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"Yiyan, Liu Bo asked you to come over." Su Wenhao put down the book, stretched his waist, and looked slightly sullen: "Tao Yan is also there, I think he's talking bad about you again, be careful."

"En." Shen Yiyan got up, her tone was flat, as if she didn't care.

Shen Yiyan put down his pen, folded up the scattered documents, lowered his eyebrows and eyes, making it hard for people to see the details.

"It's okay for you so soon?" Su Wenhao was surprised, lamenting that a mortal like himself could not be on the same level as a great god like Shen Yiyan.

When Shen Yiyan was a junior, his thesis was published in an authoritative weekly magazine, and everyone in the college knew about it. No one did not praise Shen Yiyan's mentor. Liu Bohui had a good eye, and didn't mind Shen Yiyan's status as an undergraduate, so he admitted him exceptionally up.

I really don't know how someone would slander Shen Yiyan with such nasty words on the Internet. Some time ago, an article slandering Shen Yiyan appeared on the school forum, but luckily it was hacked later.

The more Su Wenhao thought about it, the more angry he became. Seeing Shen Yiyan's thinner body, he felt distressed. Shen Yiyan has always been the hardest working person in the laboratory. It is reasonable for the tree to attract the wind.

Seeing Shen Yiyan, Tao Yan was stunned for a few seconds, wanting to sneer at him, but seeing that Shen Yiyan didn't even look at him, his face was indifferent, and the anger grew in his heart.

Tao Yan was born in an upstart family, and his heart is higher than the sky. Even if someone looks down on his status as a nouveau riche, he still has to succumb to the reality of money. Ever since he was a child, he believed that there is nothing in this world that money cannot exchange .

That's why he can't get used to someone like Shen Yiyan who is so self-confident and arrogant.

Tao Yan spurned: No matter how good you are, I can still enter the laboratory after paying the money.

Tao Yan had a flattering face, and wanted to get acquainted. Recently, there was an exchange student quota, and he wanted to gain some favor in front of Liu Bo.

"Junior Brother Yiyan, you're here too. The professor and I are discussing yesterday's data." Tao Yan was very proud. Not long ago, the professor just praised the accuracy of his data.

He stretched out his hand to put it on Shen Yiyan's shoulder, but Shen Yiyan turned away and dodged it, with disdain in his eyes.

Tao Yan's face turned dark immediately.

"Yiyan, why are your data the same?" Liu Bo, who was turning the page, asked, and then handed Tao Yan's report to Shen Yiyan.

Shen Yiyan flipped the page, pursed his lips, with a confused look on his face: "Professor, because this is my data."

Liu Bo looked suspicious.

"You can compare the two data." Shen Yiyan's tone was surprisingly calm.

"Although the results of these two copies are correct, Tao Yan's is obviously missing a few important steps, and even undergraduates will not make such mistakes." Liu Bo said in a low voice with a sullen look on his face, "Tao Yan, what's going on? What's going on?"

"Professor...I...I..." Tao Yan was in a state of confusion for a moment, how could he dare to say that this morning he just copied the data on Shen Yiyan's desktop and didn't even remember to check it.

"Professor, since the matter is clear, I'll go first." Shen Yiyan pursed her lips.

Tao Yan gritted his teeth like a clown in anger, seeing Shen Yiyan's still indifferent expression, he knew that this person didn't even bother to play tricks on him.

When Shen Yiyan went out, she suddenly felt a little pain in her stomach. Thinking about her recent extremely irregular diet, her headache became more severe and her legs became weak. She wondered if she could make it to the laboratory to get painkillers.

Then I heard a familiar voice. "510, right, I'm almost there."

Zhou Xingchen originally wanted to go to eat, but the teacher called later and asked him to help deliver a copy of the materials to the laboratory building.

After getting out of the elevator, he saw a familiar figure not far away.

The man was wearing a white coat, which made his figure slender, and his thin back was slightly hunched, as if he was covering his stomach with his hands.

Zhou Xingchen frowned and quickened his pace.However, before he could reach the man, the man was pushed down.

