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I don't know how Zheng Ao did it. On the way to the wedding, when I was still thinking about it, he seemed to have let it go.It's as if when organizing files, if you encounter a problem that cannot be solved for the time being, you put it in a file box and put it under the table, and then dig it out when the time is right.

He soon became as excited as when he woke up in the morning, lazily hugged me on the sofa like a landlord, directed Ye Susu to bring him a drink, and told me that the food at Ning's family has always been terrible.

I think it's because he once thought I was dead, so he started to set the bottom line very low.

As he said, as long as I live.

This is my first time to Ning's house.

The weddings are all the same anyway, not as good as Zheng Ao and Ye Susu's engagement before, this is the first time I saw the legendary "sick Rakshasa", he is indeed a Russian, with blond hair and blue eyes, classic straight high nose, He is very personable, but Ye Susu is a bit fierce when he is in front of him, like an awkward little girl.

Zheng Ao is now in power, the Zheng family is in the limelight, the Ning family is very enthusiastic about him, regardless of his seniority, Mr. Ning came out to pick him up in person.Just after greeting Zheng Ao, his eyes fell on me.

"This is Xu Lang." Zheng Ao did not know where to find the adjective: "I love."

Mr. Ning is an old-fashioned person, and he seemed a little embarrassed after hearing this name.Although I grew up in Li's family, I have nothing to do with Li's father and son, and most of the money I spend is my father's money. They probably haven't seen me, and have only heard of me from rumors.

I nodded at him.

"Hi, I'm Xu Lang."

After all, it is a big family that emphasizes manners. Although Mr. Ning looked embarrassed, he still greeted me: "Hello."

The one who got married was Ning Huairen, the eldest son of Ning, who was a few years older than Zheng Ao and the others, but his abilities seemed to be inferior to Zheng Ao's.

The Ning family specially arranged a rest room for Zheng Ao. After Ning Yue troubled me, Li Yao seemed to have done something, so he has nothing to do with the Ning family now, and I didn't see him today.

I called the housekeeper and asked how Ruirui was doing.Ruirui was probably next to him, rushing to answer the phone.

Ye Susu didn't know when he ran in, as if he was afraid that the world would not be chaotic, and punched me on the shoulder when he came in: "You can do it! Xu Lang, the sky is going to be turned upside down..."

"What's going on?" I don't understand.

"It's not because of your guy," Ye Susu pointed at Zheng Ao, who was lazily playing with my mobile phone: "Those old men are almost dying of anger, and they are all shouting that the world is going down, shaking their heads and shaking their heads. The Zheng family has cleaned up the house."

I know what they're mad about.

For a long time, this kind of thing is like an illegitimate child, it is not allowed to be on the stage, no matter how much it is played in private, as long as it does not make trouble on the stage, it is sensible and general.But when put on the table, no matter how good you are, it is also disobedience and moral depravity.The Ning family is probably already wondering if Zheng Ao deliberately cut their face.

"Your old man really opened my eyes this time." Ye Susu patted me on the shoulder: "When they learned Zheng Ao's words from me, I thought you would slap Zheng Ao twice."

"Why did you beat him?" I glanced at Zheng Ao: "He didn't lie."

When Zheng Ao heard my answer, he was fine at first, so he quickly pretended to be wronged, and rubbed against me, Ye Susu jumped three feet away shaking his goosebumps: "Boss, please don't be disgusting, okay?"

I’m telling the truth, I don’t think I need to prove anything about my relationship with Zheng Ao. When Zheng Ao imprisoned me and wanted to get engaged to Ye Susu, I’ve already crossed this hurdle, and the most embarrassing moment has passed Compared to the mood at that time when I wanted to hide in a hole just thinking of the tone of talking about me outside, now it's just a trivial matter.

"But boss, you have to take care of it," Ye Susu pushed Zheng Ao: "Some people speak too badly, and that bastard He Lianshan is especially cheap, saying that Xu Lang is the son of a rabbit. Dogs can't spit ivory out of their mouths..."

Zheng Ao narrowed his eyes.

"It's not like they have opened their eyes, how do they know that I am a rabbit master." I picked up the book on the side and looked at it: "Obviously Zheng Ao looks more like him."

