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The car stopped outside Bai Qi's apartment building.Xu Chenchuan took out the wheelchair from the trunk, walked around to the passenger seat and put it down.Bai Qi had already pushed open the car door, looked up at him, and silently raised his right arm.

This action has the aura of Lafayette ordering Xiao Chenzi.Xu Chenchuan bent down to support Bai Qi's back with one hand, and passed under his knees with the other, and hugged him horizontally.Bai Qi's arm rested on his shoulder, and his fingertips, which were hot from the high fever, brushed the back of his neck, as if away from him.

Xu Chenchuan secretly collected himself, and put him on the wheelchair.Bai Qi put his long legs on the pedals like he was dealing with sundries, and controlled the wheelchair into the corridor of the apartment.Seeing that he had no intention of letting him leave, Xu Chenchuan couldn't hold back his curiosity, and followed him hesitantly.

After passing the gentle slope transformed by the steps, Bai Qi took out the key and opened the door, saying, "Come in."

Xu Chenchuan followed him into the room, and it took a while for his eyes to see the dim environment clearly.The curtains are all drawn, and the sunlight can only penetrate through the gaps, passing through the empty room, showing a sense of ascetic desolation.Although it was desolate, it was clean and tidy—it would be better to say that such a small number of items could not be messed up in the first place.

Xu Chenchuan looked around a few times, and suddenly realized that Bai Qi was looking at him from the side.

He quickly adjusted his facial expression: "Go and lie on the bed, I'll boil some water for you to take medicine."

Bai Qi stared at him for a few more seconds, then went to the bedroom by himself, as if acquiescing to his suggestion.

This living room is not big, Xu Chenchuan found the kitchen at a glance.No trace of life can be seen in either the living room or the kitchen.The trash can was empty, and there was not a speck of grease on the stove.Xu Chenchuan found the electric kettle to pick up the water, raised a corner of the curtain while waiting for it to boil, squinted his eyes and looked out.After adapting to the darkness, the world outside the window is a bit dazzlingly bright.

This is a lively neighborhood. There are old people walking on the road, and children who have not yet reached school age laugh and run past, enjoying the warm sunshine in the winter afternoon.Xu Chenchuan vaguely understood the reason why Bai Qi didn't open the curtains.There is a chill penetrating into the heart in the interior that lacks light all the year round.This gives people an illusion, as if it is just a ghost living here.

When Xu Chenchuan walked into the bedroom holding a water glass, Bai Qi was already sitting on the bed, his head was slightly tilted back, his eyes were closed tightly, and his eyelashes cast a deep shadow.

Xu Chenchuan cleared his throat, walked over and put the water glass on the bedside table.Bai Qi opened his eyes and reached for it, but Xu Chenchuan stopped him: "It's still very hot."

Bai Qi withdrew his hand and said, "Thank you."

"Ah, no need..."

Probably because he didn't have the energy to think about how to stab someone right now, so Bai Qi stopped talking after saying those two words.Xu Chenchuan took a step back: "If there's nothing else, I'll—"

The voice stopped unnaturally, because he saw the room clearly.

The floor-to-ceiling bookcases are packed with rows of books, Chinese, English, professional books, novels, dictionaries.They are not arranged neatly, and there is no clear classification standard, and some books are even placed messily on top of other books.Next to it is a large computer desk, which is also piled with books and scattered manuscript paper.The computer was not turned off, but was set to hibernation. It seemed that as long as one touched the keyboard, the lit screen would display webpages, documents, and... and dialog boxes of the red-robed body group.

As if the jigsaw puzzle was gradually becoming complete, Xu Chenchuan could suddenly imagine this man, imagining that he brought home the books he had taken from a high place for him and stuffed them into this bookcase; imagining him sitting at this desk With one hand propped on his chin, he was proofreading the subtitles sent by the people in the group; imagine him lying on this bed, in the endless sound of rain, making voice calls with himself.

"What's the matter?" Bai Qi looked at Xu Chenchuan who had fallen into a sluggish state for no reason.

"...It's nothing." Xu Chenchuan smiled, "To ask one thing, why did you think of doing subtitles back then?"

Bai Qi paused, and seemed to recall a moment: "At that time, there was a drama called A Thousand Dollars."

"I've heard of it." It was Guan Shanqianli's famous work, like thunder.

"I like one of the leading actors in it very much, so I did it."

Xu Chenchuan didn't expect such an undignified and glamorous answer, and he laughed for a moment: "Is it also the addition of the red robe? Because you like the bishop?"

"Almost. Questions?"

"No." Xu Chenchuan sighed with emotion, "It's only now that I realize that you are still alive."

This whole home is like a dead body, but there is a distinct heartbeat and warm blood flowing from this corner.And I am a traveler who broke into the cave by accident, and got a glimpse of a cave that no one knows about.Xu Chenchuan couldn't explain what was going on with the sudden hot feeling in his chest, he spoke very abstractly.Sure enough, Bai Qi raised his eyebrows: "Are you pitying me?"

