heart poison

It was dark, and the customers in the steamed vegetable restaurant left, and the business was deserted.After the proprietress wiped the table, she lifted the lid of the steamer at the entrance of the shop and saw that there was only a bowl of steamed pork ribs left in it, so she turned her head and shouted to the back kitchen: "Today's 'record' is good, close the stall early!"

The boss came out from the back kitchen and said while untiing his apron, "Is there any food left?"

"There is only one plate of steamed pork ribs left."

"Then, pack a bag and let Brother Shu take it back."

"Good Le!"

It was hot in the steamer, and the proprietress was about to move the dishes out with her fingers, when someone whispered, "I'll do it."

"Brother Shu." The proprietress is in her early thirties, she came from the countryside, she is not pretty, and she speaks with a strong accent, "You can take this bowl of pork ribs home to eat, there is still food there, so be full!"

"Thank you." The man quickly packed the steamed pork ribs and rice, and nodded to the boss and his wife, "Then I'll go back today."

"See you tomorrow." The proprietress smiled and waved.

The steamed vegetable restaurant is very small, just like a "fly restaurant" on the street, with poor sanitation and low income, but fortunately, the boss has no culture and experience. Don't rush to go to the hospital for a physical examination, regardless of whether you are a good citizen or a bandit, whether you may be suffering from a disease, as long as you know how to cook and are willing to endure hardships.

Just in case, the man also spent 30 yuan to make a fake ID card, but the boss didn't even look at it.

The ID card was kept in the man's dilapidated wallet, with "Shu Guo" written on the name column, and the boss, who didn't know a few big characters, didn't know how to pronounce "Guo".

The man's real name is actually "Guo Shu".

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The winter night is cold, and there are cold drops of water in the air, which is damp and damp.Guo Shu was wearing an old dark brown cotton jacket, holding a plastic bag full of food in one hand, and tightening his neckline with the other hand, and walked quickly towards an alley.

Both sides of this street are full of "fly restaurants" similar to steamed vegetable restaurants. Some have already closed early, and some specialize in supper have just opened.In addition to the "fly restaurant", there are many mobile stalls on the side of the road, selling mala tang, sesame seed cakes, roasted sweet potatoes, lotus seed porridge, stinky tofu, and everything else.

Guo Shu once thought about buying a tricycle to sell Mala Tang and working part-time for himself, which would be convenient for scheduling, but after a little thought, he felt that it was not appropriate.Mobile stalls are too easy to be interrogated by urban management, and he doesn't want to deal with these people.

Since you want to hide, the deeper you hide, the better.

Until it can no longer be hidden.

When passing a barbecue stand, Guo Shu stopped.

I haven't eaten grilled eggplant for a long time, and suddenly I want to eat it.

There were many customers at the barbecue stand, so Guo Shu found a small table, put the packaged steamed pork ribs on it, stamped his feet to drive away the cold, and breathed on his hands.

After waiting for about a quarter of an hour, the eggplant was ready, Guo Shu paid the money, took the takeaway box and walked across the street.

He rented a room in a tube building in the alley, and all the people who lived there were migrant workers. They didn't need to sign a contract, and they lived there upon payment.

The lights in the tube building were dim, and the floorboards creaked, until he took out the key to open the door, Guo Shu seemed very calm.

However, the moment he inserted the key into the keyhole, his expression suddenly became extremely sinister.

His right hand holding the key began to tremble violently, and the takeaway box held in his left hand fell to the ground with a "snap", and the eggplant soaked in garlic paste was stuck on the dirty floor.Every breath he took was heavier than the previous one, until a beast-like growl came out of his throat.

The Tongzi building is not soundproof, and the sound of TVs and noises from every household can easily cover his roar.

The windows facing the corridor were dimly lit, clustered in clusters, but his home was dark and cold, with the windows closed and no light at all.He stood in this darkness, trembling, and after a long time, he raised his hands and beat his temples heavily.

Forgot again!I forgot again!

The dishes brought out from the steamed vegetable restaurant were forgotten on the small table of the barbecue stall, and he only remembered it now!

