Gu Zhen's wealthy life

In this world, how many people can't be lost to you?

For many, perhaps none.

After his parents died, Ye An suffered, cried, and became irritable, but in the end, he still accepted the reality.Since then, he has discovered one thing - the person who was once so important, the person who thought he could not imagine losing it, when the day he really lost it, it turns out that he can let go.

It is a cruel fact to know this, although many years later, Ye An can understand that most people in this world live like this... There is always someone who takes the first step, and the rest People who live alone have to live numbly.

And that's life.

pain?Dissatisfied?Resentment?Or both?

Ye An thought, if it wasn't for his brother, maybe his heart would eventually be surrounded by that kind of negative emotion, and he would be at a loss, lose his way, and become an absurd and useless waste.

There are always some people in this world who can leave a deeper mark in your heart than anyone else because of timing, state of mind, and loneliness.

For Ye An, that person...is Ye Shu, and only Ye Shu.

Ye An doesn't remember his initial attitude towards Ye Shu, but he still vaguely remembers that at the very beginning, he had a faint, not intense but very warm attachment to his brother.

The closest person, the person who has been with me since birth.Ye Shu is not a father or a mother, but to Ye An, he is closer than his parents and is more able to communicate with them.

Of course, there are not-so-pleasant parts too.

Ye An still remembered that when he was very young, whenever he and Ye Shu had a dispute, Ye's mother would arbitrarily ask Ye Shu to let him go.All sorts of things, that's true.

Ye Shu was very obedient when he was a child, and when faced with such a request, he just blankly agreed with his eyes wide open.

Later, when he got older, Ye Shu felt the difference.Ye An felt that his brother's rebellious period came very early and was also very short.It seemed that one day suddenly, after being scolded once, Ye Shu fell silent and stopped talking.

Before that, Ye Shu was actually very sunny, very obedient, and very fond of his parents.

That night Ye An saw Ye Shu crying, he went up to comfort him, but his brother gave him a terrible look.

He was too scared to speak at that time, and the teardrops started to swirl in the eye sockets.Ye An was not a child who loved to cry. In fact, he was very bearish when he was a child, and he was as courageous and unreasonably strong as a calf.

But at that moment, he really felt the pain and fear of "a sudden blow to the heart".

Probably because... when you like someone very much, you can't bear the fact that you may be hated by the other person.At that time, Ye An, who was a little bit old, could not clearly understand his feelings and thoughts, but it would still be directly reflected in his emotions.

After Ye An received Ye Shu's gaze, he couldn't help but took a step back, fell to the ground, and tears rolled down his face.

Usually, if this kind of thing happened, Ye Shu would definitely come over to comfort him and coax him, but Ye Shu didn't do that today.He just hugged his knees and curled up in the corner, silently watching Ye An cry.

But in the end Ye Shu got up and stretched out his hand to pull Ye An up.

Ye An lay in his arms, crying very sadly.While crying, the child sneaked a peek at Ye Shu's eyes and expression, until he saw that the fierceness in his elder brother's eyes was gone, and then he really howled out in peace.

It took several years for Ye An to gradually understand why Ye Shu became more and more silent.

His mother almost never hid her partiality, and never felt it was a mistake.She always said, "The elder brother should let the younger brother go." After saying it a hundred times, even she seemed to take this sentence as the truth.But Ye An felt that...it was very uncomfortable.

Of course...he didn't want Ye Shu to be strict or indifferent to him.In fact, Ye An never tires of acting coquettishly and then being helplessly pampered by Ye Shu.Because that's his brother, isn't it?Being pampered and disciplined by my brother...it's all taken for granted.

But that should come from the elder brother's own feelings, rather than being forced by the mother in an unreasonable way.Ye An doesn't hate being disciplined and nagged by Ye Shu at all, and sometimes he is more convinced by Ye Shu's words than his parents, because sometimes he feels that although his brother is only two years older than him, Much more sensible than his parents.

Ye Shu would never say some domineering remarks that were completely unreasonable like Mother Ye, thinking that it was enough for children to be obedient.Ye An feels that he is a human being, he can also think about right and wrong, and understand right and wrong, even if he was a little nervous when he was a child, as long as he explained the truth to him in a way he could understand, he would still be obedient.

