Rebirth one way to the north

Mo Xiangyang felt that Mo Bei's body in his arms was shaking constantly, and the clothes on his chest were soon soaked. Mo Xiangyang was extremely uncomfortable with his son's silent crying.He wanted to know what caused Mo Bei to suffer so much, and if possible, he would be willing to replace it with his own body.

No one in the family has ever seen Mo Bei like this before. For a while, they felt complicated and unspeakable, and the yard was quiet for a while.Xiao Pingan didn't know if he sensed the strange atmosphere, and suddenly started crying like a kitten in Gong Xiaobai's arms.The baby's cry broke the silence, but it made everyone's hearts fall into the abyss again.

Grandma said: "Let's all go inside, don't make trouble, let Xiaobei stay with his father for a while." Then told Mo Xiangyang: "Talk to the child carefully, don't scare him." Grandma dragged Sun Lihua's arm and walked into the house, She had to ask this big girl how she made Xiao Bei like this!

Although everyone was worried, they also knew that it was best to follow what grandma said in this situation. Only Xia Duo was hesitant. He was really worried about Mo Bei, and felt that he should not leave him alone at this time—even though this It doesn't match the facts.In the end, Wei Yuxuan still pulled Xia Duo away.

The yard fell silent again, and Mo Xiangyang still couldn't hear Mo Bei's cry, he could only feel the tears dripping down his chest like a stream through his thin shirt.

"Xiao Bei, tell Dad, what's going on?" Mo Xiangyang asked softly, patting Mo Bei's back.

Mo Bei took half a step back and looked up at Mo Xiangyang. His blushing face was wet from sobbing, and his eyes were suspicious and frantic. He seemed to want to find the slightest expression on Mo Xiangyang's face to prove something.

"Will you protect me?"

"If you are in danger, Dad can risk his life and protect you."

"Will you hurt me?"

"of course not."

"What if I don't listen to you?"

Even when he was in such a low mood, Mo Xiangyang couldn't help but feel amused by this sentence, "Haven't you always been disobedient? Well, good son, Dad understands that you have a unique personality, Dad will not force you to do something .”

"Maybe the better you get to know me, the less you'll like me."

"You are my son, Xiaobei, and always will be."

Mo Bei was still crying uncontrollably, but he had stopped trembling. There was a dangerous light in his black eyes, looking a little aggressive.

"Even if... I'm gay?"

For a few seconds, Mo Xiangyang couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence at all, and the smile that just floated on his face became ridiculously stiff.

Mo Beixiang took a step back, Mo Xiangyang stretched out his hand to hold him instinctively, and then realized that what he did was right.Mo Xiangyang knew that with Mo Bei's mind and character, he would not make such absurd jokes at this time. He threw such a bomb for the purpose of testing.

If Mo Xiangyang's answer did not meet Mo Bei's expectations, he might lose his son forever.

Mo Bei looked down at Mo Xiangyang holding his hand. The veins on the back of that hand were bulging due to the force, and the fingers twitched slightly.

"Xiaobei, when you were a suckling baby, Dad imagined what you would look like when you grew up, what kind of occupation you would have, what kind of life you would live, what kind of marriage and offspring you would have... Dad hopes that you To be happy, as long as you live happily, it doesn't matter what father does, even... even if this kind of happiness is different from what ordinary people understand..."

Mo Bei raised his eyes to look at Mo Xiangyang's eyes. The tears in his father's eyes made him feel pain, and his father's intermittent words should have made him grateful and happy, but they strangely deepened the pain.

"Dad, I'm sorry."

"It's okay, it's okay...it's not your fault..." Mo Xiangyang murmured, hugging his son tightly in his arms again.

Grandma interrogated Sun Lihua carefully, but in front of Wei Yuxuan and Gong Xiaobai, Sun Lihua couldn't say "homosexuality is mental illness", and she couldn't explain clearly.In fact, even if she said it, she couldn't explain it clearly. She herself was completely confused and didn't understand why Mo Bei suddenly collapsed.

