[Titanic] I can't help myself

The deck was full of people, I bumped into passengers who were in my way a few times, but I didn't bother to apologize, I could only push them aside rudely and continue to run forward.

"Henry!" Karl yelled behind me, "Henry, don't run around!"

I didn't listen to him, I just rushed downstairs quickly.I ran almost to the point of falling, nearly falling on the stairs.I ran down the grand staircase into the hall downstairs.Rose just jumped back to Titanic from this floor.

There were many people standing in the hall, I concentrated all my attention and searched carefully among the crowd, but no one was Rose.She has left.I stood in the hall, looking around in the crowd meaninglessly, and looking at the gates leading to all directions around the hall, I suddenly felt overwhelming despair.

I had no idea where she was going, the Titanic was so big, I had no idea where to find her.And I don't have much time left.what do I do!

"God!" I growled under my breath, pulling my hair and trying to calm myself down.

"Henry!" Carl caught up with me, and he hugged me from behind and dragged me aside, "Calm down! I have asked Mr. Lai Forge to take your servants to find her! I think she should go Find Jack Dawson."

My anger suddenly ignited, and the panic that entangled me eroded all my sanity.

"Damn! FUCK!" I punched the wall next to me, and Carl immediately held my hand to stop me from venting my anger.

I took a few heavy breaths and asked again, "Where will the arrested people on the ship be locked up?"

"Mr. Lai Forge knows where he's going to be locked up." Carl patted me on the back lightly. "They've gone and they'll find her soon. Don't worry. She'll be fine. She'll be locked up soon." Found it, I swear."

Carl seemed very sure, and under his influence, I finally began to calm down gradually.My heart was still pounding, making me uncomfortable.When I came back to my senses, I felt weakness in my limbs and a cold sweat all over my body. Just now, because I ran too hard and inhaled too much cold air, now my trachea is burning and painful, and my chest and stomach seem to be blocked. A large ball of cold and damp wet rags, feeling a little nauseous.

Carl helped me to the nearest chair and sat down, and asked the waiter who was still at his post to bring a glass of wine.I sucked slowly, the alcohol slipped into the esophagus, bringing waves of heat, and I felt much better.

"I want to go back to the room to get some things, money and some seals." Carl put one hand on my back, bent over and said, "Will you go back with me, or stay here and wait for me."

"I want to stay here." I took another sip of my wine, "I'm afraid I'll miss her."

"Forget it, you'd better go with me." Carl took the wine glass in my hand, dragged me up forcibly, and walked to the guest room, "They won't come back so fast, you will only be blind if you stay think."

"You are so annoying!" I struggled, "I said I would stay!"

"I've already told Mr. Lai Fujie that if you find her, bring her to us on deck immediately." Carl grabbed my wrist with one hand, put his arm around my waist with the other, lifted me up with my feet off the ground, and hugged me He strode towards the guest room, "I'm worried about keeping you here. What if you run around too? Where can I find you?"

"I'm not that stupid! Let go!"

He didn't speak anymore, we went back to his room quickly, he put me directly on the table where the safe was placed, and just as I was about to jump off, he held my thigh.

"Don't move around." As he spoke, he unscrewed the safe, took out large stacks of dollars and put them into his pockets, and took some other small items and put them into the pockets of his more fitting clothes. Finally, he took out a square flat box and twisted a blue gemstone necklace from it.

"Heart of the Ocean." He grabbed the huge diamond pendant of the necklace and showed it to me. "This is one of the jobs Mr. Lai Forge came to England to take a picture of this necklace and give it to my beloved as a gift."

"Can we go?" I looked away impatiently.

"Okay." He put away the necklace, found another gun and pinned it to his waist, and handed the other to me, "Take it, just in case."

I look at the pistol.

"At this time, who knows what will happen." He handed the pistol to me again.

"Thanks." I took the pistol and tucked it into my waist like he did.

We're back on deck in the cold.Because some second-class passengers were released, the lifeboat was surrounded by people, and the scene became a little chaotic.There were cries of parting everywhere, mixed with the hoarse voice of the crew, "Are there any women and children!".Many escaped passengers were carrying heavy suitcases, and the crew immediately grabbed them and threw them into the sea: "Don't bring heavy things! Don't bring anything!"

Several women hugged their husbands and cried, "I won't go! I won't go!" before being thrown into the lifeboat by the crew.Several other men tried to board the ship, but were finally yelled back by the crew.

Carl asked me to stand outside the crowd and communicate with the crew of each lifeboat by myself, hoping to get a chance to board.I know that he is an eloquent businessman who can do this kind of thing with ease, and I also know how clumsy I am, and I am afraid that I will interfere with him.

But the crew here are very determined.They rejected Karl with righteous words, and some directly threw away the money that Karl had stuffed in the past.Carl walked through the crowd in embarrassment, with disheveled hair, and the remaining first-class gentlemen all looked at him with disdain.