"Of course not, how could it be." Xu Chenchuan immediately denied subconsciously, "I mean..."

The other party is the master who is not afraid to speculate on people with the greatest malice, and the consolation of hypocrisy and obscenity has no effect on him.

Xu Chenchuan decided to confess frankly: "If I don't know that you are a paper crane, maybe I will sympathize with you."

"what about now?"

Xu Chenchuan thought for a while: "Now, although I still feel bad for you, based on my understanding of paper cranes, he probably doesn't need it."

"Hmm—" Bai Qi's voice rose slightly at the end, and it was hard to tell whether it was doubt or affirmation.

"It doesn't matter whether you have sympathy, comfort, or persuasion, because those are for the weak." Xu Chenchuan saw that Bai Qi didn't seem to be angry yet, so he continued, "He wants to retire for thousands of miles. You just retired, and when you want to come back, you come back, you don’t even have to give a reason. If it’s your choice, what others say is superfluous.”

Bai Qi tilted his head, and looked at the person in front of the bed through the dim light filtered by the curtains.The young man's gaze was immersed in the gloom, which was so clear that it added to the sadness.There was even a hint of veiled yearning mixed in it—he had seen this kind of gaze many times, and he had seen it from Teacher Huang's eyes just today.But from the past to the present, it was all limited to the first meeting, before he opened his mouth to speak.

And he has said many, many things to this man.

"There are countless things to do online, they are all hallucinations." Bai Qi said in a very strange tone, "It's like I don't know who the newcomer named Chris is."

Xu Chenchuan was stunned for a moment, and then remembered that he was referring to the so-called real identity, and his mood was complicated: "It's not unreal, it's just not comprehensive. It doesn't matter if it's not comprehensive, you can gradually deepen your understanding. No matter how you look at me, I still believe The paper cranes I know."

Bai Qi laughed.

The soft, low laughter with unknown meaning somehow reminded Xu Chenchuan of those private chats at night and the restless emotions in the air at that time.He turned his face away uncomfortably: "The water should be cold, take your medicine—"

"Xu Chenchuan, why haven't you left yet?"

This was the first time Bai Qi called him by his name.Xu Chenchuan was refuted for no reason, and immediately couldn't get off the stage, he could only tell himself that he didn't have the same knowledge as this cactus: "Excuse me, I'm leaving now."

"You can't go away even if you're scared, and you can't get angry. You'll come back after you leave..." Bai Qi said to himself, "Where is your bottom line?"

……

Oh, that's what it means.

Xu Chenchuan was silent for a while: "I don't know either."

Sometimes he feels that his bottom line is not low, but as long as he is facing this person, it is as if it does not exist.

Since when?For what reason?

"I don't know." He said it again, as if answering himself.

Bai Qi lowered his eyes slightly: "Chris."

It was as if the deep well water was rippling slightly, there was pain in that voice, it was too thin to form a shape, and it disappeared in an instant.

This person is really... so wrong today.

Being summoned, Xu Chenchuan had mixed feelings in his heart, secretly guessing that people who are sick are more fragile.The atmosphere was slipping in a dangerous direction, and he didn't want to take advantage of others' danger, so he said in a muffled voice, "Go to rest early and recuperate well."

Bai Qi silently raised his water glass, raised his head and swallowed the pills, slid down and stretched out his hand to him.

Xu Chenchuan thought that he was going to help him by himself, so he took two steps forward and bent down.Before his hands touched Bai Qi's body, he felt warmth covering his eyelids.

Bai Qi's fingertips brushed over the thin skin with blood vessels very slowly, as if he was tracing the shape of the peach blossom eyes over and over again.Pressing the fingertips on the eyelids, revealing a sense of oppression, Xu Chenchuan's heartbeat accelerated involuntarily, pounding against his chest.Being so close, he thought the other party must have heard it.

Everything happens in an instant.

However, like a slow-motion stream of consciousness, he clearly decomposes the soft touch on his lips, the eyebrows and eyes of the other party who are suddenly close at hand, the darkness that descends after closing his eyes, the bitter taste in Bai Qi's mouth, and the abnormal heat emitted from his body , the coldness of the surrounding air.

An uncanny silence fell over the world.

Years of moss on the wall of the well spread to the hair and skin, dyeing the two of them into a piece of greenery.

Bai Qi didn't deepen the kiss, let go of him lightly, lay down on his own, and closed his eyes wearily.

Xu Chenchuan held his breath and did not dare to speak, nervously waiting for him to say something.After a while, I heard his breathing gradually calmed down, and he fell asleep just like that.

Xu Chenchuan was stunned for a long time, then tiptoed up and walked out like sleepwalking.