Unable to find out why, grandma simply dragged Sun Lihua into the back room, and the mother and daughter talked in a low voice avoiding others.As soon as she heard the words repeated by Sun Lihua, grandma became angry: "Stupid! You have known Xiao Nan and Xiao Wei for not a year or two. If you talk about it yourself, how can he look like a lunatic? Everyone respects you." Looking at you, when did you go out to bring gifts and miss you? You don't feel guilty!"

Sun Lihua muttered: "I just wanted some gifts?... It's not normal for men to like men. Besides, it's clearly written in the psychiatric diagnosis manual. Can there be mistakes in things promulgated by the state?"

Grandma curled her lips and said in a low voice: "I don't know anything else, but you said that the Cultural Revolution was also led by the state, right? Yes, why should I redress it?"

Sun Lihua was at a loss for words.

Grandma said again: "Professor Luo, I think it's the weasel who gave the chicken New Year's greetings, and he has no good intentions."

"Mom, you are serious, whoever makes your grandson unhappy is not a good person? If there is no Professor Luo, can Xiaobai's matter be resolved so smoothly?"

"As for Xiaobai, I admit that he helped. But Lihua, Mom has lived most of her life. Mom knows that some people who help you don't mean they are sincerely doing you a favor. It's the matter of sweet dates in one hand and big sticks in the other. , Mom saw a lot."

"Then tell me, what exactly is Professor Luo planning?"

"..." Grandma couldn't speak anymore, "Let's not talk about him first, let's talk about Xiaobei. What did you say to him? You scared the child like this."

Sun Lihua's tears fell immediately: "I didn't say anything else, and I didn't even mention sending him to a mental hospital. Why should I send my good son to that kind of place? Mom, I I have a bad temper, but Xiaobei is the flesh that fell from my body, I can't hope for him to be better, how can I hurt him."

Grandma couldn't help but sigh: "Then why is Xiaobei like this? I really don't understand."

The mother and daughter talked and cried in the inner room, but it was quiet in the outer room, even Xiao Ping'an had stopped crying, and dozed off in Sun Liping's arms with tears in his eyes.

Shadow was full of anger—at himself.

When Beibei was weak and helpless, he didn't have a suitable identity to stay by Beibei's side to help him. Almost everyone here was more qualified than him on the surface.

This kind of situation may happen again in the future, maybe it is when Beibei needs someone to sign for surgery, maybe Beibei is kidnapped again and the person the police want to notify will definitely not be him, maybe it is at Beibei’s funeral In the end, he could only look at the coffin from a distance as a friend...

No, no, he definitely didn't want these misfortunes to happen, but he had to think of various plans first. Only in this way, he would not be stunned when the disaster really happened.As early as when Beibei was kidnapped by Shiba Gouzi, he had this understanding.

But what's the use of imagining more and more perfect?At this moment, it is his relatives who can guard Beibei, not him.

Among all people, the person who understands Xia Duo best may be Wei Yuxuan. He sits beside Xia Duo, puts his hand on Xia Duo's knee, and uses body language to reveal a message: I am here.

Mo Bei was led into the room by Mo Xiangyang. He seemed to have calmed down completely, except for the reddish eyes, there was almost nothing that could reveal his loss of control just now.

Xia Duo couldn't wait to walk up to him, trying to observe more subtle emotions from him, so as to know whether dear Beibei had been relieved from the pain.

Mo Bei took Xia Duo's hand and squeezed it, Xia Duo heaved a sigh of relief.

Mo Xiangyang's gaze flicked over the palms of the two children, and he sighed inwardly.Although Mo Bei didn't say it clearly, but looking at the situation of the two children now, there is still something he doesn't understand.Fortunately, Xia Duo also saw him growing up, and he was an excellent boy in all aspects... There is only one problem that is a defect in the eyes of a father, they are all boys.

Ugh.

So what can I do?

Xia Duo felt that the way Mo Xiangyang looked at him was weird, so he shook Mo Bei's hand slightly: Could it be what I thought?

Mo Bei's fingertips gently scratched his palm: It's just what you think.

Xia Duo's face turned red at first, and then turned pale again, but he still didn't let go of Mo Bei's hand under Mo Xiangyang's gaze.

Mo Xiangyang smiled at him.

Xia Duo's palms were full of sweat.