I felt my eyes sore, and walked quickly to his side.

"Sorry, I have to wait a little longer." Carl touched my head and grinned at me, "Don't worry, there will be a place."

"Let's go to the other side to have a look." I said softly, "There are too many people here, and there are so many pairs of eyes watching, it is impossible to have a chance."

"You're right."

We immediately ran to the starboard side of the Titanic.The port side is full of passengers, while the starboard side has fewer people, perhaps because the starboard side is more inclined, and everyone subconsciously gathers at a higher place.Because of the small number of people, I saw that after all the ladies on the deck boarded the boat, several men were also allowed to board the lifeboat.

The first mate Murdoch is in charge of the lifeboats here.

"Great, so lucky. Murdoch is a sensible person. Wait for me to come back." Carl said softly, walked over and took the opportunity to grab the first mate Murdoch who was maintaining order, and pulled him aside.

The two whispered, and within a few seconds, I saw Carl quickly put a large stack of dollars into the mate's pocket, and then returned to me with a satisfied smile.

"Everything is ready." He held my arm and rubbed it up and down a few times, "Is it cold?"

"It's okay." I shook my head, "Thank you."

"Don't thank me. As long as you forgive me." His hand slid down my arm to my wrist, and then took my hand. "We'll jump on the boat as soon as it's almost full."

"I understand."

Most of the people here are first-class passengers. They have been dawdling, busy saying goodbye to their families reluctantly, so the speed of boarding the ship is not fast.I kept looking around, and every time someone appeared, my heart would constrict with nervousness, but every time, it wasn't Rose.I feel like I'm going to have heart failure.

The lifeboat was almost saturated, and the first mate Murdoch looked back at Carl, who immediately put his arms around my shoulders and led me forward: "It's time to get on the ship, let's go."

"You go first." I stood still, "Rose hasn't been found yet, I want to wait for her."

"Rose will not be in danger." Carl persuaded, "She is a lady, and she has a chance to get on the boat under any circumstances. Come on, let's get on the boat."

"But Jack Dawson can't," I said. "I'm afraid she'll stay because of Dawson. She's too impulsive."

"Dawson loved her so much that he wouldn't let her stay and die with him."

"How do you know he loves her so much? Who can tell what is at stake?"

"If she doesn't get on the boat, you will die here with her?" Carl growled in a low voice.

"...Of course not, I will force her to board the boat. I think Dawson will help too. You see, there are still a few lifeboats here, and I still have time. You go first."

Carl stared at me for a long time, and finally took a deep breath, "Okay, okay. I'll wait with you."

"What are you staying for? Don't waste time because of us." I immediately refused, "I'm enough for myself. You go now."

"What if, I mean, if, what if Rose is not found? Or what if she got on the boat by herself and you don't know?" Carl said quickly, "Are you going to stay in the Waiting for her here, and sinking to the bottom of the sea with Titanic? You want to abandon your mother, abandon Acton, abandon all responsibility like her?"

I closed my eyes agitatedly, and rubbed my face that was numb from the cold, "I, I won't do that kind of stupid thing...but how do you let me get on the boat with peace of mind? If she...if she really died ?Because I didn't wait for her?...God, Carl, don't push me, please? You go, I won't kill myself...I don't want to kill others because of my family business. Go aboard!"

"Then how can you let me board the boat with peace of mind? You clearly know how much I love you, and I am even willing to die for you." Carl held my fingers in his palm, "Speaking of which, if I can prove this One, can you forgive me a little bit?"

"What stupid things!" I scolded, "Don't say such things so easily! How can you make me responsible for your life?"

"Don't be angry, this is just an assumption, I will not give up my life, I will live with you, and beg your forgiveness, and spend the rest of my life with you." Carl gently Squeeze my fingertips.

My heart trembled, and my breathing became disordered for a moment.

"Then get on the boat! Go!" I pushed him.

First officer Murdoch strode over: "What are you waiting for!" He lowered his voice and said anxiously, "Come on board!"

"Let's wait a little longer." Carl held my hand instead and turned to Murdoch and said, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

Murdoch returned to the lifeboat with a straight face, stuffed a few more people into the boat, and began to direct the lifeboat to descend.

Just then, I saw Mr. Lai Fujie running towards us.

Rose found it?I almost held my breath and stretched my neck to look behind him.But I didn't watch any of them.

"Mr. Lai Fujie, where is Rose?" I asked loudly impatiently.

Mr. Lai Fujie quickly replied before stopping: "Sorry, sir, we didn't find her. They ran away..."

"Run, run away..." I felt my breathing stagnate, and my whole body became cold.

Mr. Laforger stopped in front of us, gasping for breath, and said, "Miss Rose took Dawson before us. We saw them later in the crew passage, but they started running as soon as they saw us. They've been Running to the bow, I don't know where to hide, we searched for a long time, but the water kept coming up, and finally we had to come back. I'm sorry, sir."

