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Shadow IV Knot-3

The crew was still filming after lunch, and refused Xiao Liu's offer to send him to the filming location, Fang Yisheng stayed in the luxury suite.The busyness and pressure of the days made him want to catch up on sleep whenever he had some spare time. Naturally, while waiting for Wei Nanjun to come back, he leaned on the sofa and fell asleep.

Before falling asleep, he was thinking about the rest of the work, and how to make up for the progress of the two days behind when he went back.

When Wei Nanjun came back, he saw him sleeping on the sofa. He felt warm and distressed. He casually hung his coat on the rack. He squatted beside Fang Yisheng and looked at him softly.

Even when the young man fell asleep, his heart seemed to be burdened with heavy burdens, and his brows were frowning.

It was hard for him to imagine that such a person was about to let go when he was young. Does his family know about his suicide?What happened afterwards that made him no longer in touch with his relatives?

Fang Yi kept silent about these matters, even if he asked, he could only say nothing.

Sitting cross-legged on the edge of the sofa, he stared at this young man who he thought he had figured out, but in fact he only saw a layer of painted skin.Fang Yi's voice is not difficult to understand, but he habitually uses silence to cover up all the feelings he has encountered. If he doesn't pay attention, he is confused by his honest appearance and fails to discover the true feelings suppressed in his heart.

How much hatred and determination does it take to decide to end your own life?He even dared to do it. Many people have been tortured by reality, and they have been turned into human beings, and they don't have the courage to die.

Is it because I was too young at the time, ignorant and fearless courage?Would he still have these thoughts now?

Wei Nanjun reviewed himself, and felt that Fang Yisheng's honesty and beauty disrupted his plan time and time again, and he hadn't really gotten a glimpse of his innermost being until now.

Maybe it was because his gaze was too piercing, or it could be that Fang Yisheng was not fast asleep. He frowned and opened his eyes, only to see Wei Nanjun leaning on the sofa and looking at him.

"When did you come back?" There was heating in the room, which made the mind of the person who had just woken up even more confused.

Fang Yi, who was about to get up, pressed back on the sofa, and Wei Nanjun sat down beside him, bending down to look at him. "Am I being too capricious? I know you are tired, but I still let you come here."

Fang Yisheng hadn't recovered yet, but he touched Wei Nanjun's head honestly with his hand, and put it on his back as a matter of course. "I came here on my own."

Staring at the young man, Wei Nanjun sighed softly. "I thought for a long time and felt that I should apologize to you in person. I have always been alone, and I have never experienced what it is like to be controlled. I am not talking about the kind of sister Yan, but a more intimate relationship. You just said that day What you should say is that I overreacted."

Fang Yi was silent.He was in a mess when the two of them got along, and now that he had been apologized, he still didn't know what to say.

Taking Fang Yisheng's hand hanging by his side, Wei Nanjun kissed the back of it. "Shall we explore together?"

Seeing Wei Nanjun's focused expression, Fang Yisheng rarely understood the meaning behind his words. He subconsciously wanted to withdraw his hand, but was held even tighter.

"You will know my itinerary in the future. I will call you every morning when you wake up, and I will notify you when I return to my room after work. You will know everything about me." Said softly, Wei Nanjun He bent down and pressed a kiss on the young man's forehead. "You will have the keys to my house, you can throw away the furniture you don't like at will, you can pick and choose the clothes I wear, and you will take care of everything about me, okay?"

Intimate contact can no longer easily provoke Fang Yisheng, but these soft words made his heart beat faster, and he was almost out of breath.

"I will tell you about my big and small things, work, and life. I have many shortcomings, such as picky eaters, and I am very impatient and casual about all kinds of problems that come with work. You can tell me about these. "He paused, and the sweet-talked-about person also spoke stiffly and awkwardly. "I want you to hold my hand and be my closest person."

Fang Yisheng's mind was buzzing, blank, his heartbeat was so fast that he felt short of breath, but his hands and feet were tense and cold.

He, the one who was being confessed, was also overheated with nervousness, and couldn't react to anything.