In consideration of Mo Bei's face, everyone selectively forgot what happened just now, and tried their best to pretend that the atmosphere was normal.But the meal was still ruined, which made Mo Bei feel sorry for Wei Yuxuan.

After dinner, Mo Bei was going back to his home, and the adults were worried. Sun Lihua hesitated to speak, and finally only sighed wearily.

Xia Duo said: "Grandma, Uncle Mo, Aunt Sun, don't worry, I will accompany Beibei. If there is anything, I will call you."

Grandma said trustingly: "That's fine, as long as I stay with you, I'll be relieved."

Mo Xiangyang glanced at Mo Bei, who turned his head away, his ears turning red.Mo Xiangyang nodded helplessly, and patted Xia Duo on the shoulder heavily: "Xia Duo, that uncle will give Xiaobei to you." He felt that it was inappropriate to say that, but Xia Duo's eyes lit up instantly After getting up, Mo Xiangyang swallowed the other words.

After Xia Duo, Mo Bei, and Wei Yuxuan left, the family sat down for a meeting again.

It was Sun Wuyue, the bastard who fired the cannon: "I'm just talking casually, but Xiao Bei is quite scary like that. Could he... is he... mentally abnormal?"

Grandma's eyes widened, and Sun Wuyue quickly shouted: "Don't get angry, sister, brother-in-law, don't be angry, just like Xiaobei just now, most people would think so? I'm worried about him, in case he really gets sick Hurry up, don't delay."

Sun Liping also wanted to say something, but Gong Xiaobai gave her a wink, Sun Liping hesitated for a moment and closed her mouth tightly.

Mo Xiangyang and Sun Lihua didn't speak. To be honest, they also had this kind of worry in their hearts.

Mo Xiangyang felt that the fact that Mo Bei was gay might put him under a lot of pressure, that's why he collapsed when he heard Sun Lihua say that homosexuality was a mental illness.But it's not normal in itself to be so emotionally overwhelmed and so reactive.As a doctor, Mo Xiangyang doesn't know much about psychology and psychiatry, but he also knows that a special child like Mo Bei with a sensitive heart and a mind beyond his peers may be different from ordinary people in some respects.Regardless of age and sexual orientation, it is not uncommon in the world for those engaged in writing, painting, music and other art work to fall into a certain kind of mental illness, and many even commit suicide——Thinking of this, Mo Xiangyang's heart sank .

Although everyone seldom talked about Mo Bei's actions from childhood to adulthood, it wasn't that he didn't know anything about it.Mo Bei himself is not like a normal child, but his amazing talent conceals those abnormalities, and his stubborn character refuses to be judged by others.But when everyone admits his extraordinaryness, it is actually tantamount to admitting his abnormality, but it's just that they can't face it emotionally.

"Anyway, for the sake of the child, we should not keep taboo about disease and avoid medical treatment." Sun Wuyue pulled a rare idiom, but no one appreciated it.

The grandma said angrily: "I don't care what others say, anyway, my eldest grandson is not mentally ill! Anyone who dares to send him to a mental hospital, my old woman will fight him desperately!"

Seeing that everyone was silent, Sun Wuyue also became angry: "Well, I am the only one who is a bad person, okay? I am the only one who wants to harm Xiaobei! Who doesn't want the child to be well? He has to wait until he is too sick to treat him, then Isn't it too late?"

Gong Xiaobai gave Sun Wuyue a pull: "Don't get excited, no one said you have bad intentions. No matter what, everyone is for Xiaobei's good. But Xiaobei's situation is special, we have to be cautious when making decisions, don't do it with good intentions Something bad happened."

Everyone's psychology is very contradictory. No one can say for sure that Mo Bei is a normal child, but no one can be cruel enough to say that Mo Bei should be sent for a check-up - especially when Mo Bei is obviously obsessed with the mental hospital. exceptional circumstances.

When the Sun family was sitting together for a meeting, Mo Bei and Xia Duo were walking on the twilight street, surrounded by people coming home from get off work and school, and the air was filled with human fireworks, which made people feel down-to-earth .But in Mo Bei's heart, there is also a sense of haste and wandering, which seems to only appear in the hearts of those who are in a foreign land.

Xia Duo asked: "Beibei, what can I do for you?"

Mo Bei replied: "Take my hand and don't let go."