"You mean...they might be trapped in the bow?" I could hardly speak normally, I could only let the air flow out of my throat and make a hissing sound.

"I don't know, sir. I was separated from your two menservants when we were looking for Miss Rose. Miss Rose may be looking for a way back to the deck, or she may be with the two menservants."

I felt like the Titanic, a big hole was broken somewhere in my body, and the cold sea water rushed in, and my whole body was almost unbearable.

"My God..." I gritted my teeth and tears fell, "My God...I have to find her!"

"Where are you going to find her!" Carl grabbed my shoulders and dragged me back, "Don't be stupid! You don't even know where she is!"

"But...but... how can I just watch her die here without doing anything! She is my relative!" I cried and said, my mind was in a mess, "otherwise what do you think! I what to do!"

"Then you don't care about your mother?" Carl roared, "It's not worth it for her! It's not worth it! There are many people and things that need you! Be sober!"

I held my head, walked around in place, took a deep breath, and quickly carried the multiplication table in my mind to calm myself down.Carl followed me vigilantly, with his arms around my sides to prevent me from escaping.

"How many more ships?" I looked up, counted the time, and said, "I won't give up my life. Give me another 10 minutes, no, 15 minutes, I'll find her for another 15 minutes, In 15 minutes, whether I find her or not, I will be right back!"

The muscles in Carl's face were twitching, his expression patient and irritable.

"Mr. Lai Fujie, go and ask the chief mate if he can wait another 10 minutes."

Mr. Lai Fujie came back soon: "He tried his best. But you have to know that there will be more and more people. The people in the first class have almost all boarded the ship. They will release all the people in the second class. When they come up, When there are too many people, the scene will become chaotic, and finally the third-class people will be added, and at that time he will not be able to guarantee that we will be allowed on board."

"Thank you, Mr. Raffles."

I turned around and was about to run when Carl grabbed my wrist, "I'll go with you before you lose track of time or start being stupid again!"

The author has something to say: Thank you Shui Shui and Xiao Tang for Lei~~Mommada~~I love you~~

Some students expressed that they were too angry with Rose and disappointed with Henry's character: "The Holy Father is so godlike, I really can't bear to look at him directly!"

I'll make an excuse: Henry is not the Holy Father.The reasons are as follows:

What do I think is Our Lady or Father?

One is the kind of steamed stuffed bun, the kind that repays grievances with kindness: someone kills your parents, robs your property, takes away your man/woman, and at the last cry "I'm sorry for you!" Poor man" "I don't blame you for a long time, we are still good friends~".

I think this kind of person is cowardly, or really cold-blooded.After being killed by someone, you have to make excuses for others. This kind of selflessness is really unbearable.

The second is to draw your sword to help when you see injustice.For example, the elder sister in "The Glass Slipper", when she was a child herself, saw a large group of powerful hooligans beating a boy on the road, and immediately jumped out and said, "Don't beat people! My father said that beating people is wrong!" , As a result, she couldn't deal with these hooligans by herself, and her father was beaten up to protect her.

It's obviously not within the scope of my ability, but I have to take care of it. In the end, either someone else contributed in the end, and she/he earned a good reputation, or because I caused trouble, I dragged others down.It's too selfish to let others pay the price because of your kindness.

Above, is what I think the image of the Virgin/Father is.

Let's look at Henry and Rose again.

Rose what did she do?She never harmed Henry, snatched his things, framed him, or did any other disgusting things.She is just too naive and too willful, a little self-important, too idealistic and emotional.For a 16-year-old girl who wants to be in love, has never suffered, and is spoiled, this is not too out of the ordinary.It's annoying, but it's not a big deal.

She didn't think about her brother when the Titanic sank, not because she really didn't think about it at all, but because she thought Henry would be fine.First of all, there is Karl's sworn guarantee.Secondly, the gentlemanly demeanor on the Titanic is actually an accident, and in most shipwrecks, the surviving men accounted for the majority, and the privileged class of the first class did enjoy a lot of special treatment, including more chances of survival.

So Rose needs training, but she's not a bad person.

Look at Henry again, what did he do?He put up with Rose and took care of her in many things.You must know that although Henry is the younger brother, he is actually an uncle. He watched Rose grow up and lived together for 15 years. For him, Rose is like a daughter.The biggest conflict between him and Rose was nothing more than some irrelevant disputes and differences of thought. Rose made him angry, but just because of this, did he not care about her life or death?

Don't forget that they are relatives, and relatives can be entrusted with life and death.Rose is going to die. Could it be that Henry should just say die?If so, it would be too cold. . .

I also hate the unprincipled Virgin, but I don't think kindness, tolerance, dedication and dedication should be despised.I just wanted to portray Henry as a kind person.