This must not be written by me

Bai Ze went up and down, back and forth, if it wasn't for Lin Chenchu's disapproval, he might have to check him inside and out, and after confirming that Lin Chenchu's body was not broken and his mind was not normal, he finally breathed a sigh of relief.

Lin Chenchu: ...I understand that the body is not broken, and the brain is not normal is such a weird option.

Bai Ze looked at Lin Chenchu's obsessive eyes, and shook his two wrists, which were wearing two black bracelets in a serious manner.

"What do you mean by that means that you have recognized the Lord?"

"Well, the demon king has a golden mouth and jade teeth, he will do what he says..."

"Don't mention this meme!"

Bai Ze chuckled, that smile was very warm, and Lin Chenchu ​​felt itchy in his heart when he saw it. He hesitated for a long time, and finally opened his mouth under Bai Ze's gentle and expectant gaze: "You...remember?"

"...Yeah, I remember everything."

Lin Chenchu ​​felt his eye sockets wet in an instant. He punched the smiling man in the chest hard, and then hugged him fiercely. It seemed that only such a forceful movement could confirm his existence. The man also gently hugged him back, but the trembling couldn't be ignored.

Lin Chenchu ​​wiped away the liquid from his eyes, hugged him and patted him on the back, crying, "Zhong Panji, you bastard, you've caused labor and capital to look for you all over the world, do you know that! "

He chuckled lightly, and gently covered his shoulders: "Of course I know..."

When Bai Ze put his hands on his shoulders, Lin Chenchu ​​suddenly felt trembling all over his body. Although Bai Ze's voice was the same as that of Zhong Panji, the gentleness in his ears was strangely false, dreamy like bubbles. It breaks with one poke.Lin Chenchu ​​is a very dull man, but no matter how dull he is, he has lived with a super black-bellied man for many years. The so-called black-faced man is black, so he suddenly realized a problem-even if he is reborn, Zhong Panji, who has a bad nature, will be gentle. Do you speak?

Then it took him only half a second to answer the question - no!

So a worse problem arises.

Sensing Lin Chenchu's stiffness, Bai Ze let out a soft snort, with a smile on his face, but his voice suddenly cooled down. Lin Chenchu's heart that was so cold that it was about to fly to the clouds was completely frozen into shards, and he couldn't tell what it was Pain, or sadly to be expected.

"So that person is called Zhong Panji. Is the difference between me and him so obvious?"

Not obvious, not at all obvious!You two are one!

Lin Chenchu ​​only felt a trembling that was hard to ignore coming from under his feet. It was the coercion of a high-level powerhouse over a low-level powerhouse. This not only made him re-examine Bai Ze's strength, but also had to reconsider his own situation.

Bai Ze pushed Lin Chenchu ​​to the ground, looked down at him with a light smile all over his face, but this seemingly sunny smile never penetrated into his eyes.Lin Chenchu ​​is very strong, but after all, he did not cultivate the immortal power bit by bit. He is confident that he can use this "half-handed" strength to ravage anyone in the fairy world except the immortal king, but Bai Ze People who are infinitely close to the level of saints are not in this ranks. Even though they are both at the level of immortals, when facing His Majesty the Demon King, he is basically in a situation where he will be hacked to death every minute.

The world is helpless, and it is so cruel that people have no ability to resist.

Bai Ze took off the two God-killing rings from his hands with a smile, waved them in front of Lin Chenchu's eyes, and said indifferently, "I know you have a purpose, but you still deceived me." The smiling face disappeared, and changed into a calm expression like stagnant water: "You use this artifact as a bait, the purpose is to let that Zhong Panji take my house, the weak soul power on this god-killing ring, I'm afraid it also came from that guy named Zhong Panji."

Lin Chenchu ​​didn't realize that there was soul power on the Ring of Killing God at all, but he knew that there were two spirits of Lord White Tiger on the Ring of Killing God.

"When you first approached me, I always felt that you were looking at another person through me. Before that, I always felt that you were looking at a man who looked somewhat similar to me. In the next few days, I thought... ..." A trace of pain flashed in his eyes: "It turns out that you put your idea on my head. If...if your lie can last for half an hour, I'm afraid everything will come true as you wish."

Bai Ze's words were unclear, but Lin Chenchu ​​understood.He suddenly felt a sharp pain in his heart, as if something wanted to tear his chest and crawl out. The suffocation made him a little anxious to breathe. He just wanted to explain at this moment, but he didn't know how to speak, so he could only open his mouth half-open. Mouth, like a fish about to drown.