Ye Susu was still afraid of death, knowing that if she laughed at this time, she might lose her salary for several years, so she ran away in a hurry.

I glanced at Zheng Ao, he had the expression of being struck by lightning.

Maybe Ye Susu was afraid that I would be bullied by Zheng Ao, so she called the sick Luo Sha to come with her, and dragged me outside to play.

From the outside, I look like a snake and a scorpion.

Homosexuality is not a rare thing at all. My dad and his generation had a high incidence of it, and they were very violent. Zhongli died, Lu Feixia was disabled, my dad stayed in the south for ten years, and Li Xiu was the only one in our generation. , Zheng Ao may still be bent by me.

It's just that they were still scruples about their elders in that generation, and my dad and the others were thin-skinned, so they were all frustrated and didn't want to come out to prove anything, and they all lived in seclusion.Without obstructing their eyes, all of them lived in peace.At the beginning, there was a boy in the Ye family who was mean-spirited, scolded my father, and was beaten up by Li Xiu. They probably regarded him as a hero who stood up for justice.

Human psychology is really strange. They all play with women and men, and they keep two or three houses outside. This is called unrestrained, normal, and natural.But Li Zhurong and the others had real feelings, and they really wanted to grow old together wholeheartedly.On the contrary, it is embarrassing, unseemly, and ignorant.If they weren't all dragons among men, speaking with their abilities, the words, swords and arrows behind them would be clear.

I never want to get any praise and affirmation from this group of people, and I don't need their admiration and respect, but I can't stand their contempt, because I despise them.So when I was imprisoned by Zheng Ao, I didn't dare to think about how people outside passed me on.

But Zheng Ao was the same as them before.

"Xu Lang, do you drink?" Ye Susu came over with a glass of wine, probably afraid that I would be bored by myself: "Come and dance with us."

No matter where they are, these young people are always lively.Such a serious old-fashioned wedding, the living room of Ning's family is as big as it is, and there are flowers and various decorations everywhere, and they even played music and danced in the middle. The word "knowledge in general" probably doesn't exist in the book. I think this wedding is dull and boring, so I just hold a party by myself.

I have never done such a thing in my life, and now that I think about it, it is indeed a bit regretful.

I am an obedient child in the eyes of others. I never do anything out of line. Even if I am not outstanding, I am quiet and polite, which makes people feel at ease.I really don't understand why some people can live so freely, do whatever they want, laugh and laugh.The elders complained that they were disobedient, rebellious, and too noisy, but in fact they were still full of love in their hearts.

I wasn't born to be that kind of person.

In fact, it is also my own problem. My life is too narrow, and my self-esteem is like a taut string. I can't stand a dissatisfied evaluation from others. I don't want to trouble anyone or make anyone unhappy.

People like me may be reassuring at first, but as Wang Xian said, I am not without emotions, but I have restrained them, so those emotions quietly rotted in my heart, and I was unhappy in my whole life. Others got nervous too.Because they don't know how to make me happy.

As the old saying goes: People who have no hobbies can't be friends with each other.

People without emotions are probably not good enough to make friends.

"Go and play." I saw the Russian man looking over here: "I'll just sit by myself for a while."

Ye Susu wanted to say more, someone was already calling her name, she put the wine glass into my hand, and hurried away, not forgetting to tell me: "Don't walk around, call me loudly if you have something to do."

I didn't have a friend like Ye Susu before, and I think this kind of person is too sharp and reckless, and will always accidentally hurt others.Thinking about it now, what is more obvious than the harm she caused to others is the vigorous vitality in her body, which can be clearly felt by everyone around her.And the splendor of life is often reflected by people like them.

On the contrary, people like me are more troublesome.

She was right to worry about something going wrong with me.

Because she walked for less than 3 minutes, someone walked up to me from behind me.

"Xu Lang, let's go out and have a chat."

When I came here, I had already planned to meet Ning Yue.Turning around and looking at him, he was still the same as before, but not as happy as before, a little embarrassed when he was forced to the end, but he was also a little dissatisfied, with a little stubbornness in his eyes.

"Where are you going?" I didn't move.

I still remember that pot of pig's blood. A person who can do such a thing can't be called an upright person.

"This is my home, I won't do anything to you here." He looked insulted by my words: "I used to listen to other people's words."

