[Titanic] I can't help myself

After afternoon tea, the time period from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-] is the rest time for women. They can take off their corsets, put on loose clothes and stay in the room, and the maids can also take a rest.

I walked through the long corridor printed with the bright red sunset, came to the women's house, and knocked on Rose's door.

"Please wait a moment." The voice of Rose's personal maid, Beth, came out.I stood outside the door for a few minutes before Beth came and opened it for me.

"I'm sorry, Master Henry, the lady was changing just now." Beth curtseyed to me.

"It's okay, I know." I waved my hand and said, "Go out first, I have something to do with Rose."

"Okay, sir."

Rose put on a dark blue lace dress, with her hair loose, lying on her side on the fabric sofa embroidered with beautiful small flowers, holding a book in her hand, with a graceful posture, just like Raphael's portrait of the Virgin Mary .

"Rose..."

"Please don't talk, Henry." She interrupted coldly, "I'm very tired now and don't want to quarrel with you."

"Uh..." I pursed my dry lips, walked to the sofa opposite her and sat down.

Rose is beautiful.She had beautiful red hair with a touch of blond, and redheads were genetically fairer than average, and they were.She has a plump body, not fat and bloated, but uneven. Although her waistline is numerically larger than others, but overall, she is very sexy, full of the unique health and vitality of a girl, and her figure Graceful and elegant.

"Rose, I think I may have found a way to solve the debt." I whispered, "I have a very advanced steelmaking technology, and selling this technology can earn us a lot of money. So cheer up and relax, it's no different than when we were guests here three years ago. Your husband won't necessarily be here. If these gentlemen don't suit you, you don't have to marry any of them one person."

Rose ignored my words, just turned a page and continued reading.

The atmosphere was very awkward, she ignored my existence as always, and I was almost used to it, "We can choose slowly until we choose a good man who is worthy of you, after all, you are only 16 years old. Wait ah Now that Keton's economic situation has improved, we can hold a ball in the manor, invite many young men, observe them carefully, and then wait for your time, in Buckingham Palace..."

"Come on, Honorable Earl of Richardmond," Rose turned another page, her voice was light and ironic, "when the butcher wants to kill a cow for dinner, there is really no need to use it It will be comforted with a steak meal for a king."

She has said similar things more than once.I was still very upset about the accusation that my mother and I were butchers, but I decided to forgive her. After all, I am a man who has more choices and freedom than her.I touched the cuff buttons and tried to say something that would calm the atmosphere, "What do you mean by that? I don't see any similarities between you and a cow. Rose, you are much more beautiful than a cow."

"Jesus... Poor Henry, you really should read more books, so that you don't have to think about using dozens of ties and colorful cuffs to prove your pathetic superiority." Rose sneered contemptuously, and closed the door The book in his hand, "What is the difference between me and a cow? One will be slaughtered to fill other people's stomachs, and the other will be sold to rich people to save the manor of a corrupt nobleman. Whether it is now in Chatsworth , or later in London, it will not make any difference."

Relax, Henry, she's only 16 years old, she's just a second-year middle school girl who still likes brain-dead idol dramas, I said to myself in my heart.So in the end, I just curled my lips in an unnoble manner and rolled my eyes.

Under the guidance of her father, Rose read a lot of books of various types. These books cover everything, so she has high taste, avant-garde thinking, and bold and open mind.And my mother and I only like to read popular novels and travel biographies and the like.As a woman, she has the quality of being eager to learn, has great enthusiasm for knowledge, and is willing to reflect and think about the people and things around her, which is rare in this era.Of course, I would appreciate her more if she didn't always adopt a contemptuous and disgusting attitude towards me and my mother like my father.

"Rose, you don't need to be so afraid." I said softly. "Whether you have any debts in the family or not, you will end up marrying a rich and noble man who must be of good character, good manners, and received Good education. And no matter what, mom won't let you marry a man who would disgrace the Bookett family, such as a divorced and dead old man, or a new rich man. That's better than selling Ake Tonton Abbey hurt her more."

"So? I should thank you, thank you for finding me a good buyer? Thank you for putting me on a silver plate and serving the table of the nobles, instead of being thrown into the bowl of the common people?" She looked up. , looking at me with his chin up, a contemptuous smile curled up at the corner of his mouth.

I took a deep breath and said: "Rose, I don't know what book you read, but the marriage of nobles is not as terrible as you think, look at my aunt and her husband, and Sir Seymour And his wife, they both met in the social season, got married without any emotional basis, and now they are very happy and loving. You are looking at your father and mother, they are talking about love and getting married vigorously, and then what ? After less than a year of marriage, they don't even want to talk to each other."

"That's not love, that's impulsiveness." Rose sneered, with an impatient expression on her face, "Love is the communication of hearts, the blending of souls, two people who love each other, they have to have the same deep Thoughts, similar tastes and hobbies, they are equal in status, respect each other, love each other, understand each other, every casual look, every subtle movement, will have a tacit understanding. But mother can't understand father at all, and neither Unwilling to understand, my father clearly saw the incompatibility between the two, but on impulse, he embraced the ridiculous idea that he could change her after marriage, and got married in a hurry, but the facts told him that the two ideas were not on the same level The Venerable Master, even if they are bound together because of a momentary irrationality, they will never be able to collide with the spark of love."

"It's really not suitable," I said quickly with a straight face, "it's just that Dad is completely and completely unworthy of Mom. Don't forget, how many years he has been able to be his earl so easily. Who is the poet? Credit, and now we are in such a deep situation and who caused it. Oh, God, what am I talking about with you?" I noticed that the topic was off, pinched the bridge of my nose in frustration, and continued.

