Rebirth one way to the north

"Many people are wondering why I don't work as a good surgeon and go to a mental hospital. Is it because I'm also crazy?" Luo Yi pushed his glasses, and said the opening remarks of today's lecture with a smile, as expected , the audience burst into laughter.

This is a lecture titled "How far is the distance between a normal person and a mental patient" given at a medical university, because Luo Yi is a visiting professor in the school, and many students have listened to his class, and there are many others who are related to him. He was taught by his juniors and younger sisters from the same school, so even though it was just the beginning of school, the small auditorium was still filled with people who came to listen to the lecture.

Standing on the stage, it is of course impossible to see everyone in the audience clearly. Luo Yi's attention is mainly focused on the reactions of the audience in the first three rows. Everyone has the illusion that he can see himself.This kind of method that can almost attract the attention of the audience is obviously not something that can be practiced overnight.

"Why do people have this question? First of all, of course, in terms of material comparison, it is often difficult for psychiatrists to compare with doctors in other departments in terms of income and honor. To be honest, my current salary is indeed higher than that of doctors in surgery. What is the reason? Everyone present here will work in the medical industry either now or in the future, so I won’t mention the material benefits other than the normal income. , anyway, you all understand."

The audience laughed again, but this time the volume of laughter was much lower than before, and more people just showed knowing smiles, or exchanged "everything goes without saying" eyes.

"Let's talk about normal income, which mainly comes from financial appropriations and patients' medical treatment. Financial appropriations can only guarantee the minimum income level, and the main source of income depends on the number of patients received and treated. But the number of mental patients who can see a doctor Far fewer than patients in other departments, hospitalization or long-term treatment with drugs or other means, even fewer. Without patients, of course, there is no benefit. There are also patients who are poor at all, and their family members are irresponsible. People run away as soon as they are thrown into the hospital - there is a patient like this in our hospital, who has lived in the hospital for more than ten years because of mental disorders caused by traumatic brain injury. His only relative is his elder brother, who died two years ago If you pay the hospitalization fee on time, you will be unable to find someone from the third year. What can we do? Can we just throw the patient on the street, or hand it over to the Public Security Bureau? For patients like this, the hospital is completely out of control. Losing money."

Luo Yi spread his hands, this kind of situation doesn't only happen in Anding Hospital, there are also family members abandoning patients in general hospitals, and the hospital is very worried when encountering such things.

"As for Anding Hospital itself, it is often built far away from the center of the city, and some are so remote that even local people can't find them. These hospitals are often losing money for many years, let alone have enough money to upgrade their equipment. And the renovation of hospital buildings. Therefore, it is not difficult for us to see that many Anding hospitals are still using wards built in the 50s, and the conditions can be imagined. Being a psychiatrist is stressful, not only because of income issues, but also mentally. The pressure is also very high. Some mental patients have violent behaviors. If one is not careful, the doctor will be injured, and there are even incidents where the doctor was killed by the patient. Faced with such patients, ordinary people have to go around. But psychiatrists have to face the difficulties. There is also a danger from the patient’s family members. Some family members have a quick temper and always think that if the patient does not improve in a short time, it means that the doctor has not fulfilled his responsibility. But mental illness, in the Worldwide, the cure rate is very low. It is not cutting the cecum, and the stitches can be removed in a week. It may take two or three years to reach the level where you can be discharged from the hospital for monitoring, or you may not be able to recover for life. To the level of normal people. When the family members are in a hurry, it is not uncommon to scold the doctor a few words, and it is not uncommon to beat the doctor."

Luo Yi said, pointing to his nose, and said with a smile, "My nose was broken by the patient during the attack, and now it's still a little crooked, which makes my handsomeness drop a lot."

There was another laugh in the audience.In the corner, Mo Bei stared expressionlessly at the handsome Luo Yi on the stage, unconsciously picking his fingers with his nails.

When the first-level security company was established, Xia Duo said that he would train some people to monitor Luo Yi.There are indeed people in charge of this work now. During the same period, two groups of people take turns to monitor, every three months—it takes a lot of manpower and financial resources to monitor a psychiatrist, and basically it is a psychiatrist who does not know what year and month The long-term investment that will end, apart from Xia Duo, who believes in Mo Bei, I am afraid that no one else is willing to do so.

These few days, Mo Jie went to school and was about to start military training; Sun Lihua was busy with work, and even if she thought about repairing her relationship with her son, she could only wait until after work at night, and she had to do so without work; Xia Duoyi After going to Grandpa's house, there is no news, so the most idle person is Mo Bei.