The fear in his heart made it difficult for him to turn the key, and it took several minutes to open the door.

He turned on all the lights at home, stood in the middle of the room, stared at himself on the window glass, and muttered to himself: "No, no, how could I become like that? No! Impossible !"

In my mind, the events of more than ten years ago were cut into frame after frame of frozen pictures. The demented father was incontinent. Hey hey.

He covered his ears and kept shaking his head, but his mother's laughter still echoed in his ears.He patted his temples, but the harder he tried, the clearer the past he didn't want to recall, and it kept reminding him——Guo Shu, your parents died of Alzheimer's disease and died without dignity , you are their son, you can't escape, one day you will become like them, first become dull, then lose control of your mind and body, no longer have the ability to take care of yourself, incontinence, giggle, become a living person the burden of living cattle.Do not believe it?Look at yourself, you are only 40 years old, why do you start to forget and lose everything?In a few years, you will become them back then!

"No!" Guo Shu knelt on the ground and slammed his forehead on the floor.

He was not kowtowing to anyone, but just wanted to drive away the lingering nightmare.

suffer from that disease?How can it be!

Is the disease that ruined his life now coming to take away his dignity?

The pain brought him a little clarity, and the smell of blood stimulated his nerves.He straightened up, stroked the wound on his forehead with his fingers, stared blankly for a moment, and sucked the blood from his fingertips.

He took a deep breath and his heartbeat slowly calmed down.

The taste of blood is extremely sweet.

But the gloom in his eyes didn't dissipate, instead it got deeper and deeper, like a well leading to hell.

After a while, he stood up on his legs, staggered towards the kitchen, turned on the tap, and washed his face.

The water was freezing to the bone, and he shivered uncontrollably.

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At the age of 22, I left a promising post and reported to the Hefu Town Police Station. It was also such a cold winter.

The infrastructure in big cities is relatively complete, and there is hot water in the dormitory, so you won't be shivering from the cold.But my hometown is poor, and it feels like being thrown into an ice cellar in winter.

Guo Shushou was boiling water by the stove, ready to scrub his parents after the cooking was done.But as soon as the boiling water was poured out, a muffled sound came from the room.

The father fell off the wheelchair and hit his head on the ground, moaning in pain.

Falls are common for people with Alzheimer's disease who lose control of their limbs, but a hit to the head can cause big trouble.Guo Shu immediately picked up his father and hurried to the hospital.

After an examination, the doctor said that the patient had symptoms of fever and inflammation and had to be hospitalized immediately.Guo Shu asked the nurse to settle his father, and hurried home to get the necessary washing utensils, but as soon as he entered the door, he heard dull crying and smelled a pungent smell.

My mother became incontinent again. I wondered if she wanted to clean it up by herself, but she climbed to the stove and was scalded by boiling water.

Seeing the messy house and the tearful mother, Guo Shu's eyes darkened, and he could barely hold on.

His work during the day was not easy, and it was already early morning, but he still had no way to rest.And this kind of life has been going on for a long time, and there will be no improvement in the future, but it will get worse and worse.

Unless the parents who have become "waste" die as soon as possible.

Once some thoughts appear, they will never go away. Instead, they grow day and night, like sinful vines, tightly wrapping a young heart.

It's dark.

Alzheimer's disease cannot be reversed, and the situation of his parents is getting worse day by day. During many sleepless nights, Guo Shu wants to pick up a kitchen knife to end all this.

He wanted to go back to the branch and do criminal psychology research.But in the past few years, his major has been almost abandoned, and his parents have become his center. He seems to be a planet revolving around his parents.

He felt himself being drained.

Every time he returned home and saw his groaning father and sluggish mother, he felt that the ones sitting in front of him were not human beings, but two monsters who drank blood and ate marrow.

Hatred filled my heart, but the knife in my hand fell to the ground with a clang.He cried bitterly, and shouted hoarsely: "Why are you doing this to me? How long will you drag me down?"

As if they didn't understand, the parents looked at him blankly, as if looking at a stranger, and the mother even laughed "hehe".

Along with the laughter came the ticking sound of incontinence.

He broke down.