"Bai Ze...I..."

Bai Ze stopped talking, and looked at him calmly, as if he was waiting for his explanation, but Lin Chenchu's eager explanation was stuck in his throat and he couldn't say it anyway.Bai Ze's "if" is like praying, praying that he can lie to himself for a quarter of an hour, the more indulging in the past joy, the more painful the present heartache, this made Lin Chenchu ​​suddenly feel it again When Zhong Pan died, he felt indescribable pain.

Feeling carefully, he finally understood, that kind of feeling is called—heart like a knife.

From a certain point of view, Bai Ze is Zhong Panji, but they are always different in memory, experience, and identity, even though they are essentially the same.Some things can be said, some things cannot be said, he would rather let Bai Ze know that he is using him and make him think he has been deceived than let him know about Zhong Panji.

This is too complicated and too cruel, even if Bai Ze is willing to believe him, but he swears with a man's personality, no man can accept the person he likes, but he actually likes his own future generations.There is no man who can accept the lover who has always sworn to him forever, actually thinking about how to wake up his memory for the rest of his life all the time.

This is not the same as rival is another person, the former is called "I've always used you as his stand-in", the latter is called "I like you, but I prefer your afterlife", trust me, even though the two look similar, But the gap between it and the former is like a grenade and a nuclear bomb. The former will make a logical person collapse, vent and then move on to the next step, while the latter can make any sincere and strong-minded person completely desperate from now on. .

Bai Ze was still looking at him, with unconcealable sadness and anticipation in his eyes, like a child expecting the answer that it was a "prank", but Lin Chenchu ​​heard himself say, "Bai Ze, I'm sorry."

Lin Chenchu ​​never felt that the word "sorry" could have other functions besides expressing apology and malicious complaints, but the moment he said it, he realized that it is true that words can also kill , because he clearly saw the "hope" that Bai Ze had built with painstaking efforts, collapsed again.

Bai Ze suddenly burst out laughing. He couldn't tell whether it was a pleasant smile, a mocking smile, or a wry smile. He could always disguise himself well. This was different from Lin Chenchu. This hypocrite is really much cuter.

"Nandi Xianjun, I thought you were heartless, but I don't know that you have already given your heart and soul to others, so how can you give me anything!"

"I can only feel here that you finally lied to me. It's really touching... It's a mess." Bai Ze restrained his smile, and once again looked down at Lin Chenchu: "Finally, I only have one question. ask you……"

Lin Chenchu's nerves twitched, and he almost said "loved".

But he only felt a sudden tightness in his throat, and then he seemed to be thrown up by something. In the blink of an eye, he was lying in a huge and empty room. He recognized that this was the deserted interior leading to the fourth heaven. temple.Bai Ze pressed on top of him, and when he looked closer, Lin Chenchu ​​really saw the madness hidden in his eyes, like being stared at by a furious tiger that could tear him to pieces all the time, the overly tightened His pupils looked terrified.

Lin Chenchu ​​was thrown here by Bai Ze within a moment at the speed of teleportation, but at the same time, Bai Ze's hand was strangling his throat. He could achieve such a speed close to teleportation, but the former Bai Ze could not... ...Maybe it's not that Bai Ze can't achieve it, but that he doesn't understand at all, and the point is that Bai Ze doesn't want him to know, but that he doesn't want to know at all.

He suddenly felt that he knew too little about Bai Ze, and also about Zhong Panji. He seemed to know nothing except knowing that he was carrying a deep hatred and would not harm him.

He was struggling to breathe as he was strangled by the hand on his neck, but he murmured again: "I'm sorry."

Bai Ze didn't hear it. In fact, he was about to go mad with anger, but the remaining rationality prevented him from killing Lin Chenchu, because he couldn't bear it.

Bai Ze continued to ask the unfinished question just now: "...that Zhong Panji, who is yours?"

Lin Chenchu ​​was already staring at the stars at this time, but this did not prevent him from hearing the question.In a short time, he still didn't want to die, so he gritted his teeth and continued to lie nonsense: "...friend...friend."

Unexpectedly, Bai Ze suddenly burst into laughter, let go of the hand that was holding his neck, and raised the God-killing ring on the other hand: "Since we are just friends, what happens next may not be very good." It is suitable for this 'friend' to see. So, let me send him away completely!"