"Yi sound..."

"I want to think about it..." Fang Yisheng forced himself to squeeze out the words.

These words were like a needle piercing Wei Nanjun's human-shaped balloon, and he lay shriveled on Fang Yisheng's body, excruciatingly painful. "I don't know if I have the courage to say these words again... What else are you thinking about? Why didn't you promise me? Why?"

Fang Yisheng can only say that he has not had the courage to take that step. This step is not just from being single to having a partner. This can be regarded as an earth-shaking change in his outlook on life and values. Coping with various problems that may arise from coordination.

"Why me? Have you met more people with outstanding looks and abilities? I feel that I am very ordinary. The gap between me and you is so big. I have never understood why you treat me in such a short time together. generate these thoughts."

Leaning against the young man and listening to his chaotic heartbeat, Wei Nanjun sighed. "Fate, what can I say. The outstanding men I met were all work partners. I have no fantasies about this kind of people. In this circle, they are always packaged very beautifully. No one can see what is hidden under the wrapping paper." What is it?"

Not to mention the fact that the first person he felt was a senior in the industry, Wei Nanjun has shadows, he can talk about it calmly now, but back then he was really frightened by the sudden desire He has gained a lot, and until today he still subconsciously erased all possibilities with the insiders.

"Is this a reason?" Fang Yisheng always felt as if he was about to be led into the ditch again.

It’s not just that you can only meet colleagues at work in daily life, you will always meet others, right? It’s impossible for a 33-year-old man not to be able to meet someone who is in his heart?

As far as Chen Yanting's performance is concerned, he really doesn't have a date, maybe he hasn't even had a one-night stand.

Why is that?

It makes sense for Fang Yisheng to control himself strictly, but Wei Nanjun has no reason at all.

"As long as you want to play, all circles are dirty and messy." Wei Nanjun said softly. "I can't guarantee that I won't meet someone who wants to play, or once loved to play. I think it has something to do with my growing up. I don't want to play. I want to have a family. The person in the family will love me and love me baby I."

Fang Yisheng's chest choked up, his eyes were inexplicably hot, and he hugged Wei Nanjun tightly to cover up.

"I don't want to guess what the other half is thinking, I don't want to find out what he is like outside, this kind of thinking will be laughed at as whimsical, and I will never be able to find a partner in my life, but if I find a partner, it will be more It's heartbreak and suspicion, why would I let myself live like that?"

Fang Yisheng has never thought about these questions. Many people will fantasize about their future partner and list many conditions. Fang Yisheng has never done these things before. He insulates himself from the outside, so he actually does not understand what Wei Nanjun said. deep.

"Yisheng, maybe what you care about is not what I care about. I like you not because you have any earth-shattering advantages, but because you make me feel at ease, and I feel at ease when I am by your side." Wei Nanjun laughed at himself Laughed a bit. "That's all the 33-year-old man wants. I just want to live with someone who can stay with me."

Love and marriage do not hold their value, and with time and friction, they will even become cheap and odious. This is inevitable. When a person changes from being alone to running in with another person, to accept and tolerate everything about that person, it is like If you collide with another person with your own edges and corners, you can last longer if you love deeply, but if you have shallow love, you will easily see each other and hate each other.

It takes great courage to make up your mind to stay with someone, to bravely bear all kinds of friction that may occur, and even be prepared to lose, how painful it is to break up.

Wei Nanjun also thought about this problem, but in the end he felt that it was mediocrity. He just wanted to make a move, and he just wanted to hold Fang Yisheng firmly. Those deliberations were fart, and no matter how much he thought about it, he couldn't match the desire in his heart.

Stalking, sweet talk, as long as Fang Yisheng can look at him more and love him more, he can do anything.

That being the case, what is there to say.

Wei Nanjun looked up at Fang Yisheng. "Baby, feel your conscience and be honest, am I the one you want? Can you imagine spending your whole life with me?"

Fang Yisheng ran his hands along Wei Nanjun's hair. "I have a lot of problems, I don't look human at all when I get sick, and I don't really feel like a human..."

