In the library, noise is prohibited

Chaosheng really hopes to be satisfied with himself one day, but whenever he asks himself "what are my strengths", the answer is an honest and depressing "no".However, even so, he was believed by Xunzhou to be able to "like himself".

Chao Sheng was flattered to the point of exaggeration, looking over and over again at all the news from Xun Zhou, his eyes warmed up, as if honey was brewing.

Even Xun Zhou has said that, if he doesn't get active quickly, he will disappoint the other party's kindness too much.

Chao Sheng had never had such a peaceful sleep before. His eyes were only opened when the sun was high, and his chaotic brain slowly connected to the world. After a while, he realized: Today is a new year.

He received a lot of blessings from his classmates on his mobile phone. Chao Sheng lazily replied to a few of them. He found it troublesome to type, so he decided to ignore the rest because they were obviously group messages.But remembering that before going to bed last night, he vowed to live a good life like Xunzhou, so Chaosheng replied to the message one by one, filling the lines with enthusiasm, pretending that he was really excited for the New Year.

Xun Zhou got up early, and made Chao Sheng a hot lunch, which he can eat after washing up.

The atmosphere between the two had indeed changed a lot, Xun Zhou was finally able to show his affection unabashedly, and no matter how close they got, they were not afraid that Chao Sheng would dodge them.It's just that Chao Sheng hasn't adapted so quickly to the change in the relationship between the two of them. Simple physical contact is done very rigidly, and he doesn't have the courage to dive into Xun Zhou's arms like he did when his head was hot.

Xunzhou knew that Chaosheng had a thin skin and was too shy, so he didn't make things difficult for him, and tried his best to maintain the demeanor that a grown man should have.

"Are you only taking you here?" At the station in the afternoon, Xunzhou took the suitcase out of the back of the car, "It's not convenient to carry things, or I'll take you home directly."

"It's okay, the terminal is right in front of my house." Chao Sheng took the luggage and lifted the lever.He looked at Xun Zhou hesitantly, and added: "The main reason is that I don't want my mother to see you..."

"Okay." Xun Zhou smiled and understood what he meant, "Then when you get off the car, remember to check if you have packed everything."

Chao Sheng nodded, but didn't turn around to get on the bus directly, and stood there silent for a few seconds before whispering: "Then I'm leaving."

"Ah."

Chao Sheng waited for a while, and found that Xun Zhou really didn't want to talk anymore, so he got into the car with a little disappointment.Confused by his pride, he sat down by the window and didn't look outside, refusing to reveal the slightest bit of reluctance for Xun Zhou.

Xun Zhou couldn't see Chao Sheng's expression clearly from such a distance, but he could feel that he hesitated to speak just now, so he guessed that he wanted to give him a solemn farewell.After all, winter vacation is coming up, and we have to wait a month and a half before school starts.

It's not that Xun Zhou deliberately deviated from Chao Sheng's intentions, it's just that the relationship between the two has just begun, and Chao Sheng doesn't have much experience in this field, so Xun Zhou doesn't want to lead him to waste his enthusiasm so quickly.

It doesn't matter if you are too young, it doesn't matter if you are too clumsy, Xun Zhou hopes that every time Chao Sheng hugs and kisses him, he has the right to be shy.

Every New Year's Day, Chaosheng's family will have many relatives, all of whom are close in seniority.As soon as he entered the door in the afternoon, the three aunts and six wives gathered around to greet them, and he kept the corners of his mouth up all the time, trying his best to deal with them.

The next step is the routine that must be carried out every year and festival-stuffing red envelopes.Chao Sheng lost patience after pushing and shoving them a few times, just as his mother had been helping him to refuse, so he just pouted, shook them off and entered the room.

After returning to his room, Chao Sheng dared to sigh wearily.

Turn on the computer, put on headphones, and block out the noisy sounds outside.He started to watch the movie disc that Xun Zhou gave him, it was an old black and white movie, literally translated into Chinese it means "how beautiful life is".

From the content introduction to the screen production, Chaosheng was not interested, but thinking that this should be Xunzhou's favorite, he focused on watching it.

