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lips, turned his back to Shi Yi.There was no movement for a long time. Shi Yi thought he was asleep and was being tucked in by him, but he heard a muffled voice: "I'm sorry just now."

Shi Yi's heart seemed to be swept away by the warm spring breeze, it was completely soft.He still remembered that when he was in elementary school, other classmates tore up An Chengze's notebook and threw it in the trash can. An Chengze thought he did it, and angrily rushed to him and had a fight.Shi Yi wasn't the type to take the blame for others, he pulled out that person and confronted An Chengze face to face, An Chengze's pale face turned red all of a sudden.He lowered his head, bit his lip, and said sullenly, "I'm sorry."

The ears turned pink, Shi Yi really wanted to pinch his ears at that time, the earlobes were plump and moist, and he was really envious of his small ears.

It's the same now, the pink fleshy ear, Shi Yi stared at that ear for a long time, and finally couldn't help but touch it.Seeing that An Chengze didn't respond, knowing that he was too weak to apologize and fell asleep, he pinched it a few more times wantonly, keeping the feeling firmly in his heart.

The relationship between him and An Chengze became more relaxed. Although they were still neither far nor close and unfamiliar, An Chengze knew how to say a few words to him when they met each other.

After serving in the army for a year, An Chengze hadn't had a withdrawal reaction for a long time, but he still wanted to take drugs when he was in pain. Shi Yi kept looking at him, knowing it in his heart.Sometimes in the middle of the night An Chengze would sneak up from the bed, run to the bathroom and bang his head against the wall while flushing cold water.He hurt himself as if he was self-inflicted, and finally squatted in the corner with his face covered, letting the cold water drench his body thoroughly.

This kind of night happened more than once, every time Shi Yi saw it in his eyes and felt pain in his heart.Finally seeing An Chengze in the bathroom looking at the window in a daze and wondering what he was thinking, Shi Yi couldn't help it anymore, rushed in and hugged An Chengze, and were poured with cold water together.

In fact, after a year of exercise, An Chengze's figure has become very good, with firm muscles, thin waist, strong and elastic buttocks, and slender legs.Shi Yi swallowed involuntarily, he secretly rejoiced that now that the cold water was coming, he could extinguish the fiery thoughts he shouldn't have.

"I can't control it," An Chengze said in pain while clutching Shi Yi's wet vest, "I thought I could get through it, but after I get through it, it's an addiction that I can't get over. I can I don’t think about it during the day, but I can’t control my dreams. I’m so happy in the dream but I wake up like a nightmare forever. Will I always be like this in the future? I really can’t stand it! I can’t stand myself like this , I can ignore everything when I have an attack, for a pill that can hurt the closest person, I can sting others crazily without any scruples, how could this kind of person be me, it's... so disgusting!"

It wasn't that he couldn't help it, it was that he couldn't accept himself like this.

Shi Yi took a psychology course in his training, and gradually realized that An Chengze is a person with super self-esteem and extreme cleanliness.Because of his personality, I couldn't become a good friend with him no matter what, and all my actions only made him farther and farther away from me.He hates all dirty things, and now he himself has become the kind of "dirty" that he hates in his heart, which he cannot accept.

How can I help him, how can I help him?Shi Yi was at a loss, he could only touch the scar on his face with self-defilement and said, "I'm still alive, why can't you? At least your dirty is not as obvious as mine."

An Chengze raised his head in surprise, as if he was looking at the scar on Shi Yi's face so hard and carefully for the first time, and traced it with his fingers, the cold fingertips moved on Shi Yi's face, the cool touch But it's heart-warming.

"Yes, I'm sorry..." An Chengze shook his head, "At that time... I didn't know... I'm sorry."

"My fault," Shi Yi said, grabbing his hand, "I shouldn't have bullied you and threatened you with a knife. I told myself, I was too young at that time, how could people not make mistakes, and you are the same, too. What matters is the past, just remind yourself not to commit crimes in the future.”

An Chengze withdrew his hand from Shi Yi's palm forcefully, touched his scar again, gradually calmed down, clenched his fist and said, "I won't let this mistake affect me again."

Shi Yi smiled rarely, but his face looked ugly when he smiled.An Chengze curled his lips, Shi Yi turned off the tap, rubbed his head and said, "Go back to sleep, don't waste water."

