[Titanic] I can't help myself

(The emotional line outside this episode has nothing to do with the main text, Henry only likes Carl, the main text is Carl X Henry 1V1, cousin cannon fodder is unshakable)

Ruth, Countess of Richardmond, is William's aunt. Although one is a duchess and the other is a countess, this has not affected the relationship between the two sisters, and the two families have always been in close contact. ) when he was a child, he could often see Aunt Ruth visiting Chatsworth, and later she brought two children who were more beautiful than the most exquisite china dolls, especially the boy named Henry, who was very cute, The Duchess always held him tightly, often regretting that she did not have a daughter as beautiful as Henry.

But at that time, he stayed in London to study all year round, and he didn't have much time to go home. Even if he met, he never said anything beyond the scope of polite greetings, so he had only a limited impression of these two little cousins ​​who were ten years younger than him. Staying at the level of being extremely good-looking, there is nothing more.Until he finished his honeymoon and was sent by his mother to Acton to comfort her sister who had suffered a severe blow.

William has never been very fond of the uncle of the earl. That man is full of unrealistic fantasies, immersed in the utopia created by poetry, unable to extricate himself, despising his "evil" identity but inseparable from the convenience it brings , has never been willing to pay any attention to managing the property, but the only intervention has pushed the entire family into a desperate situation.I only feel sorry for my aunt and those two beautiful cousins. I am afraid that they will have to sell their properties and leave the upper class in the near future, and become another example of how unreliable illusory investment is.William thought indifferently while sitting on the train to Acton.

But these cold and heartless thoughts disappeared in an instant when he got out of the car and said hello to the Bucket family.

He just felt that everything was different in an instant, as if his heart was as indestructible and unshakable as a diamond in the past 22 years, and when he and his eyes met, it turned into a soft fluff, It's still the kind of thin and short fluff on the body of a newborn puppy, and the touch makes people want to cry.

You're done, William DeWitt Wyatt, you're done!

He shouted in his heart.Reason told him he'd better turn around, get in the car and leave, and never set foot in Acton for the rest of his life, and his heart urged him to step up and say hello to the boy like an affectionate cousin He also opened his enthusiastic arms, and then took that slender body into his arms logically.

This battle between heaven and man lasted only a second, and the sanity was completely killed.Reluctantly maintaining his demeanor, William kissed the backs of his aunt and Rose's hands, and finally smoothly held the hand extended by his cousin.

At that moment, he only felt as if he was holding the angel's hand.

The noble quality of selfless dedication, which has been dead for a long time in William, has been revived with vitality and youth.Earl Richardmond locked himself in his study every day, immersing himself in alcohol and writing and refusing to face reality, so William took over the work that the Earl should do as it should.He was enthusiastic about solving various matters for the Booketts, minimizing Acton's losses, negotiating with aggressive creditors, relaxing the deadline for repayment, and even working with Aunt Ruth to restore all of Acton's property. He sorted through his estates, not remembering that before he came to Acton, he was just trying to fool his mother so that he could go home quickly.

After staying for half a year, Acton's rapid slide into the bottomless abyss finally stopped an inch from the edge of the cliff and stabilized, and the relationship between him and Henry changed from "cousin William" to "cousin Henry" Evolved into "William" and "My Dear Henry".Then His Excellency the Duke reluctantly bid farewell to his young sweetheart and returned to Chatsworth.

The old Duchess was very satisfied with what William had done for Acton. She thought that with William's indifferent character, she would not do any unnecessary things unless she was forced to do so.How could she have thought that the source of all this was actually a secret love that cannot be tolerated by the world.

That Christmas became the most painful Christmas since William was born. He suffered from missing every day, and his whole body looked haggard, exhausted and full of passion. Because of the newlyweds, but the old Duchess saw something different.

"Did something happen when I went to Acton this time?" The old Duchess asked William to talk in private.

William only felt a severe convulsion in his heart, which almost made him breathless, but the next sentence immediately reassured him.

"Have you fallen in love with any woman? Don't try to lie to me. I'm your mother and I know everything. "

He weighed it for a moment before deciding to be half-truthful, "Yes, Mom. I've never felt alive like I am now, ever."

Edith looked at his frightening son with a thin face but bright eyes, and sighed. He only felt that the impulsiveness and passion of his son's youth seemed to have all piled up and exploded now. A mother can't escape facing such a rebellious child. moment.But she also knows that suppression is the best fertilizer for those untimely emotions to grow.