Tao Yan was criticized by Liu Bo just now, and he was burning with anger. When he saw Shen Yiyan still at the door, he rushed up and pushed him away without thinking much.

When Shen Yiyan fell to the ground, his head hit the ground first, a small patch of cyanosis soon bloomed on his white forehead, he broke out in a cold sweat from the pain, and his face was pale.

Seeing this, Tao Yan calmed down his anger. He wanted to step forward to vent his anger, but was knocked away by a force.

"Go away!"

Tao Yan fell so that his eyes gleamed with golden light, and his intestines were about to be vomited out: "Who are you!"

Shen Yiyan saw that the person coming was Zhou Xingchen, he straightened up slightly, and murmured uncertainly: "Zhou Xingchen?"

Zhou Xingchen squatted down, lightly brushed the cyanosis on Shen Yiyan's forehead, and said with a sullen face, "It's me." He carefully lifted Shen Yiyan's body, and asked in Shen Yiyan's ear, "Can you get up?"

"Still hug you?"

"What?" Shen Yiyan blushed and her heart was beating wildly. "No...no need..." He shook his head. "Just lift me up."

Zhou Xingchen nodded, his eyes dimmed.

Shen Yiyan shrank her neck, her whole body was bent, and she deliberately pulled down her sleeves, feeling a little embarrassed.Like a fledgling deer who is embarrassed by a hungry wolf.

Zhou Xingchen lowered his eyes and hugged Shen Yiyan.

"Zhou Xingchen?" Shen Yiyan panicked, the corners of his eyes turned red. "Don't hug me, it's weird..."

"Strange?" Zhou Xingchen looked puzzled, he had never hugged a man like this before, but if this person was replaced by Shen Yiyan, there would be no violation at all.Seeing Shen Yiyan's embarrassed look, Zhou Xingchen couldn't help but fall into self-doubt: Does he not like being hugged by men?Still don't like being hugged by me?He even thought of what he saw on the forum before: Shen Yiyan is gay.

"I don't find it strange." Zhou Xingchen said solemnly.

Looking at the embarrassed Tao Yan on the ground, his face was full of disgust: "Don't let me see you again in the future."

Tao Yan did not give up rebutting a few words, but after seeing Zhou Xingchen's eyes, his throat softened and he dared not keep silent.

Shen Yiyan couldn't help feeling a little dazed, and couldn't believe that this was the real Zhou Xingchen.He remembered: Zhou Xingchen hated being touched by men.

If Shen Yiyan's world is black and white without shadows, then Zhou Xingchen is a colored mirror that accidentally broke in, leaving a living gap in Shen Yiyan's world.

At the age of 13, Shen Yiyan was admitted to the affiliated middle school and met Zhou Xingchen again.If fate has the power to play tricks, then it must be capable of making time forget accidents.

Every time Shen Yiyan appeared in front of Zhou Xingchen, it was the first time Zhou Xingchen saw Shen Yiyan.Just like many times later, when Zhou Xingchen stood in front of her, Shen Yiyan had to pretend to be a stranger, as if they had never met.

Those fears and panics are fake, and the gentleness of the dump can't prove it. The memory can remain the same, but people can't.

Shen Yiyan knew that Zhou Xingchen's favorite candy was grapefruit candy, so he secretly stuffed grapefruit candy into Zhou Xingchen's drawer every day, and he wanted Zhou Xingchen to be happy.

Shen Yiyan used to think that there would always be rewards for silent efforts, but life was just a joke.

Until that day, Shen Yiyan heard someone else's confession for the first time.It was a boy's confession to Zhou Xingchen.

"I'm sorry, I don't like men." That's what Zhou Xingchen said at the time without any hesitation.

Unwilling to give up, the boy stood on tiptoe and wanted to put a little on Zhou Xingchen's lips, but Zhou Xingchen pushed him away with a cold expression, "Also, I hate being touched by men."

