In the library, noise is prohibited

His words caught Chao Sheng off guard, and after a few seconds of thought stagnation, Chao Sheng involuntarily cocked his neck.

It was that feeling again.

Whenever Xun Zhou's breath approached, Chao Sheng's whole body felt numb as if it had been electrified, especially his chest, which seemed to be filled with a group of light clouds.He didn't know whether it was the body's involuntary secretion of hormones, or an illusion created deep in his heart because he was too obsessed with Xunzhou.

When leaning on Xun Zhou's shoulder, he suddenly felt that he had stepped into a dangerous situation. The light and sweet perfume smell on the other party was full of fatal allure, but his rationality made him stand stiffly at a loss.

Xun Zhou's arms were full of warmth, he lowered his head and kissed the corners of Chao Sheng's mouth lightly a few times, and raised his eyes to meet those eyes with a trace of guard.

"Scared?" Xun Zhou controlled the volume to an extremely soft level, "I won't eat you again, don't be nervous."

Chao Sheng nodded, trying to put away the resistance that was showing on his body, but the more he pretended to be calm, the easier it was for his skin to tremble, and it was easy for Xun Zhou to notice it, which aroused more pleasure for this man.

He couldn't tell whether his reaction was funny, or his "inexperience" was funny. In short, as long as Xun Zhou's attitude was a little frivolous, Chao Sheng would immediately be surrounded by a sense of crisis.

No... What he was afraid of was not Xun Zhou, but himself who would be at a loss in front of Xun Zhou.

Just because I like it, I want to leave the best impression on each other in all aspects.From the moment his heart beat, Chao Sheng was afraid that the invisible thorns on his body would accidentally touch Xun Zhou.

Because he is ashamed to express his feelings to people he knows well, he can't talk sweet words from time to time like Xun Zhou; because he is not used to physical contact, he has to think for a long time which hand should be raised first if he wants to take the initiative to hug him.There are so many people in this world who can honestly express tenderness and intimacy, but I was born without this setting.

If there is any further relationship with Xun Zhou, Chao Sheng knows that he will completely disappoint Xun Zhou like a dead wood.

"I..." Chao Sheng plucked up the courage to open his mouth, his voice was a little hoarse, "I can't do it today."

After holding back for a long time, he only uttered a sentence like asking for leave. After hearing this, Xun Zhou couldn't hold back his laughter anymore. He immediately raised his hand and pressed Xia Chaosheng's head, rubbed it helplessly, and said, "Where do you want to go? Say you have no idea about me, I just tease you because I see you are cute."

Chao Sheng breathed a sigh of relief, "Oh."

"I won't scare you anymore." Xun Zhou put away his smile, and kissed Chao Sheng's forehead, "Be careful on the way back, call me when you wake up tomorrow, I'll take you to dinner and watch a movie."

What he meant was that he could go, and Chao Sheng finally let out his remaining half breath.Xun Zhou slowly let go of his arms, tied his scarf around Chao Sheng's neck, and said "good night" on his own initiative.

Chao Sheng nodded vigorously, turned around and almost ran away.

He could feel that Xun Zhou clearly wanted to kiss him more affectionately and presumptuously just now, but in the end he let him go.

Chao Sheng hurriedly walked on the cold and raging street. While waiting for the taxi, he reached out and lifted the scarf up again, covering most of his face.Xun Zhou's clothes always exude the scent of softener, which is not strong, and can calm him down quickly.

No matter how slow he was, Chao Sheng could guess that Xun Zhou was testing himself just now, but unfortunately he failed to give Xun Zhou the response he wanted.

People who like each other should please each other and express their love through physical actions.If it were someone else, they would be able to properly cooperate with Xunzhou under the circumstances at that time, create a more ambiguous atmosphere together, and then naturally heat up the relationship to an inseparable level.

But I just couldn't do it myself.

