[Titanic] I can't help myself

"Oh, Tommy, you've lost everything now." James teased Thomas with Uncle Connery, "But I can make you a mattress from a newspaper."

"Is everything gone?" Thomas' eyes widened, looking at his father in horror.

"Sorry, honey, there's nothing left."

"Then, then..." Thomas stammered, "What about Amy? Is Amy still mine?"

"You'll have to ask your Uncle Robert if he'd like to give it back to you."

"Amy?" I asked suspiciously.

"It's the toy dog ​​you gave him when he was born, and he has been cuddling it to sleep." Uncle Connery laughed, knocking the cigar on the ashtray to knock off the ash.

Thomas stared at his watery eyes, glanced at his father, then at Robert, and finally said with tears: "Uncle Robert, can you let me bring out my Amy, that's worthless."

"Don't be sad, your father is lying to you." Robert glared at Uncle Connery and comforted him, "Our bets are very small, even if I win every round, it is impossible to take all of your father's money. win everything."

But this time, Thomas, who had always had no doubts about what Robert said, firmly believed that Robert was just comforting him, and was completely caught in the "bad news" of "soon to become a pauper sleeping on the newspaper".

The adults comforted me for a while, and seeing that it didn't work, they stopped persuading them, and then dealt the cards to start a new round.

This game still looks difficult and confusing to me.I think my mathematical ability is not bad, but I have exhausted all my brain cells just thinking about what cards I should play, so I don't have time to calculate the probability of a card being in someone else's hand.

In the middle of the fight, Thomas suddenly raised his head and said to his father in a cheerful tone: "Dad, I understand! You can marry Uncle Robert home and let him be the mother of me and Madeleine! Mother's It’s my dad’s, and my dad’s is my mom’s, so we don’t have to sleep on the newspaper. And Uncle Robert can teach me to play cards, tell me stories, and teach me to do math problems at home.”

Everyone was stunned for a moment, and then James started to laugh mercilessly. He laughed so hard that he accidentally dropped the cards in his hand, and tears flowed out.A momentary smile appeared on Viscount Stewart's expression, and then he frowned, watching James impolitely leaning on the card table and laughing wildly.And Uncle Connery coughed violently due to choking on the saliva.

So this game is void.Uncle Connery had to spend a long time explaining before Thomas understood that he was indeed joking just now.Thomas, who felt that he had been fooled, rushed out of the chess and card room angrily, and Uncle Connery hurriedly asked the servant to follow him.

I quit the game for the second half and sat next to Uncle Patrick watching them play.No matter what the game is, it's boring to lose all the time, it's better to watch other people play the excitement.

Everyone played until midnight before stopping, and the ladies had already gone back to their rooms to rest.

I exchanged good night with the guests at the landing of the stairs, and when I returned to my room, I just changed into my pajamas when there was a knock on the door.He opened the door and saw that it was Carl.

The drowsiness disappeared without a trace, I swallowed hard, and watched Carl in pajamas slowly walk into the room,

George was packing my clothes when he saw Carl walk in and looked at me hesitantly.I think he knows that I like Carl, and the hesitation now is probably because I am not sure whether my emotions and mind are firm enough to allow me to be alone with Carl.And in fact, I doubt it too.

"What happened?" I quickly put on a smile and asked.

"There's something I want to talk to you about."

"Can't it be tomorrow? It's getting late now."

"It won't take you too long."

He stopped in front of me, less than half a foot between us.I took a small step back nervously, but my feet were caught by the chair, and I fell down on the chair all of a sudden.Carl reached out and grabbed my arm.I was startled by the contact, subconsciously dodged for a while, and wanted to withdraw my arm, but almost fell off the chair again.Carl quickly grabbed my waist and pulled me up.

As soon as I was on my feet, I pushed him away.I had to try to control my strength so that my push would not look like a pre-fight provocation.

"Thank you." I said quickly, leaning against the table, with my fingernails on the edge of the table.

"It's nothing." Carl looked at me, and he didn't try to get closer. "I just have a question to ask you. If I can't solve it, I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep tonight." The meaning of George on the side is self-evident.

I smiled dryly, hesitated and didn't speak.But Carl just stood there looking at me without saying a word.So after a stalemate for a while, all I could do was tell George he could go to rest.George had a hesitant expression, but he left the room obediently.