Every day his parents lived was an unbearable day for him.After grinding and grinding, I finally sent my father and my mother away.

He swears to God that he has never done anything to hasten the death of his parents. Until their last moment, he still tried his best to give and take care of them.

After the funeral, it took him a long time to realize that he was free from now on and could pursue the life he wanted.

But when he opened the book from that year, he found that everything had changed.

The classmate who graduated with him is already a well-known expert in criminal psychology. When he was nestled in the police station to solve the trivial matters of the parents of the masses, and rushed to the hospital with his father who had a high fever on his back, they were constantly solving serious and important cases.

He carried the heavy courage given by life, and was thrown farther and farther away. He gradually couldn't see the backs of his classmates, and he couldn't see his own future.

He was left behind, and in this life he could only be a policeman solving neighborhood disputes in Hefu Town.

The hatred submerged in the bottom of my heart broke out vigorously and arrogantly.He hated his parents so much, he hated Alzheimer's disease so much, he couldn't sleep at night, he kept asking himself-why didn't you kill them?Why not kill them all!

Parents have become enemies, and the enemy has passed away, and the hatred full of them can no longer be resolved.

During the day, he is a hard-working film policeman.When he was alone at night, he would reveal his true colors - gloomy, twisted and crazy.He began to paralyze himself with work, instead of going back to the home that made him sick, he stayed in the police station for a long time, wherever there was a need, he would go there...

Only in this way, will you not always think of the pain you have accumulated over the years, and the life that is hard to reach.

Later, his good friend Lu Zhouan resigned from his job in the arsenal and returned to Hefu Town for exactly the same reason as him.

Seeing Lu Zhou'an, he seemed to see himself back then.

Seeing Hu You was like seeing his parents.

In the dark corner without light, he grinned.

It turned out that God had reserved a door for him, and hope and opportunity were hidden in that door.

It turns out that he can still take revenge!

Killing Hu You is like killing his parents.He comforted himself with a smile. In this way, Lu Zhou'an could be relieved, and he would not have to suffer as much as himself.

Lu Zhouan is a good man, and even a filial son.He made indirect remarks many times, telling the other party not to spend too much energy on Hu You.But Lu Zhou'an always smiled with a good temper and said, "If you return, you will be safe."

He felt resentful, wishing he could wake up Lu Zhouan, and felt that after a while, Lu Zhouan would naturally grow bored.

At that time, it shouldn't be too difficult for him and Lu Zhou'an to work together to get rid of Hu You.

But two years later, Lu Zhouan was still content with the status quo, did not struggle or resist, and continued to be a dutiful son.

He couldn't wait any longer, he wanted revenge on that group!

Picking up the psychology study at the police academy was for a "perfect" crime.He spent a long time carefully arranging, and humanity gradually disappeared in his blood—for "revenge", he didn't even intend to let his good brother Lu Zhou'an go.

He wanted to make a plan to make everyone in the town believe that it was Lu Zhou'an who killed Hu You and Hu Xiangjuan because he couldn't bear the pain of taking care of the elderly for a long time, and fled in fear of crime.

And he himself is still an innocent policeman.

It's easy, as long as Lu Zhouan can no longer speak.

Hefu Town is backed by mountains. Thirteen years ago, even the busiest streets in the town, let alone the wilderness, had no surveillance cameras.At night, he took Lu Zhouan to the mountain beside the town in the name of drinking, and poisoned the wine.

Lu Zhou was safe and defenseless, and he didn't understand what happened until he died.

He threw Lu Zhou'an into the pit he had already dug, leveled the soil, covered it with grass, and finally stood by the pit and drank the unpoisoned wine in one gulp.

The vast mountains are as quiet as a silent world.

He returned to the town, after taking a bath and tidying up, he came to Hu's house, strangled Hu You and Hu Xiangjuan with the rope he had prepared, and stabbed Hu Xiangjuan in the back.

"The great revenge will be rewarded", he stood where he was, with infinite joy in his chest.

He is the best film policeman in town, and he is sure to pick himself out completely.