Not only because he and Xun Zhou are both men, but also because he can't get rid of his shame and let his body be exposed to another person with the most sincere attitude.Just fantasizing about that kind of scene makes him feel so embarrassed that he is about to explode. He can't imagine how he lost his composure at all. I'm afraid he will be at the mercy of Xun Zhou like a marionette, but for Xun Zhou, he must be like that. It's boring.

Chaosheng held his breath in the cold night and found tiny snowflakes floating in the air.

He thought that as long as he learned how to kiss, he would have completed the trial, but he didn't expect that there would be more unknown experiences waiting for him to take that step.

It is impossible for adolescent boys to have no desires, even if it is difficult to talk about it, Chaosheng has to admit that he had fantasies about sex.That expectation is hazy, vague, arbitrary, and does not need to actually conceive anything.But what was in front of him at this time was a specific choice - the target was the person closest to the target, the person with the same physical structure as himself.

Now he doesn't know what to do.

After returning home, Chao Sheng was inexplicably irritable, and lying on the bed in the middle of the night was still too troubled to fall asleep.

Xun Zhou must be disappointed... Chao Sheng pinched his frowning brows and thought.I am obviously an adult, but I have to nervously refuse even such a thing, saying something like "I can't do it today", as a man must be very embarrassing, no wonder I have to laugh.

Chao Sheng's thoughts were confused, and he couldn't help searching for related questions on his mobile phone, only to find that the ones who expressed timidity were all girls.Chao Sheng sighed, so he had no choice but to add "gay" before the keyword he searched for.

This is the first time he has admitted to a change in orientation. When he realized this, his brain automatically ignored it and avoided it.

Click "Confirm Search", and within a second, a large number of red posts with keywords are displayed on the page.

At first, Chao Sheng saw the huge number of relevant results, and thought that there were many people in the world who were facing the same worries and confusions as himself.

As a result, he browsed carefully and took a closer look, only to find out that the titles of these boys were "Twenty years old, I finally lost my virginity today", "Finally sent myself out to mess with and teach my sisters experience", "Twelve appointments, Today I finally saw Huo 1"...

Chao Sheng was so frightened by the strange world that he quickly closed the webpage.

Due to the obvious difference in body shape and aura from Xunzhou, Chao Sheng automatically believed that he was the passive one, but after reading the posts on the Internet, he didn't resonate at all, so he felt even more uneasy in the dead of night.

Are you a freak yourself?

Chao Sheng stared at the dark ceiling in a daze.

Or else... Log in to Milan and add strangers to inquire about experience?But it's too offensive to do so, and Milan doesn't have the ability to hide him online, if Xunzhou is still awake at this time, he might think too much when he sees him online...

"Alas." Chao Sheng closed his eyes and turned over, and couldn't help muttering to himself in distress, "The world of adults is so difficult."

After thinking about it, I gradually fell asleep.Waking up early the next morning, Chao Sheng saw that there was indeed a lot of snow outside, but the weather was fine when the sun came out.

Both parents have gone to work, and Chao Sheng can talk to Xun Zhou at home without any scruples.After the two set a time to meet today, Chao Sheng quickly washed and dressed, ready to go out.

Before leaving, he found a small meal bag bought by his mother and a cup of cold soy milk on the table.Both his parents' tastes were on the sweet side, and Chao Sheng was the opposite of them, so he left the breakfast on the table intact and went out.

Xun Zhou was waiting for him in the hotel lobby, and when they met, he hugged him as if no one else was around.Chao Sheng returned the scarf to him, and Xun Zhou waved his hand, "That was originally bought for you."

"Come on, I clearly saw you put it on yesterday."

"I'm cold too," Xun Zhou put Chao Sheng's hand into his coat pocket, "Anyway, you're definitely willing to share half of me."

After hearing this, Chao Sheng thought for a few seconds, understood that this was an instruction, and then wrapped the scarf around their necks.In order to show that he is considerate of others, he specially helped Xun Zhou to fasten it. As a result, the other party couldn't help coughing and complaining with a smile, "You're going to hang me to death".