Shen Yiyan was holding the most vulgar love letter in his hand at that time, with the most vulgar love written in it, because Zhou Xingchen's sentence "I don't like men" changed from full of joy at first to emptiness.This is the first time Shen Yiyan knows pain.

Su Wenhao was taken aback when he saw Shen Yiyan being carried into the laboratory, and wanted to step up to ask, but Zhou Xingchen stopped in front of him and asked, "Hi, can you pour him a glass of warm water?"

"Okay, okay." Su Wenhao was stunned, this person was quite good-looking.

Shen Yiyan took the water, swallowed it with medicine, and after a while, his complexion turned slightly rosy.

"How long have you been like this?" Zhou Xingchen frowned, judging by the amount of medicine, it shouldn't be a matter of a day or two.

Hearing Zhou Xingchen's question, Shen Yiyan guessed: "It's just recently." The image of Zhou Xingchen hugging himself was still playing in his mind, and he murmured: "Actually...don't hug me..." The water glass in his hand was clenched tightly, and he didn't feel it. bitter.

Zhou Xingchen was stunned for a moment, thinking that Shen Yiyan was bothered by the hug just now, and scratched his head: "I'm sorry, I was afraid that you would fall, so I hugged you in a moment of impatience."

"It's okay." Shen Yiyan said with a wooden face.The astringency in the eyes flickered less than: "Thank you today."

"You're welcome." Zhou Xingchen pursed his lips.

"Why are you here?"

"The teacher asked me to send a file."

Zhou Xingchen took out a document bag, which was transparent, and Shen Yiyan saw the name of the receiver through the gap: "Are you going to send it to 510?"

"The 510 is not open today, I'll deliver it for you when the teacher comes tomorrow." Shen Yiyan was a little embarrassed.

"Thank you then." Zhou Xingchen handed over the information, Shen Yiyan took it, a corner of the sleeve was raised, revealing a small piece of skin, a suspicious red mark was faint.

Zhou Xingchen froze, his Adam's apple rolled slightly: "Why are you still wearing long sleeves, isn't it hot?"

"I'm used to it." Shen Yiyan froze, and simply dropped the corners of his clothes.

Zhou Xingchen took a deep look, and then pretended not to care: "Then I'll go first, see you tonight."

"En." Shen Yiyan nodded.

After leaving the laboratory at night, Shen Yiyan turned on her mobile phone, Zhou Xingchen sent a message to herself an hour ago: Sorry, I have something to do at home today, so I won't be going back for now.

Shen Yiyan sighed, feeling a little fortunate that today's work ended early, and he returned home before ten o'clock, and it was that day again, the same date.

Shen Yiyan walked into the bathroom, took off all the clothes on his body, leaned against the mirror, and observed himself in the mirror. It was a dilapidated and shriveled body.

There were distinct red marks on both arms and thighs, and the fog around Shen Yiyan blinded Shen Yiyan's eyes. He squatted down, the nails on his fingertips had been shaved extremely short, and the flesh inside was exposed, glowing bright red.

A strange voice echoed in my ears: "One day, I will come back again." It filled the whole brain.

Then a ferocious face appeared, which turned into several black eggs and crawled into his body.Just like the nightmare that repeatedly entangled him, Shen Yiyan's teeth were chattering, and he couldn't tell whether it was reality or fantasy.

The corners of Shen Yiyan's eyes were red and bloodshot, but he couldn't shed any tears. He couldn't help but wiped away the red marks on his wrist with his fingers. At first, it slid slowly, and then it became more and more intense, as if he was about to wipe away the worms that had crawled into his body. It's like digging it out.I don't know how long I have been tossing, but there is no complete piece of healthy skin on my arm.

Shen Yiyan turned on the shower, and waited below, the water drops passing over the ears, so that he became more awake.Then powerlessly turned off the water, the whole person seemed to be paralyzed in endless darkness, only his own heart was crying.

