Rebirth Defence Jiyou Broken Handbook

"If your idea is to let me push you down from here, I'm sorry to disappoint you." Luo Ming didn't approach Lai Yibing, because the other party was sitting too close to the guardrail. Yibing really fell from here, even if he jumped into the Yellow River, he wouldn't be able to wash it off.

Low laughter sounded, and Lai Yibing seemed very happy when he heard some funny joke, "You really recovered your memory."

Lai Yibing stood up from the ground. He turned his back to Luo Ming and turned his face slightly. His whole body was bathed in the sun. Combined with the smile on his lips, he looked as holy as an angel.But Luo Ming knew that all of this was an illusion, no matter how bright the sun behind Lai Bing was, it couldn't cover up the darkness emanating from the other side's bones.

"Want to hear my story?" Lai Yibing asked with a smile.

"Do not want to."

"It doesn't matter, I can just say what I want." Lai Yibing didn't care about Luo Ming's wishes at all, but continued: "I was born in a fairly wealthy family, my mother was a housewife, and my father ran a small business. Not to mention how pleasant it is, but at least it is carefree."

"But the good times didn't last long. My father's business failed, and the family owed a lot of debt. That man left me and my mother and ran away. As a result, the two of us not only had to avoid the debt collectors, but also had to find ways to make money to survive. .In order to survive, I picked up garbage and sold newspapers. Anyway, I did everything a child can do. My mother is a person who can only spend money. She can't do rough work at all, but she still finds I got a job washing dishes, and at that time I thought, although life is very poor, it is not too difficult to live on, and my mother did not abandon me, so this is enough.”

"..." Lai Yibing's tone was sparse and normal, but Luo Ming still felt an indescribable sense of disobedience.

"If the general story goes according to the development, it should be that my mother and I worked hard to pay off our debts and live happily together. Unfortunately, this is not the case. Guess what happened next?"

"I'm not interested." Luo Ming replied indifferently.

"Really?" Lai Yibing didn't mind, as if he had expected the other party's reaction a long time ago, "My mother remarried, and the other party is a big real estate boss. The first marriage failed, so I don't care about my mother. Said that he wanted to cherish the hard-won second relationship. Anyway, when that man saw me, he was very kind to me and bought me a lot of toys, all to prove what he said. "

"My mother fell into trouble very quickly. Of course, the biggest reason for her fall was that the other party had money and helped us pay off all our debts. After my mother remarried, she took me to live with that man. The new house is very Big, even when my dad’s business was the best, we never lived in such a big house, and my mom was quite happy, because she lived a rich life again, and she didn’t need to go out to make money anymore, no need If you find a way to support me, you can buy whatever you want.”

When Lai Yibing said this, he smiled softly, "It's a gratifying ending, isn't it?"

Luo Ming didn't speak, and after a while, he said, "What did that man do?"

"Unexpectedly sharp." The arc of Lai Yibing's lips widened a bit, "It's just a pedophile plus a pervert, by the way, just like the person who kidnapped us."

No matter how relaxed Lai Yibing's tone was, Luo Ming still felt deep malice from it, how a child would be treated in that environment, even if he thought about it with his toes.

"It seems that you guessed it." Lai Yibing shrugged, "Yes, it's strange if you can't guess, that man raped me, maybe I was born a strange person, to be honest, I didn't suffer any harm in my heart , It’s just that the body really hurts, that kind of pain... I will never forget it for the rest of my life.”

When Lai Yibing said this, his tone became more and more relaxed, "For the first time, that man would apologize, but after so many times, that man didn't bother to apologize anymore, but he would buy a lot of things for me afterwards, and he threatened me that I couldn't Tell this matter out, of course, with his financial resources, even if I say it, he will have a way to settle it."

"That man is sure that my mother and I cannot do without him. After all, we are orphans and widows. Where can we go without him? In fact, I don't care, and I have no intention of telling anyone." Lai Yibing stretched out his hand to the sun , the light poured onto his face from his outstretched five fingers, but it was mostly blocked by the brim of the hat. It seemed that the sun was not hot enough, and it seemed that he did not want to accept the warm sun. "Luo Ming, do you feel pain once and ten times?" What's the difference?"

"..." Maybe Lai Yibing's tone was too ordinary, and Luo Ming didn't know what to say.

"The answer is that there is no difference." Lai Yibing laughed, "At least for me, that man always thought that he did things in secret, but one day my mother found out, when that man pressed me , My mother just came back to get something, I saw her incredible eyes, but the man was too 'hard', and didn't notice that there was someone behind him."

"I didn't call for help, I knew it was useless, and I didn't need anyone to save me." Lai Yibing said here, with complicated eyes, "But my mother didn't come to save me, she just looked at me After a few seconds, he left in a panic."

"After that day, my mother acted as if that incident had never happened. She was still very kind to me and gentle to that man. Nothing had changed." Lai Yibing withdrew his hand, "It's so funny, Instead, it makes people laugh.”

"You hate her?" Luo Ming asked.

"Hahaha..." Lai Yibing seemed to hear some big joke, and couldn't help laughing, "Why do you hate? I am very grateful to her, thank her for letting me come to this world, and thank her for being the most difficult She never abandoned me, thank her for finding such a rich man, so that I can live a life without worrying about food and clothing."