As soon as the door closed, Carl and I were alone in the room.At that moment, I felt that the air was so thin that I couldn't breathe.

"Come on, what's the matter?" I turned and sat on the sofa, looking up at him.

Carl didn't speak at first, he walked slowly to my side and sat down slowly.I moved uncomfortably, but since I was sitting on the armrest of the sofa, and Carl was sitting next to me on the other side of me, I had nowhere to hide, and it was too strange to get up and change seats... I can only hope that he really just has a little problem.

"You've been avoiding me these days." He said suddenly.

I, who was still struggling with the seat problem, was startled suddenly, and my hands twitched with my fingers intertwined.I squeezed them tightly to cover up, trying to make my tone sound more relaxed.

"Why do you think so? Did I do something to misunderstand you?"

"I should ask you this question. Did I do something wrong?" He put his elbows on his knees and looked at me seriously, "I'm not stupid, how can I not see that you are hiding?" Me? You don't want to be in a room with me alone, and try not to talk to me as much as possible, hiding outside every day."

"The machinery factory is too busy, you know." I said weakly.

"We have clearly discussed that the remaining half will be seen after the New Year. This matter is not so urgent." He interrupted me, "You are avoiding me, Henry. We have always had a good time, haven't we? You've always been a very gentle person, so I figured I must have done something, or said something very outrageous, to piss you off and keep you so far away from me. It bothers me."

"No, it's not your problem." I whispered.

"So you admit that you are avoiding me?" Carl said quickly.

I was startled, and immediately realized that I had said something stupid just now, I couldn't help but pursed my lips in frustration, lowered my head and stared at the pattern of the carpet, and stopped talking.

Carl smiled softly. He stretched out his hand and held mine. I hid for a while, but he still held it in his hand. If I tried to pull it back, it would seem too deliberate.

"I'm sorry," he whispered.

After being silent for a while, I couldn't help asking: "Why do you apologize?"

He tilted his head and thought for a while, "I made you so difficult for me? Hehe, I don't know either. As long as you don't avoid me anymore."

I looked into his eyes, the black eyes were vaguely imprinted with my figure.His warmth is at your fingertips, and your breath is close at hand.

If I could, I would have jumped up and hugged him, told him I was avoiding him because I loved him, because I couldn't stand the fact that he was going to marry Rose, because I couldn't control my feelings anymore. Spread, even if I know that the other party has a clear and definite marriage contract, I am afraid that I will break through my moral bottom line because of jealousy and resentment, and become an ugly third party, despicably stealing other people's happiness.

All thoughts passed in a flash, and in the end I just licked my slightly dry lips and said, "I should be the one apologizing. Sorry for making you feel slighted."

"Don't use such unfamiliar words." He tightened his palms dissatisfied, "Let's stop apologizing like this. Since you don't want to say it, then I won't ask any more. But, let's get along as before, Okay? Let’s go horseback riding tomorrow morning, just the two of us, I want to chat with you.”

"Not tomorrow, Karl. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, and everyone has to decorate the Christmas tree together."

"Ah, I forgot. What a coincidence." Carl frowned deliberately distressed, "Then owe it first, and wait until after Christmas."

"……All right."

Karl seemed contented and stood up, "You rest, I'm going back too. It delayed your sleep time, I hope it won't make you lose your energy tomorrow."

I smiled and watched him go out until he closed the door, barely crawled onto the bed with the last bit of strength, and then collapsed under the quilt as if the string supporting the puppet’s movement was broken in an instant, not wanting to move at all up.

I suddenly felt a little resentful, resentful why Carl was so friendly to me, now I would rather he treat me hypocritically and indifferently like an enemy, and I don’t want to bear his empathy and intimacy like a family.To be honest, I really can't figure out why I have to go through all this. Is it because the window period is too long, and Karl is the first man who suits my appetite?Maybe I should ask James to help me find a lover, whether it is a long-term relationship or a short-term dew. Love. Fate, as long as it can stop me from indulging in this hopeless and sad relationship.

But let’s talk about this later, right now I just hope that when I wake up tomorrow morning, I can accumulate enough courage and strength to make myself look refreshed and happy to face everyone.

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