So she decided to turn a blind eye to this matter, as long as there was no unmanageable scandal, she only warned: "Don't let others know about this matter."

"I know the measure."

Therefore, William's frequent trips to Acton have a good reason. Others only think that it is the request of the old Duchess, and the old Duchess thinks that it is to meet the mysterious woman who has taken all of William's mind.

Twelve-year-old Henry is like a lily that has just sprouted buds, slender and fragile.William cared for him carefully, trying his best to create a perfect image of a gentleman in front of him.He didn't dare to say a single ambiguous word, or make any impolite physical contact, because the child's eyes possessed the penetrating peculiarity of a child, but not the daze of ignorance of the world, and the clarity of seeing everything as if he had gone through a thousand sails (liao ).This made William feel that if he dared to cross that line a little bit, even if it was just a touch of his toes, Henry would discover those dark paradoxical feelings.

He maintained his mask of empathy, tenderness, consideration and politeness in pain and happiness, and when he returned to Chatsworth, the beast in his heart was released.At night, like a tyrant, he galloped and whipped the red-haired and blue-eyed personal servant, grabbed the hair of the person under him, pressed his forehead firmly against his forehead, stared at the face that resembled Henry, and asked viciously: "Do you love me? Do you love me?" Then he yelled out Henry's name during orgasm.Only after venting in this way, the next time I see Henry, can I put that crazy beast back in the cage, put on the mask again, and continue to pretend to be my caring cousin.

He intruded into Henry's life little by little, trying to dig out every aspect of the boy, and deliberately let him intrude into his own life, as if the lives of the two could take root in each other's soil, and then become inseparably entangled and become each other. part.

When Henry also reached the age to go to Eton College, the high school fees almost drove the countess crazy.She had a difficult choice between the future of her child and the dignity of the family, and sold the antiques that had been in the collection room for hundreds of years, because the price of those antiques was not high to conceal the origin of these antiques.But what the countess didn't know was that all these antiques were taken back by William, and one of the necklaces, which was a portrait box, was put in Henry's photo by William and worn next to him, because this necklace was once hung around Henry's neck.

William diligently took care of everything Henry needed to go to school, and personally sent him to school. He secretly arranged Henry's dormitory in the same bed as he used to live in, and then pretended to be surprised and said: : "When I was in school, I slept in this bed!"

"Really? What a coincidence!" Henry widened his eyes, not hiding his astonishment. His bright green eyes were as clear as emeralds, and his skin, which was fairer than ordinary people, had a gentle glow, golden red Her short hair was softly attached to her scalp, slightly puffed up, as cute as an innocent squirrel standing in the snow.

William was bewildered by this scene, his mind went blank, he bent down, kissed the boy's slightly opened lips, sucked deeply like tasting a piece of soft candy, took two sips, and then gently picked up the boy He touched his son's face, and stuck his tongue into the warm and humid place he had wanted to go for a long time.

Maybe it's because he's been depressed for too long, maybe it's because the atmosphere is too good, or maybe it's because the thought that his sweetheart will sleep on the bed he once slept in caused his thoughts to weaken his vigilance.But no matter how many reasons it caused, or how convincing it sounded, it couldn't hide the fact that he kissed Henry the way he kissed his lover.

This wet kiss was full of pity and love, as soft as an andante played on a double bass, and before this kiss, all William's kisses, including the first kiss, were the prelude to a big fuck, exciting. Strong as if he was going to bite the other party, full of eroticism.

The end of this kiss was as confusing as its beginning. William only knew that when he realized it, he was hugging Henry, staring blankly at those green eyes.

The sweetness and warmth brought by that kiss dissipated in an instant, and the heart was hit hard.He wanted to scream in despair.What will Henry do?Will you hate him?Will you tell your mother, and then never let yourself get closer in this life?He began to tremble.

Henry blinked his eyes, and his cheeks with a bit of baby fat began to bleed. This shy expression more or less calmed William's fearful heart.But immediately, Henry slowly and firmly pushed William away, turned his back and took out a handkerchief to wipe his mouth, then turned around with a polite and distant smile on his face.

"Sorry, I was distracted just now." Henry's cheeks were still flushed slightly, but his eyes were sober and frightening. "Then next, take me around the campus, Cousin William."

(The emotional line outside this episode has nothing to do with the main text, Henry only likes Carl, the main text is Carl X Henry 1V1, cousin cannon fodder is unshakable)