Shen Yiyan walked out of the bathroom in a trance, opened the drawer under the TV, and there were several large boxes of grapefruit candies inside.He grabbed a large handful of grapefruit candies, peeled off the candies one by one, and put them in his mouth until he couldn't fit any more.The sugar didn't melt in his mouth, so his mouth hurt, and the strong sweet smell rushed to the tip of his nose. Shen Yiyan rushed into the bathroom and vomited out all the contents of his stomach.

Only then did he feel that all this was real.After a long while, Shen Yiyan slumped on the ground.

After a long time, the phone rang, awakening Shen Yiyan who was in a daze.

"Xiaoyan, what happened, did you take so long to answer your mother's call?" The woman seemed to be shopping at the market with her family.In addition to her voice, there was a man talking nearby and a whole bustling hawking.

Shen Yiyan doesn't like excitement, and even finds it noisy: "I was taking a shower just now."

The voice was a little hoarse, and the woman was concerned: "Oh, okay." Then it was interrupted by a child's sweet voice: "Mom, I want to buy that."

The woman said, "Okay, okay, I'll buy it for you after Mom finishes calling."

Shen Yiyan was stunned: "What's the matter?"

The woman heard a voice on the phone: "It's okay, your brother is making a fuss about buying delicious food."

"It's not this, I'm asking you what you want from me?" Shen Yiyan paused.

The woman vaguely felt that something was wrong with Shen Yiyan, and teased: "Xiaoyan, what's wrong today, are you sick?"

"It's okay, I'm sorry." Shen Yiyan stood up, trying to make her voice as gentle as possible.

"Xiaoyan, why don't you come to my mother for Chinese New Year this year, my brother misses you very much..." the woman hesitated.

The mother found happiness soon after the divorce, and maybe the previous life did hold her back.And this obstacle is this seemingly happy but broken home.Shen Yiyan doesn't understand love, but she can keenly feel the hypocrisy and coldness mixed in love, scraping away her little humanity layer by layer.

Shen Yiyan can't deal with the unfamiliar family members around his mother freely, just as he still can't learn family affection.

"No need." Shen Yiyan said, "don't worry about me."

"Your father...he came back from abroad the day after tomorrow, and he wants to have dinner with you..." the woman hesitated.

"When?" Shen Yiyan asked, with a calm expression.He really hasn't seen his father for a long time.

"Just the day after tomorrow." The woman seemed to be entangled by the child beside her again, and hurriedly ordered: "I will send you an address later." Then she hung up the phone.

His parents divorced when he was 13 years old, maybe it doesn't need to be said, he knows that his parents don't love each other that much, but they are willing to endure living with each other for 13 years for him, so no one can be said to be in debt.

Shen Yiyan felt a little irritable, so he wiped his body casually with a bath towel, and took out clothes from the closet to change.

Someone knocked on the door, and after opening the door, Shen Yiyan couldn't help being surprised when he saw the person coming.Didn't he go home?

"I was going home today, but just now my mother called me to tell me that the matter had been resolved. When I came back, I passed by downstairs. I thought you must have not eaten, so I brought you a copy." Zhou Xingchen scratched his head, his face His smile seemed to be glowing.

Shen Yi was at a loss for words, there was moisture in his eyes, as if a warm current poured into his heart, he didn't know what to say.

"Thank you, Zhou Xingchen." Shen Yiyan pursed her lips.I was thinking in my heart: Why is this person so good?Too good to be your own at all.

"Then I'm going home, I wish you good night." Zhou Xingchen waved his hand.

Shen Yiyan looked a little strange, the corners of his eyes were red, did you cry just now?Zhou Xingchen thought.

Shen Yiyan nodded.After supper.

The originally cold and damp atmosphere in the room was warmed by this portion of food.

The delicious dumplings were glistening with water, and a few scallions floated in the light clear soup. Shen Yiyan stuffed the food into his mouth one by one, tears welled up in the corners of his eyes, the food was mixed with the salty taste of tears, halfway through eating, Shen Yiyan couldn't help it choking...

This is the best food he has ever eaten.

If existence is dominion, then my dominion is you, and I exist because of you.

Thank you, Zhou Xingchen.