Just after the title was played, my mother suddenly opened the door and came in, quickly walked in front of him and whispered in a low voice: "What's the matter with you, your second aunt gave you money and you said 'no, I'm already working and earning money', so it's okay? Go straight away with a straight face and want someone to beg you to collect money? Are you sensible?"

Chao Sheng took a deep breath, tapped the space with his fingers, turned to look at her, and said in a muffled voice, "Aren't you tired of being polite all the time?"

"It's not 'polite', it's 'polite'." Seeing that his attitude was not correct, his mother immediately turned stern, "I said a long time ago that you have to learn to speak adults' words, you are already twenty years old."

"nineteen."

"Tsk." His mother frowned and stared at him, "Remember not to accept money next time?"

While she was saying this, she handed Chao Sheng hundreds of dollars in her hand, "Take it first this time."

Disgust appeared in Chao Sheng's eyes for a moment, but now he wanted to hurry up and watch a movie, so he suppressed the irritability in his heart, took the money and said, "Got it." After his mother left, he gently threw the money in the At the corner of the table, he sighed unconsciously, and clicked the space to continue playing the video.

More than two hours passed faster than expected. Even such a movie with a standard American theme and full of clichéd and moody chicken soup plots moved Chao Sheng to tears.When he watched many episodes, he couldn't help but wonder how Xunzhou felt when he watched the movie. Perhaps their thoughts coincided with each other somewhere.

It's a pity that in the end, the hero didn't realize his dream of traveling around the world, which made Chao Sheng feel sorry for him.

Perhaps it was the human touch in the film that somehow infected Chao Sheng. When he was having dinner with relatives at the table, he unconsciously became patient.However, when they talked about his recent situation again, the warmth that had just grown in Chaosheng's heart was extinguished again.

"Oh, anyway, his father and I didn't expect him to be very promising, it's enough to support ourselves." The mother used all her face to show a smile to cover up the embarrassment on her face, "Wait for three or four years He must earn more than a college student who just graduated. How can there be so many people at the top of the pyramid, it would be good for him to stand firm below."

— What a disappointment.

When Chao Sheng thought of how mediocre his mother's life was, he suddenly envied the strict discipline of Lin Yao's family who expected his son to become a dragon.

Ordinary Losers have a common feature, that is, they like to comfort themselves "I haven't tried hard yet", as if they will succeed when they really work hard.But Chao Sheng is the kind of person who can't even "feel good about himself". He accepts the fact that he is not capable in all aspects very frankly, so he doesn't work hard at all.

But it's two different things to admit your shortcomings and then laugh at yourself, and those close to you also agree with his shortcomings.

Chao Sheng took a few mouthfuls of rice quickly, put down his chopsticks and said "I'm full" with a smile, and hurried back to the house.

He tidied up the table, and carefully found the high school English notebook that he hadn't thrown away from the drawer under the bed.When I was in class, my mind wandered a lot, and I lost a lot of knowledge halfway through, and I didn't want to ask my classmates to borrow it to make up for it.

However, the only content is enough for him to study seriously in the next month. With the addition of English dictionaries, Chaosheng's study materials are barely complete.

In fact, it was not because of his mother's attitude that he decided to study during the holidays. Chao Sheng didn't even want her to find out that he was doing this.He just didn't want Xun Zhou to believe in him unconditionally all the time, he hoped that in the future he could hear Xun Zhou praise his strengths in detail - the strengths that even he himself agrees with.

Therefore, before Xunzhou finds out that he has made progress, he must quickly pick up his confidence.

The relatives outside the door chatted and played cards, and Chaosheng covered his ears and lay on the table to read the high school English text. With the previous notes, he quickly understood the meaning.

Occasionally, relatives would break in without saying hello. Chao Sheng quickly waved the book and flew it behind him.

A young man with no aspirations under the age of 20, who is addicted to entertainment all day long - this image is established in an instant, and others don't bother to pay more attention to him.Maybe they will laugh behind their backs that they are worthless, but Chao Sheng doesn't care, anyway, those people are outside the sixth ring of the target.

Only Xunzhou was at the closest position to the bull's-eye, and Chaosheng had to aim at him with all his strength, straighten his back and attack dignifiedly.