Chao Sheng withdrew his hand resentfully.

"Come out so fast, you haven't eaten breakfast." Xun Zhou held his hand, "Go, go to Cantonese style morning tea, there is a very authentic restaurant here."

Xun Zhou's legs were slender, Chao Sheng had to take two quick steps to keep up with him.

Just like ordinary couples that can be seen everywhere on the street, Chao Sheng finally had a formal date with Xun Zhou, eating, watching movies, even just hanging out was a very happy time.

Walking on the road, Chao Sheng often couldn't help thinking about what happened last night, but he observed that Xun Zhou still looked normal, and didn't seem to mind at all.

Chao Sheng felt at ease, he was so timid, but Xun Zhou still forgave him, and treated him gently everywhere, according to his thinking, he didn't go beyond anything.

Because of this, he had to think of a way to take that step quickly... Hurry up so that Xun Zhou could get the same tolerance from himself.

Chao Sheng stared at the road under his feet, and thought of the word "step by step".He hates himself who becomes numb in place as soon as he is hugged and kissed by Xun Zhou, hates himself who can't even say a flattering word.

So... simply start overcoming from these contents, try to take the initiative to say ambiguous words, and take the initiative to kiss Xunzhou.

Chao Sheng made up his mind, and suddenly took a deep breath behind Xun Zhou's back to cheer himself up.

But the breathing was too loud, and when Xun Zhou heard it, he thought he was getting annoyed because of something, turned his head and asked with concern, "What's wrong?"

Chao Sheng was used to staring at the ground while walking, but remembering that he didn't like to meet other people's eyes, he suddenly raised his head, stared at Xun Zhou and replied: "It's okay!"

Xun Zhou glanced at him, then walked forward and entered a shop selling handmade belts.

After a few minutes of picking, Xun Zhou picked up three payment items, one of which was for Chao Sheng, the pattern was very low-key, and the color was suitable for a boy in his twenties.

The remaining two have not yet been settled, so Xun Zhou intends to choose only one, and after hesitating, he asks Chao Sheng: "Which pair of these trousers do you think looks good on me?"

Chao Sheng looked down at the style of the trousers, and found that the position of the belt was invisible and was covered by the shirt on his upper body.

He hesitated for a moment, and then his brain started to run rapidly—"The opportunity is here" "Pretending to be casual, lift up the shirt" "Will this action seem too frivolous" "Forget it, lift it up, this small action It will definitely make Xun Zhou never forget it"...

In just a few seconds, several thoughts flashed in front of Chao Sheng's eyes. Before the opportunity passed, he stretched out his hand decisively, pinched the corner of Xun Zhou's shirt and lifted it up.

—and found that there was no belt at all!

I was careless, I thought that Xunzhou had left him a reference answer.

No, no, I bought it just because I didn't wear a belt, so I have to say an unexpected answer for Xun Zhou, so as to make him happy.

Chao Sheng felt as if he was about to get enlightened.

Xun Zhou was still holding two belts and was waiting to choose one to pay the bill. Chao Sheng stood on tiptoe, leaned into his ear and whispered, "You look better with nothing on."

Before Xun Zhou could respond, Chao Sheng was the first to realize that he had made a mistake, stood on tiptoe again, and leaned over to change his words: "It's best to look nothing."

"..." Xun Zhou's face showed the first blankness since he knew Chao Sheng.

Seeing that he was stunned, Chao Sheng secretly felt complacent—it turned out that as long as he found out the key words in the other party's question, it was quite simple to answer the question with "sweet words". Even Xun Zhou became nervous and didn't know what to do.

"Let's go with this one." Xun Zhou finally took one and handed it to the boss.

He bought a lot of clothes today and returned with a full load. Chao Sheng took the initiative to help him carry some paper bags back to the hotel.As the traffic rush hour in the afternoon was approaching, Chaosheng had to go home early, and when he sent Xunzhou downstairs, he was ready to say goodbye.

