Years old

Qi Songyan searched for a while in the night, only to see Qin Di hiding under a tall tree some distance from the gate of the community listening to cicadas, almost completely blocked by the tree trunk, if you don't pay attention, you won't be able to find it.He was wearing a large white T-shirt, which was obviously a summer dress, but there was a little gingerbread man crookedly embroidered on the left chest. The black cotton shorts with gray edges just reached his fingertips, revealing his slender and white legs. He approached Just touched the freshness of the shower gel.

Qi Songyan's face was still a little stiff, but he tried to put his tone softly: "Where are you going?"

"Walk to the river." Qin Di confessed, and then went forward, in a usual commanding tone.

Qi Songyan followed him silently with his pockets in his hands.He also wore a white T-shirt and black shorts, but he looked more like a comfortable boy, and Qin Di's shorts fit too well. When the street lamps were bright, the thin waist hidden under the loose clothes was vaguely revealed.

If he was in heat on the spot, then the unhappiness this afternoon would be very shameless and superfluous, Qi Songyan held back, trying to only look at the top of his shaggy head.

Qin Di didn't talk to him all the way, walking slowly, touching almost every tree or shrub he passed by, and even picked up two small pink flowers that fell on the edge of the flower bed and put them between his ears and temples. Very happy, she took a few steps forward and looked back at Qi Songyan.

Qi Songyan looked at him, and felt that the petal was also falling on his shoulder, it was Xia Ye's quiet intimacy, gentle and playful.He stood there for a while, stretched out his hand, Qin Di jumped back and put his finger into his palm.

At eleven o'clock, there was no one else by the river. They held hands and walked to the bottom step of the embankment to sit down.The Wanliu Bridge not far away is shining brightly, shining brightly on the dark river surface, reflecting the darkly flowing ripples of the river.Qin Di turned his face slightly, then turned back, took a deep breath and said, "Xuan told you about my father running away, right?"

Qi Songyan didn't expect him to mention this suddenly, he was taken aback for a moment, and gave a muffled hum.

"That year, I was ten years old. He and my mother were the youngest in the family. My mother had a bad temper. He was not doing his job properly and couldn't work for a few months. Maybe it was because he couldn't stand my mother scolding badly every day, or maybe he was depressed. I wanted to go out for a break, or maybe I was simply addicted to gambling and alcohol, and I don’t know now. In short, I took all the money in the family, and even my mother’s dowry jewelry, and ran away like that.

My mother actually wanted to leave, but in the end she stayed.Although I am the most upstanding little grandson in the family, my grandparents are gone, and no one really cares if I am lost.In the past few years, she has worked many jobs. She has low education, but she is diligent and capable. Restaurants and supermarkets are willing to ask her, but it is hard work and even more bitter in my heart. I know it all.

In the first two years, my relatives said that my father was untrustworthy and probably dead, so my mother was asked to report his disappearance.But my mother doesn't want to.In the third year, he called home, and as soon as my mother started scolding, he hung up.Later, I picked it up twice, but he didn't speak, the number was fake, and nothing could be found out.

When I was 14 years old, I realized that I didn't seem to like girls, and I was very angry. I was already very different from others, how could I still have such a thing.At that time, I felt that I was going to turn bad, my family was in a difficult situation, my father ran away, my mother was violent, and my relatives avoided me.

Every day I go to school, I pass by Grandma Xia’s door. She has raised many flowers, some of which are not suitable for the climate or cannot be rescued from insects, and some of them grow well and bloom more beautifully every year.Sometimes I also think, why can't I also drive well?Don't even rely on anyone's care, just yourself, basking in the sun and drinking rainwater.

In fact, I am very grateful to God for giving me some talents. Although I am ashamed and wasteful, fortunately I did not disappoint too much.But I should try my best. I want to go to Beijing, study in my favorite university, and see more prosperous scenery.I want to work part-time and get a scholarship. I want to improve my life little by little through my own strength, so that my mother will suffer less, so that she doesn't have to hide and cry every time I finish scolding me. "

Qin Di paused, his eyes were glowing with lights on the river, Qi Songyan wanted to shake his hand, but he was the first to lean on his neck, and arched it again.Qi Songyan put his arms around his shoulders, listening to his voice being slowly heard by the night wind.

"Before I met you, I dreamed alone. After fantasizing, I was fattened by reality. Later, you also became my dream, wind, pine forests. Yes, because I love you so much, I cried for you several times. Now, you have come out of my dream, but I am still not satisfied, I want you to be mine in the future. Is it in a city, is it in It doesn't matter if it's a university, I will put my heart in your place, you give it back to me, I don't want it, so no matter how time and space change, we will never be separated, you can only hold my heart, just this one ,it's here."