On this point, Ye's mother was irritable and Ye's father was clumsy, and only Ye Shu would take the trouble to tell Ye An the matter in detail.

Ye Shu loves to read, has a clever mind, and has been very thoughtful since he was a child.Anyway, Ye An has never seen Ye Shu's grades fall below the top three since he was a child, the difference is only the top three in his grade or the top three in his class.In middle school and high school, because the influence of academic ability is greater and the influence of accidental factors is less, his grades are more stable, and he ranks first in almost every major test.

But to be honest, when Ye An was a child, he didn't have a deep sense of competition for Ye Shu's good grades.When he was young, he was ambitious and didn't like to sit in the classroom without moving all day just to study. He didn't feel particularly frustrated when other people's grades were better than his. He often gave up quickly, which is a typical thinking of poor students.

When most of the people around you have better grades than you, it doesn't seem to make any difference to have an older brother with good grades around you.Moreover, Ye Shu is not at the same level as him, and in a sense belongs to the same camp as him.As for the comparison, Ye's mother disliked hearing others compare her two sons more than Ye An did, so Ye An felt no pressure.

And Ye An has always been very smart.He has always just disliked learning, not that he can't learn.In his heart, as long as he thinks about studying this kind of thing, he will definitely be able to learn it well, which is indeed the case. Occasionally, when Ye Shuqiang pulls him to make up for it for a few days, he can often get good results in the exam, so Ye Shuqiang Ann wasn't nervous.

Unfortunately, life is always full of surprises.

The grief and pain of bereavement is just part of the suffering when a sudden car accident disrupts the lives of the brothers.Ye Shu didn't even have time to immerse himself in sadness, and was about to face the pressure of life.

Ye Shu would drop out of school... It was a choice that Ye An couldn't figure out in his whole life.

Because no matter how you think about it, it is more reasonable for him to drop out of school, right?Ye An's grades are not good, and he doesn't like reading.If you just drop out of school and enter the society, there will be no loss.

But Ye Shu's view is just the opposite.No matter what, he refused to let Ye An drop out of school, even in terms of grades, he and Ye An could almost be said to be far apart.Ye Shu thinks that he already has the ability to decide his own future, even if he stops studying, he will not lose his direction, but Ye An is different.

If Ye An didn't study, he might never have the chance to study again.

From this point of view, the underage Ye An could not disobey the half-adult Ye Shu, especially in a certain sense, Ye Shu had prestige in his heart since he was a child.

So Ye An could only continue reading.Ye Shu dropped out of school so that he had no way out, only then did he realize that he could work so hard in the face of the pressure of life.

Every moment of life becomes extremely difficult. When he was studying at school, he would think of his brother who is working hard at odd jobs in a fast food restaurant, and the pressure made him unable to face exams and practice questions easily... When studying at home in the evening, the second hand walked around step by step, Ye An glanced out of the window from time to time, thinking that Ye Shu was probably still working at this time, and even cried while doing the questions at the beginning.

However, while crying, he still forced himself to study harder.

Because this is what my brother bought with his future.

But even so, when Ye Shu opened the door with the key at night, he would come to see him immediately, ask him if there were any questions he couldn't solve, and then explain it to him carefully.

Probably from then on, Ye An felt that he was responsible for Ye Shu.

He knew he was weak, very weak.But even so, I, who was given up by my brother, should become stronger—strong enough to take care of and support my brother one day.Not only that, he should take care of his brother's future.Ye Shu should have a bright future, so naturally he wouldn't worry about his future life.

But Ye Shu, who dropped out of high school before finishing high school, does he really have a future?

With this thought in mind, Ye An read with all his might.He even foolishly planned to save Ye Shu's wife's book.

At that time, he didn't think about many other things, he just thought about repaying his brother one day.And this idea continued until Ji Weibai's appearance.

That was the first time he knew...or realized that men and men can also be together.Or to be more precise, it turned out that his brother might also be with a man.

This realization disrupted all his plans.