An Chengze nodded. After seven or eight years of acquaintance, it was the first time that Shi Yi and An Chengze got along so well.When he went back, he groped directly into An Chengze's blanket and couldn't get out. An Chengze glared at him angrily, and punched him with his fist. Shi Yi clicked his lips with his index finger to "shh", and said in a low voice, "I'm cold. "

An Chengzemo withdrew his fist and let Shi Yi sleep on his own bed, but turned around not to look at him.Shi Yi's heart exploded, and he put his arms around An Chengze's waist. Seeing that the other party still didn't respond, Mei fell asleep with her snot bubbling.

The next day An Chengze felt hot all over his body, and he still had a fever.Shi Yi asked for leave to take care of him, and had to sleep in bed at night. This time, An Chengze kicked him down: "Be careful to infect you!"

After that, the relationship between the two eased a lot, and An Chengze rarely got up in the middle of the night to take a cold shower.However, he developed a new bad habit, waking up in the middle of the night, and couldn't help but climb to the upper bunk to touch the scar on Shi Yi's face before going back to sleep.

Shi Yi was different from the general soldiers who were so exhausted during training during the day and so sleepy that they couldn't wake up at night. He had received special training and would wake up when there was a slight movement.Every day when An Chengze crawled on the bed and touched his face, he knew that he was just pretending to sleep.Then one day when he shaved in front of the mirror and felt the scar on his face, Shi Yi was shocked, why did he think he was quite handsome?

After that, An Chengze and Shi Yi would occasionally mention what happened during the time they were apart when they were free, and Shi Yi remembered it all.He knew that An Chengze had a father who went out to make soy sauce and never came back, an elder brother who was superficially kind but lied to him to take drugs, a stepmother who looked down on him, a first love who was like a white lotus, and the An family. Everyone looked down on him, as well as the stern grandfather who sent him to join the army.

Very distressed.

In the past eight years, the top student who was once clean and tidy has been devastated.

He should be in college now, even if he is poorer, there are outstanding high-achieving students who have scholarships to help him with his life, but now he is with this ruffian, rolling with the mud-legged people in the army.

Shi Yi also knew that An Chengze did not have a resettlement card.At that time, retired soldiers could be assigned jobs with resettlement cards. The An family would not allow An Chengze to be treated like this. Everyone has a way out after demobilization. Only An Chengze is still at a loss. Shi Yi made a note in his heart.

After serving in the military for two years, Shi Yi learned that An Chengze was actually a very awkward child.Many times he wants to socialize with people, but due to inferiority complex or other reasons, he appears particularly arrogant, which makes the good words become unpopular.He now knows that it was really easy for him to become good friends with An Chengze back then, as long as he took out his homework and asked him how to do this problem, An Chengze would explain every step to him in detail, He will talk about it over and over again until he learns it.

They were all too young then.

Gradually An Chengze began to like to touch the scar on Shi Yi's face, as if he was using that mistake to remind himself not to be knocked down by the mistake again.Shi Yi also felt that the pain of adolescence was healed by touching again and again.Someone who can use his scars as a cure is no longer proof of injury but proof of redemption.

Shi Yi began to move his hands and feet, and the itching in his heart turned into an irresistible torrent, urging him, making him unable to help but always want to get close to An Chengze.He likes the pair of beautiful and full earlobes, often without blushing, the ears reveal emotions first, and turn pink, making people want to pinch and bite.He likes the waist that can be wrapped in his arms as soon as he reaches out, the skin is so smooth, so suitable for hugging.He likes those long legs. He is obviously not tall, but his legs are so long, and his posture is so standard, but walking makes his heart itch.He likes the hot climate, so An Chengze can't help taking off his shirt after training, and the sweat drips on his chest. Shi Yi always wants to pounce on it and lick it, he always feels that An Chengze's sweat should be It's sweet and not salty.He even likes public bathrooms, because then he and An Chengze can rub each other's backs, but he always wears a towel around his waist, even though it makes his comrades laugh at him.

He didn't know what this feeling was when he was young, but now he knows it very well.He likes An Chengze, wants to hold him in his arms and kiss him, presses him down and loves him, wants him to make a subdued moan, wants to see the sweat of lust slipping over that graceful neck.

But An Chengze has a childhood sweetheart, White Lotus.

Shi Yi endured it, he didn't know how to make An Chengze like him, he only knew that after realizing his feelings, he couldn't tolerate An Chengze's contact with others.

He longed that these two years would never come to an end, and he didn't want to be separated from An Chengze.

However, it was he who left first.

After the assessment period expires, he has completed the task brilliantly and can enter that unit.Speaking of which, Shi Yi now has a bachelor's degree, which is much better than An Chengze.Of course he won't tell An Chengze, otherwise he will get angry again.

After receiving the news of being qualified, Shi Yi was not as happy as he imagined. He was worried about what An Chengze would do after he left.