He then raised one hand, a golden light flashed in his hand, and the bracelet immediately made a painful "clack-clack" shattering sound. Lin Chenchu ​​felt the ease of breathing, and the next second was the pain of suffocation after the heartbeat stopped.He wanted to tear his eyes apart, but he watched the two God-slaying rings shattered in Bai Ze's hands, and then he threw them casually, and the shattered pieces were scattered everywhere.

His eyes followed those fragments closely. At this moment, he and Zhong Panji were in the upside-down illusion array he had personally arranged. The golden and black fragments lost their luster the moment they shattered, opening up the strange world of the illusion array. Under Bai Ze's deliberate action, most of the debris fell into the Feisheng well.Lin Chenchu ​​could clearly see with his spiritual sense that those fragments quickly merged into the colorful stones, and then disappeared without a trace.

At this moment, Lin Chenchu ​​seemed to feel that his whole body was completely chilled, all his hard work was in vain, and the sky fell in such a hurry.He stared back at Bai Ze angrily, but the despair in his eyes was far more than the anger. He kept Bai Ze, but the price was that he lost the last chance to call Zhong Panji back...

He felt that God played a big joke on him, he wanted to cry, but he wanted to cry but had no tears, he pointed the middle finger to God, but Bai Ze grabbed his head with both hands.

At this moment, Bai Ze's expression has completely changed. Lin Chenchu's performance is obviously not good. Destroying an artifact like the God-killing ring will cause far more damage to his body than he has shown lightly, but he doesn't care about it anymore. Now the only thing he wants to do is The only thing is to keep this man in front of me...even if it means killing him.

Lin Chenchu ​​only felt a murderous aura lingering around him. Bai Ze's murderous aura was not a joke. He had no doubt that he touched a plot that he shouldn't touch, and completely turned this arrogant into a sick girl. In other words - he would probably die.But this murderous aura disappeared in the next moment, replaced by Bai Ze's nightmare-like curse:

"In the name of the only patriarch of the Bai Ze clan, at the price of a thousand years of cultivation, I curse you—the Immortal Emperor of the Southern Emperor. Kindness is shameful, gentleness is deceived by others, friendship is suspected by others, and you will never be embraced by the human race. Your friends will betray you endlessly until you are completely disheartened..."

Lin Chenchu ​​was stunned on the spot, in front of his eyes was the scene of the Upside-Down Thousand Illusion Array quickly turning in front of his eyes, but the strange thing was that he didn't have any confusion at all, on the contrary, he was unprecedentedly clear.

Zhong Panji's betrayal on Luoxue Peak back then, he was disgusted by everyone except Zhong Panji, and he was alone for more than 20 years before crossing, without any good friends... He only felt that his mind flashed again for a moment... After many things, he took a deep breath, trying to grasp the fragments of those memories——

The ending of his own novel is that he died together in the rain and Zhong Panji in despair, which coincides with the curse; besides, he is not Lin Cheng's son, because he is not anyone's son; A strange mask, and that mask is now on his face; he has a nightmarish experience of making friends, just because the friends he wants to make are all human beings; Fengming Shenxiao absorbed and became Xuanxiao, because he Can separate the burning fire!

He should have realized it long ago, should have realized it long ago!

Why did Man'er under Luoming Peak call him "Xianjun", why did he say he was a "benefactor", and why when Zhong Panji reminded him to recognize the lord Feng Pei, he found that the jade pendant already had his own The seal of recognition! There was no "Ben Mie Shen Jue" in the Suzaku Divine Pendant 8000 years ago, and even the "Ben Mie Shen Jue" that I learned 8000 years later was carved by myself!

He should have realized a long time ago that there is no such thing as seizing a home, no memory fusion, and even no time-traveling or non-time-traveling—he, from the beginning to the end, is always him, and he has no friends because of the curse Zhai Nan is the Lin Chenchu ​​who keeps escaping, and the Southern Emperor Xianjun who dares to find his lover!

What the truth brings is not joy, but endless doubts.If it is said that the Southern Emperor led to the birth of Zhai Nan, and Zhai Nan led to the birth of Lin Chenchu, and finally Lin Chenchu ​​promoted the birth of the Southern Emperor, then what is the reason for his "circulation"?