Qin Di took his hand and pressed it close to her chest.Feeling the warmth of the two palms, the heart jumped vigorously, eagerly seeking an echo for its master.Qi Songyan touched his heartbeat, closed his eyes, and kissed the top of his hair for a long time.

"I love you too."

The little flower on the temple fell into the river and drifted slowly towards the bright waves. The cicadas among the leaves stopped singing, leaving only the slight whisper of the wind.Qin Di was tired of talking, and could not get up in Qi Songyan's arms. Qi Songyan couldn't reach his mouth when he wanted to kiss him, so he could only tickle him, which made him get up and run away. There was a dense kiss on the cement wall.

After kissing for a few times, he couldn't hold back any longer, all four hands were entangled in the hem of the other's clothes, Qi Songyan's breathing was heavy after being touched by him, and his hands stopped by his ribs, still remembering the gentleman's rules, and asked: "Can you touch, um?" ?”

Qin Di bit his lips, raised his wrist, and handed something to his other hand.Qi Songyan looked down and saw that it was the end of the drawstring tied with a bow on his shorts. He looked up at Qin Di in disbelief. Qin Di's eyes flashed, she wrapped her arms around his neck, and whispered in his ear: "Everything able."

Everything was premeditated - when Qi Songyan followed the instructions and took out the package of scented tissues from Qin Di's pocket, he realized it later.But he also liked such a small trap too much.Qin Di was much more proficient than he expected, and even picked up the hem of his clothes at the last moment and told him to put it on his stomach, saying that it would be easier to clean up.And his was in Qi Songyan's palm, covered by the fragrance, leaving only a faint breath.

He tied Qin Di's drawstring back, stroked his crumpled T-shirt, stared at him for a long time, and said, "Qin Xiaodi, although this is the first time I've been angry with you, I didn't fight or quarrel. Don't bother me so much."

The redness on Qin Di's face hadn't disappeared yet, and she grabbed her temples and murmured: "I'm just a little scared..."

Qi Songyan patted the ashes on his back, "Stupid."

Qin Di didn't blow his hair this time, instead, he looked down at the upper of his shoe, stretched out his hand and said OK: "It's actually three tubes."

He turned around and signaled Qi Songyan to touch his other trouser pocket.Qi Songyan took out his old friend's little handkerchief, and dropped a letter at the same time. The light green paper was folded into the shape of a leaf.

"Love letter?" Qi Songyan raised his eyebrows.

"I was so confused that I couldn't organize the language, so I only wrote a paragraph."

Qi Songyan planned to dismantle it immediately, but after thinking about it, he put it in his pocket. "If you do it this way, I will live my whole life if I don't get angry in the future."

Qin Di was in a hurry: "No!"

"Got it, good boy, let's go, I'll take you home."

Qin Di piled into his arms, and said confidently: "Qi Miao, you carry me on your back, my legs are weak and I can't walk up the steps."

Qi Songyan said in his heart that no one seems to be soft, but he is Qin Di's future, he can't say no, enduring the sourness and sweet emptiness of crazy cast all afternoon, Qi Songyan held his knees and stood upright.He walked up the steps step by step. What he didn't recite on the day of the sports meeting and the day of the coming-of-age ceremony were all on his back at this moment.Qin Di suddenly asked: "Qi Miao, am I your pressure?"

Qi Songyan paused, turned his face slightly and nodded: "Yes."

Qin Di hugged him even tighter, childishly: "But I don't want to go down."

"Then don't go down."

Qi Songyan carried him to the street and didn't let him down until the taxi stopped at his feet.Only 10 minutes away, Qin Di fell asleep. It seemed that he was the one who had carried the people all the way. He was still in a daze when he got home. He kissed Qi Songyan a few times before going upstairs, forgetting to say good night.

Qi Songyan stood at the door of Grandma Xia's barber shop again, among the blooming flowers, none of them bloomed more beautifully than Qin Di.He picked a step to sit on, took out the letter, and opened it carefully.A love letter has no beginning or end, even without address and signature, but he has read it more than a dozen times in just a few sentences:

"I am not reconciled that you are just the enlightenment of my love. I want you to be my shining youth, the deposit of my heart, the witness of all the scenery I have passed by, the shore where I finally perch after crossing the sea, and the one that I can't understand in my whole life. Exercises. I want you, have me every year, love me every year, see the sun rising every year, and the world is bright."

That night, Qi Songyan didn't sleep.He ran downstairs in the early morning, watching the dawn break, the morning sun was shining brightly, and the light spread on his face, reflecting the dimple.

The world is bright, it is like this year, and it should be like this every year.