But those who should go will still go, Shi Yi can only give him his address in the end.

Shi Yi knew that An Chengze would not be able to return to An's house. After he came out, he would have nothing but allowances.Let An Chengze come to him, and Shi Yi can help him retake the college entrance examination and go to university again.Then help him find a job, if An Chengze needs capital, he will give him all his own money.

As long as he comes to him, the two of them will be fine.

An Chengze took the address, accepted it solemnly, nodded vigorously, and touched Shi Yi's scar before leaving, this is a promise.

Shi Yi left at ease, went back and waited, one year, two years, three years.

An Chengze, who was supposed to be demobilized only one month later, never came.

71 Shi Yi (End)

After passing the conduct, Shi Yi could have continued to train at the base, and two years later, he could have the actual rank of a company and a master's degree, but he didn't go, but took a bachelor's degree and the rank of lieutenant No Bing) applied for transfer to Beijing, and spent time at home except for missions and intensive training.Even when he went out to perform missions, he would find someone to watch his home and tell him his return date. If someone came to him, he would let that person wait for him.

Shi Lei was so angry that he jumped up and down, finally he could erase the influence of the scar on his face, and just follow the base, when the time comes, there will be masters, doctors, companies, regiments and divisions.But this bastard is just so stubborn, if he stays in Beijing, he will lose his future and live comfortably.

If he wants to be at ease, that's fine.Shi Lei himself knew how difficult it was, if Shi Yi wanted to live the life of an ordinary soldier, then let him live it.That being the case, should we get married and have children?But he didn't want to talk about his partner, he didn't look at any of the women he introduced, he just said that he had scars on his face and they didn't like them.In fact, there are many good girls who don't care about the scars on his face, they are all soldiers' children, it's normal to have scars and injuries on their bodies, but Shi Yi just doesn't see them, no matter how Shi Lei smokes.

It's not that Shi Yi didn't know the news about An Chengze. He started looking for An Chengze before he came to An Chengze two months after retiring.It's a pity that just after he got rid of Shi Cheng and looked for An Chengze, he was sent on a mission, and he didn't come back for more than half a year. He was also injured, and he had to take care of him for three months to recover.After he recovered from his injury, Shi Cheng told him the whereabouts of An Chengze. To Shi Yi's surprise, he returned to An's house, followed Old General An, and served as a security guard in the future. He died while serving.

The man in the photo is completely different from the An Chengze he met when he was in the army. The original clean and thorough breath disappeared, leaving only the haze in his whole body.In the photo, An Chengze was smiling, but Shi Yi, who knew him well, knew that there was no smile on that expression, he could see An Chengze's crying heart.

He is going to find him, he must be found!Shi Yi ran over regardless of his injuries, but saw that it was An Chengze and Du Yun who were dating intimately. He followed them all day with cold heart, and saw the two of them shopping, watching movies, eating, and playing. Then, night fell At that time, they walked towards a hotel hand in hand.An Chengze's smile was so happy and gentle, his eyes were full of anticipation. Unlike the photo, An Chengze was smiling sincerely at this time.

It's not him who can comfort An Chengze, and it's not him who An Chengze chose.He had already given him the address, but An Chengze never found it.After such a big thing happened, An Chengze didn't try to tell him what was in his heart. For him, the two years of his life were just a time to smile away his grievances. In difficult times, An Chengze chose It's Du Yun.

Shi Yi stood outside the hotel for a while, then left silently.However, what he didn't know was that shortly after he left, Du Yun walked out of the hotel alone and made a phone call outside. After a while, Lin Dejiu came, and the only pure land in An Chengze's heart was completely polluted that night.The whole person was plunged into darkness, unable to extricate himself.

Shi Yi knew what An Chengze wanted to do, to seek justice from An's family, to take back what belonged to him.But there is nothing he can do about these things for a vulgar man who can only serve as a soldier. There are only two things he can do, one is to wait, to wait for the moment when An Chengze thinks of him and comes back to take a look; The first thing is to protect An Chengze. When An Chengze is in danger, he can reach out to help him immediately.

This waiting lasts for five or six years.During this period, Shi Yi didn't always stay in the capital, and spent more than half of his time on missions. His reckless actions earned him a lot of military merit. Even if he didn't continue training, his position would be promoted quickly.As he got older, Shi Lei asked him to marry each time like a yellow-faced woman. Shi Yi hated going back to Beijing even more. Yue regularly asked Shi Cheng about An Chengze's news.