Later, the guests at home dispersed, and only the parents were left watching TV and speaking in the living room.

Chao Sheng was a little sleepy, but when Xun Zhou called, he immediately woke up again.In order not to be heard by his parents, Chao Sheng went to bed and hid under the quilt, answering in a low voice.

"When did you get home? You haven't sent me a text message to tell me." Xun Zhou said over there, "By the way, I asked today. Apartment No. 20 is open. You can come back after the Lantern Festival at the earliest."

"Then..." Chao Sheng almost said that he went back that day, but changed his meaning, "Then when will you come to school?"

"School starts on the 28st, and I'll be back on the [-]th."

"Oh." The corners of Chao Sheng's upturned mouth drooped silently, as if he wanted to compare with Xun Zhou, "Then I'll go back at No. 30."

"There is no NO.30." Xunzhou laughed, "You'll still be with me for a day at the latest, why don't you come to school early and wait for me."

Chao Sheng thought, "What's the wait?" He had to wait for eight full days.Then he heard the reminder bell before the school's power outage at night on the phone, and he was a little surprised: "Are you at school?"

Xun Zhou gave a "hmm".

He was supposed to go home to rest today, but after thinking about it, he decided to drive directly back to school.First go to the security department to apply for investigation and monitoring, then contact Qin Lu to help write the materials, and ask the school to continue to suspend Su Linglan.This boy is a ticking time bomb. If he doesn't care about it, he will definitely cause trouble everywhere. As long as he finds it interesting, he can do all kinds of things that hurt others and benefit himself.

Xunzhou didn't tell Chaosheng in detail why he went back to school, but Chaosheng still guessed it intuitively.

"You don't need to care about him, he's just an irrelevant person." Xun Zhou said lightly, "I'll try to run a few more times and apply to the school."

Just listening to Xun Zhou's voice, Chao Sheng felt very safe, so he didn't want to talk about this person who made the two of them unhappy, and instead talked about himself: "I watched the movie you gave me today, it was good."

Hearing his cheerful tone, Xun Zhou also softened: "Is that so, did you think of me when you saw the hero?"

"What do you think of..." Chao Sheng thought for a while, "Oh, you also have his tie."

"No." Xun Zhou smiled in his ear, "Obviously he and I want to travel around the world."

"Ah."

"It's just that he took his wife and children with him, and I only need to take you with me."

Chao Sheng's whole heart seemed to be soaked in warm water, and he smiled quietly into the air, embarrassed to make a sound.

At the moment, Xun Zhou is nestled on the sofa in the apartment. There is an unfolded world map on the coffee table, on which there are many circles and stars that he marked with a red pen, representing the priority of the country to travel to.

"Chao Sheng, I think my plan is almost finished." Xun Zhou raised his neck and rested his head on the back of the sofa, "You just need to choose a date."

Chao Sheng opened his mouth, his heart was ecstatic, and he didn't know what to say.His brain was dull for a moment, and just about to say "Listen to you", there was a burst of firecrackers downstairs, which woke him up and reminded him that he was at home now.

It must take a long time to travel around the world... In fact, it’s okay to disappear with my parents. It can be said that I went abroad to film with a friend who is a director, and I still need a passport and visa.But what about friends from school?Lin Yao is so well informed, it is very likely that he can find out the current relationship between him and Xun Zhou.

At that time, how to deal with friends who have been friends for many years is really a troublesome question... I have been with a straight man for so many years, and now I suddenly go away with the man, breaking the impression like this, and meeting Lin Yao again will definitely be embarrassing.

After thinking about it, Chao Sheng murmured, "We'll talk about it when we meet."

"Okay." Xunzhou thought for a while, "Then... Valentine's Day."

Chao Sheng agreed, and after hanging up the phone, he looked at the calendar and was immediately disappointed, it was still a month and a half away from Valentine's Day.

It was only the first day, and I couldn't help but miss Xun Zhou.Lying on the bed in the middle of the night, I felt regretful - I should have waited a few more seconds before leaving today, maybe Xun Zhou would step forward and hug him.