"If you say who is the person I don't hate the most in this world...it must be my mother." The smile on Lai Yibing's face was very gentle, so gentle that it almost made people feel creepy, "I have a deeper love than anyone else." I love her deeply, I know her weakness, I know her incompetence, how can she live without me? So I can't abandon her, can I?"

Luo Ming only felt a chill down his spine, and sure enough... no matter how many times he confronted Lai Yibing, he still couldn't understand the other party's thoughts.

Lai Yibing and Wang Liang's mother are too similar, both weak and incompetent, but compared to Lai Yibing, who is sick from body to heart, Wang Liang is really much more normal, at least he has the ability to take the first step. One step of courage.

"You seem to disapprove of my approach, forget it, it doesn't matter." Lai Yibing smiled, "You know what happened later, I was kidnapped, and then I met you and Qi Yu there."

"At that time, I knew that I was kidnapped, but I didn't expect the kidnapper and my stepfather to be the same kind of person. I thought that everyone was like me, and could continue to live even after encountering that kind of thing, but the fact is not so……"

"Everyone died, even if they weren't killed by the kidnappers, there were a lot of crazy suicides in the end, and I began to feel confused..." Lai Yibing's voice gradually dropped, "Why can't everyone accept this like me? ? Am I the abnormal person? I fell into such doubts."

"At the same time, I also understand... It turns out that people are so fragile, and it turns out that it is so easy to want to die. Why haven't I realized this all the time?" Lai Yibing said with emotion, "Obviously I have been treated so cruelly. , I never once thought about suicide, which is too strange."

"But the thing that surprised me the most...is you." Lai Yibing looked deeply at Luo Ming, "At first, you were so ordinary and scared like everyone else, but you restrained yourself and gradually recovered. Reasonable, but when you tricked those children, you collapsed again because of guilt, I thought you must be finished this time, but I didn't expect that when you were sober, you would be calmer and more terrifying than before."

"You were neither in pain and despair like those children, nor did you choose to suffer like me. You are so ordinary, but so special. Whenever I thought you would fall into the abyss, you would stand up stronger."

"Do you know how much I envy you, and how much I envy you?" Lai Yibing's eyes burst out with a strong desire, "Why can you do everything I can't do?"

Luo Ming didn't answer Lai Yibing's question. Some things had no answers. He didn't know what kind of person he was in Lai Yibing's eyes, but from the beginning, he was just him.

"That's all you want to say?" Luo Ming asked.

"Temporary." Lai Yibing lowered his hat, "Next is question time, what do you think I want you to do?"

"I am not interested."

"It's so cold." Lai Yibing's voice was a bit aggrieved, but the smile on his face remained the same, "I have been looking for the answer for so many years, and finally I have a conclusion."

"Are you wondering why so many people around me commit suicide?"

"..." Luo Ming frowned.

"Remember what I told you that day? I hope they can live more than anyone else in the world. This sentence is not a lie. Including Liu Feilin, they all have miserable lives and painful pasts. They and I We are so similar, so we became friends. I have been thinking, is it better for us to live like this, or to be happier when we die?"

"I gave them all pertinent advice, and I tried everything I could to comfort them. I never once told them 'die', but all of them chose to commit suicide, and no one wanted to continue living. Why? ?”

"The more people die around me, the more I realize a terrible fact." Lai Yibing's dark eyes seemed to suck people in, and he said slowly: "It turns out that abnormal people are I."

"The kids who choose to kill themselves are right."

"For us, death is the real happiness, but it's ridiculous that I have been wrong for so many years." Lai Yibing said this, with a somewhat innocent smile on his face, "But it doesn't matter, as long as this mistake is corrected gone."

"You want to commit suicide?" Luo Ming was really shocked this time.

"That was originally planned." Lai Yibing took another two steps forward, almost half of his foot out, he lowered his head, looked at the scenery below and said, "You know what? I've been here many times , but I didn't jump down once, because I can't kill myself, I can't do it."

"Even when I was tortured by the kidnappers, I didn't feel the slightest fear, but when I stood in this place, I felt unprecedented fear." Lai Yibing turned to look at Luo Ming, "I I will never forget the look in your eyes at that time, cold and ruthless, as long as you order, you can make everyone obey without resistance, just like now."

"Luo Ming, only you can dominate all people. From the moment we all listen to you, you have such power. As long as you say the word 'go to death' to me, I can do it without hesitation." Jump down to the same place as those who died."

Seeing that Luo Ming was silent, Lai Yibing smiled more and more gently, "You should understand that as long as I am alive, you will never have peace by your side. Liu Feilin committed suicide because of me, and Zhou Yuanbin committed suicide because of me. The girl has a psychological shadow, who is next? Fang Chen, or your parents?"

"Come on, as long as you say those two words to me, you can protect everything and continue your ordinary life." Lai Yibing's voice seemed to have some kind of magical power, "Just two words, everything is over. "

Luo Ming stared at the smile on Lai Yibing's face for a long time, and finally asked, "Did you make a mistake?"

"?" Lai Yibing was slightly startled.

"Why should I let you die?" Luo Ming smiled, "Isn't it too cheap for you to die like this? If life is pain for you, then I want you to never commit suicide , must continue to live.”

"By the way, I have to add one more thing. I want you to surrender to the police station. You just said that only I can control you, so you will obey my orders, right? If you can't do it, it means you just Everything said is a lie, if you did it would be great and I'm looking forward to your life in prison because you can't kill yourself, can you?"