Shi Cheng was a policeman, but now he turned into a stalker. After a long time, even if Shi Yi didn't ask, he couldn't help but check how An Chengze was doing recently, it became a habit!He knew that An Chengze had been doing well during this period of time, his status in the future was getting higher and higher, he was also engaged to Miss Lin's family, and became the son-in-law of the Lin family.But he didn't tell Shi Yi about this, and suppressed the news so that Shi Yi, who was out of town, would not know.Even if Shi Yi didn't say anything, Shi Cheng could still guess what he was thinking. It would be fine if Shi Yi could let Shi Yi give up this relationship, but it's obviously not the case for this stubborn one!Luo Hua intends to be ruthless, how should he tell Shi Yi about such a thing, let Shi Yi find out by himself.

In this way, Shi Yi has not heard any news about An Chengze for several years. He has worked so hard to get higher and higher positions, and An Chengze's status is also getting higher and higher.Finally, Shi Yi came into contact with the transnational drug trafficking case, and he had to go back to Beijing to investigate. However, when investigating Su Yuting, he discovered that she actually wanted to assassinate An Chengze.The situation was urgent, and Su Yuting was already ready to do it when she found out. Shi Yi didn't have time to think about it, so he went straight to An Chengze.He received an envelope before going out, and he stuffed it into his clothes without even looking at it.

First, he went to the company and learned that An Chengze had gone to the construction site. Shi Yi rushed over in a hurry, and only had time to say a word. Thousands of catties of steel fell from the sky. He only had time to push An Chengze away, but his legs were crushed. Press down.

The memory afterward is that the noisy voice of 120 kept echoing in his ears. After regaining consciousness, Shi Lei stood in front of him with a livid face, holding a blood-stained invitation card in his hand.

"So many years, so many years!" Shi Lei's sideburns had turned white, and he no longer looked as vigorous as when he was young. He threw the invitation on the table next to Shi Yi's hospital bed, "Just for him, a man who is about to marry someone else man, look at what you've made of yourself!"

Shi Yi's expression was very calm. Was the envelope before leaving the house an invitation?He weakly took the invitation and opened it, but his hands shook uncontrollably.

Why Lin Dehui?What about Du Yun?Why!

An Chengze obviously likes Du Yun so much, why did he marry another woman?When investigating the Su family and the Guo family, he checked Guo Lichen and had an impression of the name Lin Dehui.A poor cheated woman.The Lin family is in charge of customs, which happens to be the checkpoint where they transport drugs, and the Lin family is their stumbling block.Guo Lichen wanted to destroy the Lin family, starting with the two siblings of the Lin family, Lin Dehui was destroyed by him for life.Why did An Chengze marry Lin Dehui, why not Du Yun?

Shi Yi put down the invitation and said to Shi Lei: "Dad, I want to see him."

Shi Lei was so angry that even if Shi Yi wasn't disabled, he would have directly disabled this stubborn son.He didn't want Shi Yi to see An Chengze at all, so he directly rejected An Chengze, not letting him see Shi Yi.Shi Yi was hospitalized in a military hospital, Shi Lei still has the right to do so.During this period, Shi Yi kept asking Shi Lei, asking if An Chengze had come to see him, and Shi Lei was furious and said, "If he didn't come or not, he just gave money. He has money now!"

Seeing Shi Yi's disappointed look lying on the hospital bed, Shi Lei remained silent.He was aboveboard all his life, but when he was old, he did something shady.No matter what, he couldn't let his stupid son see An Chengze again, and he couldn't let him sink deeper.He should have done this a long time ago, and he would have broken his son's thoughts earlier, so he wouldn't have to cripple his legs for An Chengze.

In less than a month, Shi Lei's original black hair turned gray, and he walked around in the hospital corridor every night.He is such an excellent son, a son who was only in his 20s and became a deputy teacher, a son who has repeatedly made outstanding achievements, and a born soldier with a straight back.Shi Yi could have made more and more contributions to the country, but now they are all ruined!

In the end, all the tissues of Shi Yi's legs were necrotic, and the doctor's diagnosis was that the limbs must be amputated, otherwise the rotten injured legs would affect the intact tissues.On the day the surgery was signed, and the day Shi Yi was pushed into the ward, An Chengze and Lin Dehui held a grand banquet in Beijing and held a grand wedding.

After the amputation, Shi Yi never asked to see An Chengze again.

Shi Lei doesn't expect him to find another girlfriend, and no one is willing to serve him as a disabled person for the rest of his life. All he has is a "Disabled Soldier Certificate" and a monthly pension from the state.Shi Lei thought that his son was finished like this, but during the recovery process, Shi Yi bought a lot of books and began to teach himself computer software programming.After recovering, he applied to join the intelligence department. Shi Yi had received professional intelligence training. Although his body was paralyzed, his brain was still sound.