Knowing from the watchers that Luo Yi had a lecture, Mo Bei hinted at himself in the mirror to build up his confidence, and then blended in with the audience.From passively encountering Luo Yi to actively facing it, the difficulty of this psychological battle is beyond Mo Bei himself.

Luo Yi talked about a few reasons why psychiatrists are under a lot of pressure, and then brought the topic back to the original question: "Since being a psychiatrist has various pressures, why did I choose to put down the scalpel and pick up "The Dream of Dreams?" What about "Analysis"? For me, one reason is enough—the human spiritual world is too mysterious, too interesting, and too elusive! To give an example around us, everyone has seen people who love to play mahjong Right? Some of you may be mahjong masters yourself. It is not uncommon for some people to stay at the table for several hours after playing mahjong. Others may spend dozens of hours on the table without even sleeping. Don't go to sleep. Some people play mahjong every day. If they don't play for a day, it's like they haven't eaten. They feel panic. For me, the spiritual world of human beings is this mahjong table. It’s a new round, and the changes are endless. The attraction is too great!”

Mo Bei sneered slightly. Luo Yi was not only obsessed with research on how to treat mental illness into normal people, he was even more obsessed with research on how to turn normal people into mental illness.Luo Yi himself said that he found that it might be difficult to cure a mental illness, but it is too easy to destroy a person's spiritual world and turn him into a mental illness.

The spiritual world of human beings is so fragile, a broken love can create a schizophrenia, discrimination from a few people around can create a depression...

Luo Yi also likes to play a game, which is to influence the psychology of some people, making them unknowingly become his steadfast followers, giving his instructions as if they were entrusted to him, such as Qin Dangmian and Liu Zhengyang. Such people.

Mo Bei felt that if Luo Yi wanted to set up a cult, it would probably be more terrifying than the Aum Shinrikyo, the Manson Family, and the like.

When Mo Beigang met Luo Yi, Luo Yi gained his extraordinary trust. At that time, Luo Yi had many advantages in Mo Bei's eyes.

First of all, he is erudite and has won the respect of Mo Bei with his rich knowledge and extraordinary intelligence.You must know that Mo Bei himself is very smart, and he has almost never forgotten to read books, otherwise he would not have been admitted to university after returning to school in just over a year. People who can impress him in this respect must be very superior.And this advantage, even after understanding the essence of Luo Yi, Mo Bei still objectively recognizes it.

Secondly, he is very sympathetic. Of course, this is completely an illusion that Luo Yi deliberately showed Mo Bei.At that time, Luo Yi told Mo Bei that he knew he was not mentally ill, but for various reasons he couldn't be discharged immediately, so he asked Mo Bei to cooperate with him to pretend to be a patient for a while.And he will take advantage of this time to meet with Sun Lihua more in the name of helping with treatment, so as to persuade her to understand that homosexuality is not a disease, and let her offer to take Mo Bei home.Luo Yi convinced Mo Bei to believe his words, and regarded the other doctors and nurses in the hospital as imaginary enemies, creating a false appearance of isolation and helplessness for Mo Bei.

Mo Bei was only 21 years old at the time, and he was full of trust and dependence on Luo Yi. He even vaguely wondered if his father would be like Luo Yi if he was still alive.

Not long after, Luo Yi made Mo Bei pretend to be violent and self-harming, and then sent Mo Bei to the monitoring area for severe mental patients, and let him live in a single ward.The funny thing is that at that time, Mo Bei thought that he pretended to cure a seriously ill patient after thinking about it for a while, so as to add some honor to his resume; and the single ward was for Mo Bei and other seriously ill patients. The isolation is for the safety of Mo Bei.

However, soon the devil bared his fangs, and Luo Yi personally broke the trust he had painstakingly built up. He felt that he knew enough about Mo Bei, and it was time for the next step.

In the following years, Mobei was broken, rebuilt, and broken again, struggling, resisting, fighting back, enduring, begging, and self-mutilating. He was pulled into the abyss of despair time and time again, and climbed out again and again. In the end, there was only one Thoughts are supporting him - he wants Luo Yi to die before him!

How firm is this idea?At least, it allowed Mo Bei to survive until Luo Yi died and was discharged from the hospital.But after being discharged from the hospital, the idea of ​​suicide became a lingering curse, and several times there was only a thin line between Mo Bei and the god of death.There seems to be such a hint: Luo Yi is already dead, so you don't have to hold on any longer, and you will be liberated when you die.

Mo Bei shuddered, and his thoughts were pulled back from the past. He heard the host smiling and said, "This is the end of Professor Luo's speech, and the next time is the time that everyone is most looking forward to - you can ask Professor Luo questions." If you have any questions, please raise your hands..."

Mo Bei raised his left hand high.