Sure enough, when the case was reported to the police station, no one doubted him. He spread rumors that Lu Zhouan killed his relatives and fled. The rumors spread from word to mouth, and almost everyone believed them.

He almost believed it himself.

As someone who used to work in the branch, he knew that he should be able to procrastinate, as long as the higher-ups don't send a task force to investigate in time, his drama can continue.Even if the special case team comes in the future, the golden time for case detection has already been missed.

The masses will say, hey, let Lu Zhouan run away long ago.

He applied what he had learned, insisted on persuading the leaders to let him participate in the investigation, and made some small moves from time to time to quietly influence the judgment of his colleagues. When the investigation report was sent to the city, it didn't even have his name on it.

The case was not solved, but Lu Zhouan has become the default murderer of the masses.

He stayed in the town of Holford for a while, and left the police force on the grounds of guilt.

He has been to many places over the years and has no fixed place to live. It was not until three years ago that he came to Los Angeles.

Maybe it's because I have been away from home for many years, and I feel a little homesick.

He doesn't like the name "Guo Shu", so it's better to call him "Shu Guo" instead of "Guo Shu". Reversing the name is also considered revenge on his parents.

He still hated them, and he hated Alzheimer's, but he hadn't killed anyone in 13 years.

Maybe this life has passed in such a muddle.

But more than half a year ago, he suddenly discovered that he began to lethargy and gradually showed signs of forgetfulness. The most frightening thing was that when reading a book or a newspaper, he had to read a simple sentence several times before he could understand it.

For a moment, he fell into an ice cellar.

What are the symptoms of Alzheimer's disease, he is very clear.

He wondered in amazement - would I be like that too?

Will I also become a monster and die without dignity in the torment day after day!

The hatred accumulated for many years once again hit my heart.He was in terrific pain, suffered from insomnia every night, and lived in fear for years.

One day, he saw an old man in a wheelchair.With just one glance, he knew that the old man had Alzheimer's disease.

He clenched his fists, furious.

What is the meaning of life for these people?He kept asking himself, do they want to survive, why should they continue to live?

He recalled the pleasure brought by the killing 13 years ago, the blood all over his body was clamoring and boiling.He inexplicably smelled a strong smell of blood, only to realize that he had bitten the corner of his lip.

The old man in the wheelchair was called Wang Zhangbing, and he had a group of unfilial descendants. He thought, that's just right.

Lu Zhouan is a dutiful son, he had to kill Lu Zhouan.But Wang Xiaoning and others had longed for Wang Zhangbing's death, so he only needed to do some tricks.

Back then, he was considered a top student in the police academy. Over the years, it would not be a problem for him to seduce a silly girl under 20 years old with what he learned back then.

The silly girl stole the family's belt, and he felt the belt, thinking he was quite good at it.

Wang Zhangbing, like Hu You, has no power to resist, but committing crimes in Los Angeles today is far more difficult than in Hefu Town 13 years ago, so he has been waiting for the opportunity.

Fortunately, this time, he never thought of getting out like last time.

He knew he was bound to show his feet, but he didn't particularly care.

Besides Wang Zhangbing, there was someone else he wanted to kill. That person was Liang Ping, an old lady who loved square dancing. She had suffered domestic violence for a long time, and she was pitiful and unworthy of sympathy.

Just like his mother who didn't know what resistance was.

As a child, he watched his father beat his mother.After his father left in a rage, he dared to run out and cry with his mother in his arms.He wanted to comfort his mother, but her mother cried and said that family ugliness should not be exposed.

Outsiders think that their family is Hemei. Only he knows that his father would be angry with his mother, and his mother was sweet.

He had been looking for opportunities to get in touch with Liang Ping, and that day at the Binhe leisure area opposite Wutong Community, he finally got in touch with Liang Ping.

"Do you want to resist?"

"Do you want to get out of this hopeless life?"

"Do you want revenge on your son and husband?"

"I can help you. Just listen to me."

The despair in Liang Ping's eyes was burning like a fire, turning death into life.

When he grabbed Liang Ping's hair and slammed Liang Ping's head against the wall, he wanted to laugh out loud.The taste of blood was so sweet that he was so addicted to it that he didn't even want to leave.