Xunzhou was carrying things in both hands, and it was inconvenient to take off the scarf, so Chao Sheng reached out and took off the half.Feeling the burning gaze of the other party, Chao Sheng knew that they might have to hug and kiss next.

After all, normal couples do that when they part.

Take the initiative this time... Let Xun Zhou be surprised and let Xun Zhou look at him with admiration.

Chao Sheng's Adam's apple rolled up and down, and he silently said "you can do it" a few times.

Xun Zhou didn't know why Chao Sheng stopped after taking off half of the scarf, and was about to look down at his hand when his lips were bumped suddenly.

It's a very familiar apple flavor, but it's a pity that I can't spare Chao Sheng now.

Chao Sheng held his breath earlier this time, so the kiss lasted five or six seconds before it ended, breaking his own record.

Xun Zhou was supposed to turn around and go upstairs, but after looking down at Chao Sheng, he felt a little uneasy and asked, "You're a little weird today."

"Huh?" Chao Sheng showed a confused expression, "No."

"It's just weird." Xun Zhou thought thoughtfully, "Speaking strangely, and even kissing me."

Chao Sheng was at a loss for words for a while, but fortunately his brain was at a supernormal speed today, and he retorted confidently: "I kiss you on my own initiative... Isn't this normal?"

"It's strange that you are too proactive." Xun Zhou smiled slightly, and moved his face closer, "Why, ask me for something? Just say it straight, no need to beat around the bush, no matter what you want, I will help you."

"I'm fine." Chao Sheng frowned, he didn't expect Xun Zhou to be so confused today.

"Then why kiss me?" Xun Zhou said with a smile, "You still look so reluctant."

"I am willing." Chao Sheng immediately retorted, unquestionably, "I... just reciprocate, I can't always let you..."

He hesitated.

"'You can't always let me'?" Xun Zhou pondered for a while, and added the second half of Chao Sheng's sentence, "You can't always let me take the initiative—is that what you mean?"

Being accurately guessed, Chao Sheng bowed his head and acquiesced.

Xun Zhou stared at him quietly, then put all the bags in his hand on the ground, and stretched out his arms to hug Chao Sheng's waist.

"You don't have to worry about these things with me, what is 'reciprocity'? I said I gave you myself as a gift, but you really think you have to return the gift with your body?"

Xun Zhou smiled helplessly, lowered his neck, lightly bumped his head against Xia Chaosheng's forehead, and said warmly: "In front of me, if you don't want to grow up, then don't grow up; if you don't want to take the initiative, then don't take the initiative. It's okay to be nervous and shy, and it's okay to be duplicity , anyway..."

"—I am responsible for understanding you."

Chao Sheng seemed to be caught in a loop again, returning to the original point, and froze in place.

He originally thought that he who was at a loss in the face of Xun Zhou would be too disappointed, but he didn't expect that for Xun Zhou, these were of no importance at all.

Xun Zhou bent down, lifted up all the bags on the ground, and when he straightened up again, suddenly there was more weight on his neck.

Chao Sheng wrapped his arms around him firmly, and buried his head obediently in his chest, nodding or shaking his head, just rubbing against him meekly.The eye sockets are hot and the ears are red.

"Wait a little longer." Chao Sheng's voice was unsteady, "Wait for me...the real thing...just..."

"'Which one'?" Xun Zhou had no choice but to put down the bag and free one hand to stroke the hair on the back of the boy's neck, "I don't understand."

——I just said that I was responsible for understanding him!

I don't know if Xunzhou asked knowingly, or if he really didn't know.Chao Sheng's head was deeply buried in Xun Zhou's chest, because what he wanted to say made him feel ashamed, and he was a little impatient.

"Just 'that'," Chao Sheng's face was blushing, he gritted his teeth and replied, "I promise you with my body..."

The author has something to say: I'm sorry for being late, I will send red envelopes to compensate everyone