". Based on his previous experience, he only added fruit juice and soda.But Shen Ji actually believed it, and reacted drunkenly under psychological influence.

He took the cup over, "Mr. Shen, you are very confident in your professional ability, but sometimes, can you share some of your professional confidence with yourself?"

Shen Ji was a little dizzy, persistently thinking that he was drunk, so he couldn't understand.

Bai Yu waved his hands in front of his eyes, "Teacher Shen?"

"I'm drunk." Shen Ji nodded, "The wine you mixed made me drunk again."

Bai Yu smiled, "But that's not wine."

Shen Ji opened his eyes wide, in disbelief, "That's wine. You told me when you gave it to me."

"I lied to you. Because you were too troublesome after getting drunk last time, I didn't add alcohol this time." In fact, it was just because I didn't want Shen Ji to drink too much alcohol.

Shen Ji was stunned for a while, his face suddenly turned red.

How did Bai Yu know, he just remembered the last time he was "taken" off his pants after being drunk.

"Then I lied to you, will you hate me?" Shen Ji asked him not to hate himself just now, so he also used the word hate to ask Shen Ji.

Shen Ji shook his head, but he was thinking about the pants in his heart, and said persistently: "It should be wine, Mr. Bai, I'm going to sleep, this time you don't want it, don't..."

Bai Yu didn't hear the words behind, "What don't I want?"

Shen Ji blushed, and finally uttered the words that he had held back for a long time, "Don't take off my pants when I'm drunk."

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