I still want to kill people, kill more people—before I get completely entangled in Alzheimer's disease!

Those people are not worthy of living. If they die earlier, they might be reincarnated earlier!

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It was already late at night, and the noisy sound in the tube building gradually subsided.Guo Shu's hands were frozen in the cold water, and he was unconscious.He stared blankly, trembling more and more.

Just now, he found that he couldn't remember the details of killing Liang Ping.

What happened not long ago has actually blurred into a puddle of mud.

"I'm only 40 years old..." He covered his face tightly, his Adam's apple rolled with difficulty, "I shouldn't be sick, why me?"

The garlic eggplant thrown by the door was completely cold. Those who came back late glanced at the light and walked away with contempt on their faces. The stray dog ​​sniffed it, picked up the eggplant like killing a mouse, and walked to the corner.The oil and mashed garlic were all mixed together, and it looked unspeakably disgusting.

The surroundings were completely quiet, but Guo Shu didn't feel sleepy at all.Placed beside his bed was a book on criminal psychology. He picked it up and turned to a page at random. His eyes fell on the text, but he couldn't read a single word.

He found a pair of earphones, plugged them into the phone, turned the volume up to the maximum, and started listening to Buddhist music.

He used to think that Buddhist music was weird, but now he can only find peace in Buddhist music.

Buddha music really made his world quiet, so quiet that he couldn't hear any other sounds.

The door was broken open, and the muzzle of the special police was aimed at his head.

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After getting off the police car, Guo Shu had already handcuffed his hands.He stood outside the main entrance of the City Bureau, looking up at the lit windows one after another, with a smile on his lips.

Hua Chong has interrogated countless suspects, many of whom are as calm as Guo Shu, such as the young man who avenged his elder brother, Zou Ming.

But calmness is just their disguise. They need to use calmness to cover up their crimes and pretend that they have nothing to do with the murder.

Guo Shu’s calmness is different from theirs, because he readily admitted the crime, “Yes, I did it. Hu You, Hu Xiangjuan, Lu Zhou’an, Wang Zhangbing, Liang Ping, they were all killed by me, and Ji Can was also killed by me. persuasive."

Hua Chong looked into his eyes silently, but he turned his eyes away and looked at Ke Chu who was sitting next to Hua Chong.

"It seems that you don't remember me anymore." Guo Shu said.

Ke Chu frowned, as if thinking.

"It's fine if you don't remember, you are one year older than me, and we went to class together." Guo Shu smiled self-deprecatingly, covering the wound on his forehead, "If my life went as smoothly as yours, I shouldn't be sitting Here, instead, sit in your place, interrogate prisoners, study cases of criminal minds."

Ke Chu seemed to remember, "You are..."

"Forget it, forget it, it's okay." Guo Shu waved his hand.Because his hands were handcuffed together, he waved his hands a little funny, "It's best to forget, with a student like me, it's actually pretty low."

After speaking, he turned sideways and met Hua Chong's eyes.

"I thought I could kill a few more people. You know, I've even chosen my target, and I plan to do it after a while. After all, I may not have much time after all." Guo Shu smacked his lips, making an uncomfortable Yue's voice, "I knew you would catch me sooner or later, but I didn't expect it to be so soon. I thought I was doing it very covertly. One of the deceased had Alzheimer's, and the other was domestic violence. They were basically unrelated, and they were caught by you." I found the connection, followed the clues, and found Hefu Town. Are you in charge of the case? Great, you are a character."

Being praised by a murderer with anti-social personality is really not something to be proud of.Hua Chong sighed and asked, "Where is Lu Zhou'an?"

"I buried him at the southern foot of Heyong Mountain." Guo Shu said calmly, "There should be only a pile of bones left now."

Hua Chong narrowed his eyes, "The answer is quite neat."

Guo Shu reluctantly made a gesture of spreading his hands, raised his head and looked around the interrogation room, his eyes were deep, "Because I already knew that this is my starting point and my end point. I killed one, two, three, four, five, As for the five people, I wonder if I can be sentenced to death immediately?"