Ha ha

Bai Qi looked at the chair he was sitting on just now, and then at the screen, and suddenly felt that the next season became a little bit more worth looking forward to.

The weather was already very cold, and the heating inside the house dyed a thin layer of white mist on the glass windows.

Xu Chenchuan soon came back with two cups of hot water, handed one cup to Bai Qi, and covered his hands with one cup himself.Wrapped in a sweater, he curled his long legs up on the chair, his whole body huddled up, like a squirrel holding grain.

Xu Chenchuan glanced at the screen: "Pfft, you forgot to change your number again..."

After nearly a year, the two began to share the same Penguin transfer file again, and everyone in the group was no wonder they didn't bother to complain.

[Later-Awen]: "You two went to see the ♂ cherry blossoms ♂ again?"

【Translation-Cat Grass】: "It's obvious that only Narcissus can see it in this winter!"

[Film Source - The Second Uncle Is Not Su]: "You forgot plum blossoms."

[Later stage - Phytophthora]: "Ah yes! Plum blossoms! Ajia, Ajia, shall we go to see plum blossoms someday?"

【Translation-Yu Tarasang】: "......... overthrow the table! My old lady can't take it anymore! This group can't stay anymore! In short, set fire to kill the heterosexual couple first!!!"

【Translation-Cat Grass】: "Hahahaha burn burn burn!"

Everyone in this group is busy now, and they will all appear only when the play is on.Xu Chenchuan thought that he would bid farewell to several people in the near future, so he felt sad, took out his mobile phone and went online to join in the fun: "Support!"

【Translation-Yu Tarasang】: "Support is useless, the heterosexuality will burn you!"

[Translation-Chris]: "QAQ..."

[Supervisor-Passerby A]: "→→ Try it"

[Later stage - Shanglu]: "Ajia, don't panic, hold me tight!"

[Supervisor-Passerby A]: "→→Hold yourself tight"

[Film Source - The Second Uncle Is Not Su]: "Hahahahahaha comes from the disgust of the goddess"

[Later stage - Phytophthora]: "QAQ..."

【Translation-Chris】: "Hehe, try it"

……

【Translation-Yu Tarasang】: "Damn, what a trough, my God, I was wrong! In the ice and snow, Thomas turned 720 degrees and knelt down and begged for mercy!"

Bai Qi looked at Xu Chenchuan who was twitching with a smile, turned off the computer, pulled the wheelchair back a little, and slowly stood up while supporting the table.

Xu Chenchuan quickly stood up and supported him: "Go to bed?"

"Well, my waist is a little sore."

The layout of Bai Qi's bedroom, the computer desk is only a few steps away from the bed, and he has to walk these few steps recently.

"Today's recovery time is too long, next time I have to take it slowly." Xu Chenchuan supported Bai Qi, sharing part of his body weight, and carefully watched his steps.Bai Qi's remaining muscles can only allow him to take small steps, and he can't walk steadily if he is shaking, and he will fall if he is not careful.

Bai Qi sat on the bed, moved his two legs up, and watched Xu Chenchuan lower his head and rub them carefully.

There was silence all around, except for the dull sound of the heater running.

"That's about it."

"What?" Xu Chenchuan raised his eyes.

"In the future, the speed of recovery will become slower and slower. When it reaches a certain level, it can only be maintained, and there will be no improvement." After all, the body has been permanently damaged, and it is foolish to want to recover.

Xu Chenchuan nodded: "I know." He touched Bai Qi's legs, as if comforting them, "It's already pretty good."

Bai Qi looked at him without saying a word.

Xu Chenchuan was afraid that he would be sad, so he changed the subject while massaging: "By the way, what did you tell my dad that day? It's amazing, the effect is astonishing."

After that day, his parents didn't ask much about him and Bai Qi's affairs. Although their attitude could not be called positive approval, they could be regarded as letting it go.Sometimes he accompanied Bai Qi until very late in recovery, and stayed at Bai Qi's house by the way, and his parents didn't say anything.

"I just made some guarantees." In fact, Bai Qi himself did not expect to pass the test so smoothly.

Xu Chenchuan glanced at him with a smile: "What did you promise, let's hear it."