He always thought that what he found was Zhong Panji's past life, but he didn't know that what he was looking for was actually his own past life.Why did he fall into this maze-like world?No matter which one he planted the "cause" and which one he plucked the "fruit", who set up all this?He went upstream along the river of time and space, and then went downstream along the river of time and space. Who on earth blocked his memory?

Lin Chenchu—we still call him Lin Chenchu ​​for the time being. Lin Chenchu ​​suddenly stopped breathing in this short period of time.He merged into the Upside Down Thousand Illusion Formation, seeing Bai Ze's suddenly terrified expression, and gradually peeled off the world in a daze. He needed to find the truth, the truth he really wanted to know.

He saw the Sacred Tree of the Six Realms ostentatiously in his inner world, he saw the silver-gray endless barren world, and saw a white jade pendant covered in the powder of Buzhou mountain rocks falling from the air and hitting the ground. On the shoulders of a girl who returned to the Nine Heavens after going through untold hardships.

The girl looked at the deserted hometown with tears on her face, but she kept shouting: "Brother Xianjun... Where are you?" Until she found the Suzaku amulet wrapped into a stick and the translucent "Xianjun" benefactor".

The miraculous hidden power of Suzaku's God Pei led the girl through the Feisheng Well as if no one else was there, because her cultivation level was extremely low, and there was no fluctuation at all when she passed through the Feisheng Well.Lin Chenchu ​​took her to hide in Luoming Peak, and drew a simple but practical phantom array around her—until it met the person it should meet, otherwise it would protect the girl from harm forever.

He saw Zhong Panji's numb expression when he was hiding in the fire when he was a child, and he also saw the panorama of the massacre, and it was he who faintly revealed his breath and saved Zhong Panji's life.The surname Qi seemed to spare Zhong Panji's life for Zhong Ling'er, but in fact he was scared away by him. A lowly golden fairy knew how to please a high-ranking high-ranking fairy who hid his aura. It is also his sense of humor that allows him to live a few more years—save his life for Zhong Panji to fetch it himself!

Everything in front of him was changing rapidly again, and he saw himself sitting on the bed when he was a child, falling into an illusion that he carefully arranged.This is a game he set up for himself, a riddle he set for himself and he knew the answer. In the puzzle, he fell into the best future he could think of, without war, without responsibility, without Killing, having friends, family, and love... He gave himself everything he wanted, and became his grandson in the story, and then watched his eyes gradually become hollow when he was deeply satisfied.

He knew what the ending would be, and according to his memory, he gave Guiguzi's reminder "The parachutist has no sons" to wake up his memory.But when he said those five words, he suddenly understood that his game was not only set up for himself when he was a child, but also for him now.So during a certain period of time when he left the river of time and space 8000 years ago, he knew the answer he wanted to know——

The answer he wanted has been found. Whether it is the young Lin Chenchu ​​who is deeply trapped, or the self watching from the sidelines, they are all yearning for the same world. That world is not beautiful, the self inside is not strong, and there is no beautiful wife. , On the contrary, he kept arguing with a black-bellied emperor and kept messing up.

But a serious person is an illusion after all, and what he desires in his heart is still unchangeable. In the first life, he was Zhai Nan, representing his true self that kept his heart in the face of adversity; in the second life, he was Lin Chenchu, representing the desire to be strong and eager Peaceful ego; in the third life, he is the Southern Emperor Xianjun, which represents his superego who possesses great power and dares to pursue and undertake.But no matter how many identities and backgrounds change, he is always him, the id, ego, and superego who are always making mistakes and making complaints about him, the unlucky guy who usually looks normal but has a broken personality!

He couldn't help laughing, followed his former self to the street, and witnessed the scene of him leaving the illusion as beautiful as a butterfly morphing into a cocoon.

Not all 蘧蘧 is not a dream, only when you understand it will you know it will not fail.

So now he has to leave this comfortable world, return to that turbulent and dangerous era, and accompany the person who is worthy of his company and has always been with him-the curse says that he will always be betrayed by his friends, but Zhong Panji finally returns. By his side, the curse has not been broken, both Zhong Panji and Bai Ze are human beings, only his identity has changed, because a long time ago, he was no longer his "friend", but... a lover.

As for the truth of all this, he believes that all those who planted the cause will reap the fruit. Before that, he didn't care to face up to his own heart and return to the script he didn't finish 8000 years ago.Before knowing the truth, he must use all his strength to protect this... chaotic and terrible world that he wants to protect.