"Rose, what on earth are you going to say? You don't want a marriage without an emotional basis, then we can slowly pick someone who can share the same language with you. But you killed all the nobles with one shot, then what do you want? Who do you have in common with?" I said helplessly, loosening my neckline exhaustedly, "If there is no one in the same class as you, with the same education, where do you want to find that person? I don't look down on you. Common people, but you have to admit that there are very big differences between them and us in various aspects such as thinking, behavior, education level, etc., which are enough to kill the most passionate love."

"Don't think that I'm the same as you, I don't have any common language with you." Rose sat up and looked at me sideways, "Men of this class know how to brag and talk big, and women know how to talk about other people's family. Gossip, gossip, it's the most boring, the most pathetic! What if..."

"Honey, who are you calling sad?" The door suddenly opened, and the mother floated in like a ghost.She was still wearing the dress she had worn for afternoon tea.

Rose was obviously taken aback. She stood up and said submissively, "Mom..."

I also said: "Mom."

Mother came over, touched my face, and said to Rose, "Are you bullying your brother again?"

Rose bowed her head and remained silent.No matter how much she expresses her disdain and dissatisfaction with her mother behind her back, in front of her mother, she will always be gentle like a little rabbit and dare not resist at all.This is the majesty accumulated by the mother's housekeeper for more than 20 years.

"I see that you are very unhappy today, so I will ask Henry to enlighten you. Why, did he say something inappropriate that made you angry?" The mother sat on the sofa, her tone was soft, but there was a sense of calm and prestige momentum.

"I, I..." Rose's eyes wandered, she quickly glanced at her mother, and then looked at the vase filled with flowers, "Mom, I, uh, I heard, from Henry, that he has found a way to earn money. The method of money can solve Acton's debts, am I..."

"That's a man's business, Rose." The mother smiled, and the smile on her face was like a delicate mask that almost never took off. "And our women's business is to find you a good husband."

"But, but..." Rose's eyes widened. She almost glanced at me with a resentful expression, and then looked at her mother pleadingly.

"My dear, the golden turtle will not be here all the time, you have to hurry up." The mother stood up again, gently stroking Rose's curly hair, "Your Aunt Edith is a very warm-hearted and kind person. She, we can only sell the property for a long time, and go to wash clothes and garden for people to pay off the debt. I hope you will be happy and don't forget the education you have received. Don't be so selfish, your father was selfish all his life, I just I can bear him, but you are different, understand?"

Rose lowered her head weakly, as if she was frightened, she shrank her head and nodded.

"Very good, sweetheart, you can rest for a while, it's time to prepare for dinner." The mother smiled with satisfaction, lifted her chin with her index and middle fingers and said, "Smile more, no one wants to kiss A stern-faced girl."

I followed my mother and escorted her back to her room.

Rose's distraught expression still appeared in front of my eyes, and I said with some anxiety: "Mom, I have already promised Rose that if I can solve Acton's debt problem, I will let her get married later and choose her slowly." The man I like. After all, if Acton can continue, I can't find a reason for her to get engaged before she is a teenager."

"Henry, you are always so kind." Mother stopped and looked at me. "If she was like your cousins ​​Rosemead and Georgina, of course I could wait, but you look at her. The thing I regret most , just to let your father educate Rose casually." Speaking of father, a trace of resentment appeared on the mother's face.

I patted my mother's hand for comfort.

Fortunately, she has not been immersed in the past for too long: "Rose's mind is full of inappropriate things. She is still young, and others will say it is because she is young and ignorant. But if she is still like this when she is 20 years old, others will It will be said that she is willing to degenerate, and when the time comes, she will not be able to marry even if she wants to."

"If Acton can give her a large dowry, I don't have to worry about not having a suitable candidate." I whispered, "Besides, it's not a big deal to obey her wishes and let her marry someone she likes." It's a matter, Bucket and I are here."

"You're only 15 years old. It's not that I look down on you, my child. By the time you support Acton, Rose has become an old girl." The mother sighed and said, "Not to mention the latter, Rose's brain I don’t know what I’m thinking, in case she wants to marry an upstart or a commoner, oh, God.” She quickly crossed her chest, “No door of high society will be open to us again !"

"Money is enough, gold nuggets can definitely break open any door." I muttered softly.

My mother slapped my hand, stared at me and said in surprise: "God, why do you have such vulgar ideas like nouveau riche? Who do you think we are? Don't be naive like your sister, the reason why nobles Being able to dominate everyone is not only because of money. Also," she grabbed my wrist suddenly, and said seriously: "You are my son, I know what you are capable of. Don't be like your father, you are useless. What a delusion to make a fortune. When the debt is paid off, we will manage the land honestly, at least we can maintain our face."

"You can't trust me just once?" I smiled helplessly.

"You have not been smart since you were a child. I know better than anyone else." Mother let out a long sigh of relief. At this time, we had reached the door of Mother's room. I asked her to open the door. Her personal maid Sarah had already The clothes she wants to change are ready, "You don't have to worry about Rose, Edith is really thinking about us, the male guests she invited are all good in terms of financial status, character and personality, all of them The hottest young man in London, no matter which one, is absolutely worthy of Rose."

"But Rose doesn't like them. If Acton can be brought back to life, so what if I keep her forever..." I shut my mouth embarrassingly under her gaze.

"Like it? So what." The mother sneered, "If she really lacks love, after she gets married, she can secretly raise a lover. As long as she doesn't hurt her husband's face."

This is the sadness and helplessness of women in this era.I cannot say that the mother is wrong, nor can I accuse Rose of being wrong.I was caught in the middle and couldn't do anything.And all I can do is to try my best to save Bukett. At least if Rose wants to divorce in the future, I can at least find another husband for her.