"You are." Wei Nanjun cut off his words firmly. "I'm leaning on your heart, listening to your heartbeat and your troubles. If you care about that, I can tell you directly. I don't care."

Fang Yisheng tightened his hands, and gently held the man's hair with five fingers. "I am also very scared. I am not a very courageous person. I have thought about it for a long time and I have not figured out what to do if one day our affairs are leaked. I still dare not imagine going through the experience of being pointed and scolded again. Days, I even feel that it is a burden to keep you in my heart and get along with you."

Fang Yisheng himself understood the truth, but he couldn't make a decision.Wei Nanjun is like an expensive and beautiful luxury item. He really wants it, but he hesitates whether he should really invest in it.

does it worth?Is this man worthy of a radical change in his lifestyle?

does it worth?To take risks for him that he shied away from?

Isn't it worth it?

But he really likes it.

Fang Yisheng hugged the man on his body tightly, smelling his scent. "I don't know if changing for you will make me regret it."

No one can say for sure what will happen in the future, maybe they will become a couple, or they may become enemies who hate each other, even Wei Nanjun, at this moment, he can't say for sure, let alone make a promise at this moment.

"Can you give me some more time to think about it? I will think about these issues more carefully."

Wei Nanjun rubbed Fang Yisheng's neck. "You can't do this, kiss and touch, you won't tell me you have to think about it when you sleep one day?"

"..."

"Or if I let you sleep now, are you willing to promise me?"

Fang Yisheng was once again speechless by his thick skin.

"It's not that you're the only one who worries about gains and losses. I'm very sad that you're like this. I want your promise. Even if I know that a man's promise is shit, I still want to hear you tell me it yourself." Wei Nanjun closed his eyes. Eye. "It's okay to coax me."

This made Fang Yisheng very embarrassed. "I can't help it, that's irresponsible."

Wei Nanjun tore off the small handkerchief again in aggrieved heart.

"As for Lu Ningning, you..."

"I'll follow the company's arrangement." Wei Nanjun replied. "I don't make trouble or mess around. I listen to the company and you."

"..." Fang Yi sighed.

"I want the keys to your house, and I'll give you a pair of mine."

Is there such a strong buy and sell?

Fang Yisheng really felt that he was bullying himself for his honesty and bad tongue, and also bullying him for being soft-hearted.

"You must think I'm bullying you now, but if I don't hold something in my hand, I can't stand it. If you are so indifferent, I don't have anything at hand to make me feel at ease. I will pester you crazy."

"..."

"It's already different between us. It's not the ambiguous stage where we haven't even held hands. If you don't agree to me, I can't let go. I can only pester you more. I really can't slow myself down and come back. To approach you slowly at the friend stage, I need a practical guarantee that lets me know that I am different to you."

To put it bluntly, there is no point in exchanging house keys. Fang Yisheng won’t let him go. So what if he has the key? Fang Yisheng has his key, which doesn’t mean anything. go in?

Wei Nanjun knew that he was too hasty, but who could not be in a hurry when facing someone he likes?

Fang Yi stared at the ceiling, patting the man's back with his hand. "Wei Nanjun, you are really here to beat me."

It was as if the villain filed a complaint first, and Wei Nanjun tore a dozen more towels in his heart.

"I will give you the key, and I will answer the calls you make every day. If you really want me to sleep, then go to sleep... Picky eaters or something, tell me what you don't eat , it’s not too much, I will pay attention to cooking, I don’t understand your work, but I will listen to you if you want to talk.” Fang Yisheng took a deep breath as if wanting to be bold, but then he was discouraged. Exhausted all his ability in this life. "Listen to you, I will listen to you."

In the end, I can only squeeze out this epilogue dryly.

Wei Nanjun's eyes were bright as if he was about to shed tears at any moment.

Burying his face into the young man's arms, all the thousands of words in his mind made him mute, he didn't want to say anything at this moment and couldn't say anything, except for giggling, he couldn't do anything.

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Congratulations, I'm finally free (with tears)