Somehow, my son, who had a headache from reading books since he was a child, unexpectedly became an excellent intelligence officer with the help of superb hacking skills, and once again became a pillar of the country!

This is his son, Shi Lei was so excited that he couldn't speak, as long as Shi Yi rekindles hope in life, even if he is disabled, so what!

What is even more gratifying is that an excellent woman in the intelligence department fell in love with Shi Yi. No matter whether he is disabled or not, Shi Yi will always be a man worthy of love.The tough lady said that she just fell in love with Shi Yi's perseverance. Before her mother died, she was paralyzed half of her body. She was used to taking care of patients for more than ten years, and she didn't find it difficult to take care of patients.Besides, Shi Yi is not a good-for-nothing who needs to be taken care of in everything. He has already installed a prosthetic limb and can walk by himself enduring the pain.And under training, his arm strength is astonishing, as long as it is close combat, no one in the entire department is his opponent.Such a person is not worthy of love. The lady believes that Shi Yi is definitely worthy of having a happy family.When she was strong, she took care of Shi Yi, but when she was weak, didn't she have a child?Shi Yi was just paralyzed, not incapable of lifting, let alone infertile.

Because of Shi Yi's body, the woman went to Shi Lei to discuss this matter after spending a lot of effort to persuade her family.Shi Lei became ten years younger in an instant, and almost flew to find Shi Yi, asking him to get along with his wife. This is a normal and good girl in her 20s who is healthy and healthy. If she didn't fall in love with Shi Yi deeply, How could you sacrifice your whole life.

Shi Yi propped up his prosthetic limb to meet the other party, and politely rejected her.

Shi Lei aged instantly, just at this time An Chengze transferred a large sum of money into his account.Shi Lei's anger couldn't be stopped at all, Shi Yi kept saying that he was disabled and didn't want to delay other girls, but why, why did he still pay attention to An Chengze's news every day, even if he was married?

Anger dazed Shi Lei's mind, a childhood accident almost ruined Shi Yi's future; an encounter with the army made Shi Yi give up the opportunity to continue training; Give up lifelong happiness for him!

Shi Lei brought up the huge sum of money from An Chengze from the bank, drove all the way to An Chengze's house, and threw the boxes of money on An Chengze and his wife.

Since then, An Chengze has never sent any money, Shi Yi has never been married, and Shi Lei has gradually become a eccentric little old man. Shi Yifa.

When Shi Yi was 40 years old, Shi Lei passed away.Xu Shi was about to die, and looking back on his life, his feelings faded and he looked away.In the past, I only blamed An Chengze for all the mistakes, but when I thought about it carefully, I found that sometimes, the mistakes were caused by both parties.It can even be said that the lives of these two children began with the knife given to Shi Yi on their birthdays. One wrong step, one wrong step.

Before he died, Shi Lei calmly held Shi Yi's hand, and said in a low voice: "Back then...after your accident, An Chengze... came to you many times...I...rejected all of them; after that...he... I have remitted a lot of...money, and I have...returned it...you...don't want...to...see him...? Maybe..."

"There's no need for that anymore," Shi Yi shook his head. "He is very happy now, with a successful career and a happy family. Although they have no children, their relationship is quite good, and An Chengze has got everything he wants. Those who are sorry for him will also get retribution, I just need to silently bless him."

An Chengze has gained both fame and fortune, but what about you?With this unfinished sentence, Shi Lei fell into a deep sleep forever.

And Shi Yi has been conscientiously contributing to the country. Although he has no legs, his knowledge and experience are admirable.When he was young, Shi Yi was a cheetah on the battlefield. After an accident, Shi Yi was a god on the Internet. After middle age, Shi Yi was a serious teacher. Although he has no legs, his brain has been fighting for the country. All the students he taught are the best.

Until Shi Yi was in his forties, there were excellent women who were attracted by his charisma and wanted to take care of him for the rest of his life and have children for him, but he refused them all.

An Chengze passed away in his 80s, but Shi Yi lived to be in his [-]s.After his death, when his students sorted out his belongings, under the bedside table, there was a secret box locked with the most advanced technology in society at that time.The students thought it was a state secret, and it took a lot of effort to open it, but they were all shocked when they opened it.

There is only a rusty and old knife inside, and a pile of newspaper clippings, all of which are clippings of a person, from birth to death, from fledgling to success.

In a lifetime, it is enough to have such a heartbeat, a nostalgia, a reluctance, and an infatuation.