Xu Chenchuan's usual demeanor neutralized the impression of those peach blossom eyes. At this time, with a hint of ridicule, he immediately looked coquettish and gentle.Bai Qi's heart moved, he stretched out his hand to pull him in front of him, bowed his head and kissed him at the corner of his eyes.

Xu Chenchuan was stunned for a moment before he came to his senses, raised his hand with a smile and pressed the place touched by his lips: "You seem to like kissing here very much?" Speaking of the first kiss between the two, Bai Qi had gently stroked it. own eyelids.It was a strange movement, and he never forgot it.

"I like them all." Bai Qi proved it with practical actions, and kissed him on the mouth again.

Xu Chenchuan closed his eyes.Love words come out of this guy's mouth...it really doesn't leave a way for people to survive.

He always had the illusion that Bai Qi's thin lips would be as cold and sharp as a blade, but when he actually touched them, they were just ordinary flesh and blood that was warm and soft.

A pair of arms wrapped around his body, wrapping him firmly in his arms.It felt so good, so dizzying, that it could go on indefinitely.

A slow kiss started to get out of control at the end, Xu Chenchuan blushed and withdrew, wiped the corners of his mouth, a little panting: "I'm going to take a shower..."

If he stays any longer, he's really going to miss out. Bai Qi just finished his rehabilitation today, and his body is too exhausted. He should at least wait until tomorrow.

"Go." Bai Qi said.

Xu Chenchuan pulled the quilt to cover his legs, kissed him again, and then left.

Bai Qi watched him walk into the bathroom, and after a while there was the sound of rushing water.Bai Qi sat on the spot for a while, then lay back on the pillow, looking at the ceiling above.

When he met Xu Chenchuan for the first time in the bookstore, he didn't look directly at Xu Chenchuan.

It wasn't until the photo of the clumsy newcomer broke out in the penguin colony that he felt surprisingly familiar.

Those peach blossom eyes that smiled before saying a word seemed to have been scrutinized thousands of times by him against the light, so that every inch of the corners of the eyes and brows could be discerned the pity of God's will.

How could he not be familiar with it? For a long time, almost every day, he would take out the old torn paper from the drawer and stare at the eyes in the painting for a while.

When the piece of paper fell out of Gu Shuying's wallet, they had just finished their peaceful and friendly breakup meal and were about to pay their bills and leave separately.Perhaps in order to maintain the dignity until the end, both of them insisted on paying, so they had to decide to share it equally.

As soon as Bai Qi put the money on the table, he saw a piece of paper floating on the ground beside his feet.

Gu Shuying stood up suddenly, and ran over to pick it up.Bai Qi moved even faster, and had already taken it into his hand to check.

It was a small and beautiful sketch. The man in the painting had a serious face, but there was a gentle smile in his eyes.Even people who don't know how to paint can detect the hidden longing from such delicate brushstrokes.

Bai Qi pinched the painting and raised the corners of his mouth.

For so many years, in Gu Shuying's paintings, he has never had any facial features, but always has a blank face, frozen in love, hate, sorrow and joy like polar ice.

"Who is this?" Bai Qi asked.The sentence spit out from between the lips and teeth, as disgusting as chewing on a fly.

Gu Shuying panicked for a moment: "It's not anyone."

"Really." Bai Qi nodded, "Then let me ask another question. Since when did you hide this painting in your wallet?"

He was angry and humiliated, as if he had been slapped in public, crushing all the arrogance of his life into the mud under his feet.In addition, he was still a little unbelievable that the person he had a crush on would do such a shameless thing.

Gu Shuying probably also felt that she had been refuted, she frowned and said, "You misunderstood, this was after we broke up—"

"After we broke up?" Bai Qi laughed more and more ironically, "Two months? Your new chapter is turning fast enough. Did you go out to find someone the day you moved away from my house?"

Gu Shuying's face turned pale from being stabbed, but she resisted the attack. Instead, she looked at him with almost sad eyes, and explained in a good voice: "I didn't look for him, and he didn't know about it. I was in a bad mood a while ago. Not good, I always get distracted when I do things, and I made mistakes several times at work. He talked to me and sat with me to enlighten me for a long time, and I don’t know why I suddenly..."

"Oh—so he's a good colleague." Bai Qi's tone can burn a layer of blisters on people's skin.When I was with Gu Shuying, all the meanness and darkness that I had tried my best to suppress in order to maintain the state of "together" all burst out at this moment.

"He really doesn't know, it's me who got crazy for no reason." Gu Shuying emphasized again, although such emphasis made his expression painful, "He is a straight man with a wife and children..."

"Then you are really cheap."

Gu Shuying looked like she really wanted to splash the tea on Bai Qi's face.

He took a deep breath and said with the last patience: "From the past to the future, I will never be able to tell him."

"Do you think I will believe it?" Bai Qi followed his words and went back.

Gu Shuying finally couldn't bear it anymore: "Believe it or not, do my shit! I'm not obligated to be humiliated by you!" After yelling, he left and rushed out the door. The people around the restaurant were all watching the show. Looking at Bai Qi.

Bai Qi almost gritted his teeth, stood up and ran to the street after him.

……

noise.

"What qualifications do you have to love someone? Don't be kidding! You won't even know how to write love in your life!"

The voices of passers-by.

"I'd be happier just looking for a dog than staying with you!"

"Really, why don't you ask that dog if he likes you?"

"Why don't you die, Bai Qi? Why don't you stay with your thorns all over your body?"

The screech of brakes.

With a bang, the world he knew was reduced to debris and stardust.

……

"Mr. Bai, this is what you brought with you when you were brought into the hospital. Can I put it here?" The young nurse carefully looked at his expression, but he was lying on the bed like a sculpture, motionless.The nurse put a few things stained with brown blood on the bedside table and left silently.

He slowly moved his body as if it didn't belong to him, stretched out his hand to grab the painting, raised it in front of him with all his strength, and tore it into pieces.

But he hesitated before throwing it away, and he saw those slightly smiling eyes.

Bai Qi didn't know who it was, and he didn't intend to find out.He couldn't tell what kind of mood he was in, which made him leave that small fragment in the end.From then on, every time he looked closely under the lamp, Gu Shuying's screams before his death would echo in his ears.

You don't even know how to write the word love in this life... It completely denied him, bound him out of this colorful world like a curse, but it was like the song of a siren, giving him the ultimate Fatal Attraction.

Bai Qi couldn't help thinking, did Gu Shuying know?In the last two months of her life, did Gu Shuying experience love alone?

He pondered the same question over and over again, at first he was numb and numb like death, and later he recovered some pain, but he also brought resentment and unwillingness.After that, even Gu Shuying's appearance began to blur, but this unanswerable question became clearer and stronger.

What kind of taste would it be if you are not qualified to understand it?

His parents did not teach him, and the relatives, acquaintances he met in his life, and even the strangers who passed by, never told him.He always looks at the world as if watching an interesting show, but he never takes a step into the screen.He thought that he could live forever by binding himself firmly with another person, so he did not hesitate to distort his nature, but Gu Shuying judged him to be wrong in the most tragic way.

Bai Qi used his fingertips to trace the pencil lines in the fragment little by little, imagining the emotions they carried when they landed on the paper.

Is it anxiety?Are you excited?Is it pure overflowing joy, or is it mixed with tearing sadness?

He has emptied his heart, and he can't take out such a rich feeling.

Unlike most ruthless people in the world, Bai Qi has always had a paranoid desire that is almost shameful for emotions that he cannot produce.Those eyes became a secret talisman that he could not break, hiding in it a difficult and complicated problem that he would not be able to solve for the rest of his life.

He was already ready to find the answer in his next life.

Until that day, in the shady tea house after the shower, he knocked over the teacup with trembling fingers, and the peach-eyed boy ran towards him anxiously.

"Are you okay? Is it hot?"

It is obviously a different face and temperament, but it has overlapping eyes like fate.

Bai Qi put away the phone with the screen turned on, raised his eyes and looked into the depths of the boy's pupils, and saw his three souls and seven souls clearly.

The first acquaintance with Jun seems to be an old friend.