"What?" According to them, I am a grudge: "Did the pig butcher tell you?"

This joke was obviously not funny, and the stubbornness that seemed to be insulted on Ning Yue's face became more intense.

"I misunderstood you, thinking that you deliberately stayed by Zheng Ao's side." Ning Yue probably couldn't find an accurate adjective: "They all know that you like Zheng Ao."

After all, he was young, so he confessed to Wang Lang and the others in one sentence.

At that time, he probably thought that he was righteous and justified. He threw me to punish rape and eliminate evil. He didn't beat me because he was afraid of getting his hands dirty.

But as for Zheng Ao at that time, he let me live by his side with such an identity and such an image.

"I don't really understand one thing." I tapped the back of Ning's exquisitely carved chair with my fingers. If you break up, it can only show that he doesn't care about you. Why do you think Zheng Ao will be with you if you splash me? It's a matter between the two of you..."

Why don't you blame him, but blame me instead.The only thing I did was to answer the phone call. Zheng Ao's romantic reputation, everyone knew that he would not last long. Even without me, he would still be among thousands of flowers, without a single leaf on his body.

No matter how much I struggled and hesitated, I never blamed any of Zheng Ao's bed partners. I knew that his past was not Shakira's fault, Ning Yue's fault, or even Hao Shi's fault. Because he, Zheng Ao, is a bad guy.Whether he has difficulties, whether he has a predestined relationship, whether he was taught by Guan Ying, or Zheng Yehu, the result is that he has become a bad person.

This kind of conversation is not good for us.I was exposing my scars. For Ning Yue, it was the first time in his life that he had to bow his head to a person like me.

"Let's not talk about this." I withdrew my hand: "Why did you come to me today? It's not to open up old accounts."

Ning Yue clenched his lips.

"You tell Zheng Ao, don't let my brother quit," he seemed to have made a great determination: "I won't pester him again in the future."

"You can tell Zheng Ao yourself about this." I don't take this issue.

Ning Yue snorted, his eyes were determined.

"He brought you here today because he wanted me to apologize to you, and I know that." Ning Yue obviously didn't want to tell me more: "Tell him, I've made it clear, our business is over , I must ask my brother for the phone number, so that he will stop embarrassing my brother."

After he finished speaking, he turned to leave, and I stopped him.

"and many more……"

"What's the matter?" Ning Yue spoke clearly, with a very free and easy look, with his hands in his trouser pockets, as if he had returned to the boy he was when we first met.

"I've always wanted to ask you a question." I asked him, "Do you really like Zheng Ao?"

Ning Yue sneered.

"I don't like Zheng Ao. What are you doing chasing after him? It's not like I have gold."

"Do you want to be with him for a long time?" I didn't lay the groundwork, and asked directly: "You know how bad his character is, and you know his past, why are you still chasing him?"

"I thought you were going to ask me something," Ning Yue said disapprovingly, "Because I like him, and if I like him, I naturally chase after him. Besides, I think he likes me and can turn back for my prodigal son. Isn't there a saying? Everyone thinks I am the last one."

"He's not nice to you," I said.

Ning Yue laughed.

"Are you a man? Why do you ask this kind of question?" He looked like I was inexplicable when I asked: "If you like it, chase after it. If you catch up, it's the best. If you can't catch up, you will work hard. If Zheng Ao is not a woman, you Don’t you just figure it out? Men chase people because they like them. It doesn’t depend on how well others treat you. It’s normal to be rejected or left out. If you like others, if you get along with them in the process of chasing them, it’s your money. You fell in love with it first, and you want others to treat you well. There is no such cheap deal in the world, right?"

I was stunned by what he said.

"Is it over, is there anything else?" Ning Yue didn't seem to want to chat with me: "I'm leaving. Remember to tell Zheng Ao that I apologized to you."

When he came here earlier, he was a little stubborn as if he had been insulted by others, but now that he finished speaking, he was much more free and easy.As he walked out, he waved his hand at me in the opposite direction.

I have always regarded him as a thorn in my throat, and he probably also regarded me as a big fall that I have fallen into, but now he has let himself go, and I am still here.

Wang Xian said that it's okay to vent your emotions, the most important thing is not to suppress them, otherwise you will feel unwilling and it will become more and more complicated.